A mix inspired by a song xtine played for me
Current mood: breezy
Category: Music

I'm so happy April is here and all the glorious spring weather with it. So here's a mix just for April. Many have the same title but all are very different songs.

1. on April 2- Headlights

2. April skies- Jesus & Mary Chain

3. Le tempd de l'amour- April March

4. April in my heart- Count Basie (a woman is singing on this but I'm not sure who, sounds like Billie Holiday???)

5. April in Paris- Doris Day (oh how I LOVE Doris!)

6. April Fools- Arethra Franklin

7. Sweet Avenue - Jets to Brazil

8. April Fool's- Rufus Wainwright

9.Bloody April - River City Rebels

10. April Fools- Fabulous Disaster

11. April- Hentchmen

12. Avril au Portugal- Eartha Kitt

13. April in Portugal- Donny & The Royales

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I finally finished
Current mood: dorky

my latest mix. Well actually I finished this past weekend but i really like it so I thought I’d share. I made it for Jay but I don’t think he likes it much, or maybe he’s just not the mix kind of guy. So the idea was to come up with a mix with songs either about authors or poets or about books or poems. I ended up having to do some research which was fun. I wasted quite a lot of time on this but it was worth it.

Disc 1

1. Wrapped up in Books- Belle & Sebastian-  okay so this does not actually fit the criteria, but i thought it would be a good opening song.

2. Farrar, Strauss, & Girou (Sea of Tears)-Destroyer- This actually about publishers that publish and write some childrens books plus i love Destroyer.

3. Wild children- Van Morrisson- about Tennessee Williams Something Wild- I’m not a big Van Morrison fan but Jay is...

4. Bukowski- Modest Mouse- pretty obvious but damn do I love this song.

5. Venus in Furs- Velvet Underground- Venus in Furs by Leopold  Van Sacher-Massoch published in 1870. I think this is now on my to read list.

6.Charlotte Sometimes- The Cure- Charlotte Sometimes by Penelope Farmer

7.Crackle & Drag- Paul Westerberg- I had no idea he did anything after Dyslexic heart, I like this song it’s about Sylvia Plath.

8. Shadrach- Beastie Boys- How could I leave out the bible hehe

9.Lotus Eaters- Moloko-The odyssey by Homer. This ong is about 2 minutes longer than it should be and i’m still not convinced it has anything to do with the odyssey, but hey it works.

10. Condition Oakland- Jawbreaker- This is the song that started it all off. I just can’t even imagine a more perfect song to go with Jack Kerouac’s spoken word. This song rocks...

11. Holmes- The Grifter- The Hounds of Baskerville by Sir Arthor Conan Doyle

12. Our retired explorer (dines w/ Micheal Foucault in Paris)- The Weakerthans. great things that go great together Paris, Michael Foucault, and The Wekerthans.

Disc 2

1. Brush up your Shakespeare- Cole Porter,Harry Clark, and Edwin Clay from Kiss me Kate. This is a catchy silly little song

2. Killing an Arab- The Cure -The Stranger by Albert Camus, one of my favorite books of all time.

3. A song from under the floorboards- Magazine - Notes from the Underground by Dostoyevski

4. Spare Ass Annie- William S. Burroughs. He brings the funk!

5. A Good Man is Hard to Find- Tom Waits- A Good Man is Hard to Find by Flannery O’Connor

6.Take this Waltz- Leonard Cohen- The Waltz by Federico Garcia Lorca

7. Richard Cory- Simon & Garfunkel- based on the poen Richard Cory by Edward Arlington Robinson. I am now obsessed with this song.

8.Rollerskate Skinny- Old 97’s- references a line in the Catchet in the Rye- J.D. Salinger.

9. Cemetary Gates- The Smiths- He mentions Keats and W.B. Yeats that counts.

10. Sane Men Surround (dedicated to Graham Greene)- Up, Bustle, & Out

11. Painted Bird- Siouxie & The Banshees- Painted bird by Jerzyn Kosinski, apparently there is a controversy regarding plagiarism surrounding the book, they think he stole it.

12. Spanish Bombs- The Clash- referenced Federico Garcia Lorca and also this song is great, and oh yeah the Clash is one of the best bands ever!

So my next mix is going to be about art and artists. I have way to much time on my hands.

Currently listening : Staring at the Sea: The Singles By The Cure Release date: 25 October, 1990

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more I can’t help

Okay I'm really enjoying doing this and I'm having fun going through my library!

New movie:

1. Main Titles: Heard something say- Devendra Banheart

2. Current Events: Blush- Raveonettes, boys are checking out girls, girls are blushing, teachers are making small talk with each other, the bell rings, kids rushing to classes, etc...

3. New kid: Trees outside the academy- Thurston Moore, I'm lingering behind enjoying the sun, dreading going in, i see this kid he's new he looks interesting, a bit apprehensive

4.Home Life: Dark come soon -Tegan and Sara, getting home, Dad is drunk, Mom is outside selling herself for crack, I settle onto a chair in my brothers room, he throws me a game control and his pack of smokes

5. Glamour shots: Train- Sunny Day in Glasgow- not sure how this would fit because i haven't really listened to this band much, just downloaded not to long ago

6. Tae Kwon Doe- getting ready for gym self defense day- the new kid is in my class, we make eye contact, not the your hot eye contact, but perhaps just sort of knowing. With You- Stars of Track and field

7. Pefoming: Knives of Summertime- Sparklhorse, maybe it was my turn to go in front of the class with a partner? to demonstrate self defense? not sure

8. Family gathering: The cocktail party- The cure, hey sure my dad's a drunk, my mom a crack whore it sounds like everyday's a cocktail party, okay the sound quality on this is really bad and i'm not convinced it is the cure (it sorta sounds like a bad cover)

9. Getting your first job: Que reste t-il de nos amours- Charles Trenet, I get a job at a movie house but an old timey one like the one in highland, In and of course the boy works there we start a conversation he loves old movies and jazz, okay i'm quickly beginning to think my movie has no plot hehe

10. Running for class prez: Get up, Get into it, Get involved- James Brown okay this fit but it doesn't seem like my character would actually run for prez, so maybe it's just election day at school, this would fit definitely regardless.

11. Wildest Dreams: Oh Bondage, Up Yours!!! -Free Kitten, This could fit maybe me and the kid run awayjust to get away from all the bullshit, Or maybe I just run away by myself or dream of it

12.Happy Ending: My Boyfriends back-The Angels  (maybe he runs away and I dream that he took with me and then he comes back for me? Napolean Dynamite was better!!!

originl movie: Napolean Dynamite

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Yet another one

Okay here's another movie one, then i  will have to stop.

Opening: Stay away stars- The lucksmiths

Just an anonymous room: Broken Harp- Pj Harvey

Waking: Guilt by association- Louis xiv, hmm... usually i need a quiet waking this would have to be more of a alarm goes off and I jump up kind of waking, why do movies always have a wake up scene, I guess not ALWAYS.

Remember: Be there or be Tiananmen Square- (Lone)Wolf &Cub, my guess is I'm not remebering the best thing but not the worst either

They don't remember you: Sigur4- Sigur Ros, oh I think I'm sad they don't
remember me

Distorted memories:True Skool - coldcut hehe I don't know

Trying to heal: Bonsoir John, John- France Gall :)

Habit and routine: What's your angle- Andrew Bird hmmm...

I'm chasing this guy: Cryin won't help you- B.B. King , I think if I did make a movie this would be the chase song!

His wife: Rekindling - The Wedding present, she better be hot

Someone will always pay: Tahuti, Splendid Scribe- Impossible Shapes

What would you kill for: like an Aspen Leaf- Jane Weaver

Nobody's perfect: Lust- The Raveonettes

You don't know anything: Silas' knife- the appleseed cast

Do you remember me?: I fought the Angels- The Delgadoes

I'm no different: Non, je ne regrette rien - Edith Piaf, oh what a perfect ending

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I should be at work or at least doing something worthwhile
Current mood: amused

Okay so I had so much fun doing the stupid soundtrack of my life survey, I made up one similiar, but instead of some stupid drama, I actually took names of some chapters of good fucking movies. I only did 2 movies because I realized how much time I am wasting, oh well. The first one I changed the name of some of the chapters, the econd one I pretty much kept the same names maybe changed a bit to make them a little more ambiguous. Same principle goes, i opened my library put it on shuffle, and I'm only using one song per band/artist. Here goes:

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I couldn’t help it, However i won’t bore you w/ a bulletin
Current mood: amused

Fill this out about your SENIOR year of high school!

1. Who was your best friend?
Heather Seger and Peter Szelenbaum

2.What sports did you play?
none

3. What kind of car did you drive?
a 4 door grey cavalier, Daisy was her name

4. It's Friday night, where were you?
Either at work, out to Paradise w/ the guys, or at a bar with Heather

5. Were you a party animal?
What exactly is a party animal? I guess I went to alot of parties byut my senior year i was at bars more ( Heather was 22 and gave me a fake)

6. Were you considered a flirt?
oh yeah!

7. Were you in band, orchestra, or choir?
no, wait i might have been in choir but that might have been my junior year i don't remember

8. Were you a nerd?
nope

9. Did you get suspended/expelled?
no, detentions yes but never suspended or expelled

10. Could you sing the fight song?
Did Queen of Peace have a fight song?

11. Who were your favorite teachers?
Mr Donahue, Mrs. Haskins

12. Where did you sit during lunch?
at a table

13.What was your school's full name?
Queen of Peace High School, also known as queen of peace, get a piece All the catholic high schools had an alternative slutty moniker, I wonder who started them all.

14. School mascot?
We were the QoP packers, I'm still not exactly sure what the hell a packer is!

15. Did you go to Prom?
yes

16. If you could go back and do it over, would you?
Well I'm not the kinda girl who wants to relive the past for fear of fucking up the future (I've watched way to many episodes of Quantam Leap in my life). high School was fun, learning was fun, and really Queen of Peace taught me a lot about the world, different religions, tolerance, and helping people.

17. What do you remember most about graduation?
Taking off after and partyig with my friends in the woods

18. What was your fav class?
u.s. politics, and French

19. Where were you on senior skip day?
That was a great day I hung out with my boyfriend, we went to lil red school house and walked around the woods and then back to his house for a make out session

20. Did you have a job your senior year?
I had 3. I was a phone girl at Fasano's, I worked at the Gap (yes yes the gap), and I was a cashier at Builder's Square (I loved working there!)

21. Where did you go most often for lunch?
We didn't have off c ampus lunch, but we did have a pizza hut booth in our cafeteria.

22. Have you gained weight since then?
omg! I'm such a porker now!

23. What did you do after graduation?
Cried after the heartbreaking break up with my man, worked my ass of all summer, fucked this 28 year old guy (how sick is that?), then went to Depaul

24. When did you graduate?
1995

25. Who was your Senior prom date?
Scott Boggs, my first real heart break. He was a really great guy and I hope that he is ok and happy.

26. Are you going to your 10 year reunion?
My 10 year was in 2005 and I did not go, I found out about it after the fact.

27. Who was your home room teacher?
ours was just called study period ITHINK . I can't remeber her name but I swear we saw her in Door county when we went this Labor day.

28. What was your favorite thing to eat at lunch?
cheese fries

29. Who was your boy/girlfriend
Nathan Prince and Scott boggs

30. What was your favorite memory your senior year?
Probably the time my parents left me alone when they went out of town I was dating jon Palacios and he, pete, and Scott came over. We all got super runk jhn passed out, pete ended up throwing up so hard in my bathroom that i swear wild animals were fighting it out in there and I ended upstairs with scott talking about poetry, christianity, and art. I think that was the night I fell for him. Maybe it was just the vodka who knows. I think that was also the night i saw pete's testicles lol! Oh my!

31. Did you like how you looked in your senior pictures?
Yea, I'd lost my weight by then, so I looked fairly decent. except for that bad spiked hair...

Currently listening : Substance By Joy Division Release date: 25 October, 1990

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the xplo, motherwell, and a poser
Current mood: nervous

The xplo's tonight, tonight! I'm supposed to hang at three, and i've nothing to hang. I tried to get out of it a couple of weeks ago but Jess seemed stressed out about the show and I let my guilt takeover and decided that I could just pull something together. I'll just  paint as Robert Motherwell, just slap some black paint on a white surface call it abstract expressionism and be done. WRONG how terribly wrong I was, it has not been easy to slap some paint on a canvas and call it a la Motherwell. In fact it has been incredibly hard, every time I apply paint to canvas it seems sophomoric, over thought, and downright clumsy. The paint I'm using takes at least 3 hours to dry before I can put on another coat, I didn't know that, I kept trying to paint over and low and behold the paint was actually lifting off of the canvas. I finally read the directions and discovered the drying time. I had to leave the studio last night with a wet streaky canvas that looks nothing like a Motherwell or anything remotely resembling an abstract expressionist painting.

This morning as I searched through image archives of Motherwell's painting I realized something. His painting are incredibly sparse, completly focused on composition, and most importantly extremely confident. Confidence is what I lack the most. I can balance a composition, sparseness, well it isn't exactly an area I've mastered but I am competant enough. But confidence with my brush strokes, with color choice, with just the thought of where i am headed,That is something that just seems to have vacated the premises.

So now what? Am i magically going to become confident this morning upon entering the studio, will this self realization catapault me into the confidence realm? No, I have been painting for many years now and I have never been confident about it. I could pull out of the xplo, but that would be awefully shitty. I could just hang an old painting and admit that I was to much of a amateur to  come close to a Motherwell or anything that was good enough to be in the same realm. I could just grab a box fan, get my ass back in the studio, paint like a banshee, and hope it will be dry enough to hang. The thing about me is although I may lack confidence, have low self esteem, be heavily ladened with self loathing and doubt,  I am not a quitter. Its probably the reason that I continue  to work with autistic children and stay in Art shows that I know I have no time for, I can't give up, I don't know if it's part of a sort of rebelliousness (is that a word?), but if someone tells me no, or there seems to be some sort of roadblock I just try to push past. So wish me luck, I'm off to the studio, it might suck, and it might not be dry for the xplo but I've got to a least give it a try.

Currently listening : I Can Hear the Heart Beating as One By Yo La Tengo Release date: 22 April, 1997

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What I really learned

Having sucked all the negative thoughts up I went to my class and well it wasn't like I thought it was going to be at all Not everyone was dressed in black, my class was a nice range of people. There was a guy there that seemed to be an old goth kid turned pseudo hipster but even though he was in block he was quite nice, Then there was another guy who was sort of that nerdy hipster type but not in that pretending way he seemed geniune some how Then there were sbout 5 or 6 middle aged woman, who all seemd very eager to learn and open to the whole experience. I'm glad I went I think I've beeen living in my shell for to long. I used to look forward top putting myself in new situations, meeting new people, learning new things, I think in my aging process i have somehow picked up the sort of cynical distrusting  and hyper critical nature. So i think throwing mysself into this is not only good for my french but for my character. Maybe this is one of those character building eperiences my dad always spoke of, then again maybe not. Anyway so it turns out that french pronunciation is pretty good, and that  everyone in the class are all in the same boat. Its fun to have homework again.I did not think i'd ever say that but there it is, so wish me bonne chance! I'm going to try my damnedest!

Currently watching : Water Release date: 29 August, 2006

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I need to learn not to prematurely judge
Current mood: silly

So I started my french class at the Alliance Francaise on weds and here is what i wrote as i was waiting for my class to start. I can have such a pity party when I want.

Of course I'm sweating like a pig, all that alking, wondering, anxiety, nerves. Starting a class? I'm not so sure about this. French is much more intimidating in Chicago than it was in Paris. It seems more embarassing here, more private, more serious. Of course in Paris, everyone speaks french, its thee language, but here when you encounter the people who are speaking it, its seems as if you are some sort of intruder to their private little society, an intruder who inevitably fucks it up, who says bonjour when it should be bonsoir, an intruder who a butt of their private little joke. Speaking in Paris was freeing, it seemed as if everyone was so charmed by the attempt, and they were so open to you as the whole of the city itself.  I should find the teacher but i am afraid to move, to draw to much attention to myself. I have no idea wher my class is. I have half a mind to sit here, write in my little notepad, read my little Colette book, and pretend that I am absorbed in the french culture, but i'm really nervous as hell. I paid the $295  I should get something out of it I suppose. I havea cough and phlegm seems to be congregating at theback of my throat, and it needs to be cleared often. This always happens when I least want to be noticed, let alone noticed as the girl with all the phlegm. Everyone here is dressed in black they seemed to have forgotten to tell me their little euro trash dress code, me I'm in yellow and plaid. I will forever be out of place. Here they are the exact image of what they expect a parisian to look like, me an outsider, and as usual the fattest girl in the room.

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paris Fourth Day
Category: Travel and Places

Every morning Jay had been walking across the street to the boulangerie to get croissants and pain au chocolat. Yum. what a good way to start the morning, however this morning it was closed. Jay found another one a block away it wasn't as good but still better than any croissant i've had in the states. I think it was good for him to go every morning he sort of got used to the system and was able to practice some french. Thismorning we were off to the Luxembourg gardens. It was built in the 17th century by Marie de Medeciand it was modeled after the Palazzo Pitti in Florence. It was supposed to be her little getaway from life at the Louvre. I wish my apartment was as big as one room in her little getaway.

It was really beautiful, i might have said this in other blogs but I was really impressed by how much art there was EVERYWHERE in Paris. These Gardens were no exception. I thought it really blended Classical works and modern works really well. I especially liked these.

We meandered through the park for a while. It's really big apparently 25 hectacres, i have no fucking clue what that is exactly. We stopped at this little cafe right in the gardens. We got some good sandwiches, mine was just bread and cheese but it was the best cheese sandwich i've ever had. People from all over were snacking and eating lunch. We heard italian, german, spanish, english and of course french. I have to wonder when do the french work. Every park, fountain, public square, cafe or bench seemed to be filled with the french all the time. It is France so I guess the majority would be french but i swear i saw more parisienne's relaxing and hanging out then working. Ah joie de vive!Anyway Jay ordered a ham sandwich with a limonade with a very puzzling name, we were trying to figure out how to pronounce and we just kept coming back to shit.

I wonder if this is where Daily got the ideas for the Leg statues... I liked them so much better at the Luxembourg. In Grant Park they are in such a sparse area that they seem really out of place, they should be nestled deeper in the park.

More Sculptures we happened upon..

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