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Thursday, September 11, 2008
I’m sick of spending these lonely nights, training myself not to care.
Some things can be changed, some cannot. It just can't be helped... either way. The gym is a lie (kind of like the cake). Your eyes are a lie (kind of like your mouth). And although the days are numbered, and the nights will go on forever... the morning is the only time that matters. Thoughts are scattered across the internet, data that somehow means something, like words spoken from a dying man... the only time you really listen. The times call for warm hugs, and the closing of mouths. At the end of the day the bottle makes the final call. Warm breath in the cold night air draws images of nonsense, unless you know how to read them. The night is still young, but my body is too old. These streets send a shutter of pain with each step, yelling at me, telling me to stay. Is it worth overcoming adversity? Is it worth the screams and pain? Who knows? I will never find out.
Rambling nonsense once again. But that's all I understand. No jokes, no gayness, but gather what you will. I cannot think of anyone, they all seem so far away.
I still can't sleep... so... I am killing time until other people wake up.
As for an update... won free 5th row Motley Crue tickets on Wednesday. Quite possibly the craziest concert i've been to. Great fucking time.
Saw Nine Inch Nails Friday night. Amazing performance/setlist. Wish I would have gotten tickets for some of the other shows. Another great time... besides the blisters on my feet.
Now enjoy the survey I stole from Becca.
1) Random girl comes up to you and says "who the hell are you?" what do you say back? "Oh fuck.... You're sober, arn't you?"
2) What's the last thing you put in your mouth? Heh...heh.... water.
3) What does your last incoming text message say? Dude... my phone is over there.
4) The last song you listened to? Siamese Twins-The Cure
5) Are you in love? Why?
Ahahahaha.
6) Where is your girlfriend/boyfriend right now? I think he had a show in Michigan last night?
7) What did you do yesterday? Tried to sleep... could not, so did some running around, fucked off all day... probably the same thing as today.
8) Who was the last person that helped you stop crying?
Trent Reznor... he held me gently in his arms... whispering sweet nothings.
9) What teacher have you hated most and why? None really... I just kind of ignored them.
12) What do you really think happened to Steve on Blues Clues? He is gay and does crack.... parents don't like that. I can't understand why.
14) Who is your most religious friend?
Don't know, don't care.
15) Who do you trust with your life? No one. I don't think anyone would save me over anyone/anything else.
16) If you could change your name to anything what would it be?
What's in a name?
17) What would you say if someone told you they loved you? Ummm... be creeped out, depending on the person.
18) What do you hate about your school? School is for poor people.
20) If you married the last person you said "I love you" to who would it be? Trent Reznor.
21) Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love? Well, you know, he travels quit a bit... and I would have to keep an eye on him, so yes... I think I would.
22) Have you ever talked on the phone while in the shower? Yes, ma'am
25) Are you afraid of falling in love? No such thing
26) Is there someone that popped in your mind after that question? Besides Trent?
35) What is your middle name? Perry
36) Honestly, what's on your mind right now? I really should sleep, and what the fuck am I going to do today.
37) If you could go back in time and change something, what would it be?
Meh, I wouldn't change anything. You never know how things may end up because of your choices.
38) Shoe size? 13
39) What did you wear today? I have an old Korn shirt on... and Family Guy pajama pants.
No wonder women flock to me.
40) Righty or Lefty? Righty... mostly
41) Can you make a dollar in change right now? A lot more than that
43) Favorite jeans? Fuck jeans
44) Favorite stuffed animal? My cowboy bear... which I never realized was incredibly fucked up and gay... until right now.
45) Favorite juice? Mango
46) Have you had the chicken pox? That or herpes.
47) Have you had a sore throat? Well... I do suck a lot of dick.
48) Ever had plastic surgery? Can't you tell? I mean, I look fucking good.
49) Who knows you the best? Trent
50) Do you wear contact lenses or glasses? Depends on if I feel like paying for contacts.
52) Ever been to Mexico? No, sir
53) Did you buy something yesterday? Beer... big shock there.
54) Did you get sick today? WTF? No.
55) Did you miss anyone today?
Besides Trent? A little, yeah.
56) Did you get in a fight with someone today?
No... I didn't see any dape rapists yesterday... Unless you count the guy at the gas station with the fohawk, "pimped" out Honda and white emo belt, who was being all loud about how drunk he was going to get.
I fucking hate the world.
58) Last person to lay in your bed? My dog.
59) Last person to see you cry? Trent... how many times do I have to answer this?
60) Who/what made you cry?
Chuck Norris.
62) What are your plans for the weekend? This weekend is over... 3 day weekend next week though... and not shit to do.
63) Who do you think is going to repost this after you? Trent... he always reads my blogs and copies them. He's so silly.
64) Are you happy right now? I'm not sure what I am.
66) Are you hungry? I'm always hungry.
67) Are you a forgiving person? Not at all
68) Would you ever share a girl/boyfriend with your best friend? I would share Trent with a few people... maybe.
69) Have you lost a friend recently? Of course. That's what I'm best at.
70) Are you talking to someone while doing this? Yessum
72) What are you about to do right now? Leave.
73) What was the most recent gift you've gotten?
A t-shirt.
74) What concert are you planning to see next? Nothing that I have tickets for yet.
What the hell did you think this was going to be about?
1. What is your best friends name? Jeremy
2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now? Dark red... thong... of course.
3. What are you listening to right now? Smashing Pumpkins
4. Whats your favorite number? 13
5. What was the last thing you ate? Peanut butter, chocolate cookie, amazingness thing.
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? Black... like my soul.
Or purple... probably purple.
7. How is the weather right now? Fan-fucking-tastic
8. Who was the last person you talked 2 on the phone? Nicole?
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Hair, eyes, or ass.
Yeah, I went there.
10. Do you have a significant other? No, sir.
11. Favorite TV show? At the moment? Lost
12. Siblings? Nein
13. Height? 6'3
That is a lot of sexy.
14. Hair color? Dark brown
15. Eye Color? A lovely shade of shit
16. Do you wear contacts? Not at the moment
17. Favorite Holiday? Christmas
18. Month? November or December
19. Have you ever cried for no reason? I don't believe so?
20. What was the last movie you watched? Clueless.
I don't care what you say... Clueless fucking rocks.
21. Favorite Day of the Year? A few
22. Are you too shy to ask someone out? It takes me awhile. I am a pimp though.... alright, that's a lie.
23. Can you do a headstand (not using the wall)? Too much fat.
24. Hugs or Kisses? Depends on the meaning behind them
25. Chocolate or Vanilla? Oh noes... I enjoy both... quite a bit.
26. Do you want your friends to respond to this? If they are as bored as I am.
27. Who is most likely to respond? Who cares?
28. Who is least likely to respond? Trent Reznor
29. What books are you reading? The Stand
30. Piercings? No ma'am.
Except my weiner.
31. Favorite movies? Lots, but probably American Beauty... just because it is on right now.
32. Favorite football Team? The team that has those player in those tight pants
33. what were u doing before this? At the park. "watching the weather change"
34. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? Lots of butter and salt
37. Dogs or cats? Dogs Dogs Dogs
39. Been caught doing something you weren't supposed to do? Ha, oh yes.
40. Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex? Yessum.
41. Have you ever loved someone? I believe so, yes.
42. Who would you like to see right now? I am feeling pretty anti-social... but there are a couple who could drag me out.
43. Are you still friends with people from kindergarten? Only one, actually.
And he is dead sexy.
44. Have you ever fired a gun? Oh yes.
45. Do you like to travel by plane? I actually think it's fun.
46. Right-handed or Left-handed? Depends on what I am doing... ahem.
47. How many pillows do you sleep with? Two
48. Are you missing someone? Jonathan Taylor Thomas... what the fuck ever happened to that kid?
49. Do you have a Tattoo? No, sir. I am going to get a tattoo on my ass that says "property of ____" but I don't know who would want their name on my ass.
50. Anybody on myspace that you'd go on a date with? Trent Fucking Reznor.
I need to turn into a black woman first though. It's going to be a lot of work... but totally worth it. He's mine ;).
I just got done watching "Lars and the Real Girl". Fantastic movie, but now I am stuck here unable to sleep still.
I'm not sure why. I think it is because I have realized that all the good days are behind me. I finally feel old. I've had great relationships, been arrested, tried numerous amounts of mind altering substances, taken vacations, watched the sun rise, watched the sun set, walked around at 3 in the morning, played an instrument, gone to many concerts, raped a chicken*. There is nothing left. I feel stuck, like there should be something else. Of course, having no goal in life is no help. I want to drive somewhere, and stay. I want to walk the world. I want to get out of here.
I want to get the fuck away from you.
Maybe I am going through a mid-life crisis (can any of you really see me living past 40?). There needs to be something new. Maybe I will buy a new car, or marry someone half my age (that doesn't really work here).
Lots of shit has changed these passed few years.
I think I lost my "dark lord" title (but I always will be at heart).
I think the world is going downhill.
I know the government watches.
I know there is not enough love.
I know I am rambling.
I know how far the rabbit hole goes, Miss Alice.
I know there is a spider on my desk.
I know I am not going to kill it.
I know you don't know me.
I know no one has read this far.
Sorry for the ramble, I think I have ran out of things to write. But I ran out of things for you to read about 2 sentences in.
Ah well, fuck it... lets have fun.
*I never actually raped a chicken... though it is on my to do list.
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