Uncle Rick
Current mood: depressed

As I"ve gone through the day, I've had a  tough time keeping my emotions in check.  I've found  myself being upset, sad, angry, lonely, and sympathetic.   Today was the funeral and final resting of my uncle Rick.  I miss him greatly. I am sad and regretful that I could not have been at the funeral, but other obligations kept me from atteneding. I thank all my family for the love they have sent, and I send my love to Rick!  I love you, and all you have done for me. 

 I remember the times you gave me scooter rides in the summer.  I remember the times you took me camping.  I remember the time you were on the cover of flight magazine. I remember the times you took me to Portlaand.  I remember watching the house and your cat when you were gone on vactaion.  Most of all I remember how much you loved me and my family.  Thank you Rick

I love you.  Sleep well.  

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Stuff
Current mood: cheerful

Well, it is official.  I finnal got a new computer.  I did it but not without the help of Tony.  Thanx Tony.  So now I might actually check my myspace on a somewhat regular basis. so since I'm here...I'll give you a little update. 

Everything has been going quite well.  I am very busy with rehersals for my upcoming play......Smash Gordan.  It is with Prarie Dog Productions, and I am having an absolute riot!  I play Magenta the evil queen from Mars.  I love it.

I have also been quite anti social lately.   We can contribute that to my hot tub.  There is nothing better than sitting in it while it is snowing outside.  Oh and the champane helps.

So  that is about it.  Yes, I am alive and I will be more social soon.  I love you all!

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Are you fine?
Current mood: frustrated
Category: Life

Often times people greet by saying "Hi, how are you?"  The common response is "I'm fine."  Sometimes you are fine, and in that case, it's OK.  Sometimes I wish people would actually say how they rally feel. 

At the gym today someone asked me "How are you?"  They looked really sincere when they asked me.  Like they really wanted to know.  I smugly answered. " I"m fine."  I then proceeded to my treadmill.  where I began to think.  How am I today?  I'm not fine.  I'm angry.  I'm sad.  I'm frustrated.  I'm confused.  I'm hurt.  I'm lonely.  At the gym today I felt as if I couldn't  run fast enough, hard enough, long enough.  I felt I couldn't do enough to get my frustrations and emotions out.  It feels strange, for the past three weeks I have felt almost zombie like.  I would have some emotion, but not enough to cry.  Well, this week it hit me.  I can't keep my emotions in. I feel like a fountain over flowing with every emotion imaginable. Maybe that's  because I have finally woken up to the reality of things happening in my life.  

 Today- I'm not fine.  I wanted to get my feelings out, and I hope you will do the same.  When you are approached with the question " How are you?"  How will you answer?  Will you answer with the mundane "fine"? Or will you answer with something a bit more true.

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Wonderfulness
Category: Friends

My life has made such a wonderful turn for the better these last couple of months!  I had a great thanksgiving with my family in Blackfoot!  My wonderful boyfriend Josh came, and met my parents.  They all seemed to have a great time!  My dad even liked Josh!  I'm just really thankful that I have such wonderful people around me!  So thanks to all my friends for helping me through all the hard times!   I Love you all! 

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grrrrr
Current mood: irritated

I pick myself up- dust myself off- I think I'll be alright.  I just didn't want to go through this again. 

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Sunny Mexico!

Hello everyone.  I am in sunny mexico-----and its FABULOUS!!!!!  I could live here.   The weather is so perfect, the people are awesome,  and the booze-fantastic!   I will be home sunday night!  I might be at industria-  well see hope drunk I get on the plane.  Miss you all!

                                     -Debbie

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