feeling sick and yucky
Current mood: listless

today was ok. k and i played in the rain alot. it was cold at first but then it felt nice. she loved jumping in the puddles and all. i sat in the lane and watched. i must have sat in mud cause it looked like i craped. oh well. i love the rain.

tonight i feel like shit. dont know. i feel hung over but have not been drinking. i just feel tired and feel like throwing up. no im not preg. goto dr ont the 9 to get depo. i just have not been sick for a long time. oh well about to go to sleep

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4

well we did not do anything for the 4. thats ok cause we have alot planned for the summer. i did clean alot today and took a long nap with k. were going to get pizza with a guy we worked with at cvs. i worked with him over 5 years then he had to retire cause his wife has als. they are such great people. its really sad. i cant wait to see him. i have not seen him since before l was one. i wanted to goto new hope for crystals bday but we are low on money. thats the only part that sucks about not working. oh well. spending time with k is better then anything

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sesame place
Current mood: blessed

sesame place was so much fun. im so glad i took k. i think i had as much fun as her. we went in the water most of the day. we saw 3 shows and got her pic with alot of the "people" it was great. i spent to much money but got her some gifts for her bday. i have tickets for one more time to go. ill take her in aug. i think thats the most fun ive had in a long time. yea im a dork. i did not get sunburn either. well a small spot that i could not reach. every other time i went id get so burned. ive been taking my neice since she was 6 months old. shes now 5. this is the first year i did not take her but its a fun thing to do with just k.

today i went to my moms for dinner. she made pork chops and apple sauce with home made mac and cheese. yum. it was an ok day. im beat now and want to go to sleep soon but i dont think that will happen cause k took a nap on the way home.

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need sleep

this sucks. i cant sleep and i have a long day in the am. i cant wait to go to sesame place. ive told you i was a dork. but i like to have fun. theres so much i want to do this summer. i think were going to my anut kims weds to go swimming.

got k sand for her sand box. its purple sand. at first i thought it was cool but now i have to sweep sand everynight out of the kitchen. its all over the pourch and what a mess. i thought reg sand was bas. but nothing like this. at least shes in it all the time.

im reading a great book. i just started it but its good already. called angels rest. not about god but good. i like books that take place in the 40s and such.

went to play ground few days ago. it was raining. i had so much with k. the slides were so fast.

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good day

yea i put new pics up. ive been trying to do that forever!! in the am going to sesame place. cant wait. just me and k. it will be fun. ks birthday is july 12. were taking k to land of make believe. her party is the 19 at chuck e cheese. we want des and them to go. thats why its the 19. then were going to my uncle bobs party after. cant wait

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over weight

its hot and raining but i cant play in the rain cause its thundering. oh well maybe next time. so i weighed myself. i lost 2lbs but im still not happy. i hate being over weight. i gained weight from not working. i have been walking but not like i did at cvs. that place was crazy. so paul has this step thing and ab master that ive been working on. i vow to myself to be skinny again. plus i have not been drinking like i did. we shall see what happens

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philly zoo
Current mood: animated

went to the zoo on 6-14. i had a ball. k was so cute. it was hot but not crazy hot. i took alot of pics. i could watch the river otters all day. theu are so cute and have so much fun. they were playing with a tire. i think thats my fav. animal. i never could pick one before but they are great. sadly they did not have a stuffed animal of them. oh well. we spent enough. k got a lion one and monkey. she said her fav was the monkey. i thought she would be shy around matt and krissy since its been so long since we saw them but she wanted tomake sure krissy was with us the whole time. thats good cause krissy is her god mother. i  took k on the train. she was not to into it cause when it started she fell back. oh well. it was such a good day. i love being a mommy cause i can do little kid things and noone looks at ya like your crazy

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hopewell and neshanic nj

went to hopewell to visit gmas grave. k and i walked around the whole thing. there were a few little kids there. i cant even think of my life without k now, those poor families. i really think that if i lost  her i would die.

then went past my old house at 446 longhill rd neshanic. boy they put a huge house up there. i really miss living up there but not with my rents.i miss being in the woods. nothing has really changed up there. i miss the brook that i spent alot of time at. its just so prtty there. then we weny to woodfern school. thats where i went to grade school. we played on the play ground for 2 hours. it was hot and yucky but we had a good time. then we went to ritas, i love the blue berry ices. yum!! today we slept alot cause k was up alot lastnight. she wanted a drink then she wanted her baby. went back to sleep and then she wanted another drink then she had buggies. so it was up and down all night. she was also ichy and hot. had to turn on her ac. im still tried.

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water gap

had to take my mom to the doctors in water gap. seeing the water gap made me miss my dad alot. every year we would hike up the water gap. it was so much fun. one year there was a fire and it went right across our trail. we had to hike all the way around and then down. it took forever but was alot of fun. my dad did alot of cool things with me. it sucks that i have not seen him in along time but i cant go to al.

on the way home i almost fell asleep driving. ive never done that before. i was not on any meds either. it was scary and needless to say i almost peed myself. but did not thankgod. i came home and took nap with k for 2 hours then went back to sleep at 8p and did not get up til 10 am. i dont remember being that tired since high school.

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LAST NIGHTS DREAM

I HAD A DREAM LASTNIGHT ABOUT THE WAR. I WAS OUTSIDE IN A STRANGE TOWN TRYING TO HELP AN OLD LADY I KNOW. SHE HAD HER EYE WORKED ON. I LOOKED UP AND SAW A BIG BALL THING IN THE SKY. I RAN TO A CHURCH. I WAS SO UPET AND CRYING CAUSE I KNEW IT WAS A BOMB AND THAT WE SENT IT OFF. I THOUGHT THE END OF THE WORLD WAS HERE. I RAN IN AND EVERYONE WAS SO HAPPY. YET THEY WERE BLOWING INTO SOMETHING TO SEE HOW LONG THEY HAD FROM THE TOXIC. YET THEY STILL WANTED TO GO OUTSIDE TO GO SWIMMING. ME NO I WANTED TO HIDE BUT NEEDED TO PEE AND THE BATHROOM WAS OUTSIDE!!! WHEN I GET UPSET IN DREAMS I ALWAYS NEED TO PEE. WHY? I DONT KNOW. ANYWAYS THE DREAM MADE ME WAKE UP TO PEE ANA IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT ALL DAY. I THOUGHT THAT IF I WROTE ABOUT IT ID FEEL BETTER

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