I have not done this sort of thing in a long time
Category: Sports

Couple of things..... I hate Rats and moths and the people that kill them. The rat guy fell through my ceiling and now we have moths and they wont kill them for free.....

Secondly, I am excited for this Sundays game. I am really tired of the negativity in the air here in San Diego. I realize that it was not a good weekend for San diego sports... however, The Chargers are still talented and are our home team, who needs our support esspecially at a time when they are loosing. Are you a real fan? Do you support your team after 2 striaght losses? I do! Go Chargers!!!

Thirdly, do you think that they created myspace solely as a means of distraction from homework? Maybe Tom had homework to do one day and did not want to do it so instead he created myspace. I think that is how it happened. Because that is what it is good for.

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Summer!
Current mood: happy
Category: School, College, Greek

Whose excited???? On days like today i can't help but anticipate being out of school (well for 3 weeks anyway), riding my bike, going to the beach, being tan, river floats, padre games, 4th of July, sleeping with my window open, swimming in my pool, and all the other wonderful things that go along with summer. I can't wait!

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It was the best of times.. it was the worst of times....
Current mood: sad
Category: Life

Life is so funny. I often think that. It is so funny to me how the best people that I know under go the worst kind of trauma and heartache and obsticles. One might think that because of this God does not exists, or that he is unfair and that he is not as loving as we might hope or even get mad at him. Then I thought to myself, maybe it is a different causal relationship. Maybe these great people in my life and great people in the world that undergo such hard things are great because of the trauma that they endure. It makes them stronger more faithful and more willing to give because they feel more sympathy. When I went to Haiti, there were people living there that had a life that i could never even imagine in my worst nightmares. But thier faith and joy were so amazing to witness. My sister who has just endured so much heart ache that I hope she never has to go through again, is the most faithful and inspiring person I know. My dear friend Mandy who gets crap handed to her more often than needs to be is one of the most giving and accepting people that I know. I know that God does not plan these events in peoples lives but I do know that he is there and that he uses them to make us stronger in an imperfect world.

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Dia de Gracia
Current mood: hungry
Category: Life

I just love thanksgiving so much. What a wonderful thing to have a holiday devoted to giving thanks. I think that most people would agree how truley blessed we all are. I can't believe that I live in southern Ca. I was born here. Proably one of the bests places to live.. I am healthy. I have money in my bank account, not alot but alot more than people in other nations. Infact by the worlds standards i am proably in the top 10% richest people in the world. I have a great house and a huge bed and sheets... I love my sheets!! There are kids in the world that dont even have a bed and I have a huge one with super comfy sheets and 4 pillows. Anyway my family and friends of course are great. None of them beat me or harras me. Infact they are encouraging and loving. I have every opportunity in the world to do whatever I want. I have more opportunity than I even know what to do with. Point being, I have so much to be thankful for, I could go on and on. But I also think that while I have so much much is expected of me and I think all of us who have alot. That is all I have to say. Eat turkey and pie!!!

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Someone is trying to be me!! I am an OG man!!
Current mood: pissed off

I hate people!!! Not all just some. I freakin' got my purse stolen and now they have stolen my identity. What the heck? Dont they know there is only one Courtney Means. I am freakin orginal! No one else can even come close to living up to the name, social security number, drivers license, and check book. They try to open creadit cards, sign my name, use my license!! I wonder if they are under 21 and are prancing around using it as a fake ID?? Stupid!!! I am getting these freakin checks in the mail from collectors saying I spent $200 at Ross Dress for Less. Now listen... If I would have spent $200 at Ross Dress for less you would have heard all about it. There clothes are so cheap there that I would have talked about all the great deals I got on a new pair of boots some new jeans for fall, some new sweaters, all at bargin prices... you know? So no, Mr. Collector, I did not write that check, some stupid person with no life of their own stole my check book and wrote the check and really wants to be me!!!!!! That is all.... I dont like dishonest people. GET A LIFE!! and  quit trying to steal mine!!!!!!

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The world as we know it
Current mood: hopeful

Well... here is the thing.. first off it has been so long since I have posted a blog. Anyway, I was thinking today about conservatist and liberalist. Not going to get political, but basically one likes change and the other does not. I personally have found that I am a conservatist. In my life right now I am back to the some place I wanted to get out of soo bad. Everyone wants to get out of college move away from their parents and get out of the job that is going no where. I was almost there, graduated had a job that was going somewhere and almost ready to move out. And what did I do I moved right back to square 1. Now is it b/c I am scared of change, or it b/c change got me know where near where I wanted to be, and I was happier or more content in my previous life. I would argue the latter. I feel like the life outside of this one is not what I wanted it to be so I am going back to square 1 and trying again. Being at square 1 again is funny, especially being in college again feeling as though you have a one up on everyone. It is not what I excepted to feel. Anyway that is all hopefully the next square that I arrive at will be what is in God will not my own.

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My mom is super funny
Current mood: anxious

As a prelude to my story I have to let you know that my mom is a big San Diego Charger fan. So my mom decided to paint our family room yellow. It looks great! But the funny thing is is that we have blue couches. So your thinking to yourself oh blue couches yellow walls.... haha not that funny. But what is funnier is that our living room is blue and we have yellow couches. Haha that is sort of funny. But as I was telling one of my friends this I was sitting in our guest room and I looked around and the walls are blue and the conforter is yellow with yellow assersories. And with pictures of chargers on the walls. After I explained all this my friend said to me... "what does your mom walk around in charger pajamas..." and I said "well actually she sure does,". And then I started thinking the only reason that my mom even painted our family room yellow is b/c we are getting new shutters in the family room so that when we watch the charger games there is no glare on the TV. Kinda funny don't you think?

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Are you happy?
Current mood: rushed

Whoa!! I have not posted a blog in a while. Well lets talk about being happy. Most peoples goal in life is to be happy. Is that ever a state that we are at for very long. No. I am never happy for more than a day or an hour or even a moment. Something always comes along to mess it up. So then I say my goal is to be content. Will that ever really happen. Will I ever be truely content. I think that you can be content to a certain degree... but us being imperfect people in an imperfect would are always wanting more needing something else and will never be content untill heaven. I would even go as far to say that I think that uncontentment is what leads to greater things. I am uncontent with starvationin africa. So I do something bout it. (Not that I have this is just an example). I am uncontent with my relationship with my mom/sister/ best friend. So i do things to change it to make it better. I am uncontent with my complaining.. so I work on it. I am uncontent with my job. So I find a new one. None of these things will ever make me truley content but they can enrich my life an make it better. I will never be truely content but I will always be trying. So that is what I have to say.

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My choice of music
Current mood: bored

Well lets talk about country music. I just want to say that to all of you who don't like country music and are so opposed to it, you are truley missing something great. There are so many great songs on country radio that everyone can really relate to. All I have to say is try it on for size. You may like it. I am a fan. Also I hate it when people say, oh I like the old stuff. That is so trendy and lame. Not that the old stuff isn't good. It just bugs me when people say that. So in conclusion I like country music and you should too!

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The day after...
Current mood: contemplative

Today is the day after my birthday. I had a very good birthday. I had the day off, I went line dancing. really nothing could have been better. I was thinking back on my year and what has happened. This is the first year of my life that I have been out of college. It is so weird not being in the confines of an institution and thinking so constantly about what what the future will hold. I have come to learn the future is right hear and to always act like that. I think in the past year I have changed alot. I used to be the type of person who is set on all kinds of rules. "Don't do this don't do that" was how I always have thought. I had those thoughts about all kinds of different things. My relationship with God was that way. I thought that if I did this and that and didn't do this or that, than God and christians would love me more. That is not true God loves me unconditionally... granted I also know I can't take advantage of his grace, but I need to want to act obiedeant b/c I love HIM and not to earn his love. I also thought that if I follwed strict rules of excercising and eating than that would make me happy and that people would like me. Come to find out that did not make me happy and it made me crazy and I have learned  to love myslef because I am worth loving no matter what. I have also been the type of person that always has one job. I worked at Islands for 5.5 years. This year I had 6 jobs. Silly I know. I just was sick of staying with something just to stay with it and I wanted to do some thing that I actually liked doing. Not that renting cars s my dream. But I love working with different people and the people I work with and working hard. This is my year in review. I have learned that rules and strictness should not control me I need to control them and figure out what God and I both want. Thats all.

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