yeah well...hmm
Current mood: bored

Hmmmmm......yeah so its been awhile since i posted anything wether it be good or fucking pointless anyway alot has been happening i guess  the shit with darrell is finally over we get to keep the house so i wont be worrying about that stuff and things have seemed to even out between me and darrell mom and john.....but my grandparents kinda refuse to let it go.....mamaw went and burned everything darrell's mother had ever given her and papaw just leaves the house when he comes around i'll admit what he did was very hurtful and just basically bullshit....with the drinking and the backstabbing and just pretty much killing everything he was near but why hold  a grudge?? well why hold a big one im only "trying" to get along with him to make it easier for john.......

and as for me.....i dont honestly know anymore....my moods are so unpredictable lately (im in a good one now) but nothing has come to fuck it up yet and even if nothing does ill probably slip into that fucking depressed mood again and its just.....aggravating and its really starting to take a toll on me oh well im sure it'll even out i hope i just dont want to end up the way i was last year staying home not going out with friends just becoming reclusive....i dont want to be that person again...i hated it bleh... i think i put to much thought on it but im starting to think that its no adhd i have =/ oh well  other then that shit things have been pretty good i suppose im opening up more and becoming more social at work so i have a few good friends there now and of course the friends ive always had    

but i guess to sum it up im actually happy with things right now i dont wish them to be better im quite content (minus my mood swings)  hmmm what else is there to talk about classes are ok i seem to enjoy psychology most (though its 3 damn hours ) but the teachers cool =3  but there is this girl in there i dont know how in the hell she made it out of highschool ....or middle school for that matter o.e;; i dont think shes aware of the fact that when we laugh we are laughing at her retarded comments on the lesson  but yeah lol  and strangely enough im enjoying pre-algerbra but thats just cause its easy going and the teacher is pretty nice she actualy helps in anyway she can so yeah its pretty laid back too  

hmmm the animals are doing good especially ruby or "maxine" as sara calls her shes doing much better then when we first got her so im happy for that i figured it would take alot longer for her to warm up but shes doing just fine she wanders around outside we have officially declared her papaws dog since she follows him everywhere its rather cute now if we can only fix the constant licking >.<;;; begeal spit seems to be very nasty and sticky lol and of course the puppy is as hyper as ever xD but you gotta love her  anyway i guess thats it  well yeah if you all read this boring thing then thanks if not ehh

Brittany <3 

Currently listening : If By Mindless Self Indulgence Release date: 2008-04-29

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meep
Current mood: artistic

meh its been awhile hasnt it

Currently listening : Avenged Sevenfold By Avenged Sevenfold Release date: 30 October, 2007

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.....fucking asshole
Current mood: distressed

wow

i will say this now this has not been one of my best years so far between me getting sick all the time and the divorce going on ive kinda gone insane

im sorry to my friends for losing touch but ive been trying to keep things simple at home a few of you know whats going on others dont know cause well i just havent ggotten a hold of you

basically my step dad started drinking again and well yeah he isnt good drunk the final strw for me was the last time he came home drunk started yelling at mom for canceling his cell phone (he was giving it to the some other drunk guy next to him when my little brother called him looking for him ) scared the fucking shit out mf poor john he kept having nightmares that this guy was after is daddy and us then well he call home yelling at mom saying ILL PLAY YOUR FUCKING GAMES I KNOW THEREIS ANOTHER MAN

ans shit like that then john ran into the living room in all this mess and told him to stop then hit him darrell almost hit him if it hadnt been fo rthe dog then he tried to kick tinker (my dog) mom put her hands on his chest telling him to stop then he goes and calls the cops -_-;;

caliming mom had hit him so yeah then he got in my face and yelled fuck you about 4 times and said i can get my ugly bitch ass out of his house to -_-;;

so anyway i was reduced to a crying puddle on the floor rocking back and forth anyway he ended up going to jail ..

now i had to testify last freday well not the fucking bastard wants my brother, the house , half of moms retirement and spousal support and if that happens we are majorly screwd cause john may have asthma and with my diabeties and other ailments well you get the point but yeah

basicaly thats whats going on ans he is claiming he was never drunk i swear if i could kill him i would i wish he couild see what the hell he is doing to us -_-;;

Currently listening : Violet By The Birthday Massacre Release date: 09 August, 2005

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DAMNIT !!!!!!!!!
Current mood: uncomfortable
Category: Jobs, Work, Careers

well lets see  had a good day up until work then i got a real bad headache my leg hurt and some jackass made my day worse by making rude ass comment to me when  i was searching for something in storeage then everytime i went into to the freezer the same jackass would turn out the light and for those who dont know i have this undying fear of being alone in dark places so i was on the verge of tears so when i did react to phil picking on me he asked what was uo and took care of it i hoipe and thank god for sunny she sat there and talked to me which was sweet of her this aint the first time this guy has given me hell the sad thing is i dont know who the fuck he is i have seen him around school but thats it god i hope he dies in some horrible accident no thats too mean i hope he gets locked in the freezer and freezes his ass off gos im so mad

Currently listening : Nothing And Nowhere By The Birthday Massacre Release date: 15 January, 2005

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.......
Current mood: enraged

ARRGH !!!

yeah things are insane right now well i got the stich out of my leg but still no news on if the doctor was right or not i got called into work yesterday 5 people called in sick yesterday and george just left phil so yeah i felt bad for  phil i asked him if he was planning his revenge on george and phil claimed he was so lets just see how that works out 

i hurt my friggin ankle again during work so yea that wasnt fun but all in all it was that bad i picked on roxanne the whole night

im extremlly pissed and yeah that person just might get hell if i ever see em pisses me off what happend could told me anyway yeah its like everyone knoew but me and im the damn daughter jeez could have called and told me i would have liked to visit im just reaching point were im going to scream ....... that and im having sleeping problems i jsut cant get to sleep so thats not helping my mood any

anyway yeah thats about it i think we will find out  now wont we anyway im just going nuts

Currently listening : Violet By The Birthday Massacre Release date: 09 August, 2005

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ehhhhh
Current mood: content

well its been a rather slow week for me with nothing to do i have to go into work tomorrow for someone i dont mind gets me out of the damn house and a day of no tuturing yeah i have to go to OCC for tutring then i need to retake the placement test

on the other side i gots my ears pirced and it feels weird yeah nayway that about it

Currently listening : Gorillaz By Gorillaz Release date: 19 June, 2001

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hmmm
Category: Life

yeah alot has been going on lately everything seems to be changing all of a sudden im working and im getting into collage and i need to takwe a test my grandparents are fighting (round 2 folks make you bets)

yeah im mainly worried about my grandparents i can see where my grandma is coming from but then again she should papaw would never leave her you see papaw has this friend at work (female) and he is always telling mamaw how nice she is and how he can actually talk to her i can see where mamaw would feel threatend cause this woman is in a while lot better health than mamaw for those of you who do know her knows her knees are bad shes had cancer twice (both removed) and is alwasys getting sick............ but its pretty bad when you see your papaw leave for work in tears (once again those who know my papaw knows this man is tough and hardly cries in fact i have not once in my life seen this man sad always happy ) so my uncle notices papaw is missing a tooth (dentured folks ) and we all wondered if mamaw did that she may be sick but she is tough. when mom was my age they were fighting one night (papaw was drunk imagine that i cant see him drunk he he ) but yeah it got bad mom her a smack and thought oh no he did not gets up and goes to the living room and there is mamw with HER hand reased and PAPAW on the ground

(that was round 1 )

 .............. but she didnt it fell so yeah they seem to be doing better but when you walk in you can feel the tension in the air *shivers* yeah ........... so thats been racking my brain all week

on the other hand i love my job culvers is fun the managers are all really nice and everyone is so friendly yeah its hard to be in a bad mood yeah but by the end my feet feel like i just went through a day of band camp lol but yeah im working there tomorrow to from like 4-9 so yeah not to bad hopefully next weeks schedue will be up

but yeah i just hada to get that out its been biulding up all week (the grandparent things)  but i hope it improves

Currently listening : Flyleaf By Flyleaf Release date: 04 October, 2005

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okay....
Current mood: accomplished

yeah i think i might have gotten a job i have orientation on saturday at 10 aom im kinda happy about that so yeah wish me luck anyway i think thats it cant wait till tonight

Currently listening : Decemberunderground By AFI Release date: 06 June, 2006

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capming with family is fun is it not ??????
Current mood: amused

well its hard to beleive school is out for me i already miss my children (nicole ashley laura kirste clara natalie victoria sammy) and more but to many to name i miss them and everyone else but oh well its not like im going anywhere but i am about to kick someones ass if he doesnt email me you know who you are!!!!!!! id hope anyway .... well went camping had fun got an idea for a story started it and i like how it is turning out hung out with my mamaw a little this weekend in other words spent about 20 minutes listening to billy joel and the white stripes lol and then got made fun of by my whole family ( i accidently tracked dog shit in the camper you can only imagine in that tiny space) but I DIDNT SPILL PICKLE JUICE EVERYWHERE 1!!!!! so we had to sleep in a pickle juice smelling camper well can you guess what i was wanting to eat that night lol anyway yeah it was fun met a friend of papaws she was nice got attacked bu my uncles dog paco it was all about a little tomatoe to stupid dog then had to chase MY DOG around she decided to escape yeah family camping trips are so much fun especially when you have your uncles psp lol im not to happy with my uncle now yelled at me for no reason that pissed my mother off and told him fuck you so yeah thats how it endded lol

Currently listening : Decemberunderground By AFI Release date: 06 June, 2006

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how do i fix this??????????
Current mood: guilty

I /think i might have permenaly ruined a great friendship and i feel like such a bitch i never meant to ruin it its been driving me crazy for the past week everytime i see this person they always look so angry at me i may be imagining things but i think they glare at me when i come near i asked another friend and she said she thought to but its driving me to the point of insanity (lets not go that far yet) but i havent been my usual happy self on the trip it took me so long to cheer up like i didnt start enjoying myself till an hour till we had to live i almost cried on several occasions i know its my fault the frindship is ruined and i want so much to fix it but how i dont know im afriad to approach them ....... luckily thanks to the teacher and three other people in my class brought my sprits up so thank you to those three and the whole class on the way home as well you made me laugh when we sang........... but still i dont know what to do im so lost right now ....

Currently listening : Funeral for Yesterday By Kittie Release date: 20 February, 2007

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.......
Current mood: hopeful
Category: Life

well apparently no one knows whats wrong with me i just havent been feeling good my side felt real bad it hurt to laugh and i love laughing anyway next week im going to have a test done to see whats up with me till then take the freaking medicence i dont know i just feel like i have no energy my stomach is always bothering me and even though my blood surgar can be a perfect 100 i feel like its in the 5oos or something like that im aggtavated i keep biting poor johns head off luckily and surprisingly were still together and he doesnt act shocked when im angry i guess he know what all is bugging me a few others do. but yeh i dont i guess i need to get a little more rest but i cant sleep at night i keep waking up at random hours of the night and it is driving me crazy absolutely insane and im surprised me and john have lasted this long i dont know i just feel like everyday im going to scare him off with one of my blow outs when im angry for those who dont know when i get extremlu upset i tend to take out on the last person to annoy me or whoever happens to be there anyway yeah i guess thats why i always say sorry or dont get to close to people only the few im close ot now i guess and even then im afraid oh well i need to get the hell over it right

Currently listening : Dosage By Collective Soul Release date: 09 February, 1999

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well this just sucks
Current mood: crappy
Category: Life

yeah alot going on right now im no longer in photography thats sad i lkiked that class i think i might be sick not sure mom finally got off her ass and called the doctor to tell her the symptoms cause dad and mamaw both know when i act like that its not good news so mom felt sorry for me checked me out so i can relax the rest of the day since i wasnt feeling good im pretty sure some of you who did see me today (sara cough cough sara) knew i looked and felt like shit so yeah if i bit your head off anybody recently im sorry i didnt want to leave to but i just felt bad but i wasnt expecting to be checked out so yeah

Currently listening : Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest By Hans Zimmer Release date: 04 July, 2006

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grrrrr
Current mood: annoyed

Im about to go nuts this weekend went by way to fast we got a new cat (like we need one) and my little shit head of a brother is being a snot trying to tell me what to do and just so i would not play with the lil fur ball he locked it in his room while he sleeps i hope it lewaves a big pile of shit in his bed i know im not in a good mood but i will get over it

Currently reading : New Moon By Stephenie Meyer Release date: 21 August, 2006

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