Celebrity look-a-likes
Category: Quiz/Survey

Currently watching : Scrubs- Seasons 1-6 Release date: 2008-04-29

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HOLY SHIT!!! IT’S A BLOG!
Category: Life

Boy, has it been a long time since I've done this.  That's what I get for not being able to afford internet at home I guess.

Everything's going pretty well.  Kenan and I are still together, or back together, however you want to call it.  9 months now.  I couldn't be happier about that.  We still have rough spots in our relationship, but who doesn't.  Steven (my son) just graduated from Kindergarten and hopefully will be off to his dad's in Duluth for the summer.

But work sucks.  I just had to take a month leave of absence because of my back and now my financial situation is kinda on the rocks til then, but I've got a couple of plans for that.  And I'm wanting to find something other than Walmart anyway.  Thinking about going back to college in the fall for computers, so wish me luck on that one.

Not much else I can think of right now.  At my mom's so I should make this short and sweet.  They have to go to Bemidji tonight for a DJ so they'll be leaving shortly.

Love you all and miss you more. 

Drop me a line and spread the love around.....

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Been a While
Current mood: calm
Category: Life

Time for an update.

Things have been going.....okay I suppose, but since the last time you heard from me, life has taken on a positive turn of events. 

Work is going alright, trying to get more hours in so I can keep a place to live and keep my phone on (they turned it off Sunday night). 

Steven's in kindergarten and he's doing as well as any 5 year old could, no better and certainly no worse. 

And I'm dating again, although from what I hear, we're not sure if we're actually using that term.  We're together, that's it.  He treats me great, loves me, loves Steven, which has to be in any kind of relationship I would get into.  So life in that aspect is good.

Parts that really suck.  I'm totally broke, due to more reasons than me not getting enough hours at work and/or being sick, my car needs a replacement part, and like I said, my phone is off, probably until I get paid again on the 18th.

So yeah, life in short.  Hope everyone has been well.

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something new
Current mood: calm
Category: Writing and Poetry

I wrote this a few weeks ago.  Feeling kinda down, but hell, I have to get them out poeticly or whatever, that's the only way I know how.

Even if it is all just really shitty poetry and most of the things/people I write about or that inspire the writing don't know about it, or read it and know it's not about them.  It all works out in the end. 

And I get to keep what's left of my sanity........

I was kissed by and angel that had no wings.
He took me to places I had never been. 
He gave me false hope and I swore not to cry.
My soul said "Nevermore" but I know that it lied.
I go on pretending things are okay.
Dead inside.
And that's how I'll remain.

I wrote another something the other morning at work, but don't have it on me.  I've been told it was cool, but only had one person look at it so far and I feel that it's unfinished so, you know.  I'll get that up when I can.

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Les Sighs
Current mood: sore
Category: Life

I've tried being here more so than I can be.  Sometimes that works out due to my brother giving me a link for a page to actually check Myspace at the local library, but that doesn't work so well for posting blogs, so I'm on a computer now that will allow me to do such a thing.

Things have been alright in general, mostly missing you lovely people, your constant love and comfort, and yeah, a couple of you very special people who are more dear to me than anything in the world.  You get my point.

Lately I've been going through a set of physical issues and this is all I'm going to highlight on that.....

I wish this shit could just be done and over with, but for now, I'm going to have to live with it.  And it's starting to get severe.  And this isn't the only time this year that it's happened.  I have appointments this week I have to go to so they can figure out what exactly is wrong with me.  Fear for the best and Hope for the worst.  That's my plan right now.  If I expect the worst, than it can only get better from there, right?  Anywho, speak a couple of silent words for me if you'd like.  I'll write emails back to those who respond and would like me to keep them updated on the situation.  I should be on bed rest for this, and that's what one of the nurses told me, of course it wasn't my nurse who could write out a note for work saying this because she decided to take a 3-day weekend and won't be back in the office until tomorrow, so I'm still working, and Gods know, I can't afford to lose the money.

Sorry I ranted like that, but I felt you had every right in the world to know what's been going on since I'm hardly around.

Love and Miss you all.
Selina

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Update, you know you wanted one
Current mood: okay
Category: Life

I know you did......

Anywho....

Things are going alright thus far, save for the finding a job part.  I found out on my orientation that my job was only temporary for Christmas, so I've been unemployed for almost a month now, and it really sucks!  I'm sure you know what I mean, everyone's been there, done that, at some point in their life.

But things are going well, some things better than others, but I feel better, and according to some people I hang out with, they've 'noticed a significant change in me and it's really reflecting it towards others.'  Yeah, I guess that's true.  Flirt I've always been, but I guess it's getting more so now that I've got more freedom to do it, mainly to friends, but you know.  Oh well.

And I'm starting to write a bit more again.  I needed the slow time off to reflect, but it's going again.  Perhaps sometime in the future, when I actually have some of it with me, I'll share it with you.  It's always been bad poetry and prose, but I'll let you be the judge of that one.

Sorry it's taken me so long to put a new message up here, but Myspace has been a terrible pain in the ass and kept giving me an error message every time I tried opening the 'Blog' page to post something, so I never could, until now.

I hope everything is well with you, my Darlings, my Lovers and Listeners of my words.  I can't express how much I miss you and the time we used to share together. 

Perhaps someday soon, we shall have it all back again....

Until then, I love you.  Nothing could ever change that.

Currently playing : Guitar Hero 2 Bundle with Guitar Release date: 07 November, 2006

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Here's a good question
Current mood: crushed

Any of you, ALL OF YOU, those that I consider to be my friends although we've never met.....

Do you consider us to be friends.....or is this entire thing just, well, make believe?  Do I only think I have friends online or are we only strictly acquaintances? 

I just recently heard from someone here whom I did consider to be my friend, and he basically told me that we were just people that talked once in a while and none of the conversations we ever had were real.  No, this wasn't a RP'er, if that's what you're thinking, but someone I truly cared a great deal for.

I'd like to think I've made some real friendships here, but maybe that's just poor judgement on my part.  I thought I made friends. 

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Hairfalls (WITH PICTURES!!!)
Current mood: good
Category: Fashion, Style, Shopping

I'm going to attempt making one for Halloween.  I've got this really cool idea in my head, but I've never made one before.  Got some materials today and I've got a plan for keeping it secured to my head, but if anyone has made them before themselves, I'd appreciate some input on how to do it so I don't screw it up too badly and it looks shotty, you know.

I've always wanted to make one, it's just that the creativity bug finally bit me today.  Hopefully some other bugs will follow in its path and I can get some shit done, do some 'cleaning', reprioritizing, so I can start to feel a little more like me again......

I got it done and actually wore it for the first time today.  Posting a picture soon.  We went up to my dad's house and he's got a digital camera, so as soon as he emails it to me, you can see how it turned out.

Never mind the part that I'm insanely fat.  I didn't realize I was that huge until I saw that picture.  God I need to start working out.

Here's those pictures you've been waiting for!!  I want everyone to vote on your favorites.  Top 2 will be put into my pictures section and I might even use one of them for my main pic!  Don't you think it would be nice to see my face instead of a drawing?  Well, hehe, I personally don't, but I think these turned out rather well.

Love you all!!!!!

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The Muse
Category: Life

My muse!  He finally returned to me.  And then I came upon the realization that he never really left.  I just sort of..........lost my way.  And he came back to me in a different form.  The one I knew him to have all along. 

I'm starting to feel better now, the courage he's shown me I can have, the love I'm able to give and not care if it comes back to me.  I mean, that's totally selfish if I'm really expecting it to come back, and you know how I've been for the last few.....probably years by now.  Keep your expectations to a bare minimum, or don't have them at all, and you can never be disappointed.  Well, some people I do still have expectations of, but only because I feel they have responsibilities they need to start owning up to, but now I'm getting off track.

But YOU can expect to see new writing of mine soon.  I've written one I may post here, but others, I'm still working on in my mind.  I don't commit anything to paper or type unless I'm going to finish right then and there.  Well, except for that one story I tried doing about 6 months ago that might never be finished, but that period in my life is over.  Hmm, maybe if I get new inspiration on that one and I can clear my mind of whom I had in mind when I wrote it in the first place.  If I can just get his face out of my mind when I go back to read it, maybe it will eventually get finished.

Until then, I hope all is well with everyone this blog comes in contact with.

Currently listening : Dark Light By H.I.M. Release date: 27 September, 2005

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Meh
Current mood: crappy
Category: Life

Thought I'd just through a little note in here.

In Duluth now, it's going......okay I guess.  I've got more words on things than just living in the city, and it has nothing to do with location, if you get my drift.  That part......well, if you want to know more and we haven't spoken recently, let me know and I'll get back to you on that one.

And for that, I haven't been able to write a thing since we left Bemidji.  Where the hell did my muse go?  Oh wait, I think I know.  And maybe it's just the online drama that made me write then anyway, but still, at least I was writing something.  Now, there's nothing, and I feel terrible.

Someone better call him up and tell him I need him back because it sucks not being able to 'create' anymore.  That's who I am, who I was, and now I feel like I have nothing left to give.  Advice on that one, I mean, how to get my creativity back, would be a great help if you could leave me some.

Love you.

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