love
Category: Life

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all i can see
Current mood: cranky

Currently listening : Given Up By Linkin Park Release date: 2008-03-04

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forever

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why
Current mood: exhausted

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us
Current mood: happy

i cant begin to explain
the thoughts and feelings flowing thru my heart
and i didnt even know
that they've been there from the start
the words i say arent enough
to show u all i feel for you
fate brought us together
and everyday i will protect and fight for you
i thank God everday
for this love that He's given me
and i hope for the mistake of my wait in the past
you have forgiven me
this joy you've shown me
overshadows any pain ive been through
i have so much love and care for you
if only u knew
ill go through hell and back
just to be with you
 ill go through hell and back
just to be next to you
so from this day on
i will devote everythin i have to you
and the feelings i have for u
are pure, gentle and just
so i will never let anything
get in between this love we call us

10:14 PM - 2 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment

late
Current mood: confused

unforgivin, in a sense
with only life and love the expense
feelings get tense
thick, the air gets dense
now im on the outside lookin in
on the other side of the fence
but since i cant forget it
will my heart now be the expense
is this fair?
am i the only one that cares?
its not rare
for me to dare
with the unkown
until im told
it was all for nothing
to me it was always something
i hesitate
but it was never fake
i hesitate
please forgive my wait
i was late
and at this rate
my own pain will be what i make
im sry for the worry
im sry for the unknown
itll be my fault this time
if i end up alone

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unrest

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bleedin
Current mood: restless

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waiting
Current mood: drained

how far would u go for that love
how far would u go to rise above
ur hurt ur pain
will the cries remain?
wen u'd do anything for her
to her is it da same
u try to stay strong u try to stay tough
wen ud go thru hell and bac in the end is it enuff
for me its been hard to stay sane
hard to push thru the pain
but no matter wut i go thru my heart still says the same
it still fights at night
wen nothing seems right
and pushes me till the morning light
later pushed bac down
numb to the sound
a silent sound i found
that voids me frm the thought of all of them....
brought down over and over
but still wait for the day i can say i love her
not even hell will keep me frm her
id rise above anythin for her....
but until that day i still sit here..waiting
waiting for a hope that isnt empty
and not for a hope thats only tempting

8:16 PM - 3 Comments - 6 Kudos - Add Comment

eternal light
Current mood: blank

 ive always believed in love
 ive always believed in the life
 where whenever u love sum1
 in ur heart ur never stuck with the knife
 i believed it
 i sought for it
 i fought for it
 but i have nothin to count for it
 never once was anything returned to me
 never once was anything fought for me
 i was always left with the burn
 always the one to mourn
 never once wanted to return that burn
 and say it was ur turn
 cus im always torn frm the inside out
 and its nothing they ever know about
 i die a lil more everytime
 and in time all im left wit is another rhyme
 and id give each line jus for that time
 that moment when everything else is forgotten 
 and nothin else in the world matters.......
 i never got that far
 they never tried that far
 i gave myself
 they gave me none
 i opened myself
 they said theyre done
 then theyd run still holding my heart
 and yet again im left with only a part
 no tears left
 no point right
 but for some reason i still fight at night
 and call it my right to finally be alright
 so i can finally sleep at night
 and finally smile at loves eternal light

12:05 AM - 4 Comments - 3 Kudos - Add Comment

alive

i told myself never again
not unless im sure
but it crept on me
and im scared i want more
theres not enough of me left
to go thru it another tyme
but im sittin here thru the night
thinkin bout "if u were mine"
am i fine
to try another tyme?
or frm all the tyme of hearin line after lyin line,
to myself hav i started lyin?..
but why does it hav to end in cryin
would i even be wrong in tryin
trust..i dont mean to sound like im whinin
cus thats not how i act
i jus need u to kno
what ive been thru is fact
so dont let this change ur mind
cus that aint the point in this rhyme
for u to be mine and me to be yours
i need to kno more then jus other poeples words
when i give myself
i give it all
thats why i always fall
thats why i make myself ignore my hearts call
but somehow with u
none of the rules apply
i cant help but want to try
thru my eyes ur worth that try
thru my eyes i want that try
and ill risk the cries
jus so i can look thru ur eyes
and id forget the lies
and all that died would finally be alive

1:48 PM - 5 Comments - 4 Kudos - Add Comment

which is better?(continued..sort of lol)

no point in cryin
and im done always tryin
u may always see me smilin
but wut u dont see is me dyin
frm everythin all of u did
and i try to get rid
of the pain and the rain
of the stain u made
but the stain remains
untamed, always the same
never restrained
so forget my name
even tho i cant forget yours
every single day i long for more
but all thats left is a sore
that is your name

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which is better?
Current mood: blah

its better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all
but wut if everytime u love u only fall
wut if whenever u do things like ur supposed to, its all in vain
and it leaves ur heart stained in the pain thats never forgotten
but ur still taunted by every memory strirred by even just a song
everything u were taught seems wrong
but ur heart still says to fight every night u stay up awake
and u question urself what was really fake...ur love or thiers..
when they dont even care....
but can u really be blamed for it all
when u tried so hard jus to fall
when u listened to the call ur heart made to be free
and try to see the truth behind the lies
and ur cries and all u kno dies....
but u still say ur goodbyes because wut u love will return
and u hope to forget the burn that was embedded in ur heart
and u'll always do ur part ..of course
cause u'll force urself to always keep goin..
cause the source of ur pain isnt urself
but the course of keepin urself sane thru the rain all around u
.....and u become numb to the silent sound u found that keeps u unbound
frm fear and the tears that ur peers never kno of
so can u hear me now

3:46 AM - 9 Comments - 10 Kudos - Add Comment

so what now
Current mood: numb

so what now
after all these years
where am i supposed to go
after all these tears
ive gotten past my fears
but still theres no change
im still stuck
in this eternal cage
its all been the same
first you care
then you leave me with the pain
wheres the fairness
where the love
the only love that stuck
only came from above
you left me
your gone
and all it takes to remember you
is just a song
but you dont care right......
because your not the one always stayin up at night

10:19 AM - 8 Comments - 12 Kudos - Add Comment

5 in da mornin
Current mood: melancholy

Well its close to like 5 in da mornin and ive been sittin round thinkin a lot lately....wut else is new i kno i kno....but ive been gettin aggrevated how ill do soo much for ppl and get barely nething in return....and i aint tryna sound like sum lil drama queen complainer..im not like dat at all....anybody who truely knos me, understands wut im sayin......but yeah..i dont mean in jus friendships or anythin..i mean in general.....especially in relationships............haha ill get into a relationship jus throwin myself head first into it bc i jus had to "trust" her soo much....jus to fall straight on my head haha.....im jus gullible i quess.......ud think after da first thousandth tyme sum1 would learn huh........."nice guys finish last" ..how many of u think dat old sayin isnt tru...dat its jus sumthin ppl been sayin...go ahead raise ur hand.............well put em down cus nowadays it is tru....but it shouldnt.....everyone complains bout guys not bein gentlemen..and how they jerks...tru usually guys are(thanx 4 ruinin it for everyone)...but then when an actual gentleman passes by ur too blind to see it! ....or u think he's jus "too nice"...y is dat?....scared dat that would mean a relationship could actually work with him???....dont get my msg wrong tho..there are a whole lot of guys out there dat are everythin women complain about....and they(those guys) piss me off fo real........but yeah to all da females out there...when a guy is actually nice to u and that kindess is cummin frm the heart and not jus to get sum,dont let go of it..dont doubt it..dont think u dont deserve it..and dont abuse it.............lol see..yall made get all off topic lol........neways...lol yall didnt think Joel could talk bout so much huh lol....well i dunno wut exactly made me write this but its sumthin i do think about....i quess its jus cus i been thinkin bout my past "relationships" a lot lately.... but yeah haha ima jus shut up now....cuss its late...and yeah PEACE!?

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