Poems 2!
Category: Romance and Relationships

Because of you,
I feel free
Because of you,
I can be me...
But with out you,
My life is filled with..
Pain and Misery,
Your voice keeps me goin..
Because within in me,
you are holding...
My heart in your hands,
I hope you understand...
That you mean more to me,
than life itself..
Because i cant see myself,
with anyone else...
But you<3

I write this stuff for the world to see,
its easy... To show how much u mean to me...
Its love, L-O-V ta da E.... But money, ...Causes so much misery.... It keeps me.... from being where i want to be... Next to you,.... Holdin you,... Ever so tightly... Never letting go,... cuz u mean the world to me....

Hope keeps me alive,
hope is wat puts my heart into drive..
But fear has taken over,
thoughts of you with another..
holding the hand,
of the one i care about so dear...
Images of you and him,
walking thru the park...
Candle light dinners in the dark,
it scars me soo deep...
Because the thought of you on the creep,
keeps me awake at nite...
Causing a chilling fright,
Its a grooling image...
of wat may or may not,
be going on when my back is turned...
Only you and the lord could tell me,
if my thoughts are right or wrong...
But until then i will stay till the end,
cause the thought of losing you is sumtin i cant take in....

My heart stops,
my heart drops.....
At the thought of hearin your voice,
because at that moment my world stops to focus on you...
You where the one i let slip outta my grasp,
the only thing i would change about my past...
If i knew than,
wat i kno now....
I would not have ben foolish enough to discard,
to brush off what i could not comprehend...
But now i see that it was more than lust,
more than a crush.. It was love.....
I kno they say its better to have loved and lost,
but that is a cost i dont want to pay...
But one day,
I will be able to see the one that got away..
But until than,
I will cherish everyday that i get to talk to the girl that captured my heart..

IF pain is love,
and love is pain..
Than why did god make misery,
rain on me like its the middle of april..
He reached deep in my pockets,
and bestowed upon me..
Bill after bill
But he knows i have the heart of a winner..
He knows that in my youth i was a sinner,
But i have seen the light of the lord...
I heard the chord of musician and the choir sing...
Dear lord i pray,
for the day..
This will all go away,
So i can get back on the path..
You have set out for me,
And find the one... You have created just for me...


My Misfortune…

God sent me an angel,
But I was too blind to see…
The beauty and life she has given me,
I misused and abused the rare chance,
For true and long lasting romance
And now…

Iam in battle with my heart and mind
One is cold and dark,
And the other has been torn apart…
Eternal Darkness is all I see,
A place filled with pain and misery…
A never ending place of hate and lost feelings,
Words circle my thoughts, with different meanings…
Meanings of lost love and compassion,
Compressed into one suicidal distraction…

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Boredom!
Current mood: horny
Category: Blogging

100 Things You Might Not Have Known About Me

1. EVER BEEN GIVEN AN PROMISE RING?
yes

2. LONGEST FRIENDSHIP?
4 or 5  years i thnk

3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?
I was offered sum candy!

4. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU DROPPED YOUR CELL?
twice... Luckily it was on carpet

5. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT?
about 4 months ago

6. THING YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON?
Fast Food

7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE?
Soup

8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE/SAME SEX?
Eyes, Smile, Chest ^_^

9. ONE FAVORITE SONG?
Bullets for my Valentine= Room 409

10. WHERE DO YOU LIVE?
Sin City

11. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTENDED:
Kadena High School

12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER:
CINGULAR!!!!!

13. FAVORITE MALL STORE:
I would have to say Journeys

14. LONGEST JOB EVER HAD:
hahaha if u kno me its no more than 7 months

15. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE?:
Fuk no

16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?:
On other peeps fones, that shyt cost minutes

17. LAST WEDDING ATTENDED?:
No idea

18. FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY:
I would call my friend Greg and rub it in!!!! Muwhahaha

19. LAST TIME YOU ATTENDED CHURCH:
About a year ago <-- sinner =)

21. BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE HEARD?
I didnt drink the last beer

23. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIENDS?
Where ever...

24. CAN YOU COOK?
yea.... Hot pockets for all!!!

25. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?
Bmw 528. and sumtimes 05 Durango

26. BEST KISSER?
I would have to say my ex ex ex Brooke Lynn

27. LAST TIME YOU CRIED?:
Wen ther was no more beer!

28. MOST DISLIKED FOOD:
Squash

29. THING YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF?:
My ability to not GIVE A FUCK

30. THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF:
I tend to be emotionless at times... ( cold hearted )

32. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?
11 hours

33. Favorite MOVIE?
Borat!!! U LIKE?!?!

34. CAN YOU SING?:
Like a dying cat!!!

35. LAST CONCERT?:
NEva ben to one!

36. LAST KISS?
N/A

37. LAST MOVIE RENTED?:
Cant remeber

38. THING YOU NEVER LEAVE HOME WITHOUT?:
phone and my stunna shades!!

39. FAVORITE VACATION SPOT
Hawaii is bangin

40. DO YOU LIKE CHINESE FOOD?
Yezz sir.

42. IS YOUR ROOM CLEAN?:
It is neatly disturbed

43. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?:
desktop

44. FAVORITE COMEDIAN?:
Dave Chappelle

45. Favorite color
black

46. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES?
Shorts and my white tee

47. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?
No..(

48. LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?
no

49. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE?
A bunch... No tickets tho.... I play the clueless black guy!!! Works like a charm

50. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST?
Neither give me some waffles!!!!

51. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?
Fuk no

52. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
Dnt eat em

53. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?:
Yes

54. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?:
MY bro

55. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?:
Arlene

56. WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECIEVED?:
"Do u not return ur text"... arlene

57. MCDONALDS OR BURGER KING?
McDonalds!!

58. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?:
1

59. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?:
Pajama pants and a black tee.... dam im gangsta ^_^

60. PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC OR SONG?:
All these things i hate revolve around you!... Bullets for my Valentine

61. WHAT KIND OF JELLY DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PB & J SANDWICH?
Strawberry is da only jelly for me

62. CAN YOU PLAY POOL?:
Hell yea i can...

63. DO YOU KNOW HOW TO SWIM?:
I swim like a black fish

64. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?:
Cookie Dough

65. DO YOU LIKE MAPS?:
Not really..

66. TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF?:
Im black... Does that count?

68. EVER ATTEND A THEME PARTY?:
Yes

69. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?
Utah Summers

70. LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED AT SOMETHING STUPID?
Yes... A corny joke my boss made

71. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING?
11 on da dot...

72. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER?
Snowboardin

73. LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET?
Last year... And i threw it away, dam im gangsta!

75. NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?
Raheem... My pet Savanna Monitor

76. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?
I guess ther cool... Ill kick ones ass if they talk about swabbin my poop deck

77. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND?
GETTIN DRUNK AS SHYT

79. WHAT IS THE THIRD LETTER OF YOUR NAME?:
A

80. HOW OLD ARE YOUR PETS?:
dnt kno... My lil nigga is 3

81. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BACKPACK?
um...dnt hav one

82. ARE YOU SICK?:
a lil

84. IS THE BATHROOM OPEN?:
yup!

87. ARE YOU SMILING?:
no

88. DO YOU HAVE ON EYELINER?:
Hey.... im a guy... well i do hav a lil on shhh... JUS PLAYIN!!!

89. DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?
Not really

90. IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD YOU GO?
Hawaii to party

91. DO YOU HAVE A LIVE JOURNAL?
nope

92. ARE YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL?:
nope

93. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?:
Yes

94. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NICKNAME FOR YOURSELF?:
B

95. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHING SUIT?:
Dnt have one at da moment

97. DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH?
Shyt i was on vacation for 4 months.....

98. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A CRUISE?:
I thnk so...

99. DO YOU HAVE A SISTER?:
yes

100. ARE YOU UPSTAIRS?:
Naw.. Downstairs

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My Poems
Current mood: artistic
Category: Writing and Poetry

Here is a couple of poems that i have written in my spare time!..

ENJOY.. AND LEAVE FEEDBACK!!

How do you tell the one u love u care?..
By lettting her know that u will always be there..
How do i show her that she is in my heart?...
By letting her kno you loved her from the start...
How do i tell her she is in your every thought?...
By giving her a gift from the heart..


This poem here won me Editors Chief Award for poetry.com

Love

Love is wats in my heart..
It is the feeling that we both share..
A feeling that no one can compare,
An uncontrollable passion.
Its the joy of two souls joining as one..

Love is the feeling at every kiss,
It is a feeling i dont want to miss
But love can also be a dagger,
A knife that cuts a hole that no one can patch...
A pain only god will kno...


But love is a risk that i will take,
Because the thought of never knowing such joy.
Is a mistake i dont want to make...


By Brandon...


Love is..

Love is but a four letter word,
that means so much.
It is something you fell at every touch.
Love is but for you and I,
It can make you happy and it can make you cry.
Love is the light in your heart,
That will shine bright wen you are not apart.
Love is it not the thought of me loosen you,
But the reason i choose you!

Brandon


Confessions of a Broken Heart ( this one won me Editors chief award for January 2007 )

I have not been the same since you left,
it has been hard to take another breath...
Knowing that you have moved on so fast,
makes me think if you where true to me in the past.

You have given me a cut,
that noone can bandage.
An aching that makes me want to die,
a pain that darkens the brightest of skies..

But threw all of this darkness,
i know there is light that shines just for me..
A lit path that will take me from this cold dark place,
and show me the person who will keep a smile on my face..


Contemplating Suicide
   
As i sit here with this knife,
  I think of the time we shared..
The tears u made me cry,
  I also think of how you told me you cared..
I see now that it was all a cruel joke,
  I sick way for her to get her kicks..
But now, this knife is my gateway to a better life,
  A passage away from all the pain that u caused me...
As i slide the blade against my skin,
  I create a blood river of freedom...

by,
Brandon

Where are you?!?!

I have searched this earth for my queen,
but i have come up short...
I have wasted time,
sorting thru this and that...
I know that u are out ther lookin for me too,
One day our paths will cross...
And that will be the day my life begins,
the day i confess all my sins...
A time where nothin else will matter but me and you,
A never ending dream...
But until that day,
I will keep hope alive...

by Brandon


Another one, for yall to enjoy... ( poetry insomniac )

A nite to remember

As we lay,
    under this moon lite sky...
I gaze into ur brown eyes,   
    and dream of wat could be..
I dream of lifes one true fantasy,
     of being whole and complete..
As i fade from this fantasy, i reach for ur hand,
    and pray for this nite to never end...
You are the one that captured my heart,
    now lets cross our fingers, and hope we never part...
 

 by brandon

Currently listening : Confessions By Usher Release date: 05 October, 2004

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OOOHHHH !!!AAAHHH!!!

yeah i am bored as hell!! Cant wait to get back to the states.I havent drifted in a long while.

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OKi Life

Dam it is borin azz hell. Neva cum to okinawa.Only thing to do here is smoke drift drink and drugs. There is a little bit of girls. but most of them are wack! i cant wait to go bak to da states.only good thing about oki is the cars i have seen everything from Type R civcs to GTR R34's.

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