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Friday, April 04, 2008

End of the World!
Current mood: studious
Category: studious Life

I was wondering who thought the world will come to an end?  With all the polution, the wars, and other shit going on, how far are we going to go?

The thing is, wars have been sweeping the world throughout all of history.  It hasn’t changed.  And even if there is a global war where millions die, there will always be some who survive and continue on the race.

Still, we are at the mercy of a world that could wipe us out in an instant.  Look at the dinosaures, they are instinct!  How strange that such a beast of enormous size can disappear completely while other species addapted and survived!  We are adapatable, but are we enough to bend uder the storm or will we break like an oak tree?

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Saturday, February 09, 2008

Contemplating Suicide
Current mood: aggravated
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

It is a scary thing when you have fallen so low that you come to understand why some people commit suicide.  A few years ago, it happened to me.  It was a very hard time in my life and suddenly it became so clear: had I not all the things that drove me forward, I too might have take that choice to escape all my torments.

    It made me grateful for my passions and for having complex and high goals.  I looked back at the many people I had known in my life and knew that not everyone had hopes and dreams the way I did.  But for all those who aspire only to get that remote at the end of the day, they are in danger of falling into that path.  True enough, no one can ever come to understand another's pain.

    I have something in my life worth living for.  The question is, do you?

    In the darkest hour, people feel the most alone because depression engulfs the mind, secluding people from the world and rendering them numb to everything around them.

    When a child commits suicide, parents always ask themselves what did they do wrong?  The truth is, even in the happiest of household can someone commit suicide.  One thing I want to make clear for parents, in these cases, they are not responsible in any way.  Each individual must make their own choices, and parents must accept that their child are responsible for their actions, not the parents.

    Life is a circle, forever growing and continuous.  But what happens when that circle is broken?  To perpetuate itself, the circle of life needs to move forward.  Parents make kids and look forwards to their future, but when a child's future reaches an end or an impasse, where does that child turns to?  To turn back to the parents breaks the circle and reverses the flow.  It destroys the whole balance of life.  Going like this, against the nature of things, is self-destructive because it feels unnatural and wrong.  It is the inability to move forward, in a desired direction, that causes depression.  When all hope is gone, that is when someone suddenly finds themselves contemplating suicide.

    In that moment, the person revaluate their life.  They then ask themselves what have they to look forward to?  Sometime they will find the answer in a child, a love one, but sometimes it's not enough.  I can't claim to know everything about suicide, and every situation is different, but I can tell you that in that moment where you feel so empty you feel you'll never find happiness again, something inside you breaks, and if the mind cannot find any reason to go one, it will conclude that there is no reason to.  After all, if we live for one reason or another, and that reason dissolves itself into oblivion, what is there left?

    If you find yourself in such a place, reach out.  But be careful to chose to reach out to.  Some people who seem your friends aren't really, others simply cannot deal with it.  But there are places where you can get professional help.  Ask your doctor about it, they often can help you make the right choice.  I know I sound like some advertisement, but they're right.  People in general don't care enough, otherwise their wouldn't be so many conflicts in the world.  But some people care, and they're usually working is the social community, helping others.  You'll find exceptions, but if you don't like one doctor or another, there are plenty more out there.  You just got to make the effort.

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Where Hast Honour Gone?
Category: Blogging

People claim to be many things, but if there is one thing I've learned, is that they are exactly what they say they're not.  An honourable or trustworthy person will simply be trustworthy, and not show off about their supposed qualities.  What is honour?  Does anyone truly know or care anymore?

    Hearing people using that word like they say "hello" makes me feel angry.  I don't like people who use that word, thinking they know anything about it.  Why say you uphold principles, if you fail in doing exactly that?  The thing is, people don't realize they're misbehaving or that they're in reality not honourable.  People are what they are, but please, don't pretend to be anything else.  I am a old fool who believes in principles, but I have yet to meet another like me.  Except for my family.  I had to inherit it from somewhere!  But I'm sorry to say we are alone in a world of superficials.

    Some write stories about honour and moral codes.  I hope that means there are others like me, and not simply wanna-bes.  Hope.  There has to be others who still believe principals.  But there are so few of us that the world is condemning itself.  There is no need to read any prophetic apocalyptic text to know what's coming.  The world is dying.  It is breaking and falling apart.  There are so many of us living on the earth, it can no longer sustain us, especially with the way we are treating it.

    Soon the day will come when the earth will wake and wash us all away like old clothes, and there is nothing any of us will be able to do except brace ourselves.  Of course, if that is true, why bother thinking about it and stop living like the carefree children we all are and believing our actions do not matter?  It's all a done deal.  We have until 2020 before our fate is sealed.  Let the world know this, for the end shall truly expire in 2040.

    The end?  What is the end?  The strongest, luckiest, most alert always survive, but all the dirt will be washed off.  Which are you?

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A World of Sheep

Have you noticed how everyone uses the same door to enter and leave through a building, like let's say, the Hall building at Concordia University.  There are maybe ten doors available and only one, maybe two are used.  At least until someone decides to take the lead and open a new door through the which a new line of sheep will follow.  What I don't understand is how people notice what people wear, what shoes they have, and what haircut they got, and so forth, and they don't notice there is another way to go where they're going.  It would make things easier because they would not need to wait after the mass of people cumulating a the entrance of one passage or another, or even waiting for those exiting to pass through before being able to go in

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Marriage, Hetero, Homo, Bi, so why not Poly?
Current mood: adventurous
Category: News and Politics

Now that we have legalized homosexuality, recognizing their rights to get married on the same level as any heterosexual couple, when are we going to legalize polygamy and incestuous coupling?  Though these might be concepts that are hardly acceptable to many, they are not harmful to society, so why should they not be made legal?

    Homosexuality was forbidden since the time of the old testament.  Now that society has become laic, and severed itself from all religiously based laws, its laws are based on individual rights for as long as they do not interfere with others.  Homosexuality is a personal choice much like one's faith.  It does not harm anyone and concerns only the two parties in question.  The real reason why it has been forbidden throughout history, is because of the religious text governing the most of the civil world: the bible.

    The bible has frowned upon many sexual practices, trying to judge one right or wrong from another.  But any religious text, its absolute rightness can be debated.  Some believe it from divine source, others not.  The state recognizes that a simple "leap of faith" in what someone wrote is not enough to make a law.  A law must be based on facts and these facts must prove that a practice is harmful to yourself, but especially to others.  What people chose to believe in and how people chose to have sex is a personal choice, and unless people are deliberately spreading diseases, it is of no one's business what faith you're from or how you have sex.

    Polygamy, for as long as all concerned parties agree to such a binding contract, and that both sex are aloud to have multi-partners, there is no reason why the state should interfere.  Many people today refuse to marry because they prefer to have many "partners."  The state can argue as to how many partners one may have.  A reasonable limit, such as three, can be placed based on the fact that one person has to love equally all their partners.  Having too many partners would inevitably lead to some of them taking a second place, and that would be wrong.

    The goal of the Law is also about placing everyone on an equal footing.  Polygamy was forbidden because it was unfair to women, and because they were treated as nothing more than cattle.  But now things have changed, and if women were also able to take more than one husband, wouldn't that place them on an equal level with men?

    What if people could marry more than one person at the time?  What wrong is there that the state should make it illegal?  Of course, both husbands and wives would have to sign, accepting the additional wife or husband, but as long as the concerned group of adults are consenting, what wrong is there?

    The same goes for brothers and sisters.  Two consenting adults should be allowed to marry.  I mean, who are we to judge their beliefs.  Homo, Bi, Hetero, it's all a question of personal choice, much like the colours we are wearing.  So why impose a colour on some people if they will not wear it?  Wasn't it the goal of recognizing homo marriages?  It seems the state has still some miles to go.

    If we look at procreation.  Brothers and sisters will have an increased chance of having children with birth defects.  But must I remind everyone that there is no law preventing criminals, drug addict, and alcohol abusers to procreate.  Perhaps there should be one, but until there is, there are no arguments against siblings coupling.  Of course, parent and children should never be made legal because of the age difference, creating the authoritative dilemma.  Professor/student, doctor/patient.  These situations create a "superior" "inferior" relationship in which one has their ability to chose compromised.  The "weak" must be protected.  That is why we have laws to protect children against parents or teachers, and laws to protect patients from their doctors.

    Before sending someone in prison for having an incestuous relationship, remember how many years a thief, a rapist, and even a murderer have had to serve. 2, 3, 5 years?  Do they deserve as much?  Their crime did not hurt anyone.  And if no one got hurt, is it really a crime?  The great Pharaohs did it.  Sure, their family line quickly extinguished itself because of it, but the vision of marriage has changed and broadened, so why doesn't the Law acknowledges that?

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Word of the Day!
Category: Life

    You think the sky is the limit?  WRONG!  There is a whole universe out there!

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Sunday, February 03, 2008

Obedience or disobedience, that is the question?
Category: Religion and Philosophy

    The Milgram experiment, though illegal nowadays, has proven how obedience can lead to fatal crimes and crimes of inhumane proportions.  So the question is, should we systematically question every rule imposed on us by our parents, teachers, police officers, and government?  Some people today rise up against authority as their new hip philosophy.  It's like a trend.  We've discovered authority can lead us to evil, so we systematically reject it.  As reference we can recall Hitler killing 6 million Jews, King Leopold 10 million Africans, and the list goes on.  History is full of examples.  But like Moses said, without the Law, there can be no freedom.  If everyone took it upon themselves to live along their own moral lines, society as a whole could not exist.  Humanity would inevitably fall into chaos because you cannot expect everyone to make the moral choice.  That is why there is a hierarchy in our authority system.  It is based on the fact that knowledge and experience gives a person the ability to take better decisions than someone who has neither culture nor experience.

    It is an imperfect system because it is based on imperfect beings: humans.  Thus this analogy fails when a flawed human being uses his or her authority to achieve their personal goals: domination, power, or the annihilation of a group of individuals simply because they have judged them inferior enough not to deserve to live.  Still, people who have passed a number of tests, assessing they have the qualifications necessary for the post they now occupy, and passing through evaluations and evaluations that let them climb up the hierarchy have earned the trust and faith that goes with their authoritative disposition.  Sure enough, there is a risk that in the end, they will fail the people they are supposed to serve, but it is the best system we have.  There are no other choice.  Authority is necessary for order, to settle problems quickly, and make some kind of progress.  Whether the pilot flying an aircraft, or a police officer applying the Law, just like any criminals, they are right until proven guilty of some misjudgement.

    All this to say that before questioning authority, one must have evidence that the authority figure is clearly out of line before refusing an order.  For those of you who don't know, Milgram's experiment consisted of a professor making a fake experiment that consisted of two volunteers.  One had to play the "teacher" and the other the "learner."  The teacher had to ask memory questions and if answered wrong, was told to inflict a discharge on the patient.  The learner was an actual actor faking the pain every time the teacher was told to press the button by the white robed professor.  Any knowledgeable person would know that a voltage of 100V would seriously injure a person and 250V can kill a person.  Now I don't know what these people knew about electricity, but after a certain voltage and screams from our learner/actor, the teacher should have understood where this would lead.  Yet, those who undertook the experiment continued to obey as long as the white robed researcher reassured them that they took full responsibility for what happened to the learner.  This clearly showed how people are ready to kill for as long as the responsibility is not theirs.

    I doubt everyone is like that, but the majority are, and this shows how the general population behaves when given orders, even irrational ones.  When someone enrols in the army, they accept to submit themselves to authority without questioning it.  During war or a fight, this is extremely important because one hesitation and everyone can get killed.  If soldiers would question their superior officers every time they got an order, the army would lose totally its efficiency.  But if someone makes a mistake and gives a wrong order, they have to answer to it before a comity, and that is the beauty of democracy.  In dictatorship, there would be no hearing, and those of misjudgement would remain in power.  Now in a volunteering experiment like Milgram's, the people there have no excuse.  They are not bound to get sued if they disobey, they are not bound to anything that should pressure them to comply to this absurd authority.  So why do they go on?  Is the human being somehow bound to its evil nature?  I don't think we'll ever get a real answer because people will not hesitate to lie afterwards and say things like "I knew it wasn't real," "I knew it was a joke."  If they believe that, they are seriously kidding themselves or they don't really care about any life than their own.

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Monday, January 28, 2008

School: Leaning Centre for Dependent Thinkers
Current mood: Critical
Category: Critical Life

    Great philosophers have always encourage independent thinking.  Take for example the movie: "The Dead Poet Society," the poetry teacher tried to teach his students independent thinking and look where it got him! [expelled for those who haven't seen the film]  It seems our society is focused on following the crowd, remake the things that were already done.  I was in the library the other day and noticed how so many books were based on Greek mythology, Celtic myths, other myths of the kind, movies like Star Trek and Troy.  But where are the original stories?  They are so hard to find, it was nearly impossible!  Ok, I found one, but then I read the back and it wasn't that original...

    What does that tell us about editors?  They don't want anything new.  But it's not just an editorial problem.  Look at all the films, remakes of myths, legends, tales, old movies, old TV series, old cartoons and so forth.  Where are the new ideas?  But it's not just the media.  In school, whenever you write something that doesn't fit the teacher's view, you get a bad grade.  Then you take their idea, push it to the exaggeration, and that's how you get an A.  Teachers don't want their students to write new things, they want to write their vision, and their vision fits the vision of the faculty, and the faculty's vision fits the vision of those preceding them, and so forth.

    Students may not like it, but they have to bend to the system under the threat of having bad grades.  Most of us don't agree with the teachers, but after bending to their vision for so long, some might forget what was their own vision in the first place.  This is the school system.  It should prepare us as independent thinkers, but it's not.  It should help us become all we can, but it's not.  All it's doing is recreating the old.  That system is flawed because it leaves no room for improvement.  If change and original ideas are not upheld, how are we going to change the flaws of our own world?  We are drones, working in a way that might not be the most efficient, but because it's been used in the past, somehow society is lead to think it's still going to work tomorrow.

    Did you know the best teachers are not the ones who get the greatest grades when it comes to a teaching test aptitude?  How is it that some of the most successful people in the world barely have more than a high school diploma?  How is it that Einstein failed his math test?  But the greatest cause for distress is how come precose children find themselves more often selling newspaper than graduating from some prestigious university?  Having so many brilliant children's abilities wasted is a shame and a loss to all of society.  After all, who will replace them in positions of power if not those who have been taught to be drones.

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Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Stolen Art
Category: Religion and Philosophy

How is it that since the beginning of time, men have been telling women what to wear and how to cook?  Men have become chefs, fashion designers, makeup artists, and hair dressers.  But how is it, when it was women who started this trend?

    House wives have always been in charge of cooking, sowing, weaving, and cutting hair for their entire house.  At the time, there was no such things as food stores, let along pre-made cooking meals.  Clothing stores did not exist.  Things like tailors appeared later on, when people of wealth decided to make other people do their bidding.  Then again, common folk still had to sow their own clothes and knit their own socks.

    Then men saw money and power opportunities in the common choirs of women, and turned these mundane things into valuable forms of art.  Why did women not think of it sooner?  They would have been able to have that power for themselves.  But the truth is, they were too busy raising their kids and taking care of their house.  There was no time to worry about power and public acknowledgement when they barely had time to store food for winter and enough clothes to keep everyone warm.  Then BAM!  Men created these jobs and called themselves fancy names, taking away the very thing women were at the origin of.

    The worst is, people accepted it, forgetting to honour the women who were at the source of these inventions!  Then  before they knew it, women were being told how to cook and what to wear, forgetting that they were the mistresses of these arts long before men called themselves Chefs and Designers.  Even hair styling is now dictated by men.  Men telling men how to dress and how to cut their hair is one thing, but who are they to decide what is best for us?  They can make suggestions, but it is up to us to decided how we want things to be.

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The Daughter of Flames (on the side Chronicles)
Current mood: content
Category: Writing and Poetry

Hi, this is an entirely different story than the novel, this is just for fun. OK, I stole my own characters =).The idea is, there are so many untold stories you can make with the same characters, it's all a question of when things happened.  A novel cannot cover an entire life of adventure, let along seven.  So, I decided to have some short chronicles of it when the inspiration comes.  I hope you enjoy it!

??-- I don't know about you but sometimes I wonder what would happen if you rewrote a hundred times the same story.  Can you make them all as interesting? --??

Escaping

"What was I doing so far from home?" I wondered with an exasperated sigh.  "Was I not happy?"
    I was, or at least I thought I was, but I felt the compulsion to go away.  I needed to be alone.  Then I choked a laugh, knowing how I was once afraid of finding myself alone.  But now, it was too demanding to be constantly surrounded, feeling the critical eye everywhere.  It seemed people not only expected things from me, but also to behave by their standards.  I hushed them through threats but their silent gaze still said it all.
    I had flown for hours, hoping to flee the very thoughts that drove me nuts.  I was tired and was forced to rest.  The sunlight was dimming.  I knew I would not make it back before dark.  My companions would be worried but I had no way of warning them.  Then I remembered how they never asked for my permission when they took leave, so why should I?  I knew it was an irresponsible thing to say, being who I was, that did not make it any easier to do the right thing.
    I had longed for these vast mountains and plains.  They made me feel at peace and they made me feel as though I could let my guard down...  Then the ground gave in under my feet and I slipped down a grassy slope.  Before I could catch my breath I found myself attacked by living plants!  I knew one who could do that, but she was my friend!  Who?  I had no time to think of the answer as they curled and twisted, slithering around my wrists and ankles.  I was tied down before I could call on my power!
    Then the icy laugh of Demetrius rang.  I knew him, but he was not that kind of wizard... How could he...?  My thoughts were interrupted as he appeared out of the shadows, and gazed tall upon me with his snakelike eyes.
    "I have you now," he mocked.
    "How long do you think you'll be able to keep me here?" I asked, flicking a glimpse of fire within my eyes.
    But a plant quickly slithered around my neck, choking me.  It let go soon after, needing no more time to remind me Demetrius would kill me before I had time to stop him.  He made a tutting sound, mocking my inferior position.
    "I'll keep you as long as I desire," he answered, caressing my face.
    His touch repulsed me and I struggled to get free.  Demetrius  laughed mockingly at my vain effort while pleasure burned in his eyes.  I felt nothing but hatred for him and my hatred seemed to increase his pleasure and his pleasure fuelled my hatred.  The vines holding me slithered tighter, covering me.  I called for my powers but the hold around my neck tightened, forcing me to let go while I choked and struggled for a single breath.  But my lungs would not give it, and I grew weak.
    Another vine crawled over my face, smothering all unspoken insults and swears.  When I let go of my power the vines loosened around my neck and I was finally able to take in some air.  I gasped and looked around before the vines veiled me completely, but Demetrius was gone.  And I sank in a lone darkness.

I waited, with nothing more to do than wait.  I cried, exhausted from my vain struggle.  I was sick and frustrated to find myself so helplessly trapped.  My thoughts went back to my friends and I immediately regretted having left them unwarned.  If only they knew where I was, they would come, but I did not even leave a note.  How could I have?  It was not my intention to leave for so long and I had gone much further than I expected.
    Then a thought stroke me: we had made a pledge, binding each other's lives through magic.  Perhaps through it, I might find a way...  So I closed my eyes and concentrated, hoping to activate this bond or find some door that would allow me to send them a message.  It was my only hope.
    "Salvador?"  I called in my mind.  "Salvador?  Vladimir?  Hatar?  Denemirah?  Anyone?"
    It felt like a vain hope.  Memories of our past lives came flashing through my mind.  Memories...  So dear.  I remembered the good times and the hard times, and how we somehow managed to survive through it all.  Then I felt the faint brush of Denemirah's presence in my mind, and a faint gleam of hope rekindled my heart.  I felt Vladimir's presence too.  It was faint and fast dimming, like a shooting star burning across my mind.  Then I felt Salvador pop briefly.
    They were coming.

********

    We knew Tyal was in danger, but we had to find out where she was.  She enjoyed flying at this time of the afternoon, but she was never far.  Except today.  Had I known something would happened to her, I would never have left her alone...
    And I cursed myself for it.
    But there was no time to dwell on this.  We had to find her, so we called everyone.  It took some time, but we left as soon as possible.  I led them into the forest, knowing more or less the places she enjoyed visiting, then Denemirah found her tracks and led us on.  It was not long before we found traces of her run.  There was clearly something after her, but what it was, was ambiguous.  We followed, walking into the deep woods.  Then I noticed Cilvaina freezing on the spot and looking up at the trees around with a deeply worried look.
    "What is it?" I asked her.
    "The trees, the plants," she said, somewhat alarmed "they are not part of nature.  Something else is controlling them."
    Kalahan grew himself a spear and shield, and walked prudently on guard.  Vladimir took out his wand.
    "Does that mean you can't control them?" asked Vladimir, looking about.
    "I can try, but there is an evil in the land that must be purged," she said, feeling utterly uncomfortable.
    "Don't try for now," said Vladimir.  "Whoever is behind this, will probably know we're here if you tamper with his magic."
    "I agree, but we must be careful," said Cilvaina.
    We continued walking, remaining on guard at every moment.  Denemirah bent down, brushing the grass beneath her.
    "Her tracks end here," she said, rising.
    "How are we going to find her?" asked Tilliny.
    "We must use the bond," said Hatar.  "That is how she called for us."
    "But how?" I asked.  "We've never used the bond like this before.  I thought it used us, making us cross paths, not the other way around."
    "Yes," answered Vladimir, "but magic is not something static.  It changes and grows with time.  And it's very rarely a one way stream.  Either our bond is growing stronger or we never knew about this, because we never tried."
    "This is all very nice," said Kalahan, "but philosophical questions will have to wait, we need to find her, and fast."
    We formed a circle, holding hands, and closed our eyes as we concentrated on Tyal.  At first I felt nothing.  We continued focusing as hard as we could.  Then, as I concentrated harder, I felt the brush of her hair, and then her smell.  I was not sure if it was a memory or if it was her, but I followed that imprint she left in me, focusing to make it clearer and sharper.  Her face flashed clearly in my mind.  But then it was gone.  Then it appeared again, and faded, trailing away from me.  This time I felt her image pulling me, so I opened my eyes, following the direction the impression made, and I knew she was there.  Everyone was opening their eyes as the circle slowly dissolved.
    "This way," pointed Vladimir.
    And we all followed him.  He went uncontested; we all knew it to be true.

********

    "What do you want?" I demanded once again, following him with my eyes.
    He was brewing some sort of potion, but would not tell me what.  He flicked his cape back and snapped his staff, bolting forth towards me.  He planted his fist next to my face, bringing his face up close to mine.  His grin fell into a threatening stare.
    "I want you," he said, separating each word.
    That was when I understood his meaning.  He wanted to control me.  He would need to enter my mind, violating my very being.  I was determined not to let it happen.  So I thought that if he was able to prevent me from bringing out my powers, he certainly could not prevent me from using them within myself.
    He backed off, as if suddenly regaining his calm.  He glared at me, returning to his brew, not knowing what I was about to do.
    "You may have my body," I said, defiantly, "but you will never have my soul."
    He questioned me with his stare and I closed my eyes, calling forth my power to shield myself, thus creating a shell around my mind and soul.  That was what he was after.
    I felt the tight grip of his hand around my neck while I concentrated, binding myself with my power. I slowly built a mental wall around me, cutting myself from this world and anchoring myself deep inside my own mind.
    The world faded, and I lost all sensation of being alive, finding myself alone in a shell as I severed myself from this world, existing only inside myself.

********

    I stopped, suddenly feeling something wrong.  I looked at the others.  They were not feeling it as I was.
    "She's fading from my mind," I told them, afraid.
    Vladimir looked at Kalahan who also seemed suddenly disconcerted.
    "Hurry,"  said Kalahan, leaping forth.
    We ran faster, trying to keep up the pace, but something felt terribly wrong.  Tyal was drifting away.  I feared the worst.  Life would be so empty without her...
    We arrived at some clearing and suddenly were confused about which way to go.  Tyal suddenly vanished from my mind and I crumbled down in tears.  I was shaking.  The thought of being without her, tore me apart.
    Denemirah grabbed my arm, pulling me up.
    "Get a grip!" she slapped me in the face.  "She ain't dead yet."
    "How do you know that?" I asked, angry, in a burst of desperation."
    "Because we don't know that she is," she answered.  There could be another explanation why we can't sense her."
    We all turned to Vladimir who raised his shoulders.
    "We don't know anything," he said, "let's not imagine stories and find her.  We'll see the truth then."
    "How can we find her now?" I asked.
    "We are not far," said Kalahan.  "We need to find something here.  Have faith."

********

    Cilvaina guided us to Tyal, sensing the source of the evil infecting the land.  We had come quite far, and she was able to sense more precisely where the evil was coming from.  We were certain this evil and Tyal's disappearing were intertwined.
    She traced it back to a garden.  And we crawled near the edge in silence, camouflaging ourselves among the flora.  The hill dipped down in a pitch, giving way to a vast garden.  Then I saw her, Tyal, stranded in a bed of vines; her eyes closed and her face lifeless.  My heart sank; I feared for her deeply.    
    Vladimir made a subtle sign to Kalahan, who nodded and made his way around the garden.  Tilliny watched him with her great big eyes,
    "Stay here," Vladimir told her.
    "Hey, I want to help!? she said, insulted.
    "You're plan B," he told her.  "If anything happens..."
    "All right," she said, looking away.
    The rest of us slid down and made our way to Tyal.  Her colours had faded.  She was ties with the vines, impossible to free her without magic,  Vladimir took a last glance around before pointing his wand at Tyal.
    But before he could cast his spell, a giant vine spurred at us.  Cilvaina rose a hand, stopping it right before her nose.  She struggle to push it back.  A wizard came out of the shadows and the vine fell dead on the ground.
    "Ah!" he said.  "That is the other power I felt near."
    With the waver of a hand, he made another vine plunged for Cilvaina who sent the first vine wrapping around the wizard.  Vines grew and flew everywhere.  Cilvaina jumped on one and made a pass behind him.  The rest of us ducked behind Tyal's bed and tried to free her.  Hatar leaped forth to aid Cilvaina, but he was quickly caught in plants.  He struggled to get free as he engulfed him slowly.
    I gathered my strength and threw a lightening bolt at the plant which quivered and released him.  Hatar jumped away before the plant could catch him again.  Vladimir shocked the vines holding Tyal with small bursts from his wand.  They moved a little, but we had trouble getting her out.
    Hatar came, glancing back at the show of plants bursting everywhere, bolting towards Cilvaina or the wizard.  They twirled in a deadly dance.  Hatar then grabbed the vines and pulled them out with all his strength.  Both Vladimir and I gazed at him with surprised eyes.
    Hatar let out a great moan, that echoed in the forest, probably frightening every living thing and making the birds fly away, as he ripped the vines restraining Tyal.  He was about to pull her over his broad shoulders when the wizard came back, leaving Cilvaina running behind him.  He severed her path with a curtain of trees.
    "She may have concealed her fire from me," he said, "but I still have her body for puppet."
    He wavered his hand, and before we could understand what he meant, Tyal opened her eyes.  They were empty and covered in a dark mist.
    The trees bent on each side and Cilvaina jumped on him, pinning him down.
    "Ward, take her down!" he shouted at Tyal.
    And Tyal slipped from our grasp, running for Cilvaina.  Kalahan jumped after her and caught her by the wrist.  I caught her other one and tried to restrain her while she struggled.  She stopped briefly and I passed an arm over her chest, pulling her away.  But she stomped my foot and elbowed me in the belly.  In the shock, she slipped and jumped to kick Cilvaina in the face.  Cilvaina fell on the side, momentarily stunned with surprise.
    The wizard let out an iron laugh as Tyal jumped on Cilvaina, struggling with her.  The wizard got up and faced us with dark threatening eyes.  Vladimir aimed his wand but a plant snapped it out of his hand before he was able to do anything.  The wand flew and fell between lurking vines.  Vladimir jumped for it.
    But the wizard waved his hand and a thick vine slivered around his waste and lifted him high above ground.  I called forth thunder and rain, and tried to hit the wizard who grew a great tree for shield.  And it split in two under my bolt, but the wizard jumped away without a scratch.
    Hatar rammed into the plant squeezing Vladimir without causing any effect.
    "Hatar!" I shouted.
    He looked at me while I gathered a ball of lightening.  He backed off at the sight.  I roasted the root of the vine and it loosened, letting Vladimir slip.  Hatar helped him out.  We ran to help Cilvaina while the wizard seemed to have disappeared.  We got Tyal off Cilvaina and cornered her.  She tried to jump on her again as we laid arms her, restraining her for good this time.  She struggled in vein.
    Water burst, throwing the wizard against a tree and pinning him there.  He had gone hiding but Tilliny caught him.  The powerful beam continued its flow, holding him confused in place.  We jumped to aid her.  Plants were crawling aimlessly towards Tilliny; the wizard not able to see where to direct his plants.  Vladimir grabbed his fallen wand and jumped back to cast a spell when Kalahan slipped from behind a tree and stabbed the wizard in the ribs with his spear.
    Tilliny let go of her hold and the wizard fell, gasping on the ground.  Kalahan grabbed him by the hair.
    "Release her from your spell!" growled Kalahan, in anger.
    "Never!" he said, gasping.  "Attack them!  Kill them!  Now if you ever let her go, she will fight you until you either die or kill her."
    "I'll kill you!" said Kalahan, still boiling with anger while pushing his spear further in the wizard's wound.
    "You already have," answered the wizard with a morbid laugh.
    Kalahan dropped him, removing his spear and taking a good look a him.  He fell, rolling on his back.  He had his hand on his wound, holding the blood from dripping too fast.  But it was useless, the wound was fatal.
    We stood there in silence, watching him die of his slow painful death, agonizing all the way.  We took no pleasure from it.  We looked at each other, not knowing what to do.  Vladimir walked before Tyal, looking worried in her eyes.
    "At least she's not dead," said Denemirah.
    "What can we do?" asked Tilliny.
    "I can try to reverse the spell," said Vladimir.
    "I thought spells couldn't be reversed," I said.
    "They can't," he said, "unless countered with even more powerful magic.  They can more easily be deviated."
    "How do you mean?" asked Cilvaina.
    "The easiest thing to try, for now, is to switch her loyalties," said Vladimir.
    "Make her our puppy," grunted Kalahan.
    "Then what?" I demanded.
    "We'll see," he said.
    He pointed his wand at her chest while she struggled to get free, and uttered an elven spell.
    "Hear me and obey me, for thy master is gone and you are mine to do as I will as I please," he said.
    A beam of light flashed from his wand and beamed into Tyal.
    "They are friends," he said, "do not fight them."
    Tyal stopped struggling.  We freed her and she remained there, gazing emptily into nothing.
    "It worked!" said Tilliny with faith hope in her voice.
    "Come on," said Vladimir, "let's go home."
    We walked away with Tyal following us.  I kept staring at her.  Part of me hopped she would just turn my way and smile and everything would be as before.  But she didn't.  Her stare low, she walked with us mechanically.

********

    We tried many counter spells, but all worked in vein.  All it seemed to do was hurt her further.  We were on the edge of despair when I took her by the shoulders and shook her.
    "Wake up!" I told her.  "Wake up!  You have to fight this, you're stronger.  If anyone can, it's you."
    I took her in my arms and hug her so tight.  Tears were in my eyes.  The others looked at me, feeling much pity for me and for the friend that we had lost.  Cilvaina stepped forth, as if with the intention of drawing me away, but Vladimir stopped her, shaking his head.  She looked at him questioningly.
    "He might be right," he said.  "What was it the wizard said?"
    Kalahan stepped in, as if waking from a dream, and realizing what was happening.
    "That she hid her fire from him?" said Kalahan, half surprised of his realization.
    "She pulled away," said Vladimir, "that's why we can't sense her.  That's why she's not fighting it!"
    "Without her will," said Kalahan, "the spells could never have worked."
    "You can't free someone who doesn't want to," said Vladimir gathering around me.
    They all came, placing a hand on her shoulder, or mine.
    "Come on!" they shouted. "Wake up!  You haven't finished your task!  You have to wake up!  We need you!"
    "I need you," I said, in tears.
    But she wouldn't wake.


********

    I remember nothing, not even being conscious.  Then I heard a cry; the cry of a young child.  I felt a ripple of energy, suddenly opening a door into the dark shell of nothingness that surrounded me.  A light shone and I felt half conscious of my existence.  The cry became louder and more piercing.  It gave me chill, so much hurt and anguish vibrated in its voice.  And I remembered; the voice was familiar.  I knew that little girl; she was mine.
    My child was calling me, but why was I not there?  Where was I?  I could not remember.  I reached out for that light, as though I suddenly felt drowning and I had to come out.  Then I remembered, as though all was revealed in a single flash in my mind.  I had done this to protect myself.  I became suddenly afraid, that the danger was still there and this was a trap to draw me out, but it was too late, I was submerging into the real world.
    The voices of my friends came to my ear.
    "She shouldn't be here," said Salvador.
    "What's wrong with mother?" cried Adomy.  "Why are you all here looking like that!  Mommy!!!!"
    "Come on," said Cilvaina.    
    "No!" she cried again.  "Mother!"
    "Wait," said Vladimir.
    I moaned, trying to wake myself.  My eyelids felt so heavy and every breath weighted like a thousand tones.  I felt Salvador's hand touching my cheek, then Adomy's.
    "Oh, mother," she said softly.
    Her tender touch seemed to provoke wakening impulses in me.  I grabbed her hand and Salvador's, tightening my grip as though it would help me feel alive.
    When I finally opened my eyes, the sight of them hanging above me, touched my heart.  They helped me sit and I tried looking at them, shaken and still disoriented.
    "What happened?" asked Salvador.  "You wouldn't wake..."
    He laid my hand tenderly against his cheek.  I pulled it back, feeling the ruff edge of his beard.
    "You need to shave," I said with a suddenly laugh.
    He tattered his own skin and looked away, somewhat embarrassed.
    "You scared me," he said.
    "I'm sorry," I said.  "I wish things were easier on us."
    "We, elves, believe, life is a balance," said Kalahan.  "As much as there is light in our lives, there is equally great darkness."
    "As long as we pull it together in the end, that is all that matters," I added.

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