Kallie Berry Cavallo

Kallie was the best dog I've ever had. Not one single person in my life loved me more unconditionally than Kallie did. I got Midnight and Kallie as puppies knowing full well that I would love them like children and spoil them like crazy and one day they would die. I just never expected that today would be THAT day. I had my heart ripped out of my chest multiple times today, the first of which being when I found her curled up behind Sam's chair like she was asleep. The second time was when Midnight jumped into the grave with her...and it broke my heart. I can't say that I won't ever get another dog...just not sure I could ever love another like I did my Lil sweet dumbass baby girl. I will never forget her as long as I live. I am distraught, but it soon will pass. I am going to focus all my energy on Mid for now...take her everywhere with me. I can't bear the thought of her being lonely...being without her sister, her best friend. People say dogs don't have memories and feelings like we do...I say bullshit. You look at Mid and tell me she doesn't look lost. Hug your pups, kiss your kids, or just tell someone you love them. You just never know.

Love,
Alana

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I’ll be waiting...with a gun and a pack of sandwiches
Current mood: nervous

I'm in an awfully weird mood today.  It's one of those days I want to put on my rose tinted glasses and just go for a walk. 

Everything is in the process as far as the new job BS goes.  I'm just waiting to hear back from my new manager with all the arrangements (airfare, hotel, pre-paid visa for meals, etc).  Maybe Jeanie will let me borrow her laptop so I won't be bored at night...so I can watch  Youporn....ha! 

I have a new wart that popped up on my thumb.  Lucky me.  I'm burning it off as we speak with one of those Dr. Scholl's wart remover thingys.  It smells terrible, but really works. 

My lips hurt really bad.  Seems I got a case of wind-burn yesterday.  And I can't find my chapstick.  GOSH! 

I get off work on Friday (my last day) @ 3:30 to drink beer with my former co-workers.  I love Rocktober.

Currently listening : The Bends By Radiohead Release date: 04 April, 1995

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"Careless" Amos Lee
Current mood: blank

You speak of love
But you ain't no lover
You were a friend
More like a brother

As the miles pass beneath me
The sounds made so sweetly came to an end
And no man can deny her but now you're a liar
And you've no room left to defend

When I left
I should have known better
Of the kind of man that you are
You'd have to get her

And I know you got a lot of pain
That's born inside you
But instead of growing stronger
You let it divide you, oh

How could you be so careless
How could you be so careless

And the waves that are crashing
True lives of passion washing on your shore
Yes Sir, life has been costing
A true love's been lost
And I can't get back anymore

And I'm sure
That we both still both love her
And it's a shame we both lost her
And in time lost each other

But a trust has been broken
And words have been spoken
But you can mend
And no man can deny her
And as you laid beside her
I hope it felt good my friend

How could you be so careless
How could you be so careless
How could you be so careless with her heart

Currently listening : Amos Lee By Amos Lee Release date: 01 March, 2005

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Were you ever who you claimed yourself to be???
Current mood: cheerful

Puscifer Album comes out October 30th. 

It's going to be called "V is for Vagina" because Chinese Democracy was already taken. 

Puscifer

"I'm severing the heart then I'm leaving your corpse behind,
not dead but soon to be, though.
I won't be the one who killed you
I'll just leave that up to you."

Currently listening : Underworld By Various Artists Release date: 02 September, 2003

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Ziggy Marley - True to myself
Current mood: busy

life has come a long way since yesterday I say
and its not the same old thing over again I say
just do what you feel and don't you fool yourself I say
cause I can't make you happy unless I am I say I say I

got to be true to myself got to be true to myself

day in day out I've asked many questions I say
only to find the truth it never changes I say
if you don't deal with it it keeps killing you a little by little I say
call me selfish if you will my life I alone can live I say I say I

got to be true to myself got to be true to myself

I don't care if it hurts I'm tired of lies and all these games
I've reached a point in life no longer can I be this way
don't come crying to me I too have shed my share of tears
I'm moving on yes I'm grooving on well I'm finally free I've

got to be true to myself got to be true to myself
got to be true to myself got to be true to myself

Currently listening : Dragonfly By Ziggy Marley Release date: 15 April, 2003

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Study Shows...
Current mood: blah

Drugs are bad, Mkay?

Currently listening : Pretty Hate Machine By Nine Inch Nails Release date: 22 November, 2005

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Costume for a gutterball
Current mood: happy

Finger Eleven KICKED ASS.  They played my favorite song quicksand 2nd. 

Jason took his camera and we had goooooood times.  I hope he got some good pics.  I got a little drunk (I'm paying for it today, TRUST ME), thanks to Beavis behind the bar. 

Dyers at 1:30 in the morning rocked my world.  It was quite possibly the best burger and un-cooked onion rings I've ever had. 

Last night was like old times and I miss doing shit like that.  Hopefully I'll be able to gank some pics from Jason's page soon.

Quicksand
slow sinking feeling kills the mood you're conveying
and it pulls me far down below
it might be best if you go
can it not wait and hope for the best
will it not stop a while to rest
i need to get up never mind cause i've done enough

the world waits around
but i keep slipping and losing ground
do i not try so hard so good
i can't keep changing just because you think i should

said all i need to and you don't understand still
wish you saw picture my mind's eyes are deep
and they're cynical
one taken four more kills the pain healing that sore
i've taken what's left i took it all
and now you won't let me forget

the world waits around
but i keep slipping and losing ground
do i not try so hard so good
i can't keep changing just because you think i should

stop you're talking down
i lack the strength to sit or stand
i lost my self confidence in the quicksand

not now or ever
sink slowly my treasure

Currently listening : Tip By Finger Eleven Release date: 15 September, 1998

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I can't keep changing just because you think I should...
Current mood: cheerful

I won tickets to Finger Eleven.

+ Meet & Greets

+ Their new CD.

Don't ask for my +1 on the guest list.  I already gave Jason dibbs becuase he's my nig. 

Tomorrow is going to be crunk.

Currently listening : Tip By Finger Eleven Release date: 15 September, 1998

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And then there's today...
Current mood: nostalgic

Today would've been Holly's 25th birthday.   

I miss my homie.  It's hard when  you never got a chance to say goodbye.



We are all damaged goods. 

Currently listening : Nico By Blind Melon Release date: 12 November, 1996

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Sell Your Soul
Current mood: working

I think I was just talking about Puscifer the other day...

Check out the interview Maynard did with:

Rollingstone.com

Enlighten yourself. 

Currently listening : Year Zero By Nine Inch Nails Release date: 17 April, 2007

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