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August 17, 2008 - Sunday
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It’s been a long time
Current mood: poor
Category: poor Life
I've been gone for a while. I guess times flies when life is giving you shit. It hasn't really been shit. It's just been hard. Yeah. That's a nicer word for life.
Hard.
Kids are starting school in a week. I'm taking a much-needed vacation their first week of school. Levi started Fire Academy a couple weeks ago and got laid off from his job a week before that. And we're flat broke.
ha.
I've been gone from the blog world for a while now.... mainly because I don't have a phone at home anymore...or internet service. I guess they want money for that stuff or they take it away.
ha.
I knew this time in our lives would be financially trying. I guess I just didn't expect it to be COMPLETE SUCK. What, with all the "financial aid" and "student loan" help we were expecting. Oh wait, they send that money WAY AFTER school starts. Yeah, because THAT'S helpful.
ha.
I need brakes on my car. The back ones. Levi needs brakes on his car. The front ones. They froze up. Pretty bad. So, we're gonna sell this broken down Mini-Van we have to one of those places that come and take your worthless piece of crap cars to car heaven.
ha.
I guess it could always be worse. Or it could be better. I would pick better if I had a choice. I would pick winning the lotto if I REALLY had a choice. Of course, I would still be in this situation until they cut me a check in five to six weeks. So that isn't going to fix anything.
ha. ha. ha.
Have a nice day.
6:29 PM
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July 9, 2008 - Wednesday
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heat
The air, heavy with heat
Smacks my face, upon walking out the door
My sweat has yet to release
Under breasts swollen with motherly fat
Air thick with Summer fires
Smoke is relentless in this killing heat.
1:32 AM
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July 2, 2008 - Wednesday
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Grass
Current mood:  artistic
Category: Writing and Poetry
Summer creaps upon me
Like the fields of blond changing
In the blasted heat
Winter slinks away quietly
In this changing theme
Bruising my good intentions
With golden wheat.
7:26 AM
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July 1, 2008 - Tuesday
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Painting
Current mood: artistic
Category: Writing and Poetry
Sticky hands
Covered in months-old lindseed oil
Dripping within my bag
Bag full of colors
Colors I chose, with indiscriminate abandon
Only to discard
Until you came along,
Burnt Sienna
And Lemon Yellow
To coat my hands in residue
And my canvas in beauty.
8:57 AM
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June 2, 2008 - Monday
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Whatevs
Current mood: artistic
Category: Religion and Philosophy
The Flying Spaghetti Monster.
Weird, yet... interesting.
I think it is simply an answer to the alternative. It is a response to the injection of religion into our government, into our states.
Into our schools.
I've given this issue of religion vs. non-religion a lot of thought. While I understand that a lot of you wouldn't agree with me, that is perfectly alright with me. In fact, I wouldn't like it if everyone who interacted with me agreed with me. It would make for a boring life, a boring world.
8:58 PM
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May 26, 2008 - Monday
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Curious?
Current mood:  blissful
Category: Religion and Philosophy
I've spent a lot of time this weekend reading some of the most popular blogs.
Subjects ranging from "Why Christians are Delusional" to "I Believe in God" to blogs talking about why Obama wants to make a Black America ruled by Islam, and on to blogs about how gay people (possibly) being allowed to be wed in California is the Christians' fault for allowing such sin to run rampant in the first place... along with all those aborters.
.... I wonder if that explains the price of gas.
I have always tried to stay away from making any seriously bold political or religious statements on my blogs. Because I have friends from all walks of life and I never want to offend the people I care about.
But after reading all of this complete and utter tripe this weekend... I have a couple of things I want to say.
1.) Any person who makes it their personal fundamental plight in life to convert another person to their own beliefs by using anything other than love and respect is simply as bad as those they wish to draw others away from.
Ok. That makes no sense. I know. How better to explain it? I think I'm fed up with fundamentalists of both sides. On all issues. For a while anyhow....
I do enjoy reading all people's opinions. Even those that are conflicting with each other. Sometimes rudely. Sometimes ignorantly. Nevertheless...while it's always entertaining, it can be something like smacking one's skull repeatedly against a brick wall.
Anyhow...what was I saying? Oh yeah.
2.) I think all people (of age) should be allowed to marry whothedamnever they please. I am simply amazed. No, flabbergasted, at the complete objection from the half of this state (California) who feels that it is their (God-given) right to tell other people who they are allowed to fuck, let alone marry.
Seriously?
No.... seriously people?
WHY!?
Why do they care who marries who? Ok. I know why. I was raised in "why." I know exactly how they justify it. I know exactly how they make it make sense to them. Do I need to tell anyone?
I didn't think so.
Well, fuck that. I support gay marriage. Give me a petition... I'll sign it and help carry it to the next rational thinking American.
Ok. Enough on that. Except THIS
Yeah. I told myself I wouldn't link anyone's blog.... but this guy is such an asshat that I couldn't resist having at least one person giving him a hard time. Or at least thinking he's an asshat along with me.
So... what am I doing here?... oh yeah.
3.) I'm not a Christian.
There. I said it. Hope that those of you who love me and read this blog continue to love me and refrain from ostracizing me from my family and friends.
(Because that's what they do.)
They close ranks. They talk shit. Oh wait, I mean that they pray for you. With their other "insiders." Which is technically just talking about you under the guise of talking to someone else (God) about you. I'm not trying to be insulting here. I know exactly what I'm talking about and it is exactly what I say it is. I will acknowledge that it is done in love.
From this side of the fence however, it is done in arrogance. I never realized that when I was on the other side of that fence.
I hate to offend anyone. But I'm sure I will.
This has been hard for me to talk about. Because it is easier to pretend to believe than it is to admit that I don't.
Isn't that total irony?
I could talk a lot about this.
But I don't want to.
All I want to say is that if my not believing what you believe is going to be a huge problem for you... then leave me alone. I've had people unsubscribe before because of my religious (or non-religious) sentiments. It won't hurt my feelings.
I'm not one to judge anyone for believing anything. However, it has become very difficult to continue with that ideology in the face of some of the complete ignorance I have been reading lately.
Here's what I believe...
Your rights end where my rights begin. Protect children and old people. Freedom of speech. Freedom of religion. Freedom to love. Freedom to choose.
That's my creed.
Peace.
9:05 PM
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April 30, 2008 - Wednesday
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Ambellina can finally post a blog fuck.
Current mood:  drunk
Category: Friends
Fuck
My blog finally works.
It's been months. Months and months since my blog has worked.
I'll probably post this and then it will eat shit and die.
I miss everyone. If that's all I get to say here in blog land.
Thanks to the new MySpazz application...the one about buying your friends.... I've been able to access my MySpace and do shit. Otherwise, I've been completely ousted.
Fucking dial-up.
Where have I been other than that?
Newly married and drinking a lot. Kinda. Not really. I've been trying not to drink but nevertheless failing at that endeavor.
I've been making dinners and doing laundry.
I've been hanging out outside and listening to music.
I've been broke and mildly depressed.
I've been watching television prior to the digital change that will leave me banned.
I've been here. And here some more.
Where have you been?
11:38 PM
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March 19, 2008 - Wednesday
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Guess What?
Current mood:  loved
Category: Life
We’re MARRIED!
Mr. and Mrs. Tucker.
March 18, 2008.
The Beginning....
7:14 AM
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March 5, 2008 - Wednesday
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AMBELLINA’S Latest Blog Entry
Current mood:  inquisitive
Category: Life
So. Yeah. What'cha all been up to?
I've been doing the life thing. Kids, work, love, home, cleaning, birthdays, etc. It takes a mightly large part of my time.
So. Yeah. I'm planning on getting married earlier than I planned on. We bumped it up to March 18, 2008. Because that was the day we met.
Then.... unexpectedly...
Levi got a new job.
He's going to be working at Comcast. Which is totally awesome. But he starts two weeks from yesterday, which will fall on the 18th. I hate to bump it to the 19th. But it is our wedding. Well, it's our civil union at City Hall anyhow.
I just want to be married. And we have no money. And I want to do it on that day.
It's an important day to us.
Having some money, which is set aside completely for day care expenses incurred with this new job, we have nothing left for a proper "wedding."
I personally don't care either way how we get married. I just want to be this man's wife. It's that simple. Neither do I want to discount the experience at all.
So. Our plan. Get married at City Hall and then have a proper reception later. Where we will...
Jump over a broom. Yup. You read that right.
We're jumping over the broom. And perhaps breaking some glass. And whatever other cool odd wedding traditions we can come up with. Simply for fun and to add our family and friends to the "ceremonial" part of being married.
My question to all of you who have still bothered to read me....
What strange/fun traditions do you know of that we might incorporate into our original reception / wedding ideas?
Thanks for sticking around btw.
7:41 PM
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February 28, 2008 - Thursday
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AMBELLINA’S Latest Blog Entry
Current mood:  angsty
Category: Life
Where have I been?
I'll tell you. I've been practically barred from MySpace. Every time I attempt to load a page it takes roughly twenty minutes to achieve an error message. I have simply given up.
I'm not even sure this blog will work. I'm amazed I made it here in the first place.
I do, however, have MySpace Mobile on my new Boost cell phone. It is really cool to be able to read my blog comments (and not be able to respond), read my mail (and text message a short idiotic response), and check my Yahoo. In fact, my phone internet connection is ten times faster than my home internet connection.... which is just plain sad.
I don't know if it is because there's something wrong with my computer... or if my patience level has changed.
I no longer MyMeth at work anymore. I have too much to do and I feel I'm being watched. Which is slightly creepy and Nazi-ish. But Whatevs.
I do read some blogs on my lunch hour. I just don't comment. I don't have time, or my computer sucks, or I'm simply afraid...
Anyhow. I'm not dead. Just resting. Forgive me my lack of patience. I'll be back as soon as I live somewhere where high-speed internet dares to reach...
Love you all.
11:30 PM
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