DEAR DADDY

DEAR DADDY,

DO YOU WATCH OVER ME?

CAN YOU SEE ME?

WERE YOU THERE FOR ME?

THERE FOR ME

WHEN MY LIFE ALMOST CAME TO AN END

WAS THAT YOUR TOUCH I FELT

GENTLE TOUCH ACROSS MY BACK?

DID YOU WIPE MY TEARS THAT FELL?

DEAR DADDY,

DO YOU HAVE REGRETS?

DO YOU WONDER WHAT IF?

WHAT WOULD MY LIFE BE LIKE?

WHY DID YOU LEAVE?

WHY DID YOU DO THOSE THINGS?

ALMOST AS IF I WAS NOT IMPORTANT?

I ALMOST HATE YOU!!!

BUT HATE IS NOT ME

I WISH YOU WOULD HAVE CHOSE YOUR LIFE

BUT INSTEAD YOU CHOSE TO SELL YOUR WEED

DEAR DADDY

WAS IT YOU

THE SOULS THAT ALMOST TOOK ME IN

BITING MY FLESH

SO DEEP

LEAVING ME WITH THE THOUGHTS

OF A NEW LIFE I WAS GOING TO LIVE

DADDY AT THIS MOMENT I NEED YOU

I BEG OF YOU

MY TEARS PLEASE CATCH

MY LIFE IS IN TOTAL CHAOS

MY LIFE IS A MESS

I NEED YOU

DO YOU REMEMBER THE MOMENTS

WE SPENT TOGETHER?

I STILL REMEMBER YOUR SMELL

SO DIFFERENT

SO YOU

REMEMBER THAT PLAY SNAKE I MADE FOR YOU

DADDY I MISS YOU

I OFTEN WONDER IF YOU WERE HERE TO BE MY SUPERMAN

IF MY LIFE WOULD HAVE CHANGED

WOULD I HAVE BEEN THE SAME

WOULD I HAVE GROWN SO FAST

WOULD I HAVE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH

WOULD MY FATHERS LOVE

PROTECT ME

WOULD THEY HAVE BEEN SCARED TO HURT ME

WOULD I HAVE LOVED

WOULD I HAVE LOVED SO MUCH

FORGIVENESS IS MY LAST NAME

AM I OK?

TRULY, AM I OK.....

SHALL I LOVE GREAT

OR SHALL I REGRET

SHALL I

HOLD SO MUCH INSIDE

OR SHALL I RUN AND HIDE

SHALL I HOLD SO MUCH PAIN

SHALL I

JUST SHALL I

THIS HURTS

DEAR DADDY I NEED YOU!

DEAR DADDY SPEAK TO ME!

COME TO ME ONCE AGAIN IN MY DREAMS

© AMY ANDERSON

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SOUL SEARCHING

Waiting patiently for her

His prey, his mouth waters for her tastes

His nose smells her scent as she walks through Mother Earths night

Fragrance so sharp, cuts right through the bone

Waiting silently he moans

My broken Angel consumed of sin

I shall wash you of my flesh

Our hearts and souls will be at rest

Sadden tears will not fall

I have promised you the promise land

Land of peace and happiness

Land that you are taught to forget

Land that was made for you and me

Walk, or run with me

Take my soul and stand by me

Tear jerking

Soul Searching

Love left unspoken

Waiting patiently for her

His prey, his mouth waters for her tastes

Watching her as she lays upon the wet ground

Soaking in her own tears

Unsure of the world

Not knowing what her future will hold

She loves so deeply her soul still feels the aches

Leaving him breathless and wondering what it will take

What it will take to make her love him again

© Amy Anderson

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BROKEN
Category: Writing and Poetry

BROKEN

HER WINGS FRAGILE

HER STRENGTH PUSHES HER TO TRY

SOARING GRACEFULLY

TO HER DESTINY

HER HEAVEN

SPIRIT ONCE BROKEN

HEART ONCE LOCKED

STILL FINDING THE TIME

TO HAVE THE SHOULDER TO LEAN ON

HEART SO GREAT

HER EYES SEE ALL

HER ARMS ARE OPEN WIDE

OPEN TO YOU

OPEN TO I

HER HEART ACHES

BUT YET HER SMILE SHINES

HER LIFE HAD BEEN UNFAIR

STUBBORN SHE IS

PAIN HIDDEN WITHIN

LOCKED AWAY IN HER LITTLE BOX

LITTLE BITS AND PIECES CREEP

SHE FINDS HER WAY

SHE HAS THE ONLY KEY

SHE KISSED THE PAST GOODBYE

BATHED IN THE KNOWLEDGE SHE HAD

STILL LEARNING FROM

WHAT THIS LIFE HAS TO BRING

SHE DANCES

SHE BREATHES

SHE BREA--THES

TAKING IN HER EVERYTHING

AND MORE

PUZZLED, CONFUSED

SHE PUTS THE PIECES TOGETHER

AND SETS HER SPIRIT FREE

SHE MENDS HER WINGS

AND FLIES

SOARING WITH THE WIND

© AMY ANDERSON

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WHAT DO YOU DO, WHEN YOU KNOW SOMETHING IS BAD FOR YOU?
Category: Writing and Poetry

EVERYTIME I TRY TO GRASP FOR AIR

IT SEEMS IT IS OVER

POISON IS WHAT YOU ARE TO ME

CHOICES TO MAKE

PAIN OF THIS MOMENT

I KEEP TURNING BACK TO WHAT I

NEED TO WALK AWAY FROM

I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO

I KNOW THIS IS NOT GOOD FOR ME

WHAT DO YOU DO?

LOVE IS KILLING ME

CONSUMING MY EVERYTHING

TAKING ME

RAPING ME

HOLDING ME

I NEED TO WALK AWAY

I HAVE BEEN LIVING IN A ILLUSION

BELIIEVING EVERYTHING WILL BE OK

AM I OK?

I AM OK

OVER

IT IS OVER?

I LOVE YOU

AM I STILL IN LOVE

MY HEART HAS BEEN TAMPERED WITH

I DO NOT LIKE THIS

I HATE TO SHOW THE WEAK SIDE

YOU MAKE ME WEAK

TASTE WHAT I LOVE THE MOST

I WILL WALK AWAY

I WILL BREATHE

I NEED TO WALK AWAY

AWAY FROM YOU

YOU HAVE INTOXICATED ME

WE HAVE INTOXICATED ONE ANOTHER

LOVE YOU SAY

THE ONLY LOVE I KNOW IS YOU

I NEED A CURE

EYES SWOLLEN SHUT

MIND RACING

HEART ACHING

WORDS LOST

NOT KNOWING

WHAT IF....

WHAT IF...

WHAT IF....

DAMN YOU

WHY HAVE YOU DONE THIS TO ME?

SO INNOCENT I WAS

THAN YOU INTRODUCED THE POISON TO ME...

EVERYTIME I TRY TO GRASP FOR AIR

IT SEEMS IT IS OVER

POISON IS WHAT YOU ARE TO ME

CHOICES TO MAKE

PAIN OF THIS MOMENT

I KEEP TURNING BACK TO WHAT I

NEED TO WALK AWAY FROM....

WHAT DO YOU DO, WHEN YOU KNOW SOMETHING IS BAD FOR YOU? 

© Amy Anderson

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I LOVE
Current mood: frustrated
Category: Writing and Poetry

Locked inside

Her own little world

In a world

A world she is scared of

Beaten

Broken

Hurt

Pain is all she knows

Pain is all she has been taught

Scars left upon her beautiful body

Every streak leaves meaning to her tears

Her tears leaving the painting upon her soul

Such a beautiful thing

What a beautiful thing

Scars that lead to her heart and soul

She often wondered if that was the map to her soul

Only the true being could read

Only the true could taste it

Only the true

Could breathe it

Only the true could share it

Only the true could believe

Believe in it

Is God there to witness

Are things ok?

Am I ok?

Is it ok to love?

Is it ok to love again

Is it

Shall I love myself before I love again

Have I loved

Or was it a dream

Did I

Did I love?

Has love taken over me

Is it impossible to love to much

DO I LOVE TO MUCH?

Is my heart greater than I?

Do I give to much Love away?

Mother told me

"You have the greatest heart, your love is one of a kind"

Love is all I know

Funny, love growing up was my loss

Love is all I have

Love is all I have

L.O.V.E

Is all I have

With all I have my tear I shed

Offering my everything to quench the thirst

The thirst of those that crave what I have to offer

To those that need the rush

The sweet taste

The sweet taste of my love I have to offer to so many

Lord, I often ask, "How in the hell do I keep up?"

I feed upon my offerings

My own thirst

I drink upon my dreams

And with that

I GIVE

I LOVE

I FORGIVE

I TEACH

I LEARN

I GROW

I LOVE

© Amy Anderson

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LIFE
Category: Writing and Poetry

Life can be kind of strange
Different obstacles you have to take
So many decisions you have to make
A lot of people tend to overlook the important things
Life is teaching us
There are many challenges
Many unanswered questions
Everyday life is like an open book
Every month is a different chapter of your life
Live it mindfully
Love it soulfully
Learn it wisely
Teach it the best way you can
Preach it loud and clear
Take one moment in your being to read it.

Amy Anderson

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PIECES OF ME .1
Current mood: accomplished
Category: Writing and Poetry

She sits there with her souls hand in her own, wondering through her every being. Questioning her reason in this life time. She has felt the pain, taken innocence from her so young, she had faced death of her loved ones, friends and strangers. Her eyes have seen so much in this life, to much for her to bare. "Questions," she has prayed many times. Left with nothing! Anger fills her heart, faith leaves her, her family deceives her. Life is nothing to her! She had faced death, she had tasted her own blood slowly it runs out of her.. Sickness from her own poison, not knowing why she was doing this to herself. WHY! She did not understand why it was her own blood that had taken her down the path of such pain, why they had violated her every being. The only thing she could call her own. So young she was, so many years she felt the same, like a broken record, being played with over and over again... Why is all she wanted to know. This beautiful creature had lost so much in her life, and at the same time she has gained so much. She laughs, her smile so beautiful it lights the room up. She walks with her head up high, so graceful she is.. How is the question she has, How can she manage to smile, how can she laugh? She had lost her faith, she had stopped praying, she had stopped believing in herself, she had stopped loving.

One drink is all it took, the numbness was to easy. Everything just went away, the feeling was an addiction. The addiction hit her in the ass. The addiction almost took her life, her children cried, her marriage went, it just went to a place tucked away. Will she face death once again? DEAR GOD, will it be in the same way? Is this her mission in life? To feel so much? Addictions is all she wrote! Writing her sorrows away, slowly sipping her everyday away.

Never ending battles she faced

Her mind and heart races

Shall she give up?

Shall she leave?

Shall she live?

Shall she breathe?

SHALL SHE BREATHE?

One sip at a time, she will see

For it is her destiny

WHY?

THE QUESTION WILL STAY.

© Amy Anderson

TO MY READERS.....

I HAVE DECIDED TO OPEN MY HEART TO ALL OF YOU. MY RECENT POSTS PLAY A GREAT DEAL IN MY LIFE. THEY ARE PERSONAL AND WILL BE IN MY BOOK. IT HAS BEEN A ROUGH ROAD FOR ME, BUT I KNOW IN THE END ALL WILL BE BEAUTIFUL FOR ME. I KNOW EVEN THEN I WILL BE ABLE TO SHARE THE HIGHEST OF THE HIGHEST WITH EACH ONE OF YOU. MAY MY WRITING HELP GUIDE, HELP HEAL, HELP LOVE...

Currently listening : Mind, Body & Soul By Joss Stone Release date: 28 September, 2004

5:41 AM - 2 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment

Grandmother
Category: Writing and Poetry

GRANDMOTHER

I sat on the corner with you

So fragile and confused

You spoke of life

You managed to smile

I began to cry

You do not belong out here

Your beautiful use to be soft skin

Has been taken

Your hair is breaking

Your eyes have turned against you

I sat there for a while

Clutching my voice

And read to you like a child

You seemed to have enjoyed that

We talked about life and other things

Than I realized I was all you had concern for

Showing me around the place you call home

I looked up and there was the full moon lit sky

A broken down building

That is our everything

The night turned into a soft summer day

You looked at me with the cutest smile

Your face so filthy from the nights air

Your fingers so dirty

Nails bitten away

Your back hunched over

As if that was next to go

I wish you would come home with me

To share my whole hearted love

You sat on the corner

The place you call home

I whispered I love you

And cried all the way home

I know soon your life will be better

When your soul drifts away

There is a throne waiting for you

On the other side

Also knowing you will watch over me.

I love you Grandma!

© Amy Anderson

4:24 AM - 4 Comments - 4 Kudos - Add Comment

My Life Story
Category: Writing and Poetry

LOST In this world we call home

Not knowing what is next

Not knowing when our last breath will be

Born not knowing what is next

In the end we leave forgetting

We leave helpless

Being taken care of in the same way we were in the beginning

Shall our souls hold the book of you and me

My life story

Where shall It begin

From start to finish?

From finish to start?

My life lesson I am still trying to find

Lessons, let me see

I have felt pain

I have tasted blood

I have cried a million Seas...

I have lost those I love dearly

I have said my good byes

I have been raised

Raised without my Father by my side

I have prayed

I have laughed

Have I lived?

Is this my destiny?

Shall I write?

With my blood and tears

Shall I teach a lesson

A lesson, to get through such..

Such emotion

Such pain

I have learned from my past

Let me teach my lesson to you

My heart is great

My soul has no regret

My life, YES! Has been hard for me

But my love Is that much greater

I can Laugh...

I can smile...

I CAN BREATHE

WITH MY WHOLE HEART I SHALL WRITE

I can teach

I can share until my dieing day.....

© Amy Anderson

4:47 AM - 5 Comments - 6 Kudos - Add Comment

LIVE LOVE AND LAUGHTER ( Happy New Year)
Category: Writing and Poetry

SOME THOUGHTS

TO START THE NEW YEAR

Hope you enjoy them....

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

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