IF A MAN WANTS YOU...

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.  
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.  
Stop making exc uses for a man and his behavior.  
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.  
Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be.  
Slower is better.  
Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.  
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve  
then heck no, you can't 'be friends.' A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.  
Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.  
Don't stay because you think 'it w ill get better.' You'll be mad at yourself  
a year later for staying when things are not better.  
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.  
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.  
He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant,  
Why would he treat you any differently?  
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.  
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.  
If something bothers you, speak up.  
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.  
You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.  
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has  
more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god.  
He is a man, nothing more nothing less.  
Never let a man define who you are.  
Never borrow someone else's man.  
Oh Lord!? If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.  
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.  
All men are NO T dogs.  
You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two-way street.  
You need time to heal between relationships..........there is nothing cute about  
bag gage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship  
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists  
of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.  
Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.  
Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and your  
always readily available to him- he takes it for granted.  
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.  
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.  
Share this with other ladies..... You'll make someone SMILE, another  
RETHINK her choices and another woman PREPARE.  
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate  
them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.

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READ THIS!!!!!!!!!
Current mood: pissed off

Harley and I have enough going on right now without other people spreading rumors and talking shit. If you have nothing better to do with your time than talk shit about other people, we don't need you in our lives...

here is the blog he just posted.. I feel the same way and my friends list will be diminishing quickly as well.


----------------- Bulletin Message -----------------
From: Harley
Date: Aug 17, 2007 9:31 PM


I have just been informed that there are some new rumors going around and want them squashed NOW!!! It is going around that I have told people that Jenna molested our kids. Let me tell EVERYONE that I NEVER said that about her to anyone or posted it in any blog or bulliten! NEVER would I accuse her of something like this because it just isn't true. Yes I have been very upset with her recently and yes we are finally getting a divorce but I don't want people spreading shit like this around and saying that I started it. It's really sad that some people have nothing better to do than spread rumors and keep them going around. Let me assure those of you who have spread this around and repeated it, Jenna and I will be looking into pressing slander and defamation of character charges against all the people involved in this matter so if you don't want to be involved then don't spread shit like this around. If you hear it from someone then do the right thing and tell them to shut the fuck up and let me and Jenna know who they are and what they said. This is the most horrible kind of rumor to spread and I can't fucking believe people who were supposed to be our friends are telling it to other people. Well I for one will be trimming my friends list down here shortly. I already know who some of the people are who are spreading this and attributing it's origin to me. To those of you who have done this here's a big FUCK YOU LOSER and hope you rot in hell for this shit. And with that I'm done. Peace to all my true friends.

7:46 PM - 8 Comments - 9 Kudos - Add Comment

ADDICTION

As a sick addict I scramble for you
That lust ridden animal clawing
Slashing within my chest
Imploring for release

A frenzied beast
A furious rage
Sent to ravish you
To violate you

Conquered by
This frantic starvation
This over eagerness
To feel your body wrap around me

Harried I ride you hard and fast
My fingers digging with anxious greed
To satisfy my need.

I pin you down
Taking you
Dominating you
Controlling you

You have brought this vexation out of me
This unbridled thirst
This infatuation for flesh

You have fought the flaming reigns from my hands
Reigns that cannot govern this mad surge
Reigns that I must somehow gather back

To gain control
To freeze this beast
To check my vapid lust
To master my breath

My body
My need to spill

Hold

Let my heart calm
As your pulse rages wildly within
Let my breath ease

Insatiable
Want
Need
I fight myself back

Become
Tender
Smooth
Soft

A caress
To possess your flesh
Before my lips
Begin to kiss

Every fine movement of my body
Every vague motion of my hips

Dangerous
Causing you to tremor
Causing your nerves to cascade with fire

Beautifully sensitive

You will give way 
To the gentle aspects of this great addiction

This slow deliberate exit and entry
This stall of movement inflaming your senses  
Made to drive you mad
Insane with hunger

Your nails lash at my skin
Grab and rip at my back
To leave your flesh wasted
Smoldering with obsession

You beg me
You yearn for me
To mark your body
That everyone becomes aware
That I was there.

Currently listening : Egypt Central By Egypt Central Release date: 26 April, 2005

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A LITTLE GAME

Leave your name in my blog comments. Once you do that, this is what I'll do for you...

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me. (if possible!)
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wondered about you.
8. If you do this you MUST post this on yours. You MUST. It is written.

10:40 PM - 71 Comments - 38 Kudos - Add Comment

TIRED
Current mood: depressed

So I'm in one of those moods today that I just want the whole world to disappear. I'm tired of trying so hard to make everyone else happy when I'm so freakin miserable all the time. Maybe one day I will find my peace of mind... but until then, I feel like I'm falling apart. I miss Chris and I hate the feeling that I'm losing my faith. I don't know what to do about that and really don't have anyone to turn to.. It seems like most people are around when it's convenient for them.. or when they need something from me. I'm sick of giving myself to so many people with getting nothing in return. I know that sounds extremely selfish of me, but it's how I feel right now. I give myself so totally and completely to everyone I care about, and then they turn around and walk all over me. I know I'm venting, but it's starting to really bother me. My heart is breaking, and lately I've felt so hollow. I don't know if I will ever be able to love anyone again, I'm so tired of being burnt. There are so many people in this world that are far worse off than I am.. so I really need to just count my blessings and be thankful for what I already have and not attempt to keep searching for something better. I don't think "something better" even exists. I'm tired, mentally and physically. I'm to the point of not even wanting to get out of bed in the mornings. I don't know what I'm going to do at this point with my current relationship status. I'm not in love with Harley, but I know he loves me so maybe I just need to stay with him. I realize you can't choose how your heart feels, and you can't make yourself love someone.. but lately he has been good to me. I'm just so unhappy with everything in my life right now. I need my best friend, and she isn't here. I've never in my life needed someone as much as I do right now. I'm ready to have a sever emotional breakdown... I know I'm on the verge of it, and yet every day I just attempt to stuff it further and further inside. Hopefully one day I won't just explode, but I'm terrified that day is coming soon. I just want to leave, and never look back.. but I know I can't do that. I need to get away, even if it's just for a little while. I actually am considering checking myself into a hospital or something very soon. I can't take much more of this. The mood swings are getting worse, and I feel utterly lost. It seems like everytime I let someone into my life I always push them away. I hate that I do that but I'm so sick of being hurt.... and I'm tired of being the one that hurts them. I need to do some serious soul searching sometime really soon.. I just never have time.. or the patience. Most days it's all I can do to keep from locking myself in my room and crying for hours. I NEVER use to be that way. I just want to be happy.. is that too much to ask for?? I hate feeling worthless.. and unwanted. Even though I know I shouldn't because there are several people that need me around, mainly my kids. They are my reason for breathing. I don't know where I would be without them. I'm hurting, and I don't understand why....

I need my faith back, I need alot of things actually. I'm done for now, I think I'm gonna attempt to go to sleep.. since that's all I've wanted to do lately. Maybe tomorrow will be better, but I somehow doubt it............................

Currently listening : Karma and Effect By Seether Release date: 24 May, 2005

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CUTS YOU UP (my new theme song)

I make no apologies
For the past
I had to live
Through it all to get
Where I am
Fuck it all

If you don't like what I am
Then don't you
Look at me
Who ever made
You a god
Who ever gave
You the right
To criticize
Take another slice

Cut out shut out run out
Tear digital noise out
It cuts you up
Cuts you up
It cuts you up

I take no bullshit
In the past
I took it all
Never again
Shut it up
Put it out
If you can't handle this shit
Then don't you
Stick around
What I became is stronger
What I have made
You cannot criticize
New found eyes

~Static-X

Currently listening : Cannibal By Static-X Release date: 03 April, 2007

4:32 PM - 3 Comments - 6 Kudos - Add Comment

IF YOU WERE HOME....
Current mood: sad

Just for this morning, I am going to step over the laundry,
And pick you up and take you to the park to play.

Just for this morning, I will leave the dishes in the sink,
And let you teach me how to put that puzzle of yours together.

Just for this afternoon, I will unplug the
Telephone and keep the computer off, and sit with you in the
Backyard and blow bubbles.

Just for this afternoon, I will not yell once, not even a
Tiny grumble when you scream and whine for the
Ice cream truck and I will buy you one if he comes by.

Just for this afternoon, I won't worry about what you are
Going to be when you grow up, or second guess every decision
I have made where you are concerned.

Just for this afternoon, I will let you help me bake cookies,
And I won't stand over you trying to fix them.

Just for this afternoon, I will take us to McDonald's and buy
Us both a Happy Meal so you can have both toys.

Just for this evening, I will hold you in my arms and tell you
A story about how you were born and how much I love you.

Just for this evening, I will let you splash in the tub and
Not get angry.

Just for this evening, I will let you stay up late while we sit
On the porch and count all the stars.

Just for this evening, I will snuggle beside you for hours,
And miss my favorite TV shows.

Just for this evening when I run my finger through your hair
As you pray, I will simply be grateful that God has given me
The greatest gift ever given.

And when I kiss you good night I will hold you a little tighter, a little longer.
It is then, that I will thank God for you, and ask Him for nothing,
Except maybe, for one more day.

I miss you baby girl... come home soon.

12:16 AM - 7 Comments - 10 Kudos - Add Comment

RANDOM THOUGHTS

I'm at a blogging crossroads. My time is taken up with other obligations, and I'm beginning to have an" I'll write later" attitude. I can't help but notice that my content has become more superficial, and less significant. I'd need to get to a place where I can really organize my thoughts and feelings and put "pen to paper"…so to speak. I can remember a time when I'd post once a day, it seems like I'm in a slump. I'm looking for some inspiration.
Time can easily get away from you, as it has me which is why I didn't blog recently. Life gets busy and somethings just have taken a back seat.

Life can be anxiety-provoking. But I hate to waste the quiet times; the peaceful moments that could be spent reading, laughing, cuddling. Sometimes, like everyone else at one time or another, I have to shake myself and give myself a stern talking-to. But tonight my ill-feeling seems to have evaporated on expression. No need to chastise myself further. All I need now is a cup of hot chocolate, and a good book. I need someone right now, and I thought that I would have someone here with me. But for some reason, I need to do this on my own.

 My mind is running everywhere. When I sit still, it feels like my mind itself, my thoughts themselves are vibrating. I feel shaky, but inside. I cannot sit still in my mind. I can lay perfectly still in my bed, on my bed, and I do. But I feel like the ceiling is twitching and changing shapes and coming closer, and then going further away from my face. It feels like I am sweating when I am not. I am having nightmares and I genuinely am worried that I am losing my mind. I actually feel nuts inside, and I am totally aware that I am losing it. I feel on edge and tense, and I have this horrible cloud inside of my stomach that I think recharges while I sleep every night. My mind goes blank when I try to think about what I am about to say to people. My mind wants to jump into a car, and run over anything rational that comes out of my mouth. I am trying to remember things like days, and events and memories, but I cannot find them. I am so unsettled inside and restless. I feel lethargic.

Basically, I just need to be alone for awhile to sort things out in my mind. I feel like everyone and everything is smothering me and I'm unsure of how to handle things right now. I just need time to be me, I need to get my life straight, and accomplish the goals that I want to accomplish in my life. I want to give my kids a good life, and I realize that they will soon have a broken home.. but they will still also have 2 parents that love them more than life.

I do need my friends right now.. but I also need my quiet time. Please understand if you've written me and I haven't gotten back to you yet, I just have a lot going on right now. I love all of you guys so very much and thank you all for being there for me. I just want you to know that if I happen to disappear for awhile, everything is fine, I just need the break.

I don't really have anything else to say right now so I guess I will stop here........

8:22 PM - 9 Comments - 14 Kudos - Add Comment

TO BE A WITCH

To be a witch is to love and be loved.
To be a witch is to know everything, and nothing at all.
To be a witch is to move amongst the stars while staying on earth.
To be a witch is to change the world around you, and yourself.
To be a witch is to share and give, while receiving all the while.
To be a witch is to dance and sing, and hold hands with the universe.
To be a witch is to honor the gods, and yourself.
To be a witch is to Be Magick, not just perform it.
To be a witch is to be honorable, or nothing at all.
To be a witch is to accept others who are not.
To be a witch is to know what you feel is right and good.
To be a witch is to harm none.
To be a witch is to know the ways of old.
To be a witch is to see beyond the barriers.
To be a witch is to follow the moon.
To be a witch is to be one with the gods.
To be a witch is to study and to learn.
To be a witch is to be the teacher and the student.
To be a witch is to acknowledge the truth.
To be a witch is to live with the earth, not just on it.
To be a witch is to be truly free.

We are not evil
We don't harm or seduce people.
We are not dangerous.
We are ordinary people like you.
We have families, jobs, hopes, dreams.
We are not a cult.
This religion is not a joke.
We are not what you think we are from looking at t.v.
We are real.
We laugh, we cry.
We are serious.
We have a sense of humour.
You don't have to be afraid of us.
We don't want to convert you.
And please don't try to convert us.
Just give us the same right we give you--to live in peace.
We are much more than you think.

Wicca is not a cult. A cult presupposes blind faith in a central figure whose every word is regarded as ultimate truth, and the utter conviction that no other way or philosophy will lead to this truth. You would be very hard pressed to find a Wiccan anywhere who would blindly follow anyone else. Wiccans are historically very independent people who seek truth from within through rituals, meditation, magic, study and communion with nature. Wiccans respect the right of everyone to worship in their own way. We do not feel that Wicca is the only way -- only that it is our way. Wicca is not synonymous with Satan worship. The very concept of a supreme evil spirit is alien to Wicca. In fact, most Wiccans do not even believe in Satan. The devil is a Judeo-Christian construct and as such, it has nothing to do with Wicca. The notion that witches worship Satan was propounded by the Roman Catholic Church as it made its way across Europe, in an effort to suppress the native earth-based religions prevalent at the time. They succeeded to the extent that they drove the practitioners of these religions underground where much of their knowledge and traditions were lost. Through the work of the Golden Dawn, as well as anthropological and archeological research, many of these traditions have been rediscovered and incorporated into Neo-Paganism, an umbrella term for most modern earth-based and shamanistic religions. Wicca is a positive journey to enlightment through Goddess worship and the mystical art of magick. Unlike many other religions, Wicca does not claim to be the one and only "religion" for everybody, nor does it campain against other beliefs. Wiccans believe that you can be of any "religion" and still be Wiccan and follow the Goddess and God. Wicca is not anti-Christian, Wiccans do not believe in an advenging God, sin or the devil. Wicca encourages free thought, creativity, individuality, personal, spiritual and psychic growth. It is a celebration of the cycles and seasons of the earth and life and believe in living in harmony with all living things. The Rule of Threes - This lesson well, thou must learn, Thee only gets what thou doust earn! Ever mind the Rule of Threes, Three times what thou givest, returns to thee! The Law - We are of the old ways, among those who walk with the Goddess & God and receive their love. Keep the Sabbats and the Esbats to the best of your ability. To do otherwise, is to lessen your connection with the Goddess and God. The Rede is the all important part of the life and is not to be broken. Harm non, this applies to all creatures of great and small. Misery is self-created, so is joy, so distain from misery and unhappiness. Do as ye will but harm none. Teach only what you know, to the best of your ability, to those students that you choose, but teach not to those who would use your instruction for destruction or control. Also teach not to boost your pride, forever remember: She who teaches out of love shall be enfolded in the arms of the Goddess and God. Ever remember, if you would be of our way, keep the law close to your heart, for it is the nature of the Wicca to keep the law.

4:30 PM - 3 Comments - 8 Kudos - Add Comment

FORCED

Thoughts of giving up float through her mind.
She doesn't understand how it is that
They don't see her...
They don't acknowledge her...
They treat her as if she's something they can just walk through.

She cannot fathom how to live a life
That is not full of pain or regret.
A life where she matters...
A life in which she's more than a friend...

If only she could find that life...
Like she was in a movie...
One with a happy ending where she
wouldn't have to hide behind her mask of lies.

She's tired of acting like she's ok...
Especially when on the inside she's far from it.
Truthfully, she's so torn up inside,
you wouldn't be able to stand it if you knew.

If you only knew what she goes through
just to force a smile and a laugh.

3:23 PM - 5 Comments - 8 Kudos - Add Comment

S.T. KNOW HOW I FEEL...

I scream at the sky, it's easier than crying
I'm shyish when I'm shouting out loud
I feel so alone in a room full of people
I'm loudist when I'm in a crowd
I'm alone, and nobody hears me
Can't nobody heal me, won't somebody help me
I'm alone, I just need..
Someone to take my hand and pick me up when I'm feeling down
Someone to take my heart and give it a home
Someone to be with me and help me through the times when I'm down and lonely
Someone to be with me when I'm alone
I'm alone, all alone
Alone is the way I live, it's not the way I want it but you
know
You can't give in, alone is the way I feel, it's so hard to
understand
Why I've got to be alone

If you look in my heart you'd see it
I'm trying to be something better
If you look in my heart you'd feel it
I've got to keep moving on
If you look in my heart you'd know it
I'm just trying to make my world better
If you look in my heart you'd see it
I got to do it alone

I've been down, I've been down
I've been down, down, down so low
I've been lost, so lost with no place left to go
I've had emotions, emotions that you better hope you never
know
Sometimes it feels like I just can't take no more

If you look in my heart you'd see it
I'm trying to be something better
If you look in my heart you'd feel it
I've got to keep moving on
If you look in my heart you'd know it
I'm just trying to make my world better
If you look in my heart you'd see it
I got to do it alone

Seems like things just keep getting further out of hand
Why can't for once things just go as I plan
How dare you, how dare you tell me that you understand
Let me tell you straight out, there ain't nobody here that can
I'm all alone, I'm so alone, to be alone, just leave me alone

If you look in my heart you'll see it
If you look in my heart you'd feel it
If you look in my heart you'd know it
I'm not trying to make no one bitter
I'm just alone, leave me alone, alone alone, now leave me

I've lived in places that you wouldn't never ever want to be
Places where for a minute you couldn't ever stand to be
I've seen things, I've seen things you'd never want to see
SO what gives, what gives you the right to be the judge of me
I'm all alone, I'm so alone, to be alone, just leave me alone

A room full of people, can't nobody help me, I'm alone
I just need someone to take my hand and pick me up when I'm feeling down, when I'm down
Someone to take my heart and give it a home, when I'm down
Someone to be with me and help me through the times
I'm down and lonely, when I'm down
Someone to be with me when I'm alone
I'm alone, all alone
Alone is the way I live, it's not the way I want it but I
Know I can't give in
Alone is the way I feel, there ain't nothing quite as sad as
A person that's alone

~Suicidal Tendencies~

5:50 AM - 7 Comments - 7 Kudos - Add Comment

PAIN

So I've been thinking alot lately about different things. My mind has been non-stop for a few weeks. I can't sleep, and it's driving me nuts. I have to vent.. haven't thought this out.. so I'll just type it as I think it.

Why is it that the past can be so fucking painful? I'm too fucking trusting, and have always been the type of person that would do absolutely anything for anybody. I've never taken the time to actually be happy myself. My entire life I have done nothing but try to please others, listen to their problems when they needed me, etc. etc. I'm sick of always being there for everybody else when so many times no-one has been there for me. I always bottle everything up, and I am so fucking sick of always pretending like everything is ok. I still can't get over the shit that happened to me in October. So many people that I was so close to just fucking turned on me. It's complete and total bullshit. I have so much pain in my heart right now and just don't know how to deal with it. I'm tired of the nightmares and the panic attacks. Will it ever fucking stop?? I almost feel like all the bad shit that has happened to me over the past few months is karma's way of getting back at me for things I did in my past. I seriously can't take this anymore. Anybody that knows me knows that I am extremely open and honest about anything and everything, but when it comes to my personal feelings and my pain, I tend to keep that to myself. I stay awake at night and cry just for the fact that I don't want my kids, or Harley to see me hurting. He says I can talk to him about anything, but I just can't talk to anyone about this. To the few people that stayed by my side and helped me through the first few weeks of that, thank you so very much, I will forever be grateful to you. This is just absolutely killing me.. they say things get better with time but that's bullshit, I think this is getting worse. I'm getting to the point where I just want to shut out the whole world and never trust anyone again. I feel so stupid and used. No, this is not meant to be a "pity me" blog, I just have to get this shit off my chest. Sometimes I wish I could just take something to fall asleep and never wake up. I'm not suicidal, I love my family far too much for that. I'm just so tired of living in pain. I think "he" honestly believes there was nothing wrong with what he did to me. He's a sick person.. and I won't wish anything bad upon him because that's not how I am, but I will say karma will get him eventually. I try my best to stay positive and happy and live every day like nothing is bothering me. It's getting harder and harder to do that. I just want to sleep..... I'm tired of crying, tired of the nightmares, and tired of him being in my fucking mind. I don't know what to do..... I just give up...

***Update:

I am so very sorry I haven't been myself lately, things are still getting worse for me.. I got maybe 30 minutes of sleep last night. I'm completely wearing myself down and there's nothing I can do about it. I don't even know what else to say....

Thank you so very much to everyone that has been there for me. You have no idea what that means to me, and you will forever be in my heart.

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IF YOU WERE GOD

1. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?
**Damn I only get to blow up one person?? That sucks!

2. You can flip a switch that will wipe any band or musical artist out of existence. Which one will it be?
**Damn again with the only giving me one thing!! I'm God, let me blow up all the emo fuckers.

3. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?
**I can't say the bitches name.. but she knows who she is, and she knows she has it coming.

Where the fuck is 4???

5. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your immediate disposal. what kind will you make?
**Turkey, Bacon, Ham, Swiss Cheese, Lettuce, Tomatoes, Salt, and Pepper on White Toast.

6. You have the opportunity to sleep with the movie celebrity of your choice. We are talking no-strings-attached sex and it can only happen once. Who is the lucky celebrity of your choice?
**Trust me, if they slept with me it would happen more than once :P But I'm gonna have to say.....Chasey Lain (porn is considered a movie)

7. You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who do you pick?
**Ok since its my choice, I want an orgy.. all involved would be..
Mercedes Lander, Shirley Manson, Kate French, Amy Lee, Phil Arcuri, and Alexi Laiho... 5 girls 2 guys.. yep sounds like fun lol

8. Now that you've slept with two different people in a row, you seem to be having an excellent day because you just came across a hundred-dollar bill on the sidewalk. Holy shit, a hundred bucks! How are you gonna spend it?
**2 people! Hell I just had an orgy! I guess I would use it to replenish my stock of anal lube and condoms.

9. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
**New York :P

10. Upon arrival to the aforementioned location, you get off the plane and discover another hundred-dollar bill. Shit! Now that you are in the new location, what are you gonna do?
**Find a strip club and blow it, why the hell not, I already had amazing sex twice today.

11. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. It is . . . ?
**Jack Daniels.. accept no substitute!!

12. Rufus appears out of nowhere with a time-traveling phone booth. You can go anytime in the PAST. What time are you traveling to and what are you going to do when you get there?
**Hell if I know, I have Jack, had great sex, and now I'm drunk and exhausted.

13. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?
**Nudity!!!

14. You have been given the opportunity to create the half-hour TV show of your own design. What is it called and what's the premise?
**"Metal Nympho's" Nothing but naked chicks getting wasted, listening to GOOD music, and licking each other ;)

15. What is your favorite curse word?
**Fuck

16. One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren't really doing anything; they're just standing around your bed. What do you do?
**Decide I've drank too much Jack, and go back to sleep.

17. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don't worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what's the item?
**My box of autographed Dime memorabilia.

18. The Angel of Death has descended upon you. Fortunately, the Angel of Death is pretty cool and in a good mood, and it offers you a half-hour to do whatever you want before you bite it. Whatcha gonna do in that half-hour?
**Share my Jack, get him wasted so he forgets why he's here, then go to the strip club.

19. You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What's it gonna be?
**Teleportation

20. You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
**A half hour wouldn't be enough ;)

21. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
**I already did that

22. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit . . . you can move to anywhere else in the world! where?
**Ireland

23. This question still counts, even for those of you who are under age. Check it out. You have been eternally banned from every single bar in the world except for ONE. Which one is it gonna be?
**Fats.. the only bar I go to.

24. Hopefully you didn't mention this in the super-powers question . . . If you did, then we'll just expand on that. Check it out . . . Suddenly, you have gained the ability to FLOAT!!! Whose house are you going to float to first, and be like "Dude, check it out . . . I can FLOAT!"
**The only stoner I can think of off the top of my head, my brother..

25. The constant absorption of magical moonbeams mixed with the radioactive vegetables you consumed earlier has given you the ability to resurrect the dead famous-person of your choice. So which celebrity will you bring back to life?
**DIME-without question

26. The Celestial Gates of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn't think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is still a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person, etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?
**I've lost too many very close friends, this would be a very tough decision.

27. What's your theme song?
**Depends on who you're asking. You tell me.

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HOMOSEXUALITY

The world is not black and white. Although it is sometimes hard for people to see the shades of gray that they do not understand. It is this attitude that all things fall into extremes that keeps many people from learning about and adopting the label, Bisexual.

Despite this there are many people who identify as bisexual in this world. This is the label that they feel best describes their attractions, be they physical or emotional, towards different genders. Often times one may remain unaware of a friend or relative's bisexuality because of this tendency (by either party) to classify everything as either gay or straight.

A person's decision to be monogamous with a partner is an individual choice influenced by many things involved in a relationship and in that person's own personality. Some bisexuals have open relationships and have relations with different people of different genders on different levels. Other bisexuals are in long term monogamous relationships, including faithful marriages. It is not unlike being straight or gay or lesbian and in a closed relationship. Different people simply make different choices as to how to go about relationships. This is not determined by the person's sexual orientation but rather by themselves and, in some cases, their partners.

A person's sexual orientation is defined by their enduring emotional, romantic, sexual or affectional attraction to other people. There is absolutely nothing wrong with you or what you want. You and only you know what is erotic and acceptable to you. The first person I was with, was a girl. This is a good way to tell if your bi-curious... If you had one sexy women and a buff hot guy infront of you. And both were naked and ready for action. Which would turn you on more? Personaly I feel a chick is more sexy naked than a guy. The sexy curves women have and how solf their skin is. But I also have to have a man at times. To be thrown around and treated rough with. To be honest, you would be selling yourself short if you dont do what you want in life. I used to live my life by what others thought, or what i thought they would think. Luckily enough i learned from that mistake fast enough while I am still young. I have done things my way for a while, and haven't looked back. Bsides, being with a woman isnt the worst thing in the world. Been there, and to be honest, there was more passion there then with most men I have experienced.... Jump in head first ( pardon the pun LOL ) live with no regrets!

Currently listening : The Darker Side of Nonsense By Dry Kill Logic Release date: 19 June, 2001

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WICCAN WISDOM

First of all; Wicca doesn't seek new members. Wicca does not solicit because, unlike most religions, it doesn't claim to be the one true way to Diety. Unlike some religions, Wicca doesn't view Diety as distant. The Goddesses and God are both wiithin ourselves and manifest in all nature.

Wicca is a joyous religion springing from our kinship with nature. It is a merging with the Goddesses and Gods, the universal energies which created all in existance. It is a personal, positive celebration of life.

The Goddess is the universal mother. She is the source of fertility, endless wisdom and loving caress. As the Wicca know her, she is often of three aspects: the Maiden, the Mother, and the Crone, symbolized in the waxing, full and waning of the moon. Since the Godess is nature, all nature, she is both the Temptress and the Crone; the tornado and the fresh spring rain; the cradle and the grave. No matter how we envision her, she is omnipresent, changeless, eternal.

The God has been revered for eons. He is neither the stern, all powerful diety of Christianity, nor is he simply the consort of the Goddess. God or Goddess, they are equal, one. The God is the fully ripened harvest, intoxicating wine pressed from grapes, golden grain waving in a lone field, shimmering apples hanging from verdant boughs on October afternoons. The God was the Sky Father, and the Goddess, the Earth Mother. The God of the sky, of rain and lightening, descended upon and united with the Goddess, spreading seed upon the land, celebrating her fertility.

Wicca understands that what we percieve to be the difference between the physical and the non-physical is due to our limitations as materially-based beings. Some of the tools used in the practice are indeed non-physical. Three of the most effective of these are music, dance, and gesture. Music is simply re-creation of the sound of nature. Dance is certainly an ancient ritual practice. Gestures are silent counterparts to words.

Know that using the power for harm is a perversion of life itself. Never mock the rituals or spells of another, for who can say yours are greater in power and wisdom? Ensure that your actions are honorable, for all that you do shall return to you three-fold.. good, or bad. Honor all living things, for we are of the bird, the fish, and the bee. This is the nature of our way.

1. Know yourself

2. Know your craft

3. Learn

4. Apply knowledge with wisdom

5. Achieve Balance

6. Keep your words in good order

7. Keep your thoughts in good order.

8. Celebrate life

9. Attune with the cycles of the Earth

10. Breathe and eat correctly

11. Excersise the body

12. Meditate

13. Honer the Goddess and the God

**If you believe that a spell has been cast against you, place a large black candle in a cauldron (or a large black bowl). The candle must be tall enough to extend a few inches above the cauldrons rim. Affix the candle to the cauldron with warm beeswax or the drippings of another black candle so it will not tip over. Fill the cauldron to the rim with fresh water, without wetting the candles wick. An inch or two of the candle should remain above the water. Deep breathe, meditate, clear your mind, and light the candle. Visualize the suspected spell's power as residing within the candle's flame. Sit in quiet contemplation of the candle and visualize the power flowing and growing with the candle's flame (yes, the power against you). As the candle burns down, it's flame will eventually sputter and go out as it contacts the water. As soon as the flame has been extinguished by the water, the spell will be dispersed. Break your visualization of the spell's power; see it explode into dust, becoming impotent.Pour the water into a hole in the ground, a lake, or a stream. Bury the candle, and it is done.

~Blessed Be~

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