(Sic)
Current mood: anxious
Category: Writing and Poetry

                        time is lifeless
            and by its side I lie motionless...

ripped away from this apparitional plane
            and the promises...
                        (promises)
[promises] that we made to each other
                                    have withered away
                                                and eroded to antiquity

{I don't even remember anymore...(sic)}

                        but it was propitious
in a different era...

my eyes behold what once was
                        and the fire burns within them
            only for a moment
                        until the last tear manifests
                                    extinguishing with its aqueous body
                                                dreams that will never live again

and in this instant the last remaining piece
            falls from my cold, black heart
                                                (down)

                        [down]

Currently listening : Thirteenth Step By A Perfect Circle Release date: 2003-09-16

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Unforgiven
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Writing and Poetry

Unforgiven

times of trial loom perilously
                like an oncoming storm
                                with seemingly infinite bounds

 and the eyes
                {those eyes}
                                that peer through the murk
                                                remain steadfast upon my face
                        judging, watching, waiting
                pleading for change again and again
just waiting for the sun to shine through once more

                                but all perception transcends to black, pervasive darkness
and perspective bows to the beast in times like these...

                                yet, this is where I reside
                my feet planted on little more than the tear drops
 the perpetual nightmare manifests

                                                its everything I can do
                                to oblige the ever watchful eyes
                and survive to contemplate if the sun and I
will ever meet again...

Currently listening : For My Friends By Blind Melon Release date: 2008-04-22

7:03 AM - 2 Comments - 6 Kudos - Add Comment

Lost In The Shadows
Current mood: anxious
Category: Writing and Poetry

There's a fire
            dancing in the moonlight
                        reflections of your eyes
            are cast into mine
as we become lost in the shadows

                                    not knowing which way to turn
                        we are misplaced in our own world
            a labyrinth of immense proportion
that we're made fit to wander
            until the day we die

I can only hope that this journey
            doesn't leave me alone
                        to turn to dust
                                    and blow away with the icy wind
                        forgotten forever
            under the façade of darkness
where no one will ever know the difference...

Currently listening : Morning View By Incubus Release date: 23 October, 2001

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Apathy Is A Cold Body
Current mood: depressed
Category: Writing and Poetry

A tree
stands alone in a field
            a swarm of blackness
                        enveloping its limbs
            dark birds
His birds
            cackling as they amass
                        the moment becomes reality
                                    and the tree shatters

                        there's nothing left now
            but a cold body
lying on the floor
      apathy is a cold body...

5:54 PM - 5 Comments - 16 Kudos - Add Comment

Death
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Writing and Poetry

            Death
                        the darkness
            what it all must be like
            the slow moments of fading
                        and knowing that you want it
forgetting all love
denying all aid
                                    just to let yourself slip away
                        and silently diminish into the midnight mist
            while the rest of us carry on
mourning your memory
            but it's not right
                        the cards fell askew
                                    this isn't the way it was supposed to be
                        or maybe it was
            and I just cant see
the grand scheme
            through the cloud of old memories
                        and the shards of lives shattered before yours...

7:49 PM - 6 Comments - 12 Kudos - Add Comment

A Silent Echo
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Writing and Poetry

Listen to the sound
            meandering
                        hollow
                        like a shadow

the sound
            (silence)
                        [echo]

a silent echo
            dances its way to the glass tree
                        where we all lie in wait
            for a sign
to wake us from our slumber

shattered dreams
            fall from the tree like leaves
                        hit the ground with such fervor
                                    it seems impossible to hear
                        anything but the chaos
            but if you listen past the leaves
eventually you will find happiness
            in the silence
                        then you'll wake

5:59 PM - 12 Comments - 26 Kudos - Add Comment

Sunlight
Current mood: cheerful
Category: Writing and Poetry

I step into the light
            and see what the world has to offer

            no longer hiding in the shadows
I wipe my furrowed brow
                        and pillow my eyes
            for the sunlight has finally
shone down on me

Currently listening : Tom Petty & the Heartbreakers - Greatest Hits By Tom Petty & the Heartbreakers Release date: 16 November, 1993

9:44 PM - 4 Comments - 12 Kudos - Add Comment

Family
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Writing and Poetry

Silently I ponder the possibility
            of where your life is going
                        and how mine will intertwine
                                    with the strings of hope you carry

                                    time is no longer my enemy
                        for in time you will grow
            and so will I
just by watching you
            and lending a helping hand
                        whether you need it or not
                                    my hands will always be there
                        as a steadfast plateau for you to stand
            on top of the world
looking down

like the river runs
            so will the love we have
                        an opulent flow
                                    showing us the way
                        so we know that
            we'll always have each other
when everything else is gone away

7:38 PM - 12 Comments - 24 Kudos - Add Comment

Enlightenment (Comes In Small Packages)
Current mood: cheerful
Category: Writing and Poetry

Enlightenment
            (comes in small packages)

staring straight
            into the sun
                        and my eyes have never seen
                                    with such clarity
                        as they did this morning
            when I woke up
with my little girl next to me

my life becomes something now
            I have a purpose
                        meaning put to an endless struggle
                                    I don't need to struggle anymore
            I am forever entwined
with you my sweet Avi

like a rose
            I flower with pride
                        no longer do I feel
                                    too deep inside
                                                to find my way back home

6:22 PM - 11 Comments - 22 Kudos - Add Comment

Boxes
Current mood: tired
Category: Writing and Poetry

 Swirling
            splashing
 twirling
            thrashing
                  my mind embraces
                        the silence
            as a drop lifts to the air
and lands in my lap
            starting a fire

a nonverbal connection
            from across the room that never ends
                        (blackness in between)
                        and irony
                                    oh irony

 tiny people
  step out of boxes
   to find another day's night

   thoughts
  trailing off as smoke
 into the darkness

memories and...
            a new stain on my pants

6:25 PM - 9 Comments - 20 Kudos - Add Comment

The Glass Tree
Current mood: determined
Category: Writing and Poetry

reflection
            staring at the sun
                        a shining gateway to the world
            that I've never known
and it's just in my grasp...

                                                (a doorway)

like a glass tree I wait
            for the stone to be cast
                        and for me to shatter
                                    but if the stone remains grounded
                        the sun will permeate
            and colors like I've never seen
will be cast across my world

            (with that in mind)
I think it's time for me to be free
            to become who I want to be
                        before someone casts that stone
and decides finality for me

Currently listening : Blind Melon By Blind Melon Release date: 22 September, 1992

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Finding The Floor Home
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Writing and Poetry

Finding the floor home
            on a wanting Friday
                        a fixture in the mist
                                    body lying in wait

                        scaling the mezzanine
            of brick wall solace
forgoing any trials
            letting this state of denial
                        reign over this day
                                    just like any other
(but I'm worried...)

            the meds
they make me feel more alive
                        but when the crutch becomes home
            is when a problem arises

my day is planned
            I am the fixture on the floor
                        there's nothing wrong
                                    just, solace is hard to come by naturally...

2:29 PM - 5 Comments - 14 Kudos - Add Comment

Porcelain Strings
Current mood: listless
Category: Writing and Poetry

Fire
    alive
      under the icy surface
                        a drop in the darkness
            illuminates all

porcelain strings
            hanging from the sky
                        tell the tale:
            a life lived in the murk
of the everyday
as they fall
            one
by
                        one
            to shatter like concrete branches

teardrops on fire
            fade away
            until there's nothing left
            to see

7:06 PM - 6 Comments - 14 Kudos - Add Comment

Blind Beauty
Current mood: working
Category: Writing and Poetry

This is a re-post I really like

Thought, creeping along through the night:

We lie side by side in pervasive ivy
Thorns protrude where gentile fingers did once reside
I turn to you and caress your skin
only to draw blood
tiny sickles continue the wound
arduously eroding the skin
revealing what never has been
a light, a fire
drawn in black, fine lines
what was once hidden from the naked eye
now spills to the ground
creating a mosaic
for the world to judge
but it's not their place to see
blueprints to a machine no one will grasp
they can not understand…
how it is to wait
through pervasive darkness
for the last
breath

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Conflicted
Current mood: melancholy
Category: Writing and Poetry

Conflicted
            my mind traverses the possibilities

a fork in the road
            which way am I to go
I'm leaning left
                        but I want to be right
        so I'll stand at the crossroads
                    just for tonight

tomorrow a different story will shine
            I'll have a little one
and she'll be what's on my mind

but today I feel trapped
            lost in what I've become
                        wrapped in web
            the spider closing in
I have to ask
            where did this begin?
                        and how will this chapter end?

9:02 PM - 7 Comments - 12 Kudos - Add Comment