What the shit is this?

1) My work Entourage crashed this afternoon and apparently I lost the past year and a half's worth of emails. Sent, received, calendar, notes, reminders, and my address book.

2) Beck's last tour? http://www.spin.com/articles/reverberation-beck-sessions

3) NKOTB reunited? http://celebrity.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=celebrity.icon

4) Traci catching up on all inconsequential news via MySpace?

5) What the shit IS this?

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what’s left after that’s all gone, i hope to never learn

the bed smells filthy and my skin is perfumed and clean. it's never the same as it was in the beginning but then again I'm not as delightful as I had ever thought.

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I miss

how i used to blog.

with words and stuff. strung in coherent sentences. sentences that weren't necessarily cryptic or vague or frustrating to read if you were trying to figure out what was going on in my mind.

i think once i fell in love i unconsciously started censoring myself, and i'm not quite sure why the two are related. if they are.

or maybe i stopped sharing because there were so many things going on that weren't shareable. if that's the case then i've been living a non-shareable life for more than a few years since.

that's got to stop, if i'm intent on telling these things called Stories. but fuck there's so much i just can't say right now.


tell me how to break free.

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2 of Damon’s demos are up

Now give a listen and let him know what you think:


my tiger luck



I SAID NOW

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So my instincts are all fuckers, you say

Friday, July 11, 2008

Aquarius (Jan 20 - Feb 18)
An odd juxtaposition between knowing what you want and doing what others expect can tilt your day into the twilight zone. You might not fully understand what's going on if you try to intellectualize every interaction, yet letting go of your need to know what's right should loosen things up significantly. Forget about logical analysis; just follow your instincts and they will lead you in the right direction.

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Slow to anger. But I'm all caught up now.

I'm still pissed off from the last session, I just realized.

From shock to annoyance to confusion to pause to anger.

When D contacted C without my prior knowledge, P asked me to extrapolate on how I felt about that, I said I felt self-conscious, embarrassed, and that I hated drama.

D interjected with "so that's why you cause it?" and laughed.
P chimed in "bingo!"

and I went blank for a bit, and withdrew a little, all the while trying to explain how else I was feeling.

a bit later P said she didn't mean to be so harsh about it and she said we should come up with a new word that meant the same as I had said but with less judgment.

So instead of "drama" she came up with "complicationship".



Me, a day later, decides that was bullshit.

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Horoscopes back to being scary accurate

Friday, June 27, 2008

Aquarius (Jan 20 - Feb 18)
You have the intensity of fire in your eyes now and the strength of your conviction can actually be scary to someone close to you. Although you don't necessarily feel angry, it's apparent that you will fight for what you want. If others seem confused by your intentions, assure them that you mean no harm and that you are just very passionate about what you know. Then, take a deep breath and tell your story.

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WHA DA FUCK CAN’T WIN AUGHH

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Aquarius (Jan 20 - Feb 18)
Anything that's new and different will likely seem like a better idea now than the same old thing because you are seeking escape from your routines. But your rebellious planet Uranus turns retrograde today, so you may stop short of going over the edge. If you resist, you'll probably wish that you'd let go of control. But if you surrender to your whims you might wish you didn't. Whatever you choose, accept your decision as the best choice you could make at that time.

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Nothing to say, except that this is all true:

Monday, May 19, 2008

Aquarius (Jan 20 - Feb 18)

Today's Full Moon brings to you an awareness of your desires and an understanding of how fulfilling them changes the basic foundation of your home and family. It's not that you must make a big choice; it's just that the two sides of your life sometimes feel so far apart. Go easy with yourself now, for decisions will become more obvious in a few days.



Today's fortune cookie:
Before you can see the light, you have to deal with the darkness.


THE END

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Anniversary

As of today, it's been a year since we last saw The Chocolate.

... Another bummer blog, brought to you by the makers of Lame & WTF.


Message to life today: GET OFF MY FUCKING BACK FOR AT LEAST A MINUTE SO I CAN BREATHE KTHXBYE



I leave you with more pictures than you care to see:















We miss you, Chocs. Come back home any time.

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NYCC

Be there in 6 days ...
I am 50% excited and 90% terrified.

Damon is almost done with a new song. I'm collecting bits and pieces of a new story. Neither of us has picked up pen nor guitar like this in years but it feels more like the future than it does the past. Is that what happens?

Is this what was supposed to happen?



The spring that was and the spring that is to be;
there now lies an ocean between them

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What really matters is what you like, not what you are like

I bought the following books before dinner:

_From the Letters of Abelard and Heloise_
_Love is a Mixtape_ by Rob Sheffield
_Edward Hopper_ by Lloyd Goodrich


Is there any truth to that, Hornby? You tell me.

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If you care to know

The funeral was fine.

Some things I learned:

-Saturday services are $600 extra, and Rosehills doesn’t operate on Sundays.
-Viewing the interment costs $400 extra.
-The cement casing over the casket (to prevent from cracking open after burial) is also extra, but completely necessary and not included in the original casket cost.
-Death is the biggest racket ever.

-Family meals should be decided by 2 people, tops. No one else should be allowed to change meal plans once it has been finally decided, after the fifth time it’s been finally decided. If plans take twice as long as actual intended meal, you have failed.
-Coffee doesn’t cure sleep deprivation. Sleep does.
-Ask your parents the questions you’ve been meaning to ask. Sometimes they’ll answer and it’s worth it.
-Watching your grandmother cry is hard. Accepting money from your grandmother is hard.
-Watching your partner experience pain because of you is not something you ever want to do.
-Life is a confusing mess, especially if you think you know exactly what you’re doing.


Maybe sleep will fix this feeling. More cigarettes certainly won’t.

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Office vs. Fire

Large, but hopefully worth it. That'swhatshesaid.

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Praise Fuck

Praise haircuts!

Fuck sore throats! 

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