Studies
Current mood: clear
Category: clear School, College, Greek

Well, I have finished the first path, the Path of Self, through the Crossroads Lyceum.  I performed the Rite of Abundance this morning, early early while avalon was sleeping. 
  I am very proud of myself.  And though I would love to share much about what has happened for me I think it best to keep it personal and sacred.  Ever since I started this course three or four months ago I have felt myself changing- my consciousness, my perspectives, etc.  In the same respect I've also had to deal with inner demons and my shadow self, but that is all part of knowing thyself and growing.  These are truly the first steps to creating a better relationship and communication with the Goddess.  This is life work.  And to know that I can do this while raising a baby with another on the way makes me feel like a stronger person.
  Having the support of Connia and my path guide Nimue, as well as Dhavalya, gives me that much more strength.  

I look forward to continuing my journey on the next path.

Goddess Bless

Currently listening : The Cure - Greatest Hits By The Cure Release date: 2001-11-13

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From Gurudeva’s Teachings
Category: Religion and Philosophy

Here is a little wisdom from Gurudeva:

To understand the mysteries of the soul, we distinguish between the soul body and its essence.  As a soul body, we are individual and unique, different from all others, a self-effulgent being of light which evolves and matures through an evolutionary process.  This soul body is of the nature of God Siva, but is different from Siva in that it is less resplendent than the Primal Soul and still evolving, while God is unevolutionary perfection.  We may liken the soul body to an acorn, which contains the mighty oak tree but is a small seed yet to develop.  The soul body matures through experience, evolving through many lives into the splendor of God Siva, ultimately realizing Siva toatlly in nirvikalpa samadhi.  Even after Self Realization is attained, the soul body continues to evolve in this and other worlds until it merges with the Primal Soul, as a drop of water merges with its source, the ocean.  Yea, this is the destiny of all souls without exception.

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Pagan Parenting excerpt
Current mood: inspired
Category: Life

Here is an excerpt from a book i've been reading called 'Pagan Parenting' by Kristen Madden.  She has some really good advice and points, and I totally agree with her on this one:

"While these chakras are developing [in babies], the energy field is wide open to external influences.  This is yet another reason to maintain a healthy and honest environment around our children.  They can and do pick up the psychic and emotional atmosphere of the family,  even repressed or hidden issues.
    Any conflict or violence in their environment has the potential to damage the chakras of both children and adults and cause blockages or soul loss.  I believe that much of the juvenile crime and teen pregnancies we see today are the result of generations of wounded souls, reacting out of their own pain and numbness.  These children are no longer able to feel a connection to their expanded selves, other beings, or the natural world.  As a result, respect and honor have no meaning.
  Children know instingctively to go to a trusted person for comfort and protection from these influences.  When we hold our children, we are effectively shielding them with our energy fields; much like a mother does when still pregnant with her child.  We provide the buffers they need until they develop their own.  When a child has no buffers, the wounding can be extreme."
 

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My carpentry skills
Current mood: productive
Category: Art and Photography

Jesus, step aside!  there's a new carpenter in town!   j/k, but I've been wanting a new shelf for my music stuffs, so i tore apart some old dresser drawers and made this awesome shelf.  it still needs some glue for extra hold and some paint.  I so proud of myself

finished product soon to come!

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beltane eve

On this Beltaine eve I have spoken words I ought not to...though had I not, I might not have found progress or healing on my path.  This eve I should be celebrating and doing ritual, but with a baby it's hard to do many things, even such things as this. And I compare myself to Guinevere...why I have I become a martyr for love...why do I feel like such an inconstant woman, still trying to retain the purity of a priestess?  I don't know anymore.  maybe i am supposed to be a lonely priestess.  Or maybe my idea of partnership is something only found in books or in myths.  maybe i seek what cannot be found. 

I wish things were simple.  I wish I had not hurt anybody.  but i suppose i have learned some things and that is part of the evolution of the soul.  is it not?

happy beltaine.

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avalon’s first picnic
Current mood: blessed

   So I decided today, as it is just glorious outside,  that Avalon and I should go for a picnic.  So I packed us some ritz crackers and cheese, and nectarine, and some water....bugs are buzzing, birds are chirping and we land at our destination...

...unfortunately, we had to flee the area because a swarm of bees only a few yards away from us.  but on the way back we encountered a 90 year old woman walking her dog, fit as can be.  We talked about bees and babies.  I left that conversation with a tingling on the top of my head.  I would love to encounter her again.

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a petal from the lotus
Current mood: calm
Category: Life

written 3/8

Beautiful.  Life is beautiful.  As I lay here in bed with my daughter and watch her sleeping I weep with love and awe.  A fountain of thankfulness and graciousness pours forth from my heart center.  She is so pure and filled with the most divine light and love.  She is goddess.  The lotus bud that rises above the murky water to bloom into divine beauty, such sweet fragrance.  And I have this sweet moment- I will take this with me through life, I will take this with me when I die.  This is true love.  This is life and nothing compares to these raw fragrant moments.  These enlightening truths that make me realize why I am here...to explore the touch, the joy and heartache.  I am thankful that I get to share these beautiful moments, these physical moments with the ones that I love. 

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personality test
Current mood: amused

i don't think this is a very accurate test guys.   every conclusion i've read is so negative.  it really likes to throw all the bad shit at you.  i don't think you have so much to worry about, dev.

Love is...

So goddess, what is this?  It is love.  And so I dedicate this song to those who are caught in love's web...we know who we are and where we have been...

Love is- stevie nicks

Do you know what this is
No, I don't
But whatever it is
It's very powerful
Have you felt this way before
Oh, I thought I knew
Do you know that I love you now
Oh yes, I do

Love is...
You've got the softest lips

You know that I cannot stay
Yes, I know
It has nothing to do
With you or with love
Oh, yes it does
Do not call or come around here
Do not tell
You know that I loved you then
Oh well...

Love is...
You've got the softest lips
Love is...
The touch of your fingertips
Love is...
Knowing you won't let go

She awakens things
That he said he thought were dead
He says, are you happy now
Oh yes, I am
But when it's over
How then will you feel
Will you miss those arms that used to go
Around you

So she stood there in the hallway frozen
In the dark
And her heart broke down
She cried
She fell to the floor

One tear slid across her lips
To the corner of her mouth
Love is...
And dropped to the floor

Love is...
You've got the softest lips
Love is...
The touch of your fingertips
Ooh, she says love is
Knowing you wont let go
Love is...
Watching you go

You're so very powerful
Love is...

Am I happy
Yes I am
Do I know you love me now
Yes I do
Do I know you cannot stay
I know
All about love
All about love

You're so very powerful

Currently listening : Trouble In Shangri-La By Stevie Nicks Release date: 01 May, 2001

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<3 lycan- vampire hybrid <3
Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities

my new favorite.......

Currently listening : IV: Ozymandias By Qntal Release date: 16 July, 2007

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