still in myhead

today i had to take your shirt off,
to get ready to forget you.
i have to take your blanket,
and remove it from my bed.
if only i could bring myself,
to just realize the truth.
i can pack you all away.
but you're still in my head.

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expectations

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wasted

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don’t mean jack

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trust yourself
Current mood: amorous

i had a discussion with a very wise woman last night, who seemed to agree that certain people have different effects on our emotions and self confidence. being that i was drunk, the subject was changed very fast (damn a.d.d.) and was only briefly skimmed, but it's been on my mind so much lately that i wanted to open it back up for discussion. here, on my myspace blog for all the world to see and say exactly what they think.:D really i want to know.

my thought is that someone only has as much control over any part of you as you allow them. so, is that we must not give ourselves in order to not lost our selves? why should we have to, and subject our selves to playing games and not being true to our own emotion???

i don't want to, but don't we all? i don't wanna live my life guarded and feel as if i never gave love a real fighting chance. i want to be able to give someone anything i have to offer and know they would do the same.

i am such the hopeless romantic fool for love. go ahead, say it. you know you want to.:P

now, anyone who knows me knows i have never been the type to ew and an ah over a man, or put anyone's feelings in front of my own in most situations. i have always been the one to be control, or to try to take it, or simply walk away... but for the first time in my life, i want to make someone else happy, not just have them make me happy.  

i love it when he smiles, and i always want him to. it's wild.:D

sometimes i get afraid that he won't feel the same, or that he might think i'm not as wonderful as he once did. i do, worry about whether or not we will be together, or whether or not he will break my heart. but i think there is something to be said about caring that much about another person.

it's quite new to me.:D i love it.

i know that it can be quite unhealthy, and i am glad i have found some one i trust with my heart.:D

i hope everyone else finds something beautiful.

never give up on finding something special, because it could come along at any minute.

it comes in all forms, when you least expect it, you will stumble into some one who shows you what it means to trust and forgive and hold on even when you feel like running away.

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