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2k8, where do we go from here?
Happy consecutive transition between Dec. 31 and Jan. 1 to us all.

So far the taglines I've assigned to the new year are : 2k8 "Cross the Streams" and 2k8 "get fit as shit." so far so good.

This year I'm gettin' married, buyin' a house, and beginning a lucrative career.

how bout that?

"Cross the Streams in '08"

do a bunch of shit that is dynamic.

J.

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Tuesday, December 25, 2007

The Sandwich

Every 15 months or so I find myself sitting in a hot tub with my dad, at some hotel, somewhere I never expect to be. Almost like clockwork. I spend a year or so in Athens, duking it out, battling whatever the hell forces I feel are currently acting against me, mostly my own invented demons, and just when I can't handle the emotional weight of whatever the hell current agenda I'm tackling, there I am... in the bubbles, chillin' with pops, only thinking about the future, and always positively. He doesn't wear his hearing aids in the hot tub, so mostly he does all the talking, he can't hear what I'm saying anyways. It's always the same topics... what stocks look good, where the market is going, where it's been... "say what you will about George W. Bush, but the market was around 8,000 after 911, and now it's at almost 14,000. That's a 60% increase in only 5 years." Or tell me about how your recording business is going, asking about how my "cashflow is holding up," and what the structure of the business model is, whether it's viable or not over the long run? Is it worth investing in, what are the revenue streams, who are the clientel, what revenue streams am I missing out on? Is it a business that will be viable 10 years in the future? It always ends with him telling me that I should keep doing what I'm doing, which always makes me happy. I spent alot of my life not understanding my dad, not getting his perspective, and to a certain extent, being an artist because he couldn't quantify or transfer my creations to a business model. His father, an electrical engineer who designed power plants, was brutally tedious, he catalogued and weighed every green pepper that ever came out of his garden for the entirety of it's 40 year existence. He kept and filed every negative of every photograph he had ever taken, and had every receipt itemized for every purchase he had ever made. There was hardly room for living in their house because everything was there in a file. The older I get, the more I understand them both, and I can get past the intensity of their organizational concepts. I realize, that no matter how spaced out and trippy I get, there's always an extremely conservative, concise, calculated side to my actions, and it comes directly from them. My mothers father was a minister. A community leader and an extremely thrifty man who lived simply and by principle. He spent his life living passively through music and Biblical history. My mother says I remind her alot of him. I talk alot of dynamics, and dynamics leading to evolution, the future of mankind and the Universe in general. The hot tub, family gatherings, seeing my brothers kids... these are a crucial part of life. They are as important as anything, because they are the constants, the statics, written in history and completely unchangeable, that contradict every dynamic event in my life. My Grandfathers are highly opposing forces: an cutting edge engineer, and a metaphysicist and historian. Between the two extremes, I can almost completely predict my father, my mother, my brother, myself, and perhaps even the next generation. Sometimes it makes me feel like I'm a dead evolutionary thread... I seek a mixture of extreme dynamics and statics, the opposite of myself, but that mixture is also the same as myself. Therefore I can only approach with extreme caution any relationship because the minutiae of our dynamic and static interactions must be polarized in a way that our offspring will have the opportunity to make a large evolutionary statement, and the point of evolution as it were... is either to save mankind, or on a greater scale, to undermine the static rules of the Universe. At this juncture, it makes complete sense to me that I'm a musician.

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Monday, December 24, 2007

Merry X-Mas

Good is a noun. -Robert Pirsig.

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Monday, December 10, 2007

Son’s of Thunder.

That's it,

I have no more social commentary, I have no more ideas, no more concepts, no fresh perceptions of reality. For now at least, I am ready to enjoy the world as it is. Objects, subjects, dynamics. TV, sleep, food. Shooter after shooter can kill and kill in mega- churches and shopping malls and it doesn't have any effect anymore. My mind has already deconstructed that construct. Volatility is in charge. People say "stop the violence" people wonder why the outbursts happen, they try to get inside the mind of the depraved. There's a time for relating, and also a time for reacting, and now perhaps, a time for it not really mattering anymore. Volatility, when left unchecked, becomes more and more volatile. Fire, left unchecked will continue burning, provided there's fuel. Water will keep flowing downhill provided there's no barriers. Dynamics and volatility are crucial. They are the life force of evolution. They cause change, punks cause change, diy kids cause change, artists cause change. But only if there's a group of people questioning what they are doing and acting in opposition. Tension causes growth and adaptation. The fact that this violence is occurring is a sign that change is afoot. Slow, plodding, but eventual change. War, violent outbursts, boy bands, being more badass than the previous guy. Volitiliy is approaching max. We know this because it's causing death and it's happening at increased frequency. Death is the boundary of dynamics. When the tension between opposing forces becomes too powerful, it goes kaput, usually pretty damn intensely. The way to make it stop, is to say f&%k it. That's what I say, let everything go crazy, it'll go crazy faster. Then it'll be more likely that some people with genuine integrity and a strong sense of positive purpose will emerge faster, and people will go with them. For a good while I'd suspect. A brand new Jesus. Or someone like him. Feeling sorry for the dead, the living, praying for peoples family's and well being. Not sure it's gonna help that much anymore, at least for a while. At least while the mindset is "I'ma get mine" The truth is always simple. War, violence, volatility... these are never simple. To be fair, I really just think peoples attitudes are stupid. and to be fair, alot of people probably think my attitude is stupid, and those people are usually in the Marines.

haha... I thought about the military for a minute, but my word, I would never be able to keep a straight face with some dude yelling in my face. I would have gotten fired. That's probably why I make no money and live in Athens, GA where I make music that is for all intensive purposes not changing anything. Cause I'ma get mine too.

I have no idea, none.

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