a new muse with self-imposed punctuation.meaning new?
Current mood: pleased
Category: Music

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a year in repose and reflection.
Current mood: good
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

hey.  so yeah.  just celebrated a year in deutschland.  and you know what?  i'm doing pretty damn well.  came a far way..  started from scratch. one of the most important things i have learned is just that you really have yourself to deal with at the end of the day.  here, just like the islands, you run into all walks of life, people coming, people leaving.  people being forced to make life altering decisions.  i went through a lot of shit, and came out on top.  just too weeks ago, thought i was in love.  just when i was getting my life into order, and my feet on terra firma, they got swept out from under me.  it's been kinda pooptastic,. but oh well, ce la vie.  move up, move on, live life.  i'm in a good state now, and i feel suprisingly lucid.  i'll write some more stuff in a bit, because i have to go to work (again)...haha...miss all y'all.

lates,

b

Currently listening : Empire By Kasabian Release date: 19 September, 2006

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metamorphosizziology of self.
Current mood: anxious
Category: Life

yep.  there it is.  i've created my own vernacular.  it's fun like that.  so yeah. i'm still in this wild transitory part of my life where i'm

a) waiting to outprocess on base

2) waiting to get my visa

c) waiting to move into my new studio (!!!) apartment in the old city

d) waiting to process my international driver's liscence

3) waiting for the freakin' holidays to hit. i love xmas.

needless to say there is a bunch-ton of waiting involved.  but that's ok.  i'm a patient person.  anxious, but patient.  yeppers, it's interesting.  and juggling a pseudorelationship. confusination is at an all-time high. oh well.  keep on keepin' on.  no real choice.  it's especially difficult where there are deadlines on relationships...well at least the physical 'i see u, ur here right now' relationships.  i hate this crap.  as i write this there are a bunch of loud stewerdesses (sp?) waiting to fly out.  oh well, it's alright, i'm listening to afi and venting.   it doesn't make me feel that too peachy keen.  oh and sorry madre, i couldn't talk to u the other day, lost reception on my phone, and i have been working.  so i have tuesday off.  call late.  i have to go to a german building with an abhorrishly long name i don't understand to finalize my visa.  and yes i have translators.  hah. 

hopefully i can start checkin stuff off my list and move in by monday.  i can't wait to go decorate.  and go to ikea.  it's supercool the area of town where i'm moving to, it's called the 'altstadt' which is the oldest part of town, everything's all jumbled together.  i can walk literally 30 seconds to work, produce markets, about 2 minutes to the bakery and butcher, and i live above a bitchin restaurant.  you can hear churchbells from my place.  and i'm 10 seconds from a park where i can walk my chihuahua.  yeah, speakin of which i need to get him his shots.  and fixed.  he likes to hump his little stuffed clown, and it mildly scares me.  especially when he brings it to new friends and shows them his, er, talent.  oh well, talk lates.

b

Currently listening : Black Sails in the Sunset By AFI Release date: 18 May, 1999

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one bourbon, one scotch, and one beer.

wowie.

so yeah, quick updateish.  so couple weeks ago, went to barcelona, with like 5 friends from chilis...freakin fantastic, my spanish is still de puta madre, went all about , las ramblas, la boqueria, sagrada familia, bars.  yep.  been there b4 so, i was like a tour guide...fun.  went to the beach, stole girls clothes, jordan was the nude distraction.  it was so ninja.  so yeah, bunch of stuff happened lately.  i'm now full time at the pub, got my visa, quitting chilis.  yeah, i worked at chilis.  wow.  i hate pseudocorporateamerica.  but i met and worked with some nice people.  so kudos to y'all.  and me.  found a studio apt like 6 doors down from the pub (niiiiiiiiice), so movin in early next month, have my own place.  yay.  my neighbor upstairs is cool as hell, as he likes tequila.  it'll be kinda like office space.  so yeah, things are looking up now, just movin up and movin on.  will be making hella cash, so now i have to apply for my german drivers liscence, open a bank account, and outprocess on base.  so yeah, i'm excited.  start my salary monday, yay.  can't wait, it's a freakin fantastic job, workin at the pub, it just suits me.  and i'm a rockstar.  just ask the chili kids.  so yeah, other than that, helped my roommate move back home to england, so i worked sunday nite til like 3am, talked with some friends till bout 5am, left , drove to calais, crossed the channel, landed in dover round 2.30pm, drove thru canterbury, and parked up in his hometown of sittingbourne..

..funny part was at immigration, in calais, the officer's like 'so how long are you going to be in england?', and i said, 'bout 24 hours', and he's like ' there's not too much you can do in england for 24 hours, just have a couple pints' and i said 'you got it!', he laughed and waved us thru.  yay.

Currently listening : Fleetwood Mac: Greatest Hits By Fleetwood Mac Release date: 25 October, 1990

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the crosswords of my life.
Current mood: pensive

yeah, it's still a freakin puzzle to me.  just commented on a friend's blog, and i've grown up a little bit for the better because of it.  it dealt basically with more relationships, stress, expectations, and self questioning.  how better to find out more about yourself than to just keep posing questions...i guess that's the philosopher in me.  but yeah, love's never an issue, but trust is for me.  there are a couple of ladies in my life who are just as cryptic as a rubik's cube.  all over the map. 

you know sometimes when you think part of the world is crashing down around you and you're standing there, watching your self-cataclysm, and you just keep wondering how you can make things better for yourself and others, but feel so helpless because the chips are on the field and the game is in play and there are no more timeouts.  been there done that.  i don't play that game anymore.  i made up my own.  sure old skeletons can still haunt, and you can't ignore them, but i'm so over it. 

i got a nice compliment the other day....one of my bosses told me that i am appreciated because i'm not all over that map.  i do my shit, have fun, and that's that.  that started to clue me in that i'm finally doing something right and worthwhile.  i'm not in school, i'm a traveller, mind/space/time/whatever.  this is life.  this is now.  there are so second chances for yesterday.  wait for tomorrow and move on.  sometimes easier said than done, but it must be said, and it must be done. 

i got another good compliment from a great newish friend.  we'll call her bissell.  but yeah, she told me that my wisdom exceeds my years.  it made me feel old.  hah.  but no, it was nice to hear because there is chaos happening.  kind of makes me feel more objective and tough. (not unlike chuck norris of course)

...but yeah, that's what i've been thinking about.

Currently listening : A City by the Light Divided By Thursday Release date: 02 May, 2006

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'and i said to myself, "self, when am i going to get my wiffle ball back?"'
Current mood: weird

yay!  the breakfast of champions, surreal of the breakfasts, is now in your kitchen, or on your laptop.  or just all over your lap.  yikes. 

everything's peachy to the keen here,  workin, playing, starting an acoustic band, i think, and it's on the up-and-up.  working on my memoirs of the islands, i'll have to post the start of them...it strips the islands of all idyllic status that anyone who has lived there and moved away thinks....it debases it basically, so i don't think the tourist board would be happy....it's lyrical genius (well, I think so, because i'm a lyrical gangster), and deals with relationships, heartbreak, alcoholism, one night stands, and of course muddaskunts.....

passes the time really well tho....letcha know soon.

Currently listening : From Under the Cork Tree By Fall Out Boy Release date: 03 May, 2005

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WE BROKE POLAND.
Current mood: energetic
Category: Travel and Places

yeah, that's about it. 

jenny.   krakow is AMAzING!  we rented an apartment for like 3 nights....i do like okocim better than zywiec.  and the zobruwka is the best vodka i have experienced.  it's illegal in the states.  i'll send you a bottle.

but yeah.  poland is broken.

spent 3 days in krakow.  incident free.

went to lublin, lake biale...on the ukrainian border.  no incident.

went waterskiing and camping.  the tow-strap broke.  we ran outta gas.  in the lake.  broke the banana boat haulie thing behind the boat.

in lublin.  again.  hopped an electric bus.  it broke.  had to hop another bus.  gas.  did't break.

went to warsaw....meh.

went to auschwitz.  pretty sad, but hey, it's history.

all in all.  go to poland.

cheap, fun, hot ladies.

picne bardzo piani kobieta.

very pretty drunk girls.

word.

dobranotes.  good nite

b

Currently watching : Hoodwinked (Full Screen Version) Release date: 02 May, 2006

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my life would've been a lot different if i had been shot in the stomach twice
Current mood: crazy
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

first of all, this blog wouldn't be here.

waiiiiiiiitin for vacation....poland bound (and gagged), we'll see what's up now..been pretty busy lately, planning my conquest of terra firma, bout midnitish, just had a fabulous nap-dinner (not necessarily in that order), and gouging the night away pixies style.  so far so goodish, but i'm not no doogooder-mamby-pamby scoobie doodad. 

peanut, i do agree with you about christina aguilera, she should be euthanized.

joshua, how's the java brewing?

jenni bluhmers, poland just ran outta zywiec.  i had a party last nite.

maggie, why haven't you called?, slacker.  hahaha

superman: haven't seen the movie yet.  evidently europe doesn't need superheroes.

mr. depp.  yes we're landlocked, pretty much.  not so caribbeanish here.  but i have seen dead man's chest.  and davy jones goes to foot locker.

albert einstein...i know this is americanish, but your last name means 'one mug'-  what's up with that?  i could just see how you came up with relativity.  ps..it's different in arkansas though.

salvador dalí, you're my boy blue.

Currently listening : Doolittle By Pixies Release date: 20 May, 2003

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i'm gonna polka my eyes out.
Current mood: content

actually haven't seen any of that since i've been here, suprisingly so...or lederhosen....i've been gipped.

oh well, weinersnitzel is actually 'vienna' style....go figure.  and now that's stuck in your head...nothing terrible exciting,

i haven't put the chichuahua in the microwave yet. 

oh yeah, i have a chihuahua.  his name's duke (el duque=dookie) and he's like 6 months now.  trying to potty train the little shit.  oh well, he's nice and he cuddles and he wakes me up by licking my face.  i guess there could be worse ways to wake up.  not too shabby.  he plays fetch, sits, doesn't stay.  i'm training him to check my emails.  i'll post pix of him soon.  i have a sombrero for him, it's hot, it's like the little plastic top from a tequila bottle.  oh yeah, he LIKES tequila.  and taquitos.  suprise suprise.

funny thing the other day...this german lady was like 'he looks so tired' so i said, 'he's usually that way after i feed him benadryl and chocolate'...yikes.  think first.

so yeah...going to the czech republic early juli, (gotta see my roots!) and poland (polska) afterwards....camping trip.  never been camping.  depraved, i know.  there's nothing like digging your own hole to poop in.  gotta remember the TP.  pinecones hurt from what i hear.  so yeah, that's about it.

bling.

Currently listening : A Fever You Can't Sweat Out By Panic! At The Disco Release date: 27 September, 2005

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word to deine mutter

your momma.

about to update some stuffage...new pix and whatnot...bout that time me thinks.  so far, so good....no mom, i'm not getting deported.  business is pickin up, so i'm blinging....not too shabby...hope to go to greece in juli, depending....so yeah...my latest mission is to go to Bourges, France on somewhat of a pilgrimage. 

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