Just getting some stuff off my chest....
Current mood: confused
Category: Life

Where to start, where to start....

Man, I don't even know. I have so many things that flow through my head so fast it is hard to keep up with everything I think and worry about.

I guess to start off I should apologize to those close friends that I have been rude or bitchy to. I don't really understand why I feel some of the things I feel sometimes. I have all this resentment built up inside me (not aimed at anyone in particular, just in general) and I can't figure out where it is coming from. Maybe it is a combination of things that have happened in my life and they are just coming to a surface now. I know... lame excuse but I don't know how else to explain it. Or... maybe it is that we are truly growing apart as friends and going our own separate ways, living different lives and wanting different things. I don't really know right now.

What I do know is that we have been there for each other through so many things and even though we aren't hanging out with each other like we use to doesn't mean we never will again. I will always love you guys like family, some days are just harder than others.

I think we have to try and grow with each other and accept the way we are each changing. We have to try not judge each other for the way they are now, which is quite possibly the way we use to be.... As hard as that might be form some of us... (Me particularly) Just please understand that there are some personal things that I am having to deal with myself and I would really appreciate you guys hangin in there and not giving up on me!

I wish there was an easy button for life. It would make things so much simpler, but then again, what would we learn from that? Nothing! So there is a reason that things and people come and go in our lives... to help make us the person we are today.

Relationship wise, I know... you have seen this one a billion and one times on MySpace blogs before but it just helps to get it off my chest. I am not looking to get married tomorrow, but I'm definitely not looking for a fling either. I just want someone that I can spend time with and get to know. I want someone that is willing to get to know the real me and work through my quirks and flaws, as I am willing to do the same in return. Yes, I know this is sappy but you will just have to deal with it or stop reading! lol

I guess I am done anyway… Thanks for reading if you actually read the whole thing. If you didn't that's ok too!

I love you guys & thanks for bein there!

Briana Lynae =)

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Dedicated to My Mother
Current mood: crushed
Category: Life

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