What do you do....?

When you really have no one to talk to and not talking is destroying your life?

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Stuff you need!

Lava lamp. It's purple and works perfectly. And I think I have an extra light bulb for it.

Naruto trading cards. I have a ton of these. I don't have a full set, but it's very close. I will give them to you, and you could probably sell them to Vintage Stock.

Alarm clock. Plugs in and can take a 9volt battery. It makes that lovely annoying as fuck sound.

Naruto night light. It has the symbol for the leaf village. I have only used it for like five minutes, when I first got it.

CD tower. It's metal. I think it holds like 60 or 80 CDs.

Coloured pencils. I have two packs. Quite a few pencils there.

Computer. Not very great. 32mb of RAM. 13g hard drive. Windows ME. That's pretty much it.

Desk. It's rather large. I'll get measurements and a picture soon.

Table. I think it's a TV stand. It has two doors and a little space to put a DVD player or VCR. I will get measurements and a picture soon.

Records. I haven't looked through them yet. I will have a list soon.

Live CDs. I have a whooooooole lot of live shows burned to CD. Most of them are Grateful Dead. Also moe., a few Les Claypool, Ratdog, My Morning Jacket, Dave Matthews. I'll get a better list soon.

That's all right now. I will probably have more stuff soon.

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iPod thingy.

Step 1:Put your iPod or equivalent on shuffle.
Step 2:Post the first line from the first 25 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing.
Step 3:You reply and guess songs...
Step 4:I will bold the lyrics when someone guesses it correctly.
Step 5:Looking them up on google or any other search engine is CHEATING!

1. If you wanna go, and leave your man.
2. You got me inside and outside, everywhere in between. (Only like four of my friends have even heard this song.)
3. You can shine your shoes and wear a suit.
4. When I grow up I'm gonna be a star, gonna sing my songs and play my guitar.
5. Are you such a dreamer to put the world to rights?
6. I've got a feeling, a feeling deep inside, oh yeah.
7. The breath of the morning, I keep forgetting.
8. Dropped acid, Blue Oyster Cult concert, fourteen years old.
9. Girl, you taught me how to hurt real bad, and cry myself to sleep.
10. When I woke up you were gone, and the sun was on the lawn.
11. It's coming through the air for all of us to hear.
12. First the mic, then a half cigarette.
13. Stone love, she kneels before the grave.
14. There was a little falter at the alter of confession.
15. Powered up the city, hydro-electric juice.
16. On the day that she was buried, her daddy stood out by the cemetery fence.
17. I want a love that's right; right is only half of what's wrong.
18. My heart is empty, your eyes are dull.
19. By the light of the lamp I sit to type my notes on tab at my side.
20. She thinks of John Travolta on the same day as me.
21. Wake up, it's time; we need to find a better place to hide.
22. Once again, I'm in trouble with my only friend.
23. Side of the road I stop and pick up the pieces of your car.
24. When the men take me to the devil tree, I will be free and shining like before.
25. Hello walls, how'd things go for you today?

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Blog...... I lost count.

1. Who are you?

2. Are we friends?

3. When and how did we meet?

4. How have I affected you?

5. What do you think of me?

6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?

7. How long do you think we will be friends?

8. Do you love me?

9. Do you have a crush on me?

10. Would you kiss me?

11. Would you hug me?

12. Physically, what stands out?

13. Emotionally, what stands out?

14. Do you wish I was cooler?

15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?

16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

17. Am I loveable?

18. How long have you known me?

19. Describe me in one word.

20. What was your first impression?

21. Do you still think that way about me now?

22. What do you think my weakness is?

23. Do you think I'll get married?

24. What makes me happy?

25. What makes me sad?

26. What reminds you of me?

27. If you could give me anything what would it be?

28. How well do you know me?

29. When's the last time you saw me?

30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

31. Do you think I could kill someone?

32. Have we ever had sex?

33. Do you miss me?

34. Do you think i miss you?

35. Are you going to put this on your MYSPACE and see what I say about you?

Currently listening : No Control By Bad Religion Release date: 11 December, 1989

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Things I'm going to do after book seven.

First off, I'm going to finish Gilmore Girls again, then hold off on it for a long time. I just keep going back to watch it, and I can't do anything else. But right now, Mallory has all my DVDs except season six, which I am currently watching. So when I finish it, I'll give it to her, and she can keep them all for a while so I CAN'T watch them.

Read other books. I need, and really want, to finish Eldest. It's really really good, but I'm just too focused on Harry Potter right now. I also want to read all of Jane Austen's novels, and all of Shakespears plays, at least the comedies. And the rest of the Oz series, since I've only read the Wizard of Oz.

Get Netflix again and start watching the 180 movies I have on my list. I'd like to have like a movie night once a week with some people, but I don't think anyone would want to.

Build a desk. I should have the money in no time, I just don't really have the time right now. But I need to do it in the next month because Sam will be leaving.

Finish touching up my room. I did the window area and put up new blinds, but I still need to do all the baseboards, both doors, and a few touch ups around the ceiling.

Get a juicer and Magic Bullet. I'm also going to get a few more supplements and stuff so that I can do this three-day juice fast thing. I really need it. And once I get a juicer, I'm going to go to Wild Oats like once a week to get lots of fresh fruit so I'll drink lots of juice.

Risk buying the Sims 2 so I can maybe play it if it works. I borrowed it from Niki once but my computer decided the game was stupid and wouldn't run it. I freaking love the Sims, and I've wanted to play the Sims 2 for a really long time. I played it a little on Joey's computer once, and it's really fun. I already have a huge list of names for a bunch of Sims.

Play WoW again. The main reason I'm not playing now is because none of my friends are playing. Which makes it really boring. But after the party, Nikki is going to start playing again, and hopefully Brad too, so I can finally start playing again.

Start playing tennis. I need people to play with me though.

Make stuff again. Nikki is going to teach me how to knit, so I can start doing that, and crocheting, so I can make lots of stuff for people. Since right now I can only make a hat.

And the main thing I'm going to do is be able to buy just random stuff. I haven't been able to buy certain things I want for a while, because I was going to save money for school, then I had to save money for other stuff, but now I don't have anything I really need money for. So I can buy a new TV, and start saving for a new computer, and a Wii, and an Xbox 360.

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Don't pass me by, don't make me cry, don't make me blue.

I'm just going to start by saying that there is never any reason to be rude to someone who sells you something. It's almost never their fault if something goes wrong with it. People make mistakes, and machines make just as many, if not more. A lot of times when my mom gets food from Taco Bueno, they mess up the order. My mom doesn't go and scream at them because they accidentally didn't put a taco in. Or last week when she got me some burritos and nachos. The nacho cheese spilled out all over the bag. So I didn't get to eat any nachos, and the burrito wrappers were all covered in cheese. We cleaned it up and moved on. Because it's not a big deal. I spent $23 on a Naruto headband, and when I got to my car, I found out that it was really bad quality. I didn't go back inside and yell at the girl who sold it to me (one reason, because she was really really cute). I just took it and moved on. I have, many times in the past, paid a price for something other than what it was marked, and not gotten discounts when I was supposed to. I just let it go. Saving a few dollars doesn't mean anything in the long-run.

I'm pretty sure I'm never going to get married, and I'm just going to be the spinster in town. No girls ever like me more than a friend, and if they do, it never lasts more than a few weeks. I hate having crushes, because they never end up going anywhere. I wish I could just forget about it, and just accept that I'm never getting married.

I really wish they would ship the stuff I bought on Wednesday night. The person was notified to pick it up on Thursday morning, meaning he or she had three days to do that. Still nothing. It's just annoying when you check the status and it's just sitting there.

So I'm starting to think we're never going to actually play Dungeons and Dragons. We're just going to spend all of our time talking about it, because our Dungeon Master won't ever set up a dungeon. Sorry, Niki, it's nothing against you. I'm just saying, since Zakk works all the time now, we only have select days we can actually play, so it would be good to have it all ready so we could play at those times. Last night would have been perfect. I just get kind of sick of waiting around when we've been ready to play for weeks. We just keep buying more and more stuff, and it never gets used.

People need to learn that their opinion isn't law. I'm really glad that you have your own opinion, and you don't just move with the herd. But I have my own opinion too. I have no problem with you voicing your opinion, just stop trying to make me feel like my opinion is completely wrong.

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Blog 15: I'm a Loser

This is probably going to be really big and long. But it would make me feel a bit better if you read it.

So I was watching the latest George Carlin special last night, the one Michael, Warren, and I went to see. He was talking about all the stuff people do, to themselves and each other. And I guess I had just never really taken enough time to really think about it. And people are SO fucked up. One thing he said was something like "rats do disgusting things, but they would never fuck a dead rat." No other animal kills for sport.

So Joey and I started talking about capitalism. And it's just not really for me. I feel immoral when I participate in it. Especially at my job. I sell shoes. My objective is to sell as many shoes to as many people as I can. Why? To make money to give to other people. It makes sense to give something to someone who made something for you. But things are just so overpriced, because the whole objective is to make as much profit as you can. And you want to make a lot of profit so that you can buy a bunch of stuff you don't need. I'm not going to pretend like I don't like getting things. It's the fact that this whole country is all about getting as much money as you possibly can, and doing whatever you can to get it. As Eddie said, the American dream is "to get all the money in the world and stick it in your ears." So many people are not happy just living comfortably. They feel that they have to keep getting more money, and no matter how much they have, they still want more. And instead of being good human beings and giving some of that to people who really need it, and can't really do anything about not having it, they keep it all for themselves. Buy new cars, a new house, a big jet.

I really wish I could win a really big lottery. I've figured up that I only need $6,000,000 to live comfortably for the rest of my life. And when you see that a lot of jackpots are 30, 40, 100 million dollars, that would give me at least $20,000,000 that I would give to helping people, such as children's hospitals and disease research. And just think, if I were to give that much money to charity, people would probably be calling me a hero and stuff. But I wouldn't be a hero. I would be a human being helping people who need help. What everyone should do.

Something else to add. At almost any job, you get paid for being there, not for the work you do. For example, at my filing job, I could work 8 hours, and purge 10 boxes one day. Then the next day, I could work 8 hours, and purge three boxes. I'd get paid $48 for each day anyway. It doesn't matter how much work you do in almost ever job. The only jobs that aren't like that are you own businesses. Where you make something, then sell that. Or an artist. In those cases, the money you make is directly connected to how well you do your work.

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A Bunch of Bloody Anime.

I'm just going to list off a ton of anime that I want to see. If you happen to actually read this, and have something on here you would let me borrow, reply.

Oultaw Star, Cowboy Bebop, Revolutionary Girl Utena, Wolf's Rain, Candidate for Goddess, Trigun, Trinity Blood (past chapter 3), Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex, Ah! My Goddess, Samurai Champloo, Cardcaptor Sakura, Magic Knight Rayearth, Chobits, Tsubasa Chronicles, xxxHolic, El-Hazard, Excel Saga, Fushigi Yugi, Hellsing, Key the Metal Idol, Lupin III, Tenchi Muyo, Love Hina Ranma 1/2, Rurouni Kenshin, Serial Experiments Lain, Vampire Princess Miyu, Witch Hunter Robin, Kiki's Delivery Service, My Neighbor Totoro, Laputa: Castle in the Sky, Spirited Away, Mononoke-hime, Howl's Moving Castle.

And this manga.

Angel Sanctuary, Bastard!, Wish, Clover, Koko wa Greenwood, X/1999.

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Blog 14: Interuptions for Introductions

I worked on a lot of music tonight. I have most of a Dick Shinary song done musically. I also have basically an entire Hellevator song done musically. It's actually from the first thing I ever wrote on guitar. When I was taking guitar lessons, Mike told me to make something up and we would work on it. And I'm using that for this song. We never really got anywhere with the song. I'm also going to use bits of other stuff he gave me and told me I could use.

I have a small job next week. Sam gave my number to this lady that I guess Sarah McKenna knows, and I'm going to help her set up at the home and garden show or something. I don't really know much about it right now, but she said she'll call me back when it gets closer.

Does anyone know if there is a really good record store anywhere around here? I mean just music. Maybe movies too, but mainly music. If I can just find one, I can maybe force them to give me a job. I think most of you know how good that job would be for me. I listen to basically every kind of music out there, and know a fair amount about most of it, so I could definitely help people out a lot. So if you know of anywhere, please please let me know.

Sorry I've been posting so many bulletins lately. It's partly because I want a certain someone to reply to them. It's not really working. I also don't really get to talk to many people anymore, so I kind of hope a lot of people will respond.

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Blog 13: I Shot Marvin in the Face

Pulp Fiction. We watched it tonight. I've seen it literally around 45 times, and I still fall over laughing every single time I see Marvin get shot in the face. It's the best part of any movie ever.

I left my bag at Zakk's. Which means I can't read Eldest tonight. I read like 30 pages this morning. It's so intense.

I wish Wii bowling was like real bowling. I bowled like 192 today. ONE NINETY-TWO. I've never broken 100 in real life. My best score was like 70.

I started watching Bleach today. It's so awesome. I just suddenly got into this anime kick again. I just started watching Naruto and Bleach, and I'm going to borrow Evangelion from Joey soon. And I'm slowly watching Fullmetal Alchemist with Nikki.

I'm such a nerd. And you love it. Or not.

Oh, and I actually have people who might be in a band with me. Niki said she's going to get a tambourine, so I can add a bit of jazz. Then Suzanne said she'll sing for me, and apparently she has a good voice. And Zakk said he wants his bass back so he can learn to play so he can be in Hellevator. And Michael wants to play lead for Hellevator. So it's looking like all 8 of my bands might actually get started now.

New Dick Shinary and the Words EP this week. Be on the lookout for music from Ricky Business and the Consistent Fifties as soon as Niki gets a tambourine.

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