why am i not on line !!! read this

hey everyone iam leaving for a part of china ware i will have no contact so keep me in ur prayers dont forget me and ill talk 2 u all in mid june

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your story

And so my prayer is that your story will have involved some leaving and some coming home, some summer and some winter....My hope is your story will be about changing...about learning...to love...about learning to love other more than we love ourselves....We get one story, you and I, and one story alone. God has established the elements, the setting and the climax and the resolution. It would be a crime not to venture out, wouldn't it? ....And you will not be alone. You have never been alone. Don't worry. Everything will still be here when you gey back. It is only you who will have changed.

Donald Miller
Through Painted Deserets

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pigs brain and china

Brovo! iam in china! it is so cold i think i am going to die! other than that it is great to be back. Iam staying 30 or so min out side of the city, no to far from main land china. The village that i am in is one of the oldest in china. HMMM as i just got to HK a few hours ago there is not much to tell.

ahh  as a going away some friends took me out to eat at a Cambodian place and i ate brain for the first time. It was good but felt funny. I dont think i will try it agian.

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so tired of being sick

I am so tired of being sick. Wednesday two weeks ago I had a bit of an accident where I got a major concussion. My concussion does not seem to want to go away and it's really hard to function at times. If it does not go away soon then I will have to go back to the doctors for the fourth time in the last 2 weeks. I am so tired of taking pills and doctor visits. Although the people that work there are great I would really like to keep are business relationship to a minimal. Please keep me in your prayers for a speedy recovery.

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"I want"—it pleaded—All its life

"I want"—it pleaded—All its life

"I want"—it pleaded—All its life—
I want—was chief it said
When Skill entreated it—the last—
And when so newly dead—

I could not deem it late—to hear
That single—steadfast sigh—
The lips had placed as with a "Please"
Toward Eternity—

Emily Dickinson  

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Another restlesse night

Another night of restlessness, random thoughts run through my mind keeping me from finding peace. Constantly skipping from each thought to the next. Tossing and turning I lay still for hours. Even after I find sleep there is no rest. I constantly find myself awake as the thought process begins again. My mind still turns. Three days I have not been able to sleep well and it is starting to take it toll on me. There is nothing in particular that I am thinking of. Nothing that I concisely know of that preoccupies my every thought. There is no dominating thought just a million little things. I wish I could sleep.

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KILL ME

a few more weeks and i have to leave for  china and i dont have a flight yet. I cant find one under               1000 US. ahhh this is not good i must find one under 1000 or i am not going back to the states. I hate looking for flights 

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some sticky little fingers took my phone and im not sure ill be going home
Current mood: annoyed

There is this rather popular market that is near my house called Russian market. Russian market is filled with clothes, DVDs and Cambodian arts and crafts. Not only do the locals go to Russian market but the tourists as well.

 I go there often. Well today I went Russian market and I walked around for an hour or so. Close to the end of my excursion I decided I would check the time. I reached into my bag, which was strung across my back and was hanging just slightly under my stomach. As my hands ran through the contents of my bag I realized that my phone was not where I had placed it. Someone had taken it. Yes some sticky little fingers had taken my phone even though my bag was in front of me. I know what you are thinking and no I didn't feel or see anything. I am just a bit frustrated. I lost all my friends number and will have to go out tomorrow and purchase a new phone.

Even with all the cons in Cambodia I am starting to love the country. The school that I work at would like to hire me back next year and I am very much considering returning. If I do come back to Cambodia then I will be visiting the states after China. My plan would be to arrive in California mid June and stay for about two months.

For those of you who are keeping me in your prayers. Be praying for my health. I have been kinda sick for the last month or so and the doctors are not sure what is wrong. "No not majorly sick, I am not dying, don't be too disappointed Randy, Josh, Claire, D…!" Also be praying for my knee the pain is becoming worse and more constant.

Miss you all

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True or False

Most people suppress there true desires for more socially acceptable actions. What do you think true or false? Do we suppress are true desires or choose simply to express them in socially acceptable ways?

Part of me wants to take the risk to simply go for it and the other part feels an obligation to show self restraint. Both desires are a part of me, a part of my personality, my character.  Although some may say that I am depriving myself of my true desires and maintaining a fecade, self restraint can in fact be the best thing at times. Will I regret not taking action later? Will I wonder what if? Or am I saving my self from making a regrettable mistake?

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change

Change is never fun. If we fight change we suffer, if we accept it we sacrifices. So what do I do suffer to keep what I know or sacrifice to move on?

Give me a reason to end this debate to break with tradition.

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