Random nonsense
Current mood: tired
Category: Life

I'm tired.  That's not whining or a complaint.  It's just a statement.

I want to work normal hours again.  Leaving at 8am and getting home at 9pm just isn't cutting it anymore.

I just got back from vacation - Austin, TX for the long weekend.  I'm supposed to be relaxed and de-stressed.  Not so much.

Anyway...I had a great time in TX.  I have some pictures that I'll post this weekend.

Here was the best quote of the weekend.  I was trying to put my shorts on over my bathing suit at the pool and I was having  a hard time.  So this guy asks me if I was ok and I told him I was just having a little problem.  And he says...

"It's not little and believe me, it's not a problem." 

That's all.  How are you?

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Surprise!!!! Not....
Current mood: disappointed
Category: Life

Don't you hate it when you blow a surprise for yourself?

I've been looking to get tickets to see Wicked on Broadway for the longest time.  I check every now and then, but I refuse to buy tickets 6 months in advance.  So I keep hoping that one day I might get lucky.

This morning I make a comment to my mom about not being able to find available tickets until March 09.  She stays quiet and doesn't agree with me that it's crazy, so I figured I might be overreacting or something.

Then she gets up.....walks to the other room and comes back with an envelope.  She got me tickets for my birthday....which is 3 weeks away.

I should be happy that I'm finally going to see the show...and I am....but I just hate that I blew the surprise.

It seems to happen to me all the time which is probably why I always say that I hate surprises.

Oh well.

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Sleepytime
Current mood: distractable
Category: Life

So it doesn't seem like a whole lot has changed since I've been "gone", huh?  Myspace still seems a little broken.  But it just wouldn't feel right if everything worked, would it?

I don't know why I'm writing a blog now....I should be sleeping.  I should've been sleeping 20 minutes ago.  And I'm tired......I really am......but I just don't want to lay down.  Oh well.

Work has been hell lately.  We're changing ad programs which is our lifeline....so it's all about getting everything ready for it.  When we flip the switch next week, we want things to go as smoothly as possible.  So while we're trying to work on this transition, we still have to do the day-to-day work.  Last week I was so out of it and so off balance.  Mostly my fault because I wasn't getting enough sleep. 

But anyway...I'm not here to talk about work.  I don't know why I'm here.  Hmm....nope, no idea.  So I'm going to head to bed.  I'll probably be back tomorrow with better quality babble. :)

In the meantime...how are you?  Tell me a funny story.  Make me laugh. :)

Night!

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Jumble....Oh yes, there’s more!
Current mood: distractable
Category: Life

I have so many things….thoughts…whatever you want to call them….swimming around in my head.  I don't even know where to begin to get them out.  But then again, I don't know if I really want to get them out. 

What if I like them in here?  What if I like having something to dwell on?  To worry about?  To drive myself crazy over.

I've realized that I'm not comfortable just being.  I need to have that something….those thoughts….those "things" that keep the wheels in my head turning.

What would I do if those wheels stopped turning?  What would I do with the silence?

For some reason I think that would drive me crazier than this jumble in my head right now.

So that's my morning….I'm going back to drinking my coffee now….

Still going...

Why is silence so scary?  Shouldn't it have a calming effect on us?  A break from all of the "noise"?

I don't know how to live without that noise.  I really wish that I did.  Or is it just a case of the grass is greener over there?

I was never able to sit in a quiet room.  The TV is always on...or music...or someone to talk to....

I can't even fall asleep when it's too quiet.  I need the TV on.  I need the noise....the distraction.

What am I so afraid of?

Why can't I deal with my own thoughts?  Why can't I make them all go away sometimes?

When I'm left alone I start to over-analyze everything.  As if I need more thoughts to worry about!!!

I need to stop.

Need to go with the flow and relax.

I just don't know how.

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Wouldn’t you like to know?
Current mood: frisky
Category: Life

You know you want an update on what's been going on with me.....

Ok, maybe not - but humor me?

There have been a few developments since my last blog....

First, remember the friend who was draining all of my energy and sucking the life out of our friendship?  Well, I'm done with her.  I don't mind if someone is crazy and likes drama.....to each their own.  But don't bring your drama to me - I don't need that shit.  A friendship is supposed to be fun....it's supposed to feel supportive.....it's supposed to feel comfortable.....it's just supposed to be and shouldn't take a ton of work!

I'm not in high school anymore.  I don't need to get into fights with my friends....I don't need to keep going back and forth trying to prove a point.  If you think I'm not being a good friend - then don't be my friend.  If you think I'm such a bad person - then why do you want me in your life?  Go ahead.....burn your bridges...but don't expect me to be there when you're done.

I'm a very patient person with my friends.  I love them to death and am very supportive.  I don't argue with tehm because that's not the kind of friendship that I want to have.  So I'm done.  And I'm ok with it.

Ok, now that I've gotten that off my chest.....I'm going back to Vegas!  I bought my tickets this week and we have the hotel all set.  I can't wait!  This time I'm going to party Vegas-style with the girls!

I also bought a ticket to the reunion dinner at my college....10 years.  I can't believe it's been 10yrs.  When I think about where I was in 1998 and the person that I was....I don't recognize her.  I've grown so much as a person over these years and I've learned so much.  Dinner should be fun...even though everyone else will be married with kids....and I'm still all by my lonesome.  But I'll be able to party without paying for a babysitter!  Woot!

So how've you been?

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So where’s my kiss?
Current mood: relaxed
Category: Life

This weekend I was supposed to go out to a couple of things…but I didn't.  I've been doing that a lot lately.  I'll go to work during the week, do dinner with friends and even get drinks with co-workers.  But on the weekends for some reason it's not as appealing to go out.

I should be out partying….or eating at new restaurants...or seeing movies...or playing in the park.  I know what I should be doing, but I'm not.  I love my friends, but the weekends were always for the man in my life.  And I guess I still haven't adjusted to that even though it's been awhile.  Some things take longer than others…

On the weekend, my apartment becomes my bubble and I use it to refuel for the week.  I guess it could be worse right? 

Random thought of the minute - McD's Sweet Tea is pretty damn good.  That could be because I'm up here in NY and we don't have the real thing…but it's pretty yummy.

In other news, I think I'm going on vacation and I hope it happens real fuckin soon!  I've agreed to go to San Francisco with a couple of friends….and am talking to another friend about going to Vegas or Savannah or both.   And I want to go back to TN sometime this year too.  I better get planning!

So how was your weekend?

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Miss me, miss me - now you gotta kiss me
Current mood: frisky
Category: Life

Missing someone is not the best feeling in the world.  Missing what could've been or what should be sucks too.

That's all I've got tonight.  I know I've been lacking in the blog department lately....and I've really been meaning to get  back into it.  It just hasn't happened yet.  But it will...soon.

Weeds is still a kickass show!  I'm finished with Season 2 and waiting for Season 3.....so I have to find another show.  I'm thinking 30 Rock....

Any other suggestions?

Is there anyone that you're missing right now?

12:00 AM - 9 Comments - 14 Kudos - Add Comment

Yo yo yo
Current mood: sleepy
Category: Life

Just stopping in for a quick hello before bed.

I've become totally addicted to that show Weeds.  It's awesome!  Does anyone watch it?

And I watched Juno....very cute movie.

So how was your weekend?

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Drama Cycle
Category: Friends

The wonderful world of Myspace is always filled with drama.  Who's talking about who?  Who did what to so and so?  Who doesn't like who?  Who's got a fake profile?  The list goes on and on… 

Fortunately, I stay out of it all.  I'll admit that sometimes I read the blogs and watch it play out from the sidelines…but who doesn't?  Even so, I just don't understand it and I don't think I ever will.

It's the drama in my life that I don't get to escape as easily.  Sometimes it's like getting sucked into a whirlpool and having to fight to keep your head above water.  It's exhausting! 

In life I manage to fly under the radar too.  I watch the drama from the sidelines, but it's so much easier to get pulled into it…especially if you're in the middle.  You get pulled in one direction and then pulled in the other direction.  He said, she said.  Who's right?  Who's wrong?  Who's being irrational?  Who's being a bully?  Who's being plain ol' stupid?

I just don't have the energy for it.  Or the patience. 

I'm pretty easy going when it comes to my friends.  When it comes to guys it's a little bit different - I tend to be a bit of a spitfire.  But overall, I'm a really good friend.  I listen, I remain objective for the most part and I give advice.  Why can't everyone else do this too?

Getting sucked down into that whirlpool can happen so quickly…you don't even realize that it's happening sometimes.  But you have to fight to keep your head above the surface. 

Eventually the spinning will stop...

Eventually you can get out of the pool...

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Lazy ass
Current mood: lazy
Category: Life

They really need an "exercise" category for blogs.....

I have become such a lazy ass when I’m at home.  It’s probably because I’m not home as much as I used to be. 

Seriously....I haven’t worked out in a couple of months.  And I’ve been eating out - ALOT!  I eat dinner out at least 3-4 times a week now...on top of eating out for lunch every day at work.

I’m gaining weight....and I’m out of shape....and I’m getting "soft".  And it’s discouraging and it should motivate me to get off my ass to work out.  But it doesn’t.  And I’m tired of feeling sorry for myself.

I need to find time to work out and get it to be a daily routine.  I just don’t know how I’m going to do that.

I get up every morning at 7am and leave a little before 8am to be at work by 9.  Then for lunch I usually run out and grab some food to bring back to eat at my desk.  I leave work anywhere btwn 6pm and 7pm which gets me home btwn 7 & 8.  By the time I get home I’m starving and need to eat dinner.  Then once I sit down it’s all over....I’m not getting back up and I just watch some tv before going to bed around 12am.

And those are the days that I come home after work.  On the days that I go out, I’ll usually get home around 11pm or 12am and just want to go to bed.

I need to stop making excuses.  I need to start being more productive.  I need to stop eating that damn ice cream that’s in my freezer.

So how do you guys stay motivated?  How do you fit in a workout during a busy day?

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