Just random shit!!!!!!!!
Current mood: bummed
Category: Writing and Poetry

Onto the world I was cast to see and feel the pains

of all my hurt. My heart was torn from my chest and

chastised with the afflictions of the world and all

it's cruelty. Now, knowing I shelter myself in my own

harbor of pain, I stand and face the barren wasteland

before me not knowing how to mend all the brokeness

that lies before me. I am crying inside. Not allowing

myself to show any pain. JUst boing the strength

everyone looks to for comfort and in thier time of

need.But at night when I am all alone, I lay in my

bed and wonder about the day and my life in general.

When in the darkness I find my solitude that I so

desire that my head spins and I drift off into the

restless state of dreaming that I know is to come.

The swirling around my head is now telling me that it

will take much time, but I will get stronger and

better and that life is not all bad.

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Blue River!
Current mood: miserable
Category: Writing and Poetry

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HOW MANY LOSERS DO YOU KNOW?????????
Current mood: angry
Category: Life

....How many times have you been sick to death of putting up with people who think they are better than you and won't leave you alone. They put you down when all along, they are jealous of you. You can spell better than them. You have much more of a drive and smarts to try and make an effort in school. You take responsibility for your own actions and not blame anyone else for your life! You had to put your life on hold to take care of your kids and you have no regrets about it. You did everything to take care of one of the most ungrateful families in the world and yet you get no thanks or love or anything else. To the ones I am talking to, who the hell are you? What makes you better than me? I don't steal money from people! I don't borrow money and then not give it back! I am not an ingrate cause I am in love with the blessings that I have and I don't sit around all day and bitch that my life is not better. I wish it could be, but it does not linger in my head all day long. I don't live off of the government for reasons that are possibly illegal. I take care of myself. I don't have anyone who lives with me and takes care of my phone bill, my electric, my internet service, my water bill, or anything else. To another person I am talking to is if you are trying to better your life, then why do you do the things you do? Why don't you get an actual job and/or go to school? Why don't you stop your bitching and do what needs to be done to achieve your goals? Why do you live off of other people? And why have you, these days, come off as someone who needs ritilin? And who the fuck are you to question me or make a comment about my parenting skills? You don't know the first thing about how to take care of children and you don't know anything about the world at all! All you do is sit around and judge people and critique their life! Get a life of your own and keep your mouth off of mine! !!!!!!! As for some of the other losers in my life---don't be saying I said some shit----if it don't come out of my mouth I didn't say it! Give me back all the money that is owed me---I am getting tired of waiting you broke ass losers! And finally, KEEP YOU FUCKING MOUTH OFF OF ME AND MY KIDS----DON'T EVER GET INTO A PISSING MATCH ABOUT WHO IS A BETTER PARENT CAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW SHIT!



IF THIS DOES NOT APPLY TO YOU---BE COOL AND THANKS FOR PUTTING UP WITH MY RANT! LOVE TO ALL WHO HAS NEVER SCREWED ME OVER!

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I AM SICK OF THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Current mood: aggravated
Category: Blogging

I AM SO SICK OF ALL KINDS OF PEOPLE WHO DO NOTHING BUT THROW THEIR SHIT ON YOU LIKE THEIR OPINION IS THE ABSOLUTE TRUTH!!! AND ALSO WHEN THEY DO THEY SOUND SO MUCH MORE NUTTIER THAN A FRUITCAKE THAT I AM SICK OF IT!! THE WORLD HAS A FEW SECRET THINGS AND ISSUES UP THEIR SLEEVES BUT NOT AS BAD AS THESE KASHIESTY TALKING PEOPLE ARE MAKING IT ALL OUT TO BE!!!!!   DAMN WHY CAN'T PEOPLE STOP ACTING LIKE THEY NEED A LITHIUM PILL WITH A PROZAC CHASER??????    GO BACK TO THE HOLES IN THE ICE YOU CAME OUT OF AND LET ME LIVE MY LIFE!!!!!!!   IF YOU ARE NOT APART OF THIS INSANE BUNCH OF IDEAS THEN IGNORE THIS BUT IF YOU ARE TAKE YOUR PILLS WEAR YOUR STRAIGHT JACKETS AND LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!     THIS ANGER BROUGHT TO YOU BY CHANTY-----HEY IF WIERD PEOPLE WOULD LEAVE ME ALONE I WOULD NOT HAVE BE SO ANGRY AND I COULD LIVE IN PEACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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FUN ON TONYA (HA HA)
Current mood: silly
Category: Life

Okies all you are probably wondering why I am putting this in here. One of my "My Space" friends, T, won't stop putting this thingy out there for all to fill out so just for her I am doing a whole blog on her. Well here goes so enjoy everybody!

1) What is my name?   Tonya Romano

2)Who is the love of my life?  Your kids followed by "Gas Pump Steve"!

3)Where did we meet? I really do not know! I just woke up one day and mom and dad had brought you home from the hospital!

4)Take a stab at my middle name!  Lynn    Give me something harder!

5)How long have you known me? All your damn life!

6)When was the last time we saw each other?  Last week!

7)Do I smoke?     Yes

8)Do I drink?        Occasionally

9)When is my birthday?  Februrary 10, 1982

10)What was the first impression upon meeting me?   "I wonder if I can trade her for a cat" 

11)Do I have any siblings?  You grew up with four brothers and two sisters and because your dad is a slut, there is probably more out there!

12)What is one of my favorite things to do?  Being with your kids!

13)Am I funny?  You are funny and funny looking-one dangerously-wierd combination!

14)What is the best feature about me?  Your ability to make everyone laugh-whether it be at something you said or did or if we just feel like pointing and laughing at you-you are just funny!

15)Am I shy or outgoing?   Outgoing!  I can never get you to shut the fuck up!

16)Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules?  REBEL!!!!!!! Noone in your family ever follows the rules!!!!

17)Do I have any special talents? Yes but I cannot narrow it down to just one and I will not name them all and also I do not want to let your head swell because of me!

18)Would you call me a preppy, average, sporty, punk, nerdy,snobby,or something else? (What?)    All of the above!

19)What is a memory we once had?   Too many to name! a lot of fighting and a lot of getting along so can't really think of one!

20)Have we ever hugged?  Several times!

21)Do you miss me? Sometimes!  Do you think I miss you? Sometimes!

22)What is my favorite food? How the hell would I know!?

23)Have you ever had a crush on me? HELL NO!

24)If there was one good nickname for me, What would it be?  I got one and I am not allowed to type it all out for fear of being tortured by you so I will just type out the initials: T.T.T.L!

25)What's your favorite memory of me? When you were in Kindergarten, on the day you got your school pictures back, your tongue was sticking out in it and you told your mother that the photographer told you to do it! I still LMAO when I think of that one!

26)Who do I like right now?  Your kids!

27)What is my worst habit? You do not know how to shut the fuck up!  lol

28)If we were stranded on a deserted island,what one thing would I bring? Well, if you could not take your kids, then you would take your guitar and it would be fun at first until I get agrivated and break the damn thing!

29)Are we friends? We fight! We get along! Yeah we are unconventional friends!

30)Would you repost this so I can do it for you? I did so do your worst or best! I would prefer both!

In case noone has noticed, I am T's sister so I am honest but also put a little humor in it! So there Tonya, I finally did it so stick it up your nose and smile!

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4%
Current mood: giddy
Category: Religion and Philosophy

4%

When Jesus died on the cross he was thinking of you! If you are one of the 4% who will stand up for him repost this w/ the title 4%

96% of people won't post this!

See, I'm one of 4%. I'm sure its not the first statistic i've fallen under.. : P

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Everyone Should Read This
Current mood: Informative

In fullfilling a promise I made, Please read the following story. I hope it helps males and females alike and makes them more aware.

There once was a girl named Jane and when she was 15, she enrolled in a program where teenagers are paired up with local police in a drug resistance/crime prevention type program. There, in that program, she met a man named Micheal, a local cop and 30 years old. He brought her into his world, a child, manipulated her, made her think noone cared for her but him. They eventually married and moved to Earl Arkansas and along the way in thier relationship and then marriage, they had three children. What a lot of people did not know was that Jane got constant bruises that she made up lame excuses as to how she got them as well several broken noses. She finally admitted what was going on in her life. That Mike was constantly beating the hell out of her on practically a  daily basis. She got to the point where she was going to leave him. This time..............for good!  The problem and heartbreaking thing about it is she did not get to go the way she wanted to. Jane got off work from a gas station on the night of November 3, 2001. Noone knows what really happened but Police got a call about shots being fired nearby. They got to a carwash where they found the body of Mike and not too far from him they found Jane in a ditch in her car. Mike shot Jane and she tried to flee but she did not get too far before dying and then Mike turned the gun on himself rather than face Man's Justice. What makes it all so hard is that I now have one of my best friends lying in a cemetary in Bethalto, Illinois with 6 bullets in her body and all because she felt she had no way out. She was a beautiful person with a heart of gold and everyone who ever met her knew just how special she was. If you are in an abusive situation similar to this, Whether you are male or female in this situation, I beg you to take my advice to heart and GET OUT! Better to get and have a fighting chance rather than face the horrible end that my friend did.  My friend did not get hers. I hope people who read this take what I am saying to heart. No matter what your boyfriend/girlfriend says to you-YOU ARE A BEAUTIFUL AND IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT! LIKE ELENOR ROOSEVELT ONCE SAID:  NOONE CAN MAKE YOU FEEL INFERIOR WITHOUT YOUR CONSENT! YOU ARE A LOT STRONGER THAN YOU THINK! LOVE TO YOU ALL! 

                                        IN MEMORY OF:

                               JANE BELLE AUGUSTON-JOHNSON

                         JANUARY 31, 1980  -  NOVEMBER  3,  2001

                                   LOVE TO ALL YOU BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE

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My Geocity
Current mood: content
Category: Writing and Poetry

Well!  I finally got my Geocity back and I realized just how depressing I am on it. I hope you go and check on it anyway and then there is a memorial-click on it and then go to my guestbook and tell me you like it or make fun of me. Either way I do not care. Have fun and love you all. Ir is all for fun and I will put more stuff later. Like I already love you all. Espescially the ones from the Alton, Illinois area. And my little ones say hello too. Wanna know who they are, just ask me. The site is www.geocities.com/shauntie3128/night_vision.html?

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