Remember to live!
Current mood: calm

After grieving for a dear lost friend, I have realized that I need to remember, yet again, that life is short.  There is nothing to worry about, and so much to live for.  Hold those around you close and those who are not around you as close as possible.  Thank you, friends, who have held me throughout and welcomed me with open arms!

How Many, How Much by Shel Silverstein
How many slams in an old screen door?
    Depends how loud you shut it.
How many slices in a bread?
    Depends how thin you cut it.
How much good inside a day?
    Depends how good you live 'em.
How much love inside a friend?
    Depends how much you give 'em.

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hey guys!
Current mood: sleepy

So, for all of you out there who just may see this, here's a little update!

The last time I have logged onto My Space (or Facebook) was, what? A month ago? 2 months? This is because I am at an elementary school every weekday from a little before 8 to anywhere between 3 and 6. The computers at this school blocks sites like these. (for good reason!!) So by the time I get home, my computer is so slow (we have dial-up and AOL, two of the biggest frustrations in my life right now) that I can barely check a few e-mails and maybe, MAYBE log into MySpace before it kicks me off!

All negativity aside, I'm doing pretty well and keeping rather busy! Who'd have thought that 18 4th graders would leave you so exhausted at the end of the day? But I keep thinking I can't believe I only have 3 months left. 3 months?! It can't come quick enough and yet it's coming too soon at the same time! Yes, I'm still working at Hobby Lobby. Every Saturday from open to close. Sundays I play in my church orchestra and use the rest of the day to usually catch up and grade. I feel like I'm getting old. Anyone else feel this way?! Thought so.

Needless to say, I miss some friends that I haven't gotten to spend time with for awhile, and we need to go out and have some fun!

I went to see the Columbine Memorial Dedication, and am proud to say that I really enjoyed it despite the heat, wind and crowds! Actually, I like the crowds but despite the other stuff. It really was worth it. So, if you have time sometime, you should go see it! I'm pretty sure you won't be disappointed!

So, drop me a line and I'll try to get on here more often than I have been. I'll go to the library if I need to so I can connect faster than just sitting still like my computer usually tends to do!

I'd also like to add some new pics soon, but I'll need to do that sometime when my computer can handle all of the downloading I'll need to put it through. Poor thing.

Anyway, thanks for letting me ramble on, something we all know I love to do!

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not known

the saddest thing is they are not where they thought they were going to be

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grieving for those you do not know
Current mood: sad

Wow.  When a person dies, and you didn't really know them, you can definitely still grieve.

I hope that she is where I wish everyone could go, I hope she is resting in eternal happiness.

I am grieving for many different reasons.

And it is mostly for her.

You will be missed even by those who didn't know you as well as maybe they should have RIP Courtney 1982-2006

Also RIP Erica Gallegos, you were loved by many although not all knew how to show it.  Thank you for your friendship as kids and for the knowledge that people can be strong in times of weakness and hurting.

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Yay! But yikes!
Current mood: excited

Today I got my placement for observation.  It is in a 2nd grade class, here in the lovely city of Denver.  I almost got a 4th grade class, but it's English as a second language and I really don't know that much Spanish.  Like, muy poquino.  Or however you spell that ;-)

Anyway, WOW!  Excitement, nerve-wracking, everything put together and chills to go around!  Thank you Sarah, for letting me see how you got through it all and came out still as great as you ever were, if not more so!

Anyway, I guess wish me luck!  The only thing I'm really nervous about is how my coordinating teacher will be.  I can only pray, and I'm sure (and hope!) it won't be like those horror stories you hear about ;-)

Nevertheless, I shall enter this opportunity with a light heart and excited mind!  I finally get to join those who want the same as I do and I finally get to work with the ones whom I've longed to! YAY!

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another one I guess!
Current mood: awake

Let us not hear what can be heard

Or see what everyone sees

Let us not smell the scents of the world

Or hold in our hands the keys

Try not to remember the words of the lying

And let us see beauty in what is not there

Let us hear music in the sound of crying

And pay like the rest, our fare

Let us portray to our future child

The reality of the weak and sighing

The noise of the teardrops falling so mild

The sweet breath of  lovers dying

But keep in mind the joyful sound

And the smells that tingle the senses

The treasures that we all have found

And the tearing down of our fences

Remind the child he is loved so dear

Whether healthy, sick or poor

Love is the answer for hurt and fear

There is nothing the child needs more

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blech
Current mood: pissed off

Why is it that when you feel upset, angry, or whatnot, everything else you happen to come across enlarges that feeling?  You see the bad in everything.   I hate that!

And why does it make your stomach hurt?  What is that?!

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quantity really does matter
Current mood: mellow

So, when I think of an elderly person and how they would need to change their life as they get older, I usually just think of different accomodations that they'll need to make.  Like, no stairs to their house, handrails, etc.  I don't, however, usually think that they need to start buying things that will be easier for them to move, carry, etc.

And then I see it.  I didn't really realize it until she told me they needed to buy a smaller computer screen because it was easier to move.  When I shop for new things, I don't think "will this be easy to carry?"  I usually think "how much does it cost" and "what features does it have?"  I don't usually think, "I need it to be light and I don't care what it costs."

I didn't really realize it until I could lift her dvd player and her computer printer easily with one hand.  I didn't really realize it until I saw that their house is a lot more empty than it used to be.

Now, I understand that the market is making things easier to move and lift, and lighter and better, whatever.  But when I shop I really don't literally think about if it'll be lighter and "better on my back."

And then I see my mother talking about wanting a new dining room table.  Because our old one is "too big" and "heavy".  Because they're ready to have a smaller one.

And then I wonder....when will I be next?

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Tag!!!!
Current mood: bored

Tag!!

Tag!!! Random facts

The first player of this game starts with the "6 weird/things/habits about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a blog about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end you need to choose the 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their comments and tell them to read yours.

1. Lessee....if I didn't want to be an elementary school music teacher, I'd want to be an elementary school science teacher.

2. I have at least one bruise at all times, and usually don't know how I got it!  Currently?  I have 3.

3. My liver wasn't fully developed when I was born....maybe that's why I'm a lightweight! ha ha

4. I'm scared of something that is only in like 5 places in Colorado and nowhere where they could really "get" me.

5. I hate floppy socks.  I also hate it when one sock is wet but the other is dry.  UG!

6. I almost never eat my food one group at a time.  Like veggie, then meat, then grain, whatever.  Except for dessert of course. ;-)

People: Hm.... ok, Julie, Omar, Jill, Kelsey, Ben, and.....Jeff!  K, have fun guys!

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Silence
Current mood: hungry

Silence is golden.

Have you ever driven in your car for a day without listening to any music?  Or a week?

I have.  I didn't have a choice!   lol!

Ok, now I'm the type of person that plays music in my car from the moment I turn the car on to the moment I turn the car off.  But, due to unfortunate events that have occurred lately in my past, this has been something that I can no longer do.  Oh, I'm sure I will be able to again someday, but for now, no.

So driving in my car everyday with no music to jam to has really given me some insight!

We as Americans are definitely "lucky" and blessed.  Sometimes I forget that.

If you haven't tried this, try it!  Let me know what you get out of it.

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