Where

 This is some stuff I have written lately, I think it gives a quick summary of where I am at. Very scattered thoughts....

This program has taken away the illusion of hope and replaced it with a glimpse of reality.
Hope is only replenished by a circle of the clock hand
The daily battle never leads to a daily reprieve
Reevaluating
Relearning
Infinite is my smallness
Controlled by details
Togetherness with a sense of pugnacious rebellion

Regrets and empty promises don't die like an empty
bottle

Tomorrow I will manifest my own destiny

Substance of the mind controls self

Currently listening : Revolver By Beatles Release date: 18 March, 1998

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What home feels like?

I'm sitting outside right now enjoying the warm humid night that I so desperately missed while I was at school. It has nothing to do with the tangible, but with the feeling of home, belonging, and restfulness. You can only run so far away from your self until you truly come home.  I'm two weeks into a new life. Half of what I say is meaningless, but I still say it. Phone calls and emails can't replace the predictability of a home cooked meal and a laugh with the family. Steadfast my family has stood by me through these hard times. Each day is a new experience. The black bear is in a cage now. 

Currently listening : Revolver [UK] By The Beatles Release date: 25 October, 1990

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I'm back

I'm back........ back in the real world. After a week of finally confronting things in my life, I'm seeing the big picture. Something became a masking agent for my emotions and this week was about eliminating it. It was a week of healing. It is still a long road. Its the first time in awhile that I faced head on the problems and issues that have developed.
Last night was my first day back at work. Everything happens for a reason and the slow season that hit us this week was such pure fate, but perfectly timed.

Some people had to be pushed away and the door closed on them. I can't afford to have any thing that hurts me right now or ever. Some people have came back into my life after years of distance. It's weird how God times things out like this. You just pick up with an old friend like the years in between didn't occur. Thanks to everyone for their understanding and support throughout this all.

Anyways wrapping things up....I feel good today, I know I don't need this crutch anymore to be happy. Because I was never truly happy with it in my life. I know great things are in store for Dan Stack. (I chuckle to myself)

I am going to church now.


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bye bye blackbird

Some things are great about being home. Simple stuff reminds me why I missed the place so much. Cooking with my mother is a biggy. We eat good at the Stack house(obviously) and dinner is such an important part of our day. I like to cook for/with my family.  I equally enjoy shopping for the ingredients with my Mom before the meal. We have fun in fish markets and vegetable stands. Simple things...

The beach was great today. I finished a small book. I got burnt. I am canadian.

I downloaded a bad A song that I think everyone should listen to. It really hits home. It is from the "Sleepless in Seattle" soundtrack. I remember hearing it and saying,"man thats a cool song." I love how you run into songs that you hear once and love but forget to download. And when you finally come around to getting it, it shows its splendor again. Thank you music.

Joe Cocker - Bye Bye Blackbird

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living the dream

I am about to head to the beach right now. Bringing a book, couple drinks and some strong sun tan lotion because even though I am darker then usual I still feel half Canadian. I start work tomorrow, and I am looking forward to donning the tux again. It is the season of weddings. I could go to one every weekend for the next month and a half if I wanted to. I almost bought a new suit, but I am just not to sure about how many I am going to go to. I like buying suits though, there is something completing about it. This weekend I will be traveling to Blackwells wedding in North Carolina. I will be flying Hans Solo. Wedding crasher style. 

Currently listening : The Anthology By Joe Cocker Release date: 07 September, 1999

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I am home

The trip to the beach, compliments of the Glasers was truely a blessing. It was a debacle of masculinity. I am home now. Nothing has changed. I will be working at Del's. Started studying for the LSAT's today. We will see what happens. I am going to go buy a new shirt to go out in tonight. ha ha

For some reason Orlando just doesn't feel right. I did whatI usually do on Thursdays, and it just didn't hit the right spot. Maybe I won't hang around here as long as I thought....


Don't stop till you get enough...'

Currently listening : Thriller By Michael Jackson Release date: 16 October, 2001

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yes mam

So I went hiking for 5 days, big deal. Everyone asks me why I venture  into the woods by myself. They don't understand the radical transformation that takes place. Instead of worrying about tivo, starched shirts, and cool bars or clubs, I think about three main things shelter, food, and drink. You forget all the details. My day revolves around survival. Any other thought in your head is small in comparison to the reality that you have created. It helps me walk closer to God, it shows you all the things that you take for granted. I am planning the crazyest trip yet of my life for July.........details will come soon...

Currently listening : The Joshua Tree By U2 Release date: 15 June, 1990

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Just gone done hiking

Well I made it, 35.9 miles in 5 days. It was such a great experience. Waking up in clouds, trekking through tunnels of rhododendron, walking on a carpet of green ferns. Things like these make you feel closer to God. It really cleared my head up. I am at the Hundleys right now in Hiawasee, Georgia. They have graciously taken me in for the night and Marie should be here in about 2 hours. I cant wait to see her, we grew up together and have really known one another since birth. Thats crazy to think we have been friends for 23 years.

 I had a surprisingly close call with death the first night out. Like an idiot I didnt want to hike the extra 1.2 of the trail to a shelter so I pushed ahead 4.4 miles to the next. Now mind you this was at 8:30 at night. It was fine for the first hour but it got extremely dark, I was so thankful I had bought a new flashlight from the outfitters. But, eventually that didn't even help because once the fog set in you couldn't see more then 3 feet. The temperature dropped down to about 40 degrees on top of the ridge and I only had brought shorts and short sleeve shirts except for the sweats I had to sleep in, but those would have been worthless because cotton just gets soaked. Did I mention that I had run out of water? But, I  kept going,  I prayed nonstop and I nearly fell of the side of a mountain(this was more of a close call then I can ever describe). Finally I made it into camp at 11:30a nd wrapped myself in my emergency blanket and barely made it through the night.I did have the signs of the early stages of hypothermia and my right hand is still pretty numb. Everything happens for a reason though, and when your closest to death your most alive. By the end of the first night I had everything sorted in my life.

Part of the reason I hike is because of the people you meet out there. Nearly everyone I hiked with had a college degree and it is truly amazing the amount of pure intelligence that you find on the Appalachian Trail. I met retired Doctors, environmentalists and even a young lawyer or 3.

So here is what I have decided. I will be sitting for my lsats in August and I am only going to apply to law schools in Florida or NY. Second there isn't a woman in the world that I want to be with right now or in the immediate future. You shouldnt have to fight or persuade any person to be with you. The right person will just work out. Thirdly I have got to start a healthier lifestyle that means tobacco is wacko, no more alcohol, and a healthy diet. I have already lost about 25 since I starved myself out there. But, I really want to keep going and get back to where I was in high school, and not for any girl but for myself.

Everything is dead for me in Kentucky, while my heart could miss things from there, my mind won't let it. I know there is an amazingly intelligent women waiting for me somewhere. This trip has really taken away the urgency I once had to find someone.

So my week looks like I will be hitting up GWU's graduation, the beach with mi hombres and Orlando for the summer. I am hoping and praying I will be back at Del Frisco's but if that doesnt work out I could always find something else...somewhere else. NYC

Be good

-Dan

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Life is good

All is good.

Really good.

 This crazy semester is almost over, just gotta make a turn on the stage and peice out from this mother fuck place forever. As far as an update, I am seeing a fascinatingly beautful girly girl up here, thats private though. All of my homies are heading up as I type, I am still working on my game face for the activties that wil ensue this weekend. I am happy. Life is good

Currently listening : God Loves Ugly By Atmosphere Release date: 11 June, 2002

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emo post
Current mood: calm
Category: Friends

So who would have thought I would find so many friends at a place that I despised do much! I am going to miss everyone from the Depot and Cumberland. First of all the guys from Rob Cook are super duper cool, I love how Philpot wants me to come back next year just so I can play Halo 3 with him and the boys, same with Rob and the rest of the residence life staff.Who would have thought that  Fish would become one of my dearest and nearest friends. Also the people from my work are just cool peeps, they have all helped me grow so much, I doubt they realize that. It doesn't even matter that I am manager, I've grown attached. That place has given me more than I can ever repay...

 It so interesting how I look back and think about how negative of a perogative I had, it is so easy just to shut down in new situations and become aggressive and negative. I am guilty of this and regret it so much. This is super mushy, lets end it funny

nahh lets just end it....

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