The Tripp..
Current mood: confident

So...Allow me to take you back to Tuesday of this past week and take you through one hell of a bad fucking week.

Tuesday I was feeling a little adventurous and took a 3.5hour roadtrip. To Lexington, KY. Keep in mind I also took along 2 other friends... Driving that far alone, I’d go nuts. Anyhow, that was the last good thing that’s happened...After the trip was over, the week was hell...

Over the course of the next couple days I’d get a paycheck that was joke, Get bitched at by the parents-for no reason. I’d fall in a grassy area(after a lot of rain) and cover my favorite jeans in mudd on the way to pick up my paycheck. Which left me to change into my tripp pants (thank god I always have a change of clothes in my car) Only to have them develope a very large mysterious slash from the bottom of the waistband down past my ass with no possible explanation. Meanwhile, I’m wishing that I could quit my job because I’m realizing that I hate it that much. Then I stopped by a friends house to pick up some very tasty watermelon flavored beverages there, only to discover that my friend had drank them all St. Patty’s weekend. Which only fueled my anger. Then, then, of all things, I was told that I was pretty much a lesbian because apparently I hit on a female customer who came through my line. And then I finally found out what this friend of mine thought about me. And let me tell you, It was a big slap in the face. Honestly, though, I guess I should have expected it. I’m not always the nice, cute, ribbons and lace kind of girl. I swear, I drink, I bite, scratch(now that I have nails :) and don’t always play nice. I like the color black, I like chains and safety pins on my clothes, I <3 my Tripp pants, and black cargo shorts and goth boots. Furthermore,  I’m tired of trying to please someone by being something that I’m not always. I like my music loud. And sometimes I can’t stand classical music. I like having a captive ring in my nose piercing instead of some cute girly stud. I don’t mind being short. It just means that I can wear a pair of heels and not be insanely tall. And really, I like me just how I am. And for anyone who doesn’t, well, then tough luck. Either like me as I am or Fuck Off. Because whether or not you like me isn’t my problem.

Currently listening : With Teeth By Nine Inch Nails Release date: 03 May, 2005

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I Want To Save You.....
Current mood: weird
Category: Music

Currently listening : It All Starts Here... By Jem Release date: 14 October, 2003

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I’m Not Dead...

There's always cracks
Crack of sunlight
Crack in the mirror on your lips
It's the moment of a sunset Friday
When our conversations twist
It's the fifth day of ice on a new tattoo
But the ice should be on our heads
We only spun the web to catch ourselves
So we weren't left for dead

And I was never looking for approval from anyone but you
And though this journey is over I'll go back if you ask me to

I'm not dead just floating
Right between the ink of your tattoo
In the belly of the beast we turned into
I'm not scared just changing
Right beyond the cigarette and the devilish smile
You're my crack of sunlight

You can do the math a thousand ways but you can't erase the facts
That others come and others go but you always come back
I'm a winter flower underground always thirsty for summer rain
And just like the change of seasons
I know you'll be back again

I'm not dead just floating
Underneath the ink of my tattoo
I've tried to hide my scars from you
I'm not scared just changing
Right beyond the cigarette and the devilish smile
You're my crack of sunlight oh

I'm not dead just yet
I'm not dead I'm just floating
Doesn't matter where I'm going
I'll find you
I'm not scared at all
Underneath the cuts and bruises
Finally gained what no one loses
I'll find you
I will find you

I'm not dead just floating
I'm not scared just changing
You're my crack of sunlight yeah

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Thoughts and Memories

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some sort of different survey...

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The different, actually amusing pointless survey...OF DEATH!!!!
Have you ever been abducted by aliens?:	no
Have you ever seen the effect whales have on unsuspecting pleasure boats?:	no
Do you like to be naked?:	sometimes
Would you like to be naked right now?:	I will be when I get in the shower.
When you were growing up, did you ever catch your parents doing "it"?:	no.
What is your favorite planet and why?:	jupiter...just because.
Do you believe in life after death...on MARS?:	um..no
What is your favorite band?:	right now, Korn
What celebrity are you a bit partial to?:	Amy Lee or Johnny Depp
If you were a spider, where would you lay your eggs and why?:	embedded in my arch foe's scalp.
Have you learned anything lately?:	yes.
What feelings does the Paper Mache Craine conjour up inside of you?:	nothing...
Where are your pets? If you have any...:	none.
Paper or Plastic?:	depends on what I buy.
Mayonaise or Mustard?:	mayonaise.
Do you believe in Global Warming?:	not sure. science says it's happening...but since when is it safe to believe the media.
Do you believe that Mr.Bush has in mind our countries best interests?:	no comment.
Do you get rashes easily and without warning?:	nope.
Do you like Star Wars a little or hella?:	just a little.
Have you ever prevented a  forest fire?:	not really.
Have you ever started a forest fire?:	no.
Do you secretly enjoy American Idol?:	nope...I hate that show.
If a zombie was chasing you...how would you kill it?:	bash it's non existent brains in....maybe shoot it...
If you were a zombie with rational thought, where would you work?:	slaughter house.
Are you a pothead?:	nope.
Do you respet any serial killer? If so, who and why?:	no.
The Backstreet Boys or N'Sync?:	ick. neither.
Crosby, Stills and Nash or Crosby, Stills, Nash and Young?:	what are you talking about?
Have you ever been to Seaworld?:	once.
What do you think you were in your past life?:	probably a spoiled brat...so naturally...a princess...of the elves.
When do you think the "End of the world" will take place?:	not in my lifetime...
Who is your most beloved friend?:	Ashley B.
Who is your most hated individual on the planet?:	if you actually know me, then you know who it is...
Do you actually remember what happend in the movie "Bambi"?:	not really...haven't seen it since I was a kid.
Would you wear spandex for any reason?:	um, no...
Dan Akroyd or Chevy Chase?:	Chevy Chase...only because I don't know who Dan Akroyd is.
Do you actually think new Saturday Night Live episodes are funny?:	nah...not really.
Name the title of your autobiography...:	The Story You'll Never Read.
Forest Hump or Asian Anal Cuties?:	neither.
Width or Girth?:	it's not size that matters...it's what you do with it.
Tight or Floppy?:	tight.
What's your favorite food?:	pasta.
Do you enjoy the splendor that is...Pandas?:	they're cute.
What is your favorite type of soup?:	Bennigan's Baked Potato Soup.
Do you like sports?:	not really.
Do you tell a lot of "Your Momma" jokes?:	no.
If your momma was so fat, why would that be funny?:	it wouldn't be.
If you had a unicorn, what would you do with it?:	send it back where it came from...after making it bleed to see if it's blood is anything like they show in the Harry Potter Movies...lol.
Do you believe that time travel is possible in your lifetime?:	atm, no.
What will you blow your tax return on this year my friend?:	paying expenses and buying some clothes.
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This is How it works...
Current mood: contemplative

This is how it works
You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't
You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath

No, this is how it works
You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And then you take that love you made
And stick it into some
Someone else's heart
Pumping someone else's blood
And walking arm in arm
You hope it don't get harmed
But even if it does
You'll just do it all again

Currently listening : Begin to Hope By Regina Spektor Release date: 13 June, 2006

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Last Days of this Year.
Current mood: busy

so yeah....another year is almost over....and what do I have to show for it....grades and disappointment in my major....The good news is it only took me a semester to find out that being an Interactive Media Developer isn't what I want to do. The bad news is, my 2 other choices for courses of study aren't taught at my current school. which means, I have to find another school. my other options that I've come up with are culinary arts (I want to be a baker) and Cosmotology (lemme cut some hair and tint it pink like Frenchie.lol.) either one could be interesting.

On the other non-academic side of life....in a mere 18 days it will be my 1 year anniversary(since we started dating) with Daniel!!! which makes me really happy *dances to current music playing in iTunes*...and I will say that this has probably been the roughest year for me at home. lots of tension. and I've discovered that maybe I'm not as much of a TecGrl as I thought I was. I've learned to laugh at myself more in the past year. I still haven't stopped(entirely) biting my nails. attempts at dieting still fail. I've discovered more bands and artists that I (slightly) obsess over. I've watched more anime in the past year than I've ever watched in my life. I've never wanted to leave small town life so much (or atleast have a place of my own). this is the first year I've ever had a job outside of the dairy bar since I started working. I went almost an entire year without cutting my hair...only to chop it off to where the longest piece of hair on my head was 5 inches at the longest. I've dyed my hair black(blue-black and bright black) atleast 3 times this year. it was also the year that I had my left nostril(nose) pierced...with a ring :) I watched more movies in theaters this year than any other year. I've made more trips to hot topic this year than any other year. I've bought and read more manga this year than ever before. I've bought not one....but 2 corsets this year. I think I have a better sense of who I am this year. I look really good in Goth gear. I actually bought a halloween costume this year (rather than going through my closet and putting some insane outfit together and adding a wig). I finally got a new tower for my computer this year. I've pulled more all-nighters this year than any other year. I think my hats have been worn a lot more lately... there's more to include in this....maybe at another time...and not several months later....lol. come on... you know you wanna laugh with me.

Currently listening : The Open Door By Evanescence Release date: 03 October, 2006

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Me and the Moon....
Current mood: contemplative

Currently listening : North By Something Corporate Release date: 21 October, 2003

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Song Similarities....
Current mood: okay
Category: Music

I guess I've failed to recognize this before, but Tom Petty's song "Mary Jane's Last Dance" and Red Hot Chili Peppers' song "Dani California" are practically the same song...the chord progressions line up, as well as bass and drums and they have similar lyrics. Don't believe me? Message me with your e-mail info and I'll send you a file that will make you see the light....

Currently listening : Three Days Grace By Three Days Grace Release date: 26 April, 2005

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Interesting Day...
Current mood: curious

Alright, so tonight I was bored....looking for something new and interesting to do....so I did a search online and found a coffee house I hadn't been to before... saw they had live entertainment on Saturday night, so I decided, eh, I'll check it out, and if it bites that I could go catch a movie. So I went, had a cup of coffee or two, and decided to head out and go catch a movie. I arrived at the theater (in the Piqua Mall), got my ticket and had some time to kill, so I sat in my car and read my book (yes, I had a book in my car...it's not unusual...for me.) after I got a quick bite to eat. I made my way back into the theater, found a seat close to the front(about 5 rows back) in the center. And there I sat and watched the movie...about a half hour before the movie should have ended, the movie stopped...no flickering film, just a blank screen. less than 5 minutes later, one of the theater staff members walked in to tell us that the whole mall lost power for some unknown reason...in another 5 minutes, they started handing out rain checks. After I got mine (about 12:30am) I got in my car and started making my way home...only to discover that about half of Piqua had no power...No street lights, no stop signs, and crazy drivers. I was relieved to finally see signs of life before I made it out of Piqua. I made it home...walked inside after I parked my car in the garage, when I set foot in the house, there were 2 lights on....I had turned them all off before I left...Every window and every door was locked...like I'd left it...I decided that maybe I did accidently left the 2 lights on....but the weirdest part yet is that I had turned the lighted mirror on in the room, shut off the ceiling light and left the room after I put some pjs on...5 minutes later I go back to get my cell phone which I'd left laying on the bed, and the lighted mirror was off...there's no timer on it and it's never shut off on it's own before...it's stayed on all night before...so again, I turned the lighted mirror on before I turned the ceiling light off, closed the door and left the room....I let my curiosity get the better of me and decided to give it 5 minutes and check back....and again the lighted mirror was off. I've got no clue as to why it's turning off...I mean it's harder to turn the thing off than it is to turn it on... so anyhow....this paired with the freak power outage in piqua, the mysterious 2 lights I'm almost positive I didn't leave on, one could say by now I'm more than slightly paranoid...and so I haven't slept at all and it's currently 7:20am Sunday morning...

Currently listening : Dirty Sexy Knights in Paris By Audiovent Release date: 04 June, 2002

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