Three days from now, will you have sex? It's very likely
Are you happy at the moment? yes
What were you doing at 10:00pm last night? being worried and getting the kids ready for bed
Last person who drove you somewhere(besides your parents)? Jason drove me to Cleveland and back today.
Are you a morning person or a night person? yes. I don't know.
Are you a forgiving person? I try to be. Forgive but don't forget
Who is the last person you talked to on the phone? Melly
Who was the last person to smack your butt? Amber. Don't ask.
What's the last piercing you got? I had my ears redo, but I don't keep earings in them because my ears don't like earrings.
Talk to your ex's? What exs?
Have you ever dated someone older than you? yes
Have you ever kissed in a basement? uh, yeah.
Do you get distracted easily? sometimes
How do you feel about public displays of affection? They make me feel special when they are directed at me.
Do you live alone? never
Can you keep a secret? yes, but the better question is should I
Are you happy with your living arrangements? I'd love to be able to do more work on the house, but other than that it's peachy.
Have you ever played Twister? yes
Do you have trust issues? of course
Do you have a best friend? I think I do.
Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? yes
Are you open with your feelings to people? I used to be, I'm much more selective now about it.
Do you care what others think about you? a little bit
Last thing you ate? taco.
Did you get any compliments today? yup. New hair cuts do that
What's in your back pocket? fuzz?
How has this past week been for you? crazy
Do you have any bruises? yes. many of them I have no clue where they came from (I'm a klutz and I have kids who are very physical, they bonk me and step on me all the time) And I stubbed my toe real hard on a power wheel earlier. That one still hurts.
Are you tired? Yes very.
Are you happy with your life? yes
Do you believe everything happens for a reason? most things
What is the last text you received? "Is she being good?" Because we got a cell phone!
Do you currently have a hickey? No.
What are your initials? MLF
Are you looking for a boyfriend//girlfriend? nope
Do you prefer call or text? Call, but texting takes less minutes
Have you ever liked somebody and never told them? yup. I thought in high school that if a person was interested they'd bring it up to me, and if they didn't it's because they weren't interested. It never occured to me that others might be shy or have self esteem issues as well
Last night you felt: Tired, worried, dazzled.
Ever been kissed in a car? Yeah .
Do you regret anything from your past? sure, mostly not sticking up for myself sooner. But I'm not sure I'd bee where I am today with out all that.
What are you doing Saturday? work.
Favorite color/colors? purple, green
Excited for anything? sure
How many kids do you want to have? mine
Name something you CAN NOT wait to do? shower and sleep
Does the last person you were under a blanket with mean anything to you? definitely
Are you currently single, dating, or in a relationship and if so, with who? Taken by my wife.<~~ Dat's right!
What do you want in life? A happy, healthy family and success. <~~ me too <~~ Me Three
What's annoying you? the feel of drying sweat and the ac dripping.
Do you hate the last girl/guy you were talking to? not at all
Where does the last person you kissed go to school? the school of life
Would you rather be happy with a lie or sad with the truth? sad with the truth. first you have to be honest with yourself before you can be honest with others. Sad can be dealt with. Lies are like spinning your tires in the mud.
Today, would you rather go back a week or forward? How about just know what's happening a week in the future
Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Sure!
Something you do a lot? think too much
Angry at anyone? no, just... it's not enough to be angry. I've stopped caring that much
When being out, ever wanted to just go home? yes
Anything really sad happened to you lately? not that I can think of.
Auddy survey
Current mood: hot
Category: Quiz/Survey
1.
Do you have to really know someone to kiss them? nah
2.
How long has it been since you last liked somebody? I like lots of people
3.
Who was the last person to compliment you? Jason. He was showing me how he could surf the net on the PS3. He went to fubar and showed me a profile picture. Then he said "I should show you a good picture, should I?" and went to my profile and picked a picture :D
4.
Does anything rhyme with your last name? In the old school text pager days "freel" used to be read as "thrill", does that count?
5.
What is the 15th message in your inbox? I don't have a 15th message because I recently cleaned out my mail
6.
Is anything stuck in your head? I sincerely hope my brain is stuck in my head
7.
What's all you did today? wrote, cleaned, read, laundry, planted cucumbers, took care of the kids
8.
Do you often use the term "rad"? no
9.
Have you ever tried training a dog? Yup, and I'm proud of mine
10.
What's the worst abuse you have done to your phone? we just replaced the phone I accidently dropped in the toilet... like 8 years ago
11.
Do you regret anything you've done in the past 24 hours? I regret letting Jason eat all the sherbert, does that count?
12.
Did you talk to anybody random today? nope
13.
What will you be doing in 24 hours? getting ready for bed.
14.
Do you have a dog? Yup, Dizzy. Pictures in my profile pictures.
15.
Any big plans for the weekend? grocery shopping, I like that.
16.
Where did you get your favorite pair of sunglasses? I wear prescriptions and some years ago my normals broke and I was stuck with only my sunglasses for years. So I don't have sunglasses, I have 2 pairs of prescription glasses because I got tired of hearing people make "sunglasses after dark" jokes.
17.
What was the last thing you dressed up as for Halloween? Oh I just painted my face and put on some glitter. That was fun.
18.
What word or phrase do you hate? "wannabe", "pre-published"
19.
How much money do you have on you right now? about $6
20.
What is your least favorite word to spell? publicly and restaurant often mess me up.
21.
Is anything currently frustrating you? my belly is a bit rumbly
22.
How do you deal with drama? I turn the computer off :D
23.
Are the best things in life free? They can be
24.
Are your parents proud of your recent behavior? Nope. And they never will be. But I'm proud of me.
25.
Would you ever have a threesome with your friend and their bf/gf? I plead the fifth
26.
Why do you like the person you like? jeez, could you vague it up a bit, and if the implication here is Jason scroll back up to the question about the last compliment I received and add in the fact that he works a full time (plus some) job so that I can stay here and pretend to be a real writer.
27.
Do you know all the colors in the rainbow? All I know is that gay people ruined the rainbow for everybody else.
;)<~~ LMFAO I can't get past that one.
28.
Are your shoes untied? yes, because they aren't on me, and most of them don't have laces.
29.
Who would you really like to become better friends with? a nice fat publishing contract from a big publisher
30.
Have you ever written a poem? Yup.
31.
What is the ideal name for your child? depends on the child.
32.
Do you have a calendar in your room? yes, technically three
33.
Could you go the rest of your life without smoking heroin? uh, yeah. No big loss.
34.
Do you personally know anybody who has more than five tattoos? Yes
35.
Do you prefer Jamba Juice or Starbucks? Starbucks
36.
What is your worst high school memory?
The summer I spent working at a barn, cleaning stalls and teaching camp, handing most of the money over to my dad who was out of a job at the time. It turns out he handed most of it over to my brother who got cds, a boombox and body piercings with it.
37.
Do you have trouble believing in yourself? yes.
38.
Describe the outfit you are wearing? blue elastic waist scrub pants and a pink camisole top with "Love" written on it. The shirt got mildewed and bleached at some point and all my shorts are dirty so this is my "cleaning around the house in the heat and maybe nipping outside for some playing in the garden" outfit.
39.
What is the most romantic thing you've done for someone?
I guess that's something you'd have to ask them. Jason says: "There was that whole having sex with me thing. I enjoyed that a lot."
40.
Is anybody jealous of you? Probably, but they just don't know any better
41.
Do you use the internet daily? Yup.
42.
Could you imagine your life without your best friend? No, and I don't want to
43.
Name something you dislike about the day you're having? It's HOT, but once we turn the AC on (which it is, but the window units aren't in) there's no turning them off so we are trying to wait as long as possible.
44.
Who was the last person to make you cry? stupid sporing male plants.
45.
Do you like change? sometimes.
46.
What is your favorite snack? Honey wheat pretzel sticks
47.
Do your boyfriends/girlfriends usually meet your parents?
not anymore
48.
You need a new outfit, where do you go first? the thrift store
49.
What are you doing tomorrow? writing, reading, cleaning, laundry, dishes, breaking up kid fights, being hot, mucking about on the intarnets
It’s a survey
Current mood: awake
Category: Quiz/Survey
1-Name something a claustrophobic person should not get into: ummm....a tumble dryer! lol<~~ LMAO A plastic wrap fetish
2-What one thing does a woman spend the most time on when getting ready to go on a date?
not panicking or visualizing the worstp ossible circumstances (even married women do this, especially when they've gone home to clean up puke or been called home early because something happened).
3- What is a Spanish word that everyone knows the meaning of? Hola
4- Name something in your bathroom that you leave plugged in all the time? the nightlight
5- Besides golfers, what is something you see on a golf course? green
6-Name a household chore you actually enjoy: I enjoy ll of them... after they are done :D I like organizing things, especially papers
7-Name something you walk on: Jason muhahaha! Just kidding, my feet.
8-Name a place where you see nervous people: court
9-Name something that can be cherry flavored: medicine
10-Complete this phrase: "I'll never forget my first _____": Car, house, kiss, [insert thing here]
11-Name another word for "Dad": Jason
12-Name another word for "Mom" mum
13-Name something a married couple might want to have 2 of: cars!
14-What is the first part of a person's body to lose the war with gravity? hair. :)
15-Name something that is sold by the bunch: broccoli
16-What age would you retire if you had enough money? now.
17-Name something you find on a kitchen table? *checks* peanut butter, ketchup, jelly, bread crumbs, sugar grains, a decorative basket, the laundry basket and a half empty water bottle.
18-Name something that rhymes with "dizzy": Lizzy
19-Tell me how many people you kissed last New Year's Eve: three, Jason and the kids
20 -Name something you see in a jail cell: someone who didn't do it 88) (anyone who's been to a jail or talked with the inmates knows everyone in jail is either innocent, it's not their fault or they did it for a rep.)
21-Name a month with 31 days: may
22-Name an occupation where you might work all night: mom
I've polished my manuscript. I've polished my query. I've made a list of agents who accept my genre and am only querying them. I'm sticking to Times New Roman, 12pt with 1 inch margins. I'm being polite. I'm being patient (or at least not letting the world see me when I'm not patient). I'm not complaining, or snapping back at you when I get rejected. I'm not posting your rejections or even mentioning them on my blog.
I am trying to show you respect and make your job easier.
Now here's a few things you can do to make this whole process easier on me.
Ah-hem.
1. Email Auto responder. Especially if you do not reply to queries you aren't interested in. When I don't get a response, I don't assume I've been rejected. I assume my mail has gotten lost. Please consider a short auto response message, so I know my mail did land in your in box and I don't waste your time or mine by re-querying.
2. Have a web presence. Agentquery.com, Querytracker.net, litmatch.net, Publisher's Marketplace. I check ALL of these places out to make sure that I really, truly am querying you with in a genre you represent. I'm not asking for a fancy website, or pictures, or wit and wisdom. Just guidelines. Really just a list of accepted genres. Because I've seen "fantasy" listed as accepted by a lot of agents who disagree on their web pages. I don't expect all the listing sites to get it right, which is why I check all of them. Of course, I could just check your site, or see that a listing has been approved by you. Wouldn't that save us both time?
Well, that just about sums it up. That doesn't seem like too much. And remember, I'm trying to make your job easier for both of us.
Bye Bye Spring Break
Current mood: satisfied
Category: Life
Monday means back to school, and back to work. Not a bad thing, but I was just getting used to everyone being home.
I did some work, had some fun, indulged in things I enjoy other than writing. A meeting about my son for the first time in a while, left me feeling good, rather than frustrated.
My 4 year old daughter "read" us this story just a bit ago. It's too good not to share.
"One day I was walking and I met a potato walking around. It had incredible arms and legs. And it had heads too. The potato was walking and met a chicken nugget. The chicken nugget was the bad guy. The chicken nugget grabbed my ass."
At which point we couldn't hear how it ended because we were laughing too hard.
Right now I'm sitting here, with a post storm breeze coming through the window, listening to laughter and Bones and drinking Chai tea. Sure it won't last more than a moment, but hey, it's a good moment.
Now for something lighter
Current mood: jolly
Category: Life
Just so you know I'm not feeling down or anything. In fact, it's the opposite. I'm sort of feeling my Wheaties.
It's spring break. Everyone is home, and was doing well (up until last night). My husband recently got a clean bill of health and a prescription for Ambien to help his insomnia, both of which are good. I got a lot of work done in the yard, all my flower seeds except one have been planted, and I got my first, brief sunburn of the season planting them.
We bought a grill and Jason cooked, which was both delicious (I loved grilled foods!) and a night off without going out to eat. We bought a car! And after a tune up and a few fixes we'll be able to drive places, like the grocery store.
So with the exception of some kiddo fighting today all is well. I want you all to be well too, so here's a funny.
Organizations, the nature of writing and loneliness
Current mood: artistic
There are millions of writers out there. You can barely sign on to the net without tripping over them. They come in all shape sizes, styles, and levels. From "I’ve always wanted to write a book" to "I’m writing a book (for ten years now)" to "Hey, here’s a link to my latest self pub/story in a 4theluv market" to "I got a call from an agent!" and even "I’m running for president of [writers organization] based on fifteen years of pro sales".
Some days it seems like everyone is a writer. Some days it feels like everyone’s doing better than you.
You feel alone, like no one understands. You feel like you’re fighting to walk up a steep hill with weight dragging behind you and you don’t have a clue on how to fix whatever’s wrong with you and your work so you can finally proceed forward.
You cling desperately to the few bonding moment you have with writers who have been there, particularly if they were there before you and are now past you. But when it comes down to it it’s just you sitting there, with pen and paper, or in front of a computer screen. It’s just you eyeing prose you know will sell, but aren’t sure why you keep getting nos. You’re the one reading editor and agent blogs, sample copies and writing tips. You’re alone when you wonder if your dialog is snappy enough, your plot is intricate enough, your characters are real enough. It’s just you spewing words out, going back and fixing them, sending them out, breath catching every time you go to check your mail. It’s just you wondering if you’ve done enough, if you’ve missed something, if your timing is good enough to hit a trend, or if you’re looking for water in a desert.
And that can be an overwhelming thing. So maybe you join a group online. Or a writers’ organization. You go to a convention. Maybe you desperately talk with everyone you run into, feeling like a fool afterwards, but needing that human connection.
Because everyone may be a writer. But being a writer is largely being alone. A crew of one on a small ship, looking for islands in the vast sea.
Sometimes it’s a vicious cycle. You need other people, because we’re social things. But no one can do it for you. No one has the full information to make the choices. So you reach out, and at least half of the responses you get are no, or "you should do it my way" or "you just must not be good enough". There’s the occasional "You aren’t worth my time unless you are a professional/published by so and so/win this award". There’s the organizations that do nothing for you. The crit groups where you make sure to critique everyone’s story, even though it’s not required, but only one person responds to yours. You take time away from family and writing and life in general to better the genre, to make the publishing world better. You put up with people who only want to take, you get lost in the shuffle. People just assume you can do things they’re "too busy" to do.
But you do it anyway, because some days if you aren’t being taken advantage of, you’re just alone. And if you don’t have a deal or something coming out, or that has just come out then you’re alone and a failure.
So writers, it comes down to, do you like yourself? Are you okay with being alone? Because that’s what writing is, being alone. Because no one else can do it for you.
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