6:52 AM - Catching up with David
Current mood: always questionable
"Doth the corpse have a familiar face?"
I greatly apologize for not showing up and saying 'hey' every once in a while. But, it's summer and I am in a city that I greatly appreciate. Plus, working undeneath the nose of the corporate office - all of my daily rules of engagement has changed. I cannot carry on like a 'madman' as I normally do. Well, at least when I am on the clock.
There is a world of differences on how things work from the field to the office. I've had to learn in a short amount of time the numerous differences between the two. There are things I would mention on the things I have had to learn at a geometric rate, but I could see eyes glazing over just even going into slightest detail of what I have had to pick up. My level of dorkyness has risen tenfold. I will just leave that there.
But in my time here - I have made quite a few friends that have been kind enough to show me the cooler side of Houston. Places I never would have found on my own. It always amazes me on the people you find and run into that can make huge difference in your life. For that I am always grateful. Finding music, culture, art and other areas of interest are always welcome in my book.
Anyway, my little noodle has reached a point of welcoming my time of coming home. I've carried some of my 'rock star' notions a little too far here, and I long for the comforts of home. Familiar faces and familiar places.
So, before my thoughts go off into a million different directions I will end this short little blog.
I love it here. But, I love my home, family and friends even more. Perhaps I am a little homesick. Plus, I am looking forward to my next assignment in Mexico. I am feeling like I am in the movie "Office Space" right now. I even had a meeting with "The Bill's" today.
Anyway, when I can actually sit down and write what really has gone on in my life as of lately, I will be more than happy to fill you all in.
Until then, you are stuck with this lame ass blog... that and they have cut off "myspace" from our work servers. I know some backdoors into gettin into myspace from blocked servers, but I have been too busy to even dork around with that.
Anyway, I may be home sooner than expected. But, we are going over the possibilities of that.
See, my little noodle is just all over the place. I just need a day or two of just being me.
So, until then. I wish you all well. And I can't wait to see all the ones I love at home...
12:21 AM - New Blog Coming Soon
Current mood: excellent
"Kids, you tried your best and you failed miserably. The lesson is, never try."
-Homer-
Sorry it's been a while. I've been working on some different projects. Vector and typography work. Work, life, yada-yada.
Never enough time. Oh, we are finishing up the Houston project this week and I will be off to Mexico on a land based assignment. Should be sweet.
Anyway, life has been very good to me lately. I'll fill you in on that also. Just wanted to say hi and I will talk to you later.
Plus, I need to clean up around myspace here also. And, you have been killing my bandwidth on divShare. Why you haven't seen my page looking normal. My monthly Gig is up to 460 Gigs so far. On the 30th I will be able to go on my usual bizness with music and art. 250 Gigs is my monthly limit. Crazy!
Thanks for looking in on me and caring. It has been very appreciated. I will be back on very soon and talk with you all as soon as possible
<3 Gummby
Oh, and I have some more dorky pics to lay on you guys also..
"She'll come back as fire, burn all the liars, leave a blanket of ash on the ground."
Melvin Sokolsky
I've been an admirer of Sokolsky for a long time. But when you grow up with Vague, Harper's Bazaar and other magazines around, you see it and move on. And yes I did read these magazines too. Same with Interview and there use to be another one - very cutting edge at the time? Crap! Large magazine stuffed with art, fashion and photography and new music. Eh, it will come to me - eventually. Dammit, we use to fight over it in art class!
Anyway, my man Melvin: *Note some of the images are big. I work with large screen monitors, so if you're rollin' wit' the big screen, it won't effect you. Once I pop on my laptop, I am like 'well, this sucks!'*
"Up on your feet! This is no time to tire!" my master cried. "The man who lies asleep will never waken fame, and his desire
and all his life drift past him like a dream and the traces of his memory fade from time like smoke in air, or ripples on a stream." - Virgil to Dante
Now this post isn't for the young punks. So, watchout for the little ones. Spencer my man, if you made it into here - click back now! There's bewbs in here. This goes for other little punks too!
Again: There are bewbs in here, and they are not mine - (ha!)
You've been warned!
Now for the rest of you punks. Call it art, call it graphic, call it whatever you like. These photographs grabbed my attention today. Plus, I told you I would be submitting more material when provoked. And what better way to start the fourth of July? Fireworks.
fire - works
natasjafourie
More at the website.
Alright kids, have a safe 4th of July!
And I don't want to see any of this on the roads tonight:
Robert Williams
-guy that did "Appetite for Destruction" for Guns n Roses back in the day.
If you're drinking - don't drive and If you're driving - don't drink
11:14 PM - turbato un poco d’ira
Current mood: my wild love
turbato un poco d'ira - Darken a bit
"A bit of anger benefits the righteous indignation of Human Reason, but immoderate anger would be out of character. Even the smallest details reinforce the great concepts."
Tagline Quote: Bene ascolta chi la nota - well heeded is well heard.
Just wanted to say thank you very much to those of you out there who appreciate my strange taste in music and the arts. My site where I host these things nearly broke my 100 Gig transfer for the month. Kind of strange since I haven't posted a Dork Group blog in well over a month. So, the only place where you can get my recent posts have been through here. And I am not really leaving all that much up. So again, thank you. Strange - but thanks anyway.
Um, I have just been laying low here lately. Trying to rest a little before I get home. The last time I went home I was well beaten, broken hearted, battered and bruised before I even step foot ashore. Long before the phat lip I received. This coming home will be another story. I've made my amends to the living and the dead. So my heart and conscience (n. The awareness of a moral or ethical aspect to one's conduct together with the urge to prefer right over wrong.) are clear. Which in my case is a rare thing.
Anyway, as of late I've been immersed in classic literature. Thoreau, Lucan and Dante - among others. Dante by far is one of my favorite all time writers and deserves and deserved all the praise he has accomplished. His style is impeccable.
So, once I get into something, everything else gets the volume turned way down. So, that's where I've been if you have been wondering. It's a great escape.
Okay, the fish report as of lately on the Ferrel: Dolphins are still doing there thing. I saw my first shark out here the other day. Very freakin' cool. Just saw an itty-bitty turtle a few moments ago. There has been a Barracuda circling around our vessel for the past few days. Smiling his toothy smile up at me every once in a while. Creepy. My friend Chris caught a huge as Ling yesterday. Pictures will be uploaded soon. All sorts of squid, jellies, cigar fish, just all sorts of wildlife blowin' up around here.
Needless to say it has been a very good cruise. And my homecoming will be even better.
Anyway, this was just suppose to be a quick thank you...
So thank you...
Oh, if you are wondering about my name *Sextus*
It's not quite exactly what you think. Sextus - youngest son of pompey the great. noted for piracy in Lucan. 420-422.
I've been noted on piracy a few times. Plus, how cool of a name is Sextus?! "Sextus, get your fine ass over here!" - 'Alright baby, be right there!'
Sweet.
For the kids who likes pictures!
Ricardo Salamanca
Dran - Street Artist
I have more to say on life and love, want, waste and mass depression. But maybe some other blog. Or maybe you should get it from the horses mouth. Plus, I am in way too good of a mood lately.
10:10 AM - tired of David? - me too! how ’bout cool photos then? - cool
Current mood: tired - going to sleep for a while
I've quoted this before. But I like it:
"It is said that what is called the Spirit of an Age is something to which one cannot return. That this spirit gradually dissipates is due to the world's coming to an end. In the same way, a single year does not have just spring or summer. A single day, too, is the same. For this reason, although one would like to change today's world back to the spirit of one hundred years or more ago, it cannot be done. Thus it is important to make the best out of every generation."
Aaron Chang - I grew up looking at his work. Surfer, Surfing magazines, I catch his stuff on Fuel now. Great photographer!
Nathan Smith - Another great waterman, photographer.
Sean Davey - Once again a very cool waterman, photographer.
I am going to try to keep doing this every once in a while...
Oh, in case if you are wondering where I am at this minute:
(See the Star?) That's me on a little boat.
Now where I would like to be. Also, a little subliminal message in there if you can spot it.
10:38 PM - supporting complexity
Current mood: sticky factory
Alex: Welly, welly, welly, welly, welly, welly, well. To what do I owe the extreme pleasure of this surprising visit?
Georgie Boy: We got worried, there we were waiting and drinking away at the old knifey Moloko and you had not turned up. And we thought you might have been like offended by something or other so around we come to your abode.
Alex: Appy-Polly-Loggies. I had something of a pain in my guliver so I had to sleep. I was not awakened when I gave orders for awakening.
Dim: Sorry about the pain. Using the guliver to much like maybe. Giving orders and disciplining and such perhaps. You sure the pain is gone? You sure you might be happier back in bed.
Alex: Lets get things nice and sparkling clear. This sarcasm, if I might call it such, does not become you, O my Brothers. As I am your droog and leader I'm entitled to know what goes on eh? Now then, Dim. What does that great big horsey gape of a grin portend.
Georgie Boy: All Right, no more picking on Dim, Brother. That's part of the new way.
Alex: New way? What's this about a new way? There's been some very large talk behind my sleeping back, I know it.
I still love the stuffing out of Malcom McDowell in this flick. It makes my twistedness seem pretty tame.
Anyway, there is nothing like waking up and going out on your back porch for a smoke and seeing dolphins mate. It's quite a site to behold. I yelled our for them to get a room, but I believe I am in their room. Sorry... I think we are in a prime fishing ground right now, 'cause our vessel has been surrounded by hords of crazy dolphins lately. It's been rather nice.
Which in turn witnessing this event has got me thinking of future goals. Well, besides mating of course... but actual long term goals. That's something I never really tackled yet. I've never been a firm believer in seeing that far into the future. I always tend to go where the wave takes me. So far it has been somewhat lucrative, but not that really satisfying.
But the strange truth is that I like being out in the middle of the ocean doing little to nothing. It gives me a chance to clear my head and get away from the noise of people, places and things. I get easily consumed by it all. My father has the forests of Oregon to get lost in, that's where he goes to get away from it all. Myself it has always been the ocean. Whether surfing, hiking, mountain biking, cliff climbing, it has always been around the shores of home.
Anyway, an actual long term, or maybe even short term goal(depends): To buy a yacht, or a large water vessel and escape quite often.
As I have mentioned it maybe short term. I have been wooed by a group in Pennsylvaniato do what I essentially do here. It pays triple what I make here. But, I am not that keen into relocating at the present. I am now getting use to calling Florida 'home.' I like it there. Plus, the job kinda sounds administrative. Which by no means is a bad thing. Just not the direction I plan on going right now. Well, if something turns up in Tampa or something, sure. But Pennsylvania? I don't think I am down for that. We'll see?
So, moving on. Recently I have mentioned things about my short term and long term memory loss. Like I have said: I have to write countless little notes to myself reminding me of mundane things, and not so mundane things. Lately, I have been indulging quite a bit. Well not lately - more like over a long period of time. My brain cell count probably isn't all that great.
So, I've been working on little things to improve my short term loss. Dorkier games that require thought and repetition. I generally like to just drive around and shoot things. The usual debauchery. Also, for word recognition I have been working on something that is kinda fun. Wanna try it?
Okay, the objective is to pair and adjective and a noun together. Now it doesn't have to make sense, just pairing one with the other. And you have to do it in a short amount of time. I usually only allow myself a minute or two to come up with as much as I can. It's dorky - but I find it rather fun. Plus, it kinda helps me. Can't help but to like that.
Eh, I told you it was rather dorky. I find it rather humorous to see how I pair them up.
Anyway, just a quick blog to kind of fill you in on my world. Some of you out there are a little timid on asking me things, which is all right. I would be kind of wary of myself also. But, I live with me, I am quite use to my antics.
*Oh, also as a precautionary: The site where I host my music, art and things - they recently got hacked. So, if you come here and you see no images and or content - i.e. music, videos, whatever. They are undergoing site security improvements. I hotlink a few items from there, because I am lazy, so my mainpage may look bare in some spots also. I am thinking of building my own server, but that takes time. A thing I am not blessed with. I would rather fornicate and do bad things on my time off.
So, I gotta get back to work.
'Work!? The time has come, ' The Walrus said, 'To talk of other things!' 'Of shoes, and ships, and ceiling wax, and cabbages and kings,' 'And why the sea is BOILING hot, and weather pigs have wings!' 'CULOO, CULAAY, no work today,' 'We're cabbages and kings!'
Have a good weekend peeps! I will harass some of you here in a little bit. And you know who you are. Other kids out there. I will talk to you later.
7:24 AM - the flaw with words
Current mood: getting better
The flaw with words is that they always make us feel enlightened, but when we turn around to face the world they always fail us and we end up facing the world as we always have, without enlightenment. For this reason, a warrior seeks to act rather than to talk, and to this effect, he gets a new description of the world—a new description where talking is not that important, and where new acts have new reflections.
-Don Juan
I couldn't agree more!
Lately, I have been really hit hard with the things that I have said. Sometimes I don't even know the effect that they will have on people. And needless to say I have also been hit really hard with things that people have said to me. It's just really strange, and it has kind of thrown my basic principles out of whack. Growing up I basically said what I want, when I want, to whomever I want. And it was never that big of a deal.
So, of course I have to figure out what the hell is going on here. Growing up I was the kid that took apart his first radio and computer to figure out just how it worked. Usually at first without much success, but I eventually got it. I guess I am back in that frame of mind again. I want to know. So, I am tearing sh*t apart again.
In doing so, I have come across some literature that may or may not interest you. Some of it is pretty cheese, and some of it I have done before in creative writing a long time ago. Some of it - well - just interests me. I am easily amused. Anyway - it's a blog, not like I am getting graded on this. Or am I?
Here we go:
"What would life be like if you constantly were confronted by your immediate self? A better memory, maybe. By providing instant feedback, I think we'd be self-aware of everything. The repetition would at least for a time make us think more about what we are doing. If you were always reflected back to your consciousness, it would reinforce what actions you make. It would be like a mirror of the self. You would always agree. You may be annoyed at the duplicity, but it may later be blocked out like many other things we knock out of our focus. You could develop an outside perspective as others would see you.
As a figurative experiment, you could "talk to yourself" via an instant message program such as AIM, Yahoo Messenger, or others. Add yourself as a buddy on your list (You should be friends with yourself anyway). If you don't have the heart to add yourself as a friend, then you have issues about your self-worth. You're better than that. Now gather the courage to send yourself a greeting. Try to react to yourself. Realize what it feels like. You will learn something. It adds to your thinking time, by unfamiliar repetition and deeper evaluation. It does seem like there is a threshold or a limit to how deep you can go. You can't lie to yourself to embellish things. You can develop imaginary situations. You can't surprise yourself too much. You can quasi-surprise yourself if you are perceiving at a rate slower than your conversation. If anything it will show you how much easier it is to talk to someone who isn't you. Unpredictability and additional sources of information make conversations go forward and can strike up forgotten knowledge that was hidden from your conscious memory."
I do this to some degree. I leave little post-it notes for myself everywhere: "Keep working out David - Who knows when you're going to fight another Ultimate Fighter again!" I send emails to myself saying: "Stop being an idiot and say what you mean." That and I like sending this one to myself: "I still think you're pretty hot." <---- One of my favorites actually. Along with the other million notes I write to myself, 'cause I forget just about everything these days. Phones, keys, I.D., a life, love, you know. When I do write myself back occasionally ('cause I hate writing emails). I usually come back with: "I know asshat - I know." Or: "Yeah, you are pretty hot." Ha! But, you should try it to some degree. It does slightly improve your reaction with others. Unless you are provoked by a girl named HellKatt. Then it's all on! *mumbles* Little punk, always trying me. But really, we all do it to some degree (I need to stop with the degree thing). I just do it "to the extreme!" <--- I imagine a professional wrestler saying that.
Okay, next bit: This one made me stop and think about the crap I write here on myspace. Also made me think of who reads my crap here on myspace.
Anywho:
"Anonymity and private exposure of the web. The web is a public place. Unlike the sidewalk, people can't see you directly. However, everything you do is possibly recorded and saved forever, and even possibly seen by the government (like buying search data and other stuff). Every time you search something, someone else can see it - including the person providing you internet access (the host of a wifi hotspot), the search company (Google stores their searches on their server computers), and anyone else who can act as a middleman between you and the content you are looking for (advertisers, referring sites, third-party scripts). The most obvious and popular concern is hackers intercepting data that belongs to you. All of these potential viewers may not know your name, but they can get your IP address (your computers address) pretty easily. Nothing is fully private on the internet, unless you send and receive in an encrypted manner and cloak yourself using someone else's computer identity.
On the flipside, there is a general level of being undetected from your true self on the web. Why else would a grown man pretend to be a young teen in a chatroom and commit a sexual crime as a child predator? People feel secure being outside the boundaries of physical reach. People are less responsible and end up doing or revealing things they wouldn't otherwise. This isn't bad in itself, but it creates new avenues of deviating from accepted social practices. Not that every social rule and norm is the ideal, but it's easy to get carried away especially if you are naive and don't think about what your doing. Employers have even used online information (websites, myspace, forums, etc.) that was voluntarily submitted by potential employees to make decisions of hiring them for the job. Organizations, sources of scholarships, and any other person or group can alter opinions or take away privileges depending on your behavior on and off the internet."
I greatly deviate from accepted social practices quite often. Perhaps I will reign in what I do here a little bit. But, even my 'f*ck-ups' are quite entertaining sometimes. I've said this many of times before: "It's like watching a car wreck. You don't want to look, but that little itch in your belly makes you." It's okay, if you're a friend, or on my preferred list, you can look.
A selection I read about harmony of free will and foreknowledge. Now before you start with the "take it outside 'God Boi." This piece I read the other day made a hell of a lot of sense. I think that athiests and true believers can at least agree on what free will and foreknowledge is about. And it is broken down nicely I think. Regardless if you believe in god or not. I'm still on the fence.
"God is not a subject of time, because He created all things, and is the God over time. Besides being timeless (beyond the bounds of time, endless, eternal), God is "time-full." He is always past, present and future. By knowing all our actions before and after we do them, God knows what actions we will/did freely do. Since God is past, present, and future, God has freedom in all realms simultaneously. Except for God, freedom is only possible in the present. We cannot perform a different action than an action that has already been done. One cannot alter their destiny because if they decided to do something they normally would not do, it would in fact be their destiny to do something they wouldn't normally do. Without knowing everything, like God, we cannot truly alter our destiny. Because God knows every single thing, He is the only Being that has the ability to change our destinies, but because He does not force you to do the action, He does not redefine your destiny or confine your freedom. The only way for Him to hinder a person's freedom is to make them choose something they do not choose to do.
If we are free, we have the freedom to choose anything we are capable of doing. We are not free to be timeless, or to become God, or to redo the past, or to change God's foreknowledge. We are not free in the sense that we cannot change our choice we made in the past, or act beyond the laws of physics. Although I have to abide by the laws of gravity, I can still make choices. I can still lift my left hand or lift my right hand. Although a limitation may be put on me, I can make choices because I am free. I consider myself free although I have a limitation, because I have the ability to make decisions. Even if "Someone" knows that I am going to do something, or have done something, it is irrelevant. Just because God knows/knew the action, it does not stop my action. It does not change my action. It does take away that action. For example, my friend knows that I will raise my left hand, but the fact that he knows won't stop me from doing it. I am not influenced because he knows. My freedom to lift my hand will only be removed if my friend stops me. God does not put our hands down when he wishes us not to. That may be one reason why there is evil in the world, because God allows it through the freedom of mankind. God did not actually create evil, but it was formed as a bi-product of mankind (and the freedom given it).
The basic argument goes that if God knows every action of every time, including what we have not yet performed, then there is no way to change (even with freedom) what God already knows. This is true, but this does not automatically conclude free will is an illusion. Like I state before, there is no causal impact upon the knowledge set in God's mind. The factor of time is opposed on us, not God. Because time is not applicable to the knowledge of God, there is no "God already knew." God is not riding the train of time with us. The essence of God dwells in an all-encompassing, everlasting time-frame.
There is no earthly way to become 100% "free." If you want to be ultimately free, you have to be God. You must dwell in each dimension of time, and you must have unfathomable powers. I am perfectly satisfied being the "free" that I am, because I am not being ultimately oppressed. No one is stopping me. Only I can stop myself, because I have the freedom to stop myself."
See?! I've read various forms of this, but I like this one the best. He dumbs it down quite well.
"What have we lost in the modern age?"
An artificial persion asked me this very question, and below is what my artificial reply was:
"We have lost the past. The past held onto practically everything including fun, excitement, Adolf Hitler, dinosaurs, the printing press, Adam and Eve, books, phonographs, cavemen, art, portable slaves, weapons of minuscule destruction, the Confederacy, morality, candle-lit hangings, iron maidens, typewriters, and bathing once a month."
Anyway, this is my recent post. I'll be somewhere by the time you read this. I'll be somewhere every time you read this. I'll be somewhere if you never read this.
Oh, now for the people who like to just look at pictures: (like me)
Roy Lichtenstein You may not like pop art - but I do.
*side note* DivShare - where I host a good majority of my music and warez - They are doing some maintenance on their servers. So, if you don't see any images now, come back in a little while. They will be here.
So, I'm getting kind of bored. Plus, I loaded my emulators and Roms on my pc here. Emulators are a geek term for game consoles (least for me). Super Nintendo, Sega Genesis, Nintendo 64. Plus, I have every game that I have ever had or wanted. I told you, I am making my job a big vacation. It's awesome! We have millions of dollars worth of technical equipment for scanning the earth and I'm playing Super Smash Brothers and Sonic on them. I told you I was a dork. But I bet I have more fun than you at work!
All right punk asses - I am going to medicate / sedate myself - smoke - and play some games. Watch some movies and pass the fudge out.
As always, - Wait!
Now if you know me - and truly know me - you know that sometimes my words are a bit strong. But please know that my heart is always in its right place... okay. So, don't take what I say too seriously. It will save us all a lot of heartbreak in the end.
10:07 PM - Bloomingdale Skate Park
Current mood: excited
We are presently trying to get a skate park built in our neighborhood. Which just rocks for so many reasons!
Anyway, we are having a meeting June 3rd 7:00 PM here at the YMCA off of Bloomingdale Ave. Valrico, Florida. Stop in and see how you can help. They have a website now, and a contact email. Write and give support - please.
7:19 AM - well dey gone fuck around and push delete
Current mood: resting
Beat goes on.
I still don't have much to say. Except for the fact that I am very grateful and thankful for my family and friends. "It's called gratitude and that's right"
So, sitting in my front yard with my Rajah cat at my heels, iced carmel macchiato (extra drizzle) sweating, little high, acoustic guitar at my side, annoying my neighbors with my brand of music, head nodding to the beat.
Days like today are one of the many reasons why I call Florida home.
