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How did it all slip by so quickly?.....
Current mood: grateful
Category: Life

Friday.... June 01,2007...
Today is going to be a tough day for this mom. I just put my 17 year old daughter on a plane to Louisiana for a week's visit with friends and my 22 year old son is moving into his first place of his own. After 18 years with me and then 4 years of roommates, he's flying solo. What  milestones!....How did all of those years slip by so quickly? Shouldn't my babies still be in diapers? When did I stop getting up for 2 a.m. feedings? Why didn't I notice what was taking place?  It all happened so fast.....
The two best things that I have ever done in my life are growing up and making their own place is this world, and I couldn't be more proud. I am so thankful that they are such wonderful, caring, young adults. It's just that I miss my babies...I need more feathers for my nest...I don't think I'm quite ready for all of this empty nest syndrome that up until now was just something that happened to other parents! Just a little inkling of an empty nest has sent my maternal instincts into hyperdrive! Aaaahhhh, someone please invent a time machine! Just let me hold them a few minutes longer, rock them to sleep a few more times, and feel their arms around my neck as I tuck them in safely for the night.....
At the end of the day, I think, so far, maybe, just maybe, I've done okay as a single mom.  My son, the Planet Smoothie manager and aspiring filmmaker, is going to be a huge success, I just know it, and my daughter is right behind him bringing her own special touches to a world with endless opportunities.

Chance, your dad would have been so proud of you...and I am proud to be your mom...

Bre, you are a true joy and I treasure every moment that we spend together...
 
How did it all slip by so quickly?.....

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missing bre
Current mood: nostalgic
Category: Life

 Bre,
Today I put you, my baby girl, on an airplane to go visit friends in Louisiana. This is the first time you have flown by yourself and I thought my heart would break when I had to loosen my arms from around you to let you get on that plane alone. I know you will be fine because you have grown into a wonderful , intelligent young woman, but as your mom, I still worry about all of the things that could go wrong.
Within minutes of you boarding that plane, I got your text message that read, "I'm fine, Mom, I love you."  Needless to say, that brought another round of tears from my already reddening eyes. I already miss you terribly and I'm trying to think how I will ever  begin to fill the week without you. You are mighty special, you little mighty mouse.
 I know all parents think their kids are special, but I honestly have 2 of the best kids that anyone could ever hope for.  God has blessed me in many ways, but you and Chance are the best things that I have ever done in my life. I would be lost without you both.
Here's to the bittersweet realization that my baby girl is growing up...she's not such a baby anymore. But as long as I'm living, my baby you'll be.... always.
Have fun, Bre! Enjoy your youth, it goes by much too fast...
I love you!
Mom

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a great lady
Current mood: sad
Category: Life

Mother's Day 2007...

My 2nd Mother's Day without my Mom... Somehow, I thought this year would be easier, but I find myself missing my mom more all the time. Every day something happens that I want to tell her about. I want to pick up the phone and call her to tell her the latest news about Bre or Chance. I want to hear her voice and her laughter. I want to stop by her house and have a cup of coffee as I listen to the latest family gossip..lol...she could always make me laugh as she told me about the latest family escapades.  She could make you laugh out loud with some of the sayings that she had!
My mom was a great lady and was loved by many. She had a way with people, no matter what the circumstances were,  and she always knew just the right thing to say.
I remember laughing with her as she lay in bed in her last days. She never lost her sense of humor. Thankfully, these days I find myself remembering more of the good times that we had and trying not to focus on the terrible demon called cancer that took her away from me. But no matter how many good times I recall, my heart still breaks when I realize that on Mother's Day, my visit with her will take place at the cemetery.
She was my very best friend and I miss her terribly . My life is forever changed and my heart will never be the same without her.

Happy Mother's Day, Mama...
I miss you.

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Take 6 photos from Kirk Whalum JazzFest In Nashville on Labor Day , Sept 06
Current mood: content
Category: Music

Currently listening : Feels Good By Take 6 Release date: 21 March, 2006

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Mother's Day.....
Current mood: melancholy
Category: Blogging

I miss my Mama...

I lost her to Ovarian cancer on June 22, 2005.

She was my best friend...

and when I started thinking back on my childhood, i realized that she was my "First" best friend....

and now she's gone....

My life will never be the same without her and I am dreading Mother's Day this year.

 I have been without her for almost a year now, but the pain is sometimes still so fresh that it is almost unbearable.

I am glad that she is not suffering anymore and that her pain is gone now and I know that she would not want me to be sad.....

but there are still many days that I just can't believe that I will never get to talk to her again...or go on vacation with her again...or call her everyday just to see how she is....

And no one will ever love me like my Mom loved me..

It has just been a very hard thing for me to get over...
When, as the child, you have to switch roles and become the parent, it is very hard.

 At the end of my Mom's life, she was totally dependent on me for everything....it was sooo hard for her....she hated being incapacitated....but I could see in her eyes that she was very grateful for everything that I was doing for her, and even though she wasn't able to speak, her eyes told me that she loved me....something I had always known..... but never heard ....

You should treasure every moment that you have with your loved ones because you never know what's going to happen. Never take a moment for granted....and please....before it's too late....tell them that you love them...

I just thank God that He allowed us to take one last vacation together before Mama was diagnosed with cancer....we had just gotten back from our yearly Florida trip together when she got the news....she died the following year during the week that we were supposed to be on annual vacation......

For 46 years, I have spent Mother's Day with my Mom....what will this year be like?  All of the "firsts" have been hard, .....the first holiday's without her, the first birthday's without her....I know it gets easier and with God's help, I will get through it....but my heart sure does ache for her.....

Happy Mother's Day, Mama......

Currently listening : Beautiful World By Take 6 Release date: 21 May, 2002

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about those friend requests....
Current mood: annoyed
Category: Friends

Sadly...I seem to be having to edit my friends list quite frequently lately. This is due to postings that I find offensive. If you are going to post things that are disrespectful or degrading to women, then please don't request to be my friend...... I try to keep a circle of friends with similar values and morals....so...If you have a tendency to post things that are not family friendly....then please just read this and move on.....Thanks.......I appreciate your consideration...

Currently listening : Feels Good By Take 6 Release date: 21 March, 2006

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