For Foxxie
Current mood: sleepy
Category: Writing and Poetry

lol Here is my latest poem , im not sure I like it and im not sure if im even done with it lol

~ Dungeons~

Currently listening : Broken Boy Soldiers By The Raconteurs Release date: 16 May, 2006

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This is kinda corney...
Current mood: relaxed
Category: Writing and Poetry

I wrote this for someone and he would know who he was if he read this , and no its not Bryan im ok I wrote this awhile back

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When you are strong
Current mood: exhausted
Category: Life

First let me describe what strong means to me. It means that you have been through alot of hard times and problems and you havent let it break you. You pick yourself up and try to stay optimistic. Some would call it a fool, sometimes it makes you one. People see this and because of it they feel free to cause you more problems, walk all over you, use you, hurt you. Why? Cause they see your strong and think "oh it wont matter she/he can take it" Somehow it makes them feel justified to do these things. Usualy these people who do this are weak, by weak i mean if they went through one small thing theyd break. You have what they want, what they want to be , but instead of trying to become stronger they become weaker and try to take it out on the stronger. These people are cowards, and they are cold hearted. To want to cause grief to another whose already had their fill simply because "they can take it" is the lowest of the low. But the good thing is these people when they do fall usualy fall extremely hard, call it Gods will, karma, whatever they get it in the end and its not pretty, then they break and blame the world. They seem to forget that they caused others harm. They are too selfish and self centered to realize they caused things on themselves. With that said Id rather be strong, sure ive had alot of grief but I have a few things they dont , my dignity and honor. When i leave this world i can go knowing I did no one harm, I didnt use my misfortunes as an excuse to cause that on others. I can just sit back and watch karma do that, and that can be alot more satisfying .

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Its over
Current mood: disappointed
Category: Life

Bryans gone, he left me in financial ruins, and pretty much broken. All my fault cause I allowed it. Its over now. Now ill have to pick up the pieces of my life and pull us out of the mess he left. Im sorry i havent been here been playing rune scape , good way to escape reality which i really need right now. Hope you are all better then iam. *hugs*

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"Tired"
Current mood: cold
Category: Writing and Poetry

By Dala

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"Waste"
Current mood: crappy
Category: Writing and Poetry

By Dala

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My Cat died
Current mood: sad
Category: Pets and Animals

We woke up this morning and he had passed away. He was my favorite cat. I have no idea what to do with his remains and now Im stuck calling around trying to find a place to take him when all I wanna do is curl up and cry. Im gonna miss him so much. My kids are so sad...

R.I.P Sobe 5-27-02 to 3-18-06

Your forever in our hearts...

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New Poem
Current mood: creative
Category: Writing and Poetry

I have been down this road my friend

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As if...
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Life

Things could not get worse ahahahahha , of course they can.

Where to begin. Ive had loss, sickness, stress,dissapointment, worry and an epiphany and thats all in one week.

Lets start with sickness, no biggie just me with the flu, kids with the flu, me still doing everything with the flu....

Stress: BILLS, more fucking bills. My bills are at 3xs the amount im use to, Im afraid im plunging into a dark pit and I wont beable to dig myself out. Oh and no im not making them higher, its not my doing is what im saying. But of course its my stress since it will effect me and my kids if I dont find a way to pay them.

Loss, well hopefully not but our family pet is ill. I have no money or no car nor can I leave my babies to take him to a vet. He seems constapated. I hope thats it. There are other able bodies here, that could do something. But they wont, And since I refuse to raise already grown folks who were improperly raised, who should be adults but are not, nothing will be done. See the difference between adults and children is : Adults take over, they act they are responsible, they handle business. Children dont, because there a child , they dont need to or have to do that yet. You teach through your actions and hope they grow to become this. With this said Iam the ONLY adult in this house. Not literaly but by meaning "of" Iam.

Disspointment and worry: My youngest two childrens Dad is siting 30 mins from me in a jail cell, awaiting the possibility of being deported. I do not want this man deported. Our children need him. I need him. He would eliminate so much burden on me. Things would get fixed, children would have things they need, bills would be payed, cat would be in the vets lol Together or not he would be there. I need someone to be there. Mostly my kids need it this leads to the epiphany

Sunday was my 14yr old sons birthday. Him and my oldest (16) Have the same father. A man I knew since 3rd grade, was with 10 years, been apart 10 years lol Anyway he came from california as always for the kids. Me and Vincent (not his child, my 3yr old) were sick. Vincent as you may know is autistic. So Autism + Sick = GRUMPY BEYOND BELIEF Right away he saw I was run down and tok over, cheering him up, playing with him, hugging him, Vincent .... I saw a joy on his little face I havent seen since his dad was taken away from us. (jail not death remember) Ever since Vincent has been much more pleasant, even sleeping 8 or more hours. Keep in mind this is not Vincents father. So then he picks up Vanessa plays with her, kisses her , hugs her (not his kid either) I watched as he did the "dad like thing" with them, they happiness that overcame them. When he put her down she cried. I knew at that moment she needs this. As i slept he even straighten up some. He said " I cant believe there are this many able bodies, that you are being allowed to run yourself down just to take up their slack, and this house has never looked so bad, you have never looked so stressed and tired" Why do outsiders notice this , yet no one here does? Or perhaps they do and dont care, I believe they dont care. Anyway I can not allow my daughter to go perhaps 17yrs in the pressence of what should be a step dad but refuses to bond or be any kind of father to her, what kind of rejection and pain would that be for her? For all of them, espeacialy my youngest 3. Not to have a dad is one thing , to have what should be a dad in your life everyday and not recieve that type of love is devastating. My little girl is precious. Everyone says that, she is the sweetest, cutest thing to crawl Gods green earth. She deserves better. They all do. At least the oldest two have a great dad, thank God for him. So epiphany is this Love me love my kids, dont love my kids then you obviously dont love me end of story. In otherwords, if the guy isnt willing to step up and be the man then he wont be my man. No dedication here. Youd have to be a huge jack ass anyway to know a woman has 5 kids and yet have no inclination to be a father to them if your planning to marry said woman.

Well anyway im gonna end this off here , if you pray send some prayers my way please. God bless and you know I really need to go back to church....

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Rune Scape
Current mood: impressed
Category: Games

Does anyone play this? Its really fun. It's a mmorpg. Right now im playing the free version but Im thinking about signing up as a paying member cause its the funnest thing since PSO. lol

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