My friends and what I think of them...Part 4

This is probably the most drastic change of friends I have gone through since high school.  But now I have some new people in my life who I can add to the old.  Again, I will tell the TRUTH and if it upsets you...oh well.  This blog will be very sappy...sorry, I'm just that kinda guy.  No one has been removed.  The same people from the other list remain. 

Reva Vergara - My dance buddy!  Although I was a bit annoyed with you toward the end there, you have quickly grown to be one of my closest friends.  I feel I can tell you anything and you'll accept me for it.  I love how sweet you are and how much you care about others.  (Just dont be so goddamn sensitive!!).  Even though I'm in Reno now, don't think for a SECOND that we're still not just as cool.  And when I come back it'll be just like old times.

Troy - Sorry, I don't know your last name!!  I am rather upset that we didnt get to hang out as much, but come December, you me and John, all day everyday!  Lol jk, but yeah I am proud to have such a cool stepbrother.  You dance like a fool and you really should be on the amateur team.  Its just that simple.  You're so sweet and always think of others and the bond that you and John have always brings a tear to my eye.  Soooo, call me up anytime ya little NIGGA!

Katherine Rose  "Katie" Kimble - My best girlfriend.  Yes we fight.  Yes we bicker, and debate, and what not.  But this girl has been in my life since Day 1!  Ok maybe like 2,500, but still!  Elementary school, middle and high school and even college. You've been there for all of it.  We are living proof that online relationships do in fact work out.  I love how I can pull you out of my pocket and you're always there.  Its very relieving.  And we will be a dynamic duo!

Sabrina Tedpaogo - Sabrina is just one of those people I can see everyday and not get annoyed by them.  We recently (and for the first time) had some drama, but one thing about me is, I don't let people who love drama in their lives come down and try and fuck up my friendships.  So of course we got through it.  She's so intelligent and many people dont know this, sooooo funny.  I will truly miss living around the corner from you.  But when I get back to Cali, we have a date with the barrel.

Dairrick Hodges - In a way, Dairrick is like my best friend.  But not really.  He's actually more like a relative.  Like my cousin or my uncle.  I can tell him ANYTHING at all.  If I told him my ass itched, he would offer to scratch it..ok maybe not.  But still!  I love this guy because unlike most of the people in this world, he keeps it REAL.  100%  I never have to question what I'm getting from him.  I call him almost everyday.  Why?  No clue.  He's never betrayed me and I know that he will be a friend for years to come.

Lady "Joyce" Pace - My long lost sibling.  We are currently experiencing technical difficulties but we are undergoing a routine maintenance.  Repair should be completed in the near future ;-)  One thing I've learned about her is she's gonna be who's she's gonna be (whoever that may be at the time) and I've learned to just accept that.  Sure we arent the Michael and Joyce dynamic duo from 2003 anymore but we will always have a bond.  Always.

Robert "Bobby" Welch - I value everything we've done together, and I truly have fond memories of us and our friendship.  It just saddens me that after all these years, you still can't accept us.  But its ok.  I've moved on and I don't hold it against you.  I still love you, always will, and I wish you nothing but the best.  I just hope when the next Michael comes along, you'll be a little bit more ready to handle it. <3

Alicia "Sissy" Lopez - We need to hang out more.  Period.

Quartez Waits - Ohhhh Quartez.  I have known you longer than any other person who isnt a blood relative.  Its coming up on like 20 years or something lol.  This was my first best friend, and the friendship I've had the longest.  We used to always be at each other's houses playin Sonic and Mario and Mystikal Ninja lol (I bought that game by the way!) and we went everywhere together just like brothers.  Sadly, he moved away when I was in 7th grade and we lost contact for a bit, but thanks to Myspace we talk again.  This guy was like my training for all future friendships I would have.   And my cousins STILL to this day call him "Quar-cheesy" LMAO.

Michele Montgomery - I must say, I will miss bummin around Mesa with you.  You are one of those people where I think if I don't see them for a long time I wont miss them, but then I wake one day and realize I actually do.  I miss you Michele!  And when I come back to California, we are spending a great deal of time together.

Megan Matina - I love Megan and all...but she do not even be callin me.  Lol but its partly my fault, I dont call her either.  But now that you got a sidekick, we're gonna be AIM buddies!  Yes we are! 

Jamie Rae Czbas - Two words.  Over.  It.

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Soundtrack To My Life

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The Soundtrack
Opening Credits:	Spice Up Your Life by The Spice Girls
Waking Up:	Early Morning by Sugar Ray
Average Day:	Wow, I Can Get Sexual Too by Say Anything
Rainy Day:	Kiss From A Rose by Seal
Sunny Day:	I Heard A Rumour by Bananarama
Work Day:	Working Day And Night by Michael Jackson
Falling for Someone:	Strict Machine by Goldfrapp
Falling in Love:	Feelings Of Forever by Tiffany
Breaking Up:	Caught Out There by Kelis
Getting Back Together:	Come Back To Me by Janet Jackson
Drinking:	London Bridge by Fergie
Fighting:	Hollaback Girl by Gwen Stefani
Hyper:	Titties Bounce by Gravy Train!!!!
Memory as a Kid:	The Bomb (These Sounds Fall Into My Mind) by The Bucketheads
Memory with Best Friend:	Poor Leno by Royksopp
Marriage:	Marry Me by No Doubt
First Born:	Little Green by Joni Mitchell
Missing Family & Friends:	I'll Be There by Emma Bunton
Alone Time:	We'll Never Sleep (God Knows We'll Try) - Rilo Kiley
Alone With Significant Other:	You Make It Easy by Air
Death:	All Good Things (Come To An End) by Nelly Furtado
Closing Credits:	Return To Innocence by Enigma
Bonus Scene:	Michael by Franz Ferdinand
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Eradicate & Erode
Current mood: catalyzed

Into the cosmos/out with the old/come on let's strengthen our arms/put up a fight and don't let it stop you/watch me fuck you up/rising above your normality/rise above your weaker destiny/be blue/returning videos is the highlight of your day no more/speak out/trailblaze/stomp, cut and conquer/its going going going gone/it is in fact gone/its buried in landfills/sunken in oceans/plunder your wants/indulge your needs/and fuck your fantasy/cause you're living this life/not he/be blue/as blue as can be

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My friends and what I think of them PART 3!!

My view of my friends has drastically changed so I have edited this.  I am going to tell the TRUTH.  If the truth pisses you off...get over it.  No one has been removed.  The same people from the other list remain. 

Robert "Bobby" Welch - I honestly dont care anymore what everyone says/thinks.  People often ask me why we're friends and what is it that gives us such a strong friendship.  The answer is: the time we have together.  I have seen/experienced/done more shit with this guy than any other person in the world.  We are constantly teaching each other and showing each other the greatness of the world.  He is the ONLY person who I feel TRULY understands what everyone else wrote off as bullshit.  He is the most important person in my life and I am his and our friendship only goes stronger.  We may fight sometimes, he may be annoying as fuhhhh occasionally, but at the end of the day we know that what we have is what the haters can't touch and even though he's kinda far now, the chain hasnt weakend.  Thank you, Silver Haze

Alicia "Sissy" Lopez - Reunited and it feels so good!  Lol she is such a beautiful person and is always smiling and never seeks to hurt anyone.  Me and Bobby are constantly lookin out for her cause she's our nig yo.  She's also one of my favorite people to smoke with.  I see nothing but greatness for this lady.  Being around her always makes me very happy and I wish nothing but the best for her.

Lady "Joyce" Pace - My long lost sibling.  We are currently experiencing technical difficulties but we are undergoing a routine maintenance.  Repair should be completed in the near future ;-)

Quartez Waits - Ohhhh Quartez.  I have known you longer than any other person who isnt a blood relative.  Its coming up on like 20 years or something lol.  This was my first best friend, and the friendship I've had the longest.  We used to always be at each other's houses playin Sonic and Mario and Mystikal Ninja lol (I bought that game by the way!) and we went everywhere together just like brothers.  Sadly, he moved away when I was in 7th grade and we lost contact for a bit, but thanks to Myspace we talk again.  This guy was like my training for all future friendships I would have.   And my cousins STILL to this day call him "Quar-cheesy" LMAO.

Michele Montgomery - CABAZON WAS SOOOOO MUCH FUN! I will admit, Michele really irritates me sometimes.  But I love the gal.  She is what keeps me sane at Mesa College.  But this is one girl I will never piss off.  She's pretty effin tuff.  But on the flip side, she's very sweet and always likes to help others.  Her style is wicked cool and her spunk is priceless.  Go ROBIN!

Megan Matina - I am soooooooooo proud of this bitch.  So proud.  Talk about an upgrade.  I remember being so scared for Megan thinking she would always be down.  But this bitch got on her two feet, got a job, a car, money in the bank, AND went back to school.  Thats what I'm talking about!  Megan keep doin you and dont EVER let anyone knock yo hustle.

Sabrina Tedpaogo - The Mario fanatic.  This is one of the only people I can still hold an intelligent conversation with in this town. Another smoke buddy of mine.  The boring times we share just lounging at my house are actually very entertaining.  All those burritos.  All those video games lol.  Sabrina is a very very fun girl in a very non exciting way if that makes any sense? 

Dairrick Hodges - All I can say is...he's Dairrick.  He is what he is.

Katherine Rose  "Katie" Kimble - Betcha didnt think I knew your name did ya?  I put you on here because yes we were never SUPER close but you and I have been pretty good friends since Mr. Patton (or Mrs Norman, I cant remember) and these online chats we've been having everyday are highly enjoyable.  You really are a smart and helpful person and I never thought I would confide in you, but now you're one of the first people I go to.  You know so much about music which automatically give you 1,000,000 kool points and I just love having you around.  Thanks for just being YOU!  And dont EVER let some guy kill your spunk or make you feel less of what you are.  You are great

Jamie Rae Czbas - Oh lord, what am I gonna do with this one?

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My friends and what I think of them

I decided that I am going to edit this nonsense because my opinions of my friends have DRASTICALLY changed.  So check out my PART 2 of this blog.

Lady "Joyce" Pace - I am starting with Joyce because she is the one I have maintained a friendship with the longest.  I have known this broad since 4th muthafuckin grade.  And damn.  We have been through some shit.  We've grown together, laughed, cried (well she did lol), and even hated.  But through all the storms and rifts we encounter I know she will always be my friend until the day I die.  As much as this annoys the hell outta me at times, I accept it and I'm trying to be thankful for it.  I'm stuck with her and I'm sure its for a good reason.  So this is for my blasian.  HOLLA!

Quartez Waits - Ohhhh Quartez.  I have known you longer than any other person who isnt a blood relative.  Its coming up on like 20 years or something lol.  This was my first best friend, and the friendship I've had the longest.  We used to always be at each other's houses playin Sonic and Mario and Mystikal Ninja lol (I bought that game by the way!) and we went everywhere together just like brothers.  Sadly, he moved away when I was in 7th grade and we lost contact for a bit, but thanks to Myspace we talk again.  This guy was like my training for all future friendships I would have.   And my cousins STILL to this day call him "Quar-cheesy" LMAO.

Michele Montgomery - I remember the first time I ever saw Michele was in 9th grade in Mr. Hayes' World History class (which I got a D in btw) and she was sitting in a corner table looking oh so sinister with a tie.  So I approached her and said "Oh so we're going for the Avril look are we?" and she replied with something along the lines of "Actually I hate Avril Lavigne and she deserves to die."  Ohhhh Michele.  Little did I know she would grow to be one of my closest buds.  I feel like she is taken for granted alot and people just don't understand her.  Well I do.  She has never done anything to harm me, I've never been mad at her for an extensive amount of time, and she's just so fun to be around.  And college just wouldnt be the same without my smoke buddy. I <3 you Freckles!

Megan Matina - Oh my little bacon daddy!  Me and Michele go waaay back to the sandbox.  And I wish I could see her more often than I do, and I know she THINKS I don't like her, but damn I love me some Megan.  I remember I spent the day with her at Earth Day recently and I had so much fun.  Megan is one of the nicest, caring people I know and she's always willing to put herself before others, which is something that I have a hard time doing.  I have so much love for her and want nothing but the best.  And one thing I love about Megan is, she will MODE yo ass into OBLIVION.  And if you can mode, we can be friends.

Sabrina Tedpaogo - Yes nigga I spelled your name right!  I used to like this girl.  And wouldn't you know she met me because she thought I was gay, how ironic.  I met her in 10th grade chemistry with Miss Edwards (another class I failed btw) and me and her just bonded I guess.  She is one of the most intellectual people I know, and she may not be conventionally beautiful but the presence she has is striking and strong and was one of the main things about her I latched onto.  She's just a great person and I can always talk to her about anything.  And she can fight to boot!  I will never forget the say she knocked the fuck outta Lynn and I saw her in the offic icing her knuckles like a pimp.  OMG CLASSIC!!

Robert "Bobby" Welch - This man has put me through more shit bad AND good than any non-family member I've ever met.  He has shown me things that I NEVER in a MILLION years would have seen or wanted to try if it weren't for him.  And no I don't just mean drugs ya stupid fucks.  The person that I am today is largely due to him, because I feel like he kept pushing me to be a better person because he knew I could be.  And I feel like I did the same for him.  The road was very bumpy at times and sometimes I just wanted to throw in the towel but I'm glad I (we) stuck it out despite all the rumors and gossip and drama.  And I know he likes to downplay our friendship and portray it as lukewarm but I know deep down under all that denial he has mad love for me and I only see good things for us both in the future.

Dairrick Hodges - Ohhh Big D.  This nigga always puts me on hold and puts others in front me but ITS ALRIGHT!  Cause i love this nigga like a brutha.  I have told him so much shit and I know he won't say anything because he is a vault yes indeedy.  He has given me such great advice and I feel I've occassionly returned the favor.  He is one of the funniest people I know and never ceases to make me laugh.  And if you can make me laugh, you're golden.  He has such a big heart and is always down to help his friends.  He is...I dunno, wonderful.

Katherine Rose  "Katie" Kimble - Betcha didnt think I knew your name did ya?  I put you on here because yes we were never SUPER close but you and I have been pretty good friends since Mr. Patton (or Mrs Norman, I cant remember) and these online chats we've been having everyday are highly enjoyable.  You really are a smart and helpful person and I never thought I would confide in you, but now you're one of the first people I go to.  You know so much about music which automatically give you 1,000,000 kool points and I just love having you around.  Thanks for just being YOU!

Alicia "Sissy" Lopez - Thought I forgot about you didn't you?  Well I didn't.  I remember strongly disliking you for many years and I don't really remember why.  I think it was because I thought you were stuck up.  But then when I got to know you, I realized that you are the sweetest girl I have EVER met.  Like no joke.  I know we dont see each other much, but when we do I always have the best time.  Its always so dope smoking with you, something fun always happens.  Oh yeah and sorry about all those times me and Bobby would bicker around you hahaha.  I know you dont have a Myspace anymore but when you GET one, come visit me biatch!!

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I AM SOOOO FUCKING SICK OF THIS SHIT!!!!

I am so fucking sick your denial

I am so fucking sick of your resentments

I am so fucking sick of you denying me what you KNOW I deserve

I am so fucking sick of watching other people with something I worked for

I am so sick of your lame excuses

I am so sick of your dishonesty

I am so sick you lying to yourself

I am so sick of making myself sick over you

If you're not ready to deal with something that you know is true FINE.  I'll wait and I'll always be waiting and when you're ready to do this, you know my number.

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This sums it up almost perfect
Category: Romance and Relationships

Should've Been Me

There he goes with a smile on his face

Riding right next to you

Going out to all those places

That you used to take me to

Wear his jacket like it was your own

You used to wear mine so well

Why on earth did I let you go

If I hadnt I'd be with you still

Call it jealousy

Call me a fool

Cause its more than my eyes wanna see

It should've been me with you tonight

It should've been me there by your side

Seeing you both, its hard to believe

Cause it should've been me

Flashing that ring in everyone's face

The one you took back last week

I wonder if you're telling him things

That you used to whisper to me

To say its over won't work anymore

Cause its more than my heart wants to feel

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What I see as the greatest albums ever

I have always prided myself on my widely eclectic musical tastes. I havent met anyone who shares the same musical tastes as myself. And I've decided to celebrate that. Here is a list of my favorite albums. They are not in any order, just as I think of them. These albums helped create the person I am today and helped inspire what I am sure will become great. They will range from campy to very serious, and from dancey to acoustic. Oh fuck this intro, just read.

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Friends, Or Lack Thereof
Current mood: angry
Category: Life

I have made a conscious decision to terminate all close relationships with my "friends". I am starting school on Monday and intend to focus every ounce of energy I have on school so I can get out of this shallow, useless, small-minded, sorry excuse of a town called San Diego.

My current "friends" do nothing to benefit me or help me so why keep them around?  All they do is bring on unnecessary stress, and unwanted heart/headaches.  The majority of them have no plan and/or direction in life and thats not something I choose to be around. 

I do not want to be friends with people who a) think things about me that certainly aren't true, and b) assume i'm a bad person when I try and be the best person I can be.  A friend is not someone you see all the time.  That isnt what makes someone a friend.  A friend is someone who actually gets you and understands you and likes what they understand.  I don't have that. At all.

I've struggled with friends for years, and the most practical thing to do now is to just eliminate them.  At least the very close ones.  I dont mind friendly interaction here and there between select individuals, but the bffl thing isnt working anymore.  I'm beginning to think no one out there can successfully befriend me.

I don't need anyone, and its very apparent that no one needs me.  So I'll leave it at that.  All I need is my books, my movies, and my music.  And thats that.

They say material things don't bring happiness, its the people you share them with.  Well my material things have brought me much more joy than ANY person has.

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Survey Says Again.

70 THINGS YOU PROBABLY DON'T KNOW ABOUT ME


1. DO YOU SNORE?
Occasionally

2. ARE YOU A LOVER OR A FIGHTER?
Both

3. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
Rats, rats, rats, mice, gophers, moles, squirrels, possums, falling from a large height, rats, and did I mention rats?

4. AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO MANIAC?
As a matter of fact I was. But I was really more of a K'nex kid.

5.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF REALITY TV?
It can be entertaining at times, but some of it is so ridiculous

6. DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
I used to

7. WERE YOU A CUTE BABY?
As a matter of fact I was beautiful. And I'm not just saying that. Back in '88 my mom entered me in the San Diego Beautiful Baby contest and I won 1^st place. I still have the trophy.

8. IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU?
Yes and no.

9. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?
Black with white letters.

10. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?
Yes. I give concerts in the shower. If Clive Davis heard me tear it up in the shower he would sign me instantly.

11. HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED?
Hell no. I'm not white.

12. ANY SECRET TALENTS?
Yes. Many people don't know that I'm a skilled ballet dancer.

13. WHAT'S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?
Yorkshire, England; Reykjavik, Iceland; Azores Islands, Portugal; Yokosuka, Japan; Berkeley, CA; Santa Cruz, CA; Oslo, Norway.

14. IS JAY LENO FUNNY?
Not really!

15. CAN YOU SWIM?
One of the only niggas that can.

16. HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE "DONNIE DARKO"?
I own it, but I never watched the whole thing. I started to with Michele and Bobby but then Helen threw us out. Lol Michele <3

17. DO YOU GIVE A DAMN ABOUT THE OZONE?
If you don't you're an idiot

18. HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOTSIE POP?
Since I am the owl, I will tell you. Three.

19. CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS?
Yes.

20. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE?
Yes and they scare me. Which is funny since I've been to Asia.

21. ARE YOU AN ONLY CHILD?
Sadly nope.

22. THIS QUESTION WAS SO LAME I DELETED IT FOR YOUR OWN GOOD
OO-KOO-LAY-LAY!

23. WHAT'S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING?
I think for sport its absolutely horrible. But for survival its permissible.

24. IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
I can't see my life being complete without being married.

25. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
I love it

26. WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?
Shelled fish, stupid people.

27. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE YOU"
Who knows

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