i was reading friends comment pages and see the word love thrown around like it doesnt mean shit. Luv is a silly word we made up, but the word LOVE still has some power to it (even though we give it power ). People will love one week and hate the next, sorry it just doesnt work like that. I love music, there may be bullshit to go along with the music but in the end of the day i know i will always love to make, listen to, and experience music. Those are feelings that will never change. I never use that word unless i mean it, (which is why i h8 using it now, unless shania d or amor is involved), but u can't love anything or anyone that doesnt love u back(including ourselves). When it loses meaning though, us almost have to find a new word to show someone that they are SPECIAL 2 u.
I have had females and males tell me they love me or they got love for me, and i know now 90% of them were full of shit (u know who u r on both sides of the coin), it's just a word to them to minipulate situations in their favor "i say this magic word and they will do what i want". The word has no meaning to me anymore, it used to but it's like anything else in todays society u just become desensitized to it. U gotta show me u love me, i want to feel it anything else is just words.
When I say religion sux. I do not mean peoples beliefs. You can worship a can of soup for all I care. I mean the people who use what they believe in to put themselves on a higher platform than others. All belief systems pretty much have the same shit, good energy attracts good and bad attracts bad. So basically we all attract what we are. So for people to shun those who THEY are attracting is silly to me. ................ Unless they are a crackhead those muhfuckas is just crazy, we can shun them lol lol
anyone who needs a beat from me, who wants to know what my trax sound like, or who is just on my page hearing that randon beat, DO NOT ask me if u can hear some of my stuff in a message, especially when YOU HAVE BEEN ON MY PAGE ALREADY!!!!! whose beats do you think are playing in the background????
My music (as well as myself) is for those who understand, if you don't get it whatever
After years of trying to figure out why it seems Hip-Hop music continually gets worse year after year, when i think "hey there can't possibly be anything shittier than this"someone always pushes the bar (or should I was wipes their ass with it). The good news is I have figured out how to end it all. We should just stop talking about wack shit. No more panels on why such and such says bitch, no more albums talkin about how wack the game is, no more videos dissin the same people (who shall remain nameless cuz I don't talk about wack niggaz no more). The more we have been dissing it hte more power we give to it, hence why it gets worse.
From now on when you see or hear wack shit, turn it off, and either
A.)Find someone you do like to listen to
B.) Just think of a happy thought to get the traumatic experience out of your mind
I always thought that if I was one of those paronoid, the World is coming to an end tomorrow people, that I would be saving everyone from dying without knowing "The Truth" ,and that truth is that the world is not fair, it's fucked up, yadda yadda yadda. A funny thing happens though when you have that mentality, your energy attracts nothing but people who will help u support your "Life is all fucked up, it's not fair, why me, I'm a good person" attitude, so you have plenty of ammunition to continue on your campaign of negative energy YEAH!!!! Positive thoughts attract positive energy : )
I have been away from NYC for about 3 months now and Ihave read all of my old blogs, and damn I was an angry New Yorker like a mutha. I let the city become bigger than I was, and I let it turn me into a ranting madman. Being in South Carolina gettin some sun and fresh air and not having to deal with the same things that angered me in the past has been helpful, because now I know all things that I was complaining about (and all of us 4 that matter) I was bringing 2 myself with my own fears and insecurities. I will never let anything get me that off balanced again whether it is a person place or thing. I am now reborn a Return of the Jedi of sorts, I am that kid that people remember from 2000-2001 with the radio and the chair bag lol. And I have everYthing And everyone I want and need and see what I wanna get and I gonna get it. So hate if u wanna those are your own demons u gotta deal with, I got big things planned 4 the future.
I h8 labels!!!!!!!! Not Record labels either. I mean the labels we put on others so they fit into our categories of human supply. I am not a thug, I am not underground, i am not a commercial, I am not a nerd, I am not a idiot, I am not country, I am not a city kid, I am not a typical dread, I am not crazy.
I can fit in on Psycological Records as easy as I could fit on Blue Note (find a label for that shit!!!!!!!) I could fit in on Def Jux as well as Bad Boy. I am music, I am different, I am me. So if u meet me and u have a label for me in your head, you better get it out now. I am one of a kind!!!!!!!!
u guyz remember the muppet babies right? of u don't the show was the muppest as babies (i know duh), and every episode as some crazy adventure they got in because they used their imagination. other kids would come to their nursery and have a ball, and all becaue they were so wacky yhey made unbelievable shit real. I have re learned this talent as of late. What ever my mind creates becomes real. (for the most part any way there's always some bullshit)
I get the feeling alot of u dislike me. If I stopped doin beats 2morrow that people would forget about me so fast, that it would seem like I don't exist. Yeah family is obligated to care (somewhat in my case), but most people I feel just tolerate me 4 my music and when they are alone in their circles they talk about me like a dog. I feel that people would rejoice my death and start making money off of my music that I am told can't make a penny right now, and tell everyone how inspirational I was. Maybe it's because everywhere I go people treat me like I'm sick and I am infected. I don't know maybe I need a vacation and one is nowhere in sight, oh yeah "who cares" I know.
enlightened