The Blog that never was...
Current mood: Happy, Crushed, Dark, Sinister, Hurt...everything
Category: Happy, Crushed, Dark, Sinister, Hurt...everything Life

Alright, let me start out by explaining the title. This blog entry was intended to have been posted first thing thursday morning. However, the reality of the things going to be brought up here were crushed before this got posted. So this isn't the original scope because where the once was something there isn't now. So this blog got converted into a past tense blog entry as to things that were. I hope to share the good feelings with everyone so people who regularly read my shit don't think that all I think about is bad stuff like blood and death. I do have a happy side to me as well.

Ok, here goes. So there was this friend. (I'm changing the names here to protect the ones involved) Angel was her name. She was a good friend. I started out not really talking to her much. But in recent times I was really needing a "Best Friend" Someone who could understand, someone who wouldn't judge, someone who cared, all the things a best friend share. So I started talking to Angel more. Come to find out we had a lot in common, we shared some interests & more importantly she was as crazy as I was. We talked and soon became best friends.

As best friends we shared alot. Angel and I could walk together saying nothing all the while we said everything. We clicked so to speak. I could say something to her, fucking it all up & she knew exactly what I was talking about & visa versa. We could see past one anothers "brick walls" to the real feelings and emotions that lay beyond. Times were good. Knowing we could talk to each other, Angel and I started conversing about relationships. Her about loving someone but not being in love. Me basically just that I couldn't ever catch a break. We teased each other saying "Things between us would never work out" and that "neither of us thought we could ever find true love"

Anyways, I can't really describe what happened next. During one of our several walks in "our place" we got face to face. I think that at this point, feelings rushed through both of us. Almost simeltaneously we pulled back. During the moment face to face, I wanted to kiss her. But we said we wouldn't let anything happen between us. But I wondered "what if she wanted me to kiss her? But I can't it would be wrong. But yet it felt so right! Fuck it I don't care" Anyways after that happened we talked some more. Goofed off cuz both of us are crazy. Then we left. Later that night Angel and I talked and I confessed what ran through my head during our "moment" Come to find out the same thing was on her mind. WOW. the next time we went to our place, we were stopped at the bring (I'll enlighten you to something about this bridge later) Angel was wondering as usual. I walked up behind her, turned her around pulled her face to mine and kissed her soft lips running my thumbs across her soft pale face. It's done, we had our first kiss.

Things continued on. We got closer, and started talking about a serious relationship. I felt things I hadn't felt since my first true love died when I was 16. Angel said she felt things that she never felt before...EVER. I'm thinking to myself now, this is it. This is my true love, this is the girl I am supposed to be with forever. Angel is talking the same way. Things are going great. Now Angel has 2 boys Tyler and Kris. We had only had them around us once, at walmart. Anyways, something happened with the oldest Tyler at school. Angel and the boys needed to get away. I wanted to be there for her, so I told her to go to the park, and I would meet her there. There we were the four of us at the park. Tyler was playing on the playground, Angel, Kris, and I were sitting on a park bench. Just sitting there I thought to myself "here it is, a glimpse of us as a family a beautiful loving happy family"After the park, we go to McDonalds for lunch. Talk about chaos. Tyler just wanted his "Speed Racer" toy, Kris just wanted out of his high chair. Angel's trying to get Tyler to eat. I'm feeding Kris fries. Eating lunch that day I could see how things were going to be. Chaotic, but well worth it. Angel and the boys left, and I head off to take care of some errands.

Later that night, Angel and I met at our place. We discussed what needed to happen. We both agreed. And all seemed peachy. We do the usual walk, share some kisses and part ways. Later that night, we're talking online and start planning for what's to come. Discuss finances, discuss what needs to happen on her end. Things are great I'm happier than I've been in a long time. She seems to be happy too. We end our conversation and I head off to bed.

I wake up, it's Thursday morning. I head down to the computer with the intent to write this exact blog (well not exact, but I'm ready to share my happiness) I sit down start typing away. I say good morning to Angel...And that's when my world went to shit. She says she's decided against our relationship and everything we talked about. I'm crushed. So that's what lead to the blogs I posted on Thursday.

Ok about the bridge. After we had started talking about us as a couple, I told myself "if things don't work out with us, I'm gonna end up jumping off this very bridge" You see, below the bridge in the little creek was massive chunks of concrete. While I'd never really commit suicide. I thought this relationship was different and that it would never end. But it did. And the result is me with a crushed heart. But I'm not going to let that overcome my promise I made after my cousin commited suicide. I'll deal It's just so hard sometimes.

Oh, and here's a little extra for you. This relationship was different for me. It's the first time I went into a relationship with my heart, not my dick. I felt things I wasn't used to. But I wanted nothing more than to make Angel happy. Sure there was alot that needed to happen on both of our parts, but I was willing to make the sacrafice and do what I had to to make this work. I was truly happy. Anyways, this entry is long enough so I'll let you go. BTW, if you are one who's reading what I've been writing lately, I suggest Subscribing because I'm going to be posting alot here for a while so in order to keep up, you might want to subscribe. enjoy.

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Hidden sparkles of the blade ~ Blog 3 for today.
Current mood: Sick and Twisted!
Category: Sick and Twisted! Writing and Poetry

Well, here goes blog 3. god I live dark, sinister and sick. oh well.

I went to the store today,
I bought a knife just so I can play.
Get home with it,
Open it.
Pull the blade from the sheath sun catches it just right,
But I don't get blinded from the light.
Wondering how sharp it is, I poke my finger,
But it doesn't stop there it only takes a linger.
Not realizing what I'm doing I drive the blade in deeper,
Suddenly it stops, can't go any deeper.
Must have hit bone,
But I feel like I'm in a dead timezone.
Ok, I know the tip is sharp!
Let me find out if the blade is sharp.
I put it up to my chest,
Let's see how it's done best.
I slide the blade acrost my chest not too hard,
There it is blood dripping from the wound I think I'll be scarred.
Never satisified am I?
Can't get enough blood and violence can I?
I move to my wrists I cut across,
I just stare and marvel at the blood loss.
Sun setting in the sky,
The blood looks black in my eye.
Blood running down my hand forming a drip on my fingertip,
I watch a drop of blood fall from the knife tip.
Suddenly I snap into some sort of reality,
Having done nothing in actuality.
Yet these thoughts run through my head,
All I see is the color: BLOOD RED!
Is it too much to ask?
Why do I have to hide behind the mask?
Like I said before,
With me you never know what's in store.
I'm a dark twisted mutha fucker,
And I never got the chance to fuck her.
Not my mother you sick pervert!
Oh wait, that's me Mr Pervert.
Oh well if she only knew the love I had for her,
I did everything even gave my heart to her.
Wow, isn't it funny, How this all happened,
Blood in the begininng love in the end, what happened?
It was all part of my sick twisted plan,
Maybe it's part of life's plan.
Anyways I'm gonna bring this to a close,
Too bad the wounds won't close.

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I Escaped the troubles of the world
Current mood: indescribable
Category: Life

Alright, some of you know what the fuck's been going on with me others don't. no matter, recently I've been crushed, that's all you need to know if you don't know what's going on.

Anyways, today after everything happened, I was trying to get away for a while. I couldn't figure out what to do, where to go to be free from my thoughts, my feelings. Then it hit me. Go back to your roots. So there I was, I ended up out at the 1/106th Aviation wing in Peoria. I've still got alot of friends out there. yea, quite a few are gone, but there remains some. I got to talkin with some of my old friends, some of my former fellow soldiers from the unit. One thing led to another, and Next, I'm removing all FOD from myself, and stepping foot out onto the flightline. Things rushed through me...WOW. Amazing.

Anyways, so I'm out on the flightline, Gathered with a few pilots, and some fellow electricians. Next thing you know, I'm under the belly of a Shithook, turning 10 Mike Mikes and 13 Mike Mikes. Things are coming back, thoughts feelings, Flashbacks, the shithook next to us, fires up, props start then it comes...memories of the danger zone. oh well. it was worth it. They had a 430 formation, and I left.

So now I've got flashbacks to deal with. While nothing major has hit me yet, I'm sure it's only a matter of time. I knew when I decided to go out there that this would happen. BUT, Flashbacks like this are better to me, then thinking about the bullshit drama of relationships, and trying to understand what the fuck it is women want. Beyond that....It's my home away from home. Freedom, peace, trust.

Moral of the story, sometimes when you are down beyond belief...there's some things you can do. This is what it is for me:

1. Write. no matter what it is, write. For me, I do have a tendancy to be very dark, and very graphic. But writing releases the bad thoughts from my mind.

2. Go back to your roots. While everyone is different, just do it. For me, my roots are in the military. Everyone that knows me, knows I would jump back into the military life. My heart and soul is honestly still there. I've got plenty of friends still there, and I have lost a lot of brothers and sisters in arms, but it's me.

3. Don't let it get the best of you. This world is cruel.  People judge.  People discriminate.  It's the way the world is today. 
And get this.......FREEDOM ISN'T FREE!  People like me have fought to give Americans the freedom to do and say what they please.

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Who the fuck knows anymore.
Current mood: I have no mood, no feeling, I’m dead!
Category: I have no mood, no feeling, I’m dead! Writing and Poetry

You think you find that special person in your life. Things look great. Then it all comes crashing down. I have been through a lot of shit in my day, and writing always seems to cool me down, not sure if it will in this case, but I'm gonna try.

The love we shared was true,
Just as the sky above us was blue.
The friendship was amazing and fun,
We both were glowing like the sun.
Then something happened, but I don't know what,
I'm like a fighter getting blow after blow in the gut.
The friendship was lost simply because it hurts so much in the heart,
Like a cold steel blade sinking deeper in your chest, through your heart.
It's like I was stabbing myself,
Like I pulled out the blade, and watched the blood drip for myself.
I wonder what the blood tastes like,
It came like riding a bike.
Blood running down the tip,
Forming a dark warm drip.
It falls from the tip of the blade to my finger,
I take a lick, not letting it linger.
Blood so pure so sweet so fresh,
Just like the wound you created....fresh.
There's no telling where things might have gone,
The only thing known is the fact that you are gone.
I really don't know what to say,
It not like I truly fall in love every day.
So even with as painful as this is,
The friendship must be what it is.
Nothing, no point, no light, no sight,
simply dark, forbidden, cold, gloomy, heartbreaking.
It's over, I can't bear to stand the pain, suffer the loss,
In this bullet tip, I'm carving a cross.
It's called a hollow point,
When the bullet hits it's entry point.
It blows wide open, creating mass destruction,
There's no way to fix the destruction.
Locked, loaded, in the chamber,
BOOM!!! A shot to the head
I'M DEAD!

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The Way I am ~ Poetry from the dark side of my soul
Category: Writing and Poetry

The Way I am

Everyone's got a secret, locked deep within the recesses of their soul.

Some people let this secret get to them, eat them away from the inside out.

They take their lives, leaving behind no reason or rhyme to their letting go.

One day they are here, talking laughing loving the next they are gone.

I'm not here to share my secret, but merely keeping a promise to never do what those close to me have done.

The dark is a light in my eye. Very few see past the darkness.

This is the way I want it. Hiding in the deepest darkest recesses of my world.

So when you walk past, and see dark evil, don't be surprised.

Things come and go, and it seems to me that the ones I love come and go.

Ripping to shreds the light within me.

Passing with a quickness. But why do they do it?

I may never know, but I vowed to never take my life the way others have.

The world is a scary place, and everyones got a demon within them

Don't let that demon take control of your life.

There ARE people out there who appreciate you

Don't make them suffer because you can't control your world.

The Way I am is the way I am,

It's not the way people force on me,

It's the way I choose to be

The way I am makes me feel like I'm finally free.

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A Prisoners Welcome....And Beyond
Current mood: Psycho!
Category: Psycho! Web, HTML, Tech

So, April 10th Author Shane Moore and myself got the finishing touches worked out for his site for Book I of his Abyss Walker Series ~ A Prisoner's Welcome. From the rough concept site I proposed in the begining to the Final product which is now up and running, it was approx a 2 month project. However, with shanes busy schedule things seemed slow. Total actual work time on the site was probably just under 21 days total. This is with Redesigning pages, Creating graphics for buttons and such, working with Official Series Artist Billy Tackett for adding parts of the book cover for the site.

It was definitely a learning Experience for me. But let me tell you, working with Shane was one of the best experiences I could ask for! This is just the start of my work for Shane Moore. I've been given the go on being the official Series Webmaster. So I'll be doing plenty of work for Shane.

I've also created a few banners for A Prisoner's Welcome and even Breach Of Crowns! You can get them here

Currently I am working on revamping GameClubHQ.com A site I had previously designed, however working with the club owner decided to revamp and re-release the site.

Also, I secured the site MWDBanners.com for all banners I create. I have created a LOT of banners over time. So I wanted somewhere to put them all away from my main site Miller-WebDesign.com The 2 are related very much so, however, Images can start to take up space quickly, and with the popularity of myspace, and people sharing banners with the world, bandwidth can be eaten up VERY fast, so I wanted a site where I could host them for myself, and can regulate the space and bandwidth, and not have to worry about if the banners won't show due to exceeded bandwidth!

I think that's about all for now, so I will leave you with 2 things. "Never give up on your dreams! because Success waits for no man!"

And also since it's that time of year..."Chase when you can, Bust if you must, but at ALL TIMES LEARN!"

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SIC - Bloodbath [ Lyrics ]
Current mood: evil
Category: Music

I sit here longing for things to come,
but knowing they never will.
Life has become a Red Bloodbath
Blood dripping from my wrists
Blood pouring from the throat of some black guy
Hung upside down by a noose in the neighbors tree
Blood is the common theme these days
When you think about it
This is the time when we all walk down the blood soaked streets headed home.

Chorus:
I slit my wrists to watch it bleed...
Blood covers my eyes, and makes me see the world in red.
Blood covers my hands, and makes me feel the world in red.
Blood from my nose, makes me smell the real world...covered in blood red!
Simply put, the world is nothing but a sic bloodbath...


Some bitch lays there waiting for me to cum,
knowing that will never happen for her.
She sits and waits in a red bloodbath
She dreams of suicide,
soon there’s blood dripping from her wrists
Her boytoy bleeding from the throat while he hangs upside down in the neighbors tree
You see, everyone sees the red bloodbath, just some see it differently. For some it’s right in front of them.


The world sits and wonders from day to day,
Never knowing the pain that lays within
They Only know the feeling of the Red Bloodbath
The blood is in everyone, take a look around, Suicide, Homocide, Genocide
All fill the streets with the Blood creating
The omonious Red Bloodbath.
Our highest leaders are the ones to blame
They are the ones who Created this Red Bloodbath

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A Day in the life of The Insane Webmaster - For those who doubt
Current mood: smart
Category: Life

So, I just thought I’d give everyone a little glimpse inside one of my busy days. No I may not have your average job right now, but my days might be busier than you think. And even more stressful than you think. And for those of you who don’t know me, or do but just not personally...I’m a perfectionist on my work!

Ok, we’ll start wherever I decide to wake up in the morning (typically 1030-1130am). Usually I get up get my shower and all that good every morning shit. Then it’s to work I go...Usually as of late when I get started...I jump on myspace check out the messages I’ve got. I only spend about 30 minutes on that. Then it’s time to check yahell for messages, then I typically browse through new projects that have been posted on getafreelancer.com Then typically I go over to Kim’s where the fun begins, and let me tell you it can be a fuckin pain in the ass.

Days where I have graphics it sucks ass...Lately I’ve been doing work for an up and coming author (hell what am I talking about...he’s already got a publish & release date for his second book, and is currently writing his 3rd book) Anyways...Yea, so being a perfectionist, I have to make sure i get my images to look perfect...I spend hours correcting them doing them over and over until I get them just right. Then it’s time to get approval for them! Typically I’ve got something I’ve gotta tweak, but there’s been times when I actually get it right the first time. In my line of work, communication is a VERY IMPORTANT key. Anyways...that’s the graphic part.

Next onto the coding. Wow, this can be a royal pain in the ass sometimes. Typically I use several different ways to do my coding. I usually start out in Frontpage, get the basic layout thrown into the good ole WYSIWYG. Then comes the tweaking. Here comes the fun part...Deleting unneccessary code that Frontpage adds in. Time for me to open up Notepad, go through the code, and find all the components that frontpage fucked up on. Get that all done, then I upload the file to the server, check it for consistency. Hopefully I only have to check this once. Then, just to be sure, you’ve gotta check both IE (internet Exploder I mean explorer) and FireFox (the typical browser of choice for Mac users, and even Windows users who are smart!) Finally that’s all done.

Then I generally have some small thing that I make a big ass deal out of. The latest example, I was working on a navigation menu. I get the menu graphics all laid out sized perfectly and sliced just right. Then for some reason there’s a freakin space on the right and the bottom of the images in the block that contains them. Damnit! WTF...Time to go in and check the coding...since I am only a beginner with CSS...I play around with that for quite a while...changing elements here and there, hoping it’s something I just mis-typed...Soon hours pass by and I can’t seem to figure this damn thing out! Look at the clock HOLY SHIT, it’s freaking 730 in the morning of the next day...Time to crash. get back up at 1030am. Still buggin me, I spend another hour or 2 on this damn issue. Then I take a look at the HTML side of the code. everything looks right. so what the hell is causing this issue? Then I see part of it! The block size is 5 pixels taller than the images. so I adjust that. boom, there’s the bottom part gone. Now there’s still the issue of the gap on the right side. Just out of sheer curiousity I take out the set definition for each individual image. Save, upload, refresh it in the browser...HOLY SHIT!!!!!!! All this time, and it was some lil piece of code that is supposed to be there, but for whatever reason the browser doesn’t like it there when it’s within a block of a pre-determined size!

Wow...Finally Success! Amazing. yea, I may nit-pick, and make sure I’ve got things perfect. but it’s this attention to detail that has gotten me to where I am today. I’m doing a website for an author, something I...let alone MOST people who know me, never thought I’d be doing. and He’s just the tip of the iceburg! I’m getting contacts left and right from him, and another friend of mine. I’m getting help from an artist when I have issues with my graphics. Not every day someone who’s been designing websites as a hobby for over 10 years, gets to take in.

I’ve got the most amazing little group of supporters I could ever ask for. Besides my friends, my Ex is right there supporting everything I do...helping where she can, her sister there making me push myself to succeed. Then I’ve got my 2 lil girls. my oldest doesn’t spend too much time with me while I’m working, but I’m thinking of her the whole time I do it. My youngest...She’s right there from time to time. yea, she’s only 9 mos old...but hey I’ve gotta give her credit! She’ll sit on my lap and pound the keyboard and "help" me with the work! Matter of fact, don’t ask what she did because I have no clue, but once she hit a key and actually Re-aligned something that I was getting ready to adjust after she got down!

So yes, I live a busy life, people may not think so, but I do! And I’ve got the best supporters anyone in my field could ever ask for. And I am getting to know people who are pushing me...puttin my name out to every person they talk to. you can’t PAY for advertising like that!

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A glimpse inside my mind
Current mood: evil
Category: Writing and Poetry

I sit here in the darkness,
Hiding behind what everyone portrays as my likeness...
I've got this dark, mysterious, evil side to me that some don't know about,
I'm not one to just cast a best friend out with a shout...
Yea, I talk about evil shit, and write about even darker things,
But you haven't taken a step in my shoes to see why I think these things...
You couldn't handle a trip Inside my seductive dark death filled mind,
You'd be scared at the first time you heard the crushing bones grind...
You'd Scream when you saw the pool of blood dripping from a living Being,
Pouring from his wrists like water from a spring...

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Untitled - Song lyrics
Current mood: creative
Category: Music

Ok, the beat I have in my head for this stems from "Swing" music, inspired by the squirrel nut zippers and other 90's "Swing" music phases.

When I go to bed at night I still dream of you,
I write in blood my love of you!
I'll climb to the highest mountain,
Dive to the depths of the earth...
Just to sing my praise to you!

Chorus:

Is you is, or is you ain't my baby?
Maybe my baby's found somebody new!
Maybe my baby has a different view...
Oh is you is, or is you ain't my BABY?

All day I spend thinking of no one but you!
What's a darkened soul supposed to do?
No matter how much you've hurt me
When I close my eyes it's your beautiful face I see!
But you've ripped it all away...

Is you is, or is you ain't my baby?
Maybe my baby's found somebody new!
Maybe my baby has a different view...
Oh is you is, or is you ain't my BABY?

I paint the mirrors black
But still your lovely face I see...
Why does this have to be such a torture to me?
All the while you've stabbed me in the back
Can't you see what you've done to me?

Is you is, or is you ain't my baby?
Maybe my baby's found somebody new!
Maybe my baby has a different view...
Oh is you is, or is you ain't my BABY?

Ripped from the depths of my heart
For you it was but a mere art...
Something you picked up from the worst
Now it's like your soul is cursed!
I won't leave you alone in this forbiden world

Is you is, or is you ain't my baby?
Maybe my baby's found somebody new!
Maybe my baby has a different view...
Oh is you is, or is you ain't my BABY?

From the confines of my darkness I hide,
All I wanted was to be by your side...
Yet you just threw my love away,
Like a penny whore on a steaming hot day!
One day you may realize what it was that I was offering

Is you is, or is you ain't my baby?
Maybe my baby's found somebody new!
Maybe my baby has a different view...
Oh is you is, or is you ain't my BABY?

Is you is, or is you ain't my baby?
Maybe my baby's found somebody new!
Maybe my baby has a different view...
Oh is you is, or is you ain't my BABY?

Currently listening : V Is for Vagina By Puscifer Release date: 30 October, 2007

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Sic & Twisted World of Mine
Current mood: creative
Category: Writing and Poetry

Tired of the Bullshit you put me through
I wonder around wondering What to do...
I catch a glimpse into your past
Then get shoved out with a blast...
Down the line you apologize
But your decision wasn't Wise...
You say your sorry if you broke my heart,
That's ok, because you did so much more than just that...
You ripped my heart out of my chest
Heart still beating you burned it to ash,
Then you stomped all over it!

The truth hurts,
True Love HURTS...
Like they say The one who loves you,
Won't ever make you cry but
You will shed tears for the one you love...

I take a step into my darkened world,
Soon I am consumed by the hateful world...
I find a seat in the dark
Have you ever seen blood in the dark?
It glistens in the moonlight,
To most it's a terrible fright
To me, it's watching my life slip away...
Like the blood from my slit wrists will stray!

Burning and bleeding in the darkness I lay,
Limp and lifeless as the day fades away...
Take a look into my life,
You'll see things you never thought I could have survived...
Death Surrounds me like a darkened curse
Watching my best friend die 5 ft away was the worst!

Just when I thought I had finally found the right one,
Bringing our lives together as one...
Starting to see a glimpse of daylight
My god she was out of sight!...
By her side I wanted to cuddle,
Instead theres my blood forming a glistening red puddle!

You think you know me,
You have a lot to learn about me...
I'm truely a dark sinister person
But I still have feelings just like any other person...
I'm often surrounded by the darkness,
A glistening dark red river of blood is my bliss
You had a side of you I had never seen,
I have many sides to me that dare to be seen!

Currently listening : Queen-B Release date: 08 January, 2008

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Well, things are looking up for my Business!
Current mood: creative
Category: Web, HTML, Tech

As some of you know, I own a small business. Miller Web Design  I've been doing this since I was a sophmore in high school. I've busted my ass, and made some mistakes here and there. But what business owner doesn't do that? In order for any business to succeed they have to overcome obstacles, and become versatile.

In the past couple of weeks, I've been lucky enough to secure a couple decent Website projects. One I have Mainly finished. GameClubHQ.com I have several prospective customers who are waiting to see what this site is like, to make a decision on things. I completely understand on that issue! So I busted my ass, staying up til almost 4am every night for about a week to get the site taken care of. So I hope it pays off.

Now the other website APrisonersWelcome.com Is a site for an up and coming author. While the needs are obviously different for an Author as opposed to a Gaming Club, I thankfully have the versitilaty to hopefully please every customer! I'm learning a whole new language for this site, and expanding my horizons as a website designer. It shall be a learning experiance, but one that I feel with only help me with future ventures in website design. Now doing this site for an Author is an amazing thing. Not only will I feel accomplished with the site, I will be able to hopefully secure more "professional" clientel.

Anyways, on top of all that, There's the whole Website hosting part of the business! And that...Ohhhhh boy, That is looking more promising each and every day. I'm getting ready to secure the resources for offering Reseller accounts on top of the hosting packages I already offer. Ohhhh it's sooo nice.

Then to top the whole thing off! Building computers. While this has been mostly a hobby, I love doing it. And I've got the knowledge and resources to build custom computers to pretty much meet anyone's needs, for way less than you will find at any retail outlet. Custom Built computers are so much more reliable, in the fact that you actually are getting exactly what you want out of the computer. Not buying a computer that has a few things that are what you want, while lacking in every other aspect of what you were hoping for.

Anyways, I think this Blog Post is long enough, so i will let everyone get back to doing something WAY more Productive than reading some blog I posted!

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Fuck Women! I don’t care if you like it or not! Women are worthless lying mind fucking bitches!
Current mood: pissed off
Category: Romance and Relationships

Yep. That's EXACTLY the way I fucking feel! You find the woman you've wanted for 10 years, you're with her for a week. Then she breaks things off with you. and never gives you a fucking reason! Then when you find out the real reason behind it, they want to play fucking stupid!

I'm tired of it. Women say "where's my prince charming" and when he's right in front of their faces they push him away. Women say they want better men, but every time a "good guy" comes along, they "just want to be friends" No, Not all good guys are taken! Women are just too fucking stubborn and stupid to see what's right in front of their faces! Then when they get fucked over in the long run, they run back to the "friend" and asked what they did wrong!

Women, there are PLENTY of good guys out there! You all just need to stop pushing them out of your fuckin lives! Wake Up and Realize what you have right in front of you before you push them so far that they don't give a shit about anything anymore!

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Life’s gettin better
Current mood: anxious
Category: Life

Yep, my life's looking a little better. So by the end of this month, I'll be getting a new vehicle, a new place to live, Gonna finish my backpiece, and schedule my sleeve. Gonna have a lot of shit going on in the next 2 months! If you wanna know more, text or call me, 309-231-0110. But shit's changin for the better, and it's already been brought to my attention that I'm changing for the better. If someone who has been around me for 7 years can see it, I must be doing really good! anyways, I'll talk to you all later!

Scott

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This Message is SIC
Current mood: horny
Category: Music

Alright, so some of you know this, some of you don't. So here it is. I'm workin on putting together a Metal band. nothing's been worked towards yet...But I'll be on Bass. In my original thoughts I was gonna do Vox...but have since changed my mind to get back on the bass! Anyways...The name I've come up with for the Band to Be is SIC. I've got a long ways to go, but I've already started workin on lyrics and some bass riffs. So by this time next year you may be SICened!

Scott

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