How's Your Karma?

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Do you have good or bad karma?

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My Celebrity Look-alikes

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This past weekend + another Brit pop band of Love!!!
Category: Music

Just when I haven't been inspired or disciplined enough to write something new, I have an intensely fun weekend full of sore dancing feet, hugs, friends, great food, and ERASURE!! under an AMAZING full moon! and last weekend was the Couch Surfing KC group double header party of love and strange mixed drinking concoctions! (Derek, caution!) ;-)

So it all started after meeting up w/ a dear friend from colegio and having an amazing dinner at Eden Alley!! From scratch and local gardens, quinoa or something like that, sag paneer, classic Betty Berry Bailey salad, and tofu jerk!! and of course amazing lavendar chocolate cookies and mint lemonade of love! I'm a total hedonist!!! Then on to Carol Burns' powerfully important documentary, MNI SOSE, meaning Missouri River, which creatively tells the story of how all of the MNI SOSE tribal nations have been extremely negatively impacted by the Corps of engineers damn! building and uprooting and disturbing sacred lands, villages and graves. Please do what you can to support all current policies and laws and agreements that require RESPECt for all Native/Indigenous tribes as well as their lands, ways of life, and WATER and Relatives, which are one in the same.

Then Saturday, in the park, I think is was the 4th of July or (28th...), random chicago reference... I attended an amazing presentation about fulfilling one's dreams while creating wealth and health and sharing it thru. one of my friend's gifts for public speaking! Powerful! and entertaining and sincere, she is!! Then more amazing food, given as a gift yet again, sea bass and glazed pear salad, okay so fast fwd. to a bachelorette party w/ some hottie Latinas of love!! Then solo, then up late caresses of the night and hazy full moon, leading to two film shoots, one about magical condiments and the other an interview w/ yours truly...oh, and me making kick ass green chile from Hatch NM (authentic!!) chicken enchiladas of love combo'd w/ frozen strawberry margaritas and other random side items...then!! as if that wasn't all I could do i a weekend, I drove happily & swiftly while cranking 8 on Night Bird, to experience Vince Clarke and Andy Bell's wonderful and passionate and uplifting Erasure concert at the awesome Uptown Theater!!! and after they Breathed, sang about Ships of Fools and Chains of Love and RESPECT and loving to hate you and having some Drama and O'La Mour, they took the time and were gracious to let me meet them and thank them and hug or kiss or shake their hand and take a photo !!! I"m on Cloud 99!!! and Sunshine and her friends Rock too!!! Nite, all/owll......I"m on a natural high and got my green chile and fierce friend, Erasure kick ass fix of LOVE!!!

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Couch surfing w/ shiny, happy people
Category: Travel and Places

Had a really fun time at the Chicago Anything Box concert last weekend so wanted to post something happy for a change! Plus though it's "Good Friday" for many, for others it's just another night, w/ a low hanging golden 3/4 quarter moon.

So in that peaceful context, I reflect on a band and experience, I've been very lucky to see 4 x so far. Anything Box was my 1st concert back in Oct. 1993 at the famous Club 101 in El Paso!!! My fave club ever next to the Church in Dallas and old club Satellite in L.A. on Temple St.

It's always a pleasure to talk w/ the band and give back some of their
uplifting and powerful energy and see what they're working on and how they are doing. And Claude, Dania and Paul from AB are some of the most friendly and loving musicians I've ever been graced to meet.

Added bonuses in life in addition to hanging out w/ cool creative artists, are meeting new people via common friends, and sharing a live music experience.

Such was the situation for me when I met this way cool and fun gal , Tahirah, thru.
a mutual friend via www.couchsurfing.com

Check it out if you travel often and want to save $, meet new people, get to see the real local haunts of a city, dispel stereotypes or myths about people from other places, and then consider returning the favor to others and essentially building or maintaining a global community.

Off to dream of Keanu I go.....

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Come together right now...
Current mood: relaxed

It's interesting how one can go out of their way to plan things and move things around and be flexible and try not raise much of a fuss,(except to those who know them well), when they're committed to something and have good intentions. Even if it's "inconvenient" or something many others would not do b/c it takes time and $$ and may require staying up late b/c they are committed and working on something that they are passionate about. Then, after they do something related to their goals like book a flight to and from somewhere they think they need to be, on the same day and late night, and then get moving on something else, someone will notice and realize that you're in it 100% and have what it takes and don't have to go thru. w/ the day trip or the other flight to another city after all. B/c now they know you're there - maybe not physically, but mentally. And when you put forth positive, honest and loving creative energy, it comes back to you...especially when it was flowing thru. you before you were born and inherited from the wisdom, love, and experiences of great parents. Now I can rest well tonight.

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bitter moonlit night
Current mood: determined

She thought to herself, I know I deserve better after making herself go to a movie alone but left him a message on the way to the theater. He called back during the film about a man and woman who were married but she didn't love him & then had an affair. He punished her by taking her to a remote village in the middle of an epidemic, and strangely they grew to love each other. Funny, she kept telling herself, how love is...or is it rather elusive, magical and fleeting....only for other people who aren't as "abnormal" and picky as she is or perhaps it's like stopping in the middle of a wonderful moment where the grass is fresh and the earth is soft and moist as you lay on the ground in the middle of a park looking up at the sky and feeling safe and free w/ good friends close and no sense of loss or sadness...then you have to get up, move on, and it's gone....like the current moment....bitterly cold her heart felt and she wondered if she'd ever stop wanting to be w/ him, someone who really didn't care about her, or maybe he did but wasn't passionate and crazy about her, which is what she wanted, but could she blame him for being himself? So as much as she didn't want to do it or didn't think she was capable of it, she knew she had to partake in that stupid game of "ignore him" and "fake it to make it"...secretly she feared that she'd get depressed or overweight again if she wasn't dating someone b/c she would be alone at night and seeking some sort of comfort in late night fridge raids and drinking. But tonight, she stopped getting teary eyed, took a deep breath, some upbeat music, and told herself, Yes I DO deserve better and He will NEVER have me again...so call or write a note to a friend, say a prayer, and sleep peacefully knowing you're where you need to be & that you have friends and family that want the best for you & that sometimes, you cannot fight fate nor blame someone if they don't say or act how you want them to and are simply being themselves...So let it all go, breathe right, let go of judgment, you're not an old, fat maid w/ stray cats lurking in the closet, you're someone who's extremely passionate, loving, open, and smart....but PATIENT, that's something to work on....and w/ that she told herself she'd start working on that script, going to kickboxing, mentoring a young woman, and focusing on what she has control over- helping herself and helping others.

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the here and now
Current mood: melancholy

It's Jan. 22, 2007 and past my bedtime. Michael Hutchence was born on this date 47 yrs. ago...now he's somewhere else and I wonder how could someone not only w/ an amazing talent who can make a great career out of it, but also someone who's found his mate and had a baby together not feel like they've given a more than fair amt. back while of course living a life well off....yet, I know that depression and feelings of uselessness or despair when they encapsulate you and pull you under-- in that moment it's more than beyond difficult by yourself to "snap" out of it...I hate when people say that , again believing the myth that there's some magic wand we can wave or quick pill/drug we can take and instantly things will be wonderful...and that is why tobacco, alcohol and pharmaceutical cos. have robbed us blind...so yes, moderation is okay but isn't like really about what degree of pleasure or pain something or someone or some thought or action gives us? Basic Pavlovian dog-slobbering classical conditioning? and then when we are nurtured and "natured" (i.e. biologically predisposed to behave or act in a certain way or not act), we can either strengthen that neural pathway and make it a habit or make a new pathway and try something or think something else? Perhaps that's where the Self or soul or higher energy/power fits in, b/c it would be a lame world if we were just animals and couldn't truly think for ourselves and become unique, responsible, forgiving individuals...and try as we might, we are all connected and somehow through our happy and depressed or frustrated or regretful times, we know we will get thru. this moment and hopefully learn something or grow strong from it...so in a way I guess that's why it's got to be cool to grow older and hopefully wiser and truly make decisions based on what we really want b/c maybe by then, we'll know what inner peace and love are and that it doesn't matter if we still haven't met our true love or written some amazing novel or had a perfect body or genius mind but that we gave it our best and were true to ourselves and really loved one another as well as ourselves wherever we were--middle of nowhere to the metropolis..knowing that we can never get this moment/right now....back..so here's to very pleasant peaceful dreams and surrendering to the all knowing Self beyond all doubts, sadness, instant pleasure judgment, anger, or deepest pain

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True Thanks amidst Changes
Current mood: thankful
Category: Life

Just drove back from L.A. this past weekend then picked up all my things today, thanks to a new friend who helped me moved everything to NM.
Tomorrow, on Thanksgiving, will be driving back to the Midwest. After a year on the West coast, which was the commitment I made to myself, things have come full circle, and my old job wants me to come back..and of course, being broke, overweight, and w/ fleeting happiness, I said, YES! So here's to Version 2.0 of my career to save the planet!
I'm truly grateful and thankful for all of the kind, smart, funny, and generous people I met in Los Angeles and Tucson and will be back and forth to L.A. for my film mentoring program. Thank you for all of your love and genuine friendships! Here's to a stronger, wiser, more patient, honest, and healthy and HAPPY 2007.

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Back to life, back to reality. . .

Am back from TX and Vegas and working again too much for not enough...spent time w/ girl friends old and new and realized that between the two trips, the best one was the one where I gave up control or having to know exactly where I was going and just made the most of it.
It's interesting how when you start to just live in the moment and not worry about other people, whether you read or think something or call someone or stay up late revising something or just meeting someone and getting a change of perspective can make you feel better about things...even when the bank account's low, you're not a size 6, and you'vet got a zit...just keep on living life and taking what comes your way and ENJOY IT!! Play truth or dare w/ yourself if no one else will and SMILE and LOVE and GIVE what you have!! And take the ride...and get off or stop or back on when you want b/c you know what's deep in your heart. And don't Play it safe...APPLY TO YOUR DREAM JOB or CREATE IT!!

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On this day...
Current mood: content

one year ago, I was here but still living in KC but volunteering at the LA Film Fest and got to meet MORRISSEY of The Smiths of course, who was at a screening of a film he was in, NY Doll...and 4 yrs. ago I met my now ex-punk a..$ bif (boyfriend) so it's an interesting day..I think I'll predict that 1 year from today, I will be working for a cool, indy production co. or in another country working as an assistant or assoc. producer....maybe w/ Keanu or Gary O., Jack B, or Salma or Kate (Beck., Winslet, or Blanch. - all Brits) so let me put this out into the cosmos and see what develops...

Currently listening : Hatful of Hollow By The Smiths Release date: 09 November, 1993

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