Dream Girl
Category: Writing and Poetry

My step-dad gave me the idea to change the line "Won't you kidnap me?" to "Won't you rescue me?"
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Dream Girl, Dream Girl
Won't you save me?
Dream Girl, Dream Girl
Won't you rescue me?
Save me from this shallow world
Where love is nothing but a word
Dream Girl, Dream Girl
I can't make her real
Dream Girl, Dream Girl
I have to believe in her
Dream Girl, Dream Girl
Whoever you are,
I'll forever be yours

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Life’s A Game of Hide And Seek
Current mood: lonely
Category: Writing and Poetry

A verse towards the end was inspired by a saying me and my best friend Matti randomly came up with at the mall one night =]
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It screams at me, this silence
It kills me, this loneliness
It surrounds me, this emptiness
Someone save me from Sorrow's cold embrace

This is my signal flare
To see if someone cares
Is there anyone out there?
Pain filled tears soak this floor
I can't take this anymore

I forgot how it feels to be happy
All I want is for someone to love me
And to take away the pain of being me
My heart beats for no one
I want to live for someone

It screams at me, this silence
It kills me, this loneliness
It surrounds me, this emptiness
Someone save me from Sorrow's cold embrace

I'd give everything I've got to give
To just find someone that'll make me want to live
Lonely is my disease
A loving kiss is the only medicine,
A dose of bliss to consume me

Life's a game of hide and seek
I'm hiding
Waiting for someone to find me

It screams at me, this silence
It kills me, this loneliness
It surrounds me, this emptiness
Someone save me from Sorrow's cold embrace

My heart beats for no one, I don't want to cry
I want to live for someone, I want to be afraid to die

Currently listening : On Frail Wings of Vanity and Wax By Alesana Release date: 20 March, 2007

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An Ocean Pours From Her Eyes
Category: Writing and Poetry

An ocean pours from her eyes
As she wishes upon every star in the skies
That she could be better
And that someone will love her

She walks down the tragic steps of life alone
With no pair of arms to call home
Not realizing it's not her that's the problem,
It's them, with hearts more shallow than a tear

She looks in the mirror,
Wishing she was prettier,
Wishing she was skinnier
When she's perfectly fine
Her sight is blurred
by the never ending fountain of tears
raining down her pale cheeks,
Blinded by how beautiful she really is

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Roulette With A Rose
Category: Writing and Poetry

Sitting here playing roulette with a rose
She loves me, she loves me not
Life or death
Thorn to my wrist
Drown in this bloodbath until I see the light
Soon to be outlined in white
Taken away what's so easily ended
Did you think I could live without you?
You were my everything

Currently listening : Be Mine, Valentine By Drop Dead Gorgeous Release date: 10 January, 2006

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Drop Dead Gorgeous
Category: Writing and Poetry

I wrote this poem is about whenever I'd lay in Tish's bed and just stare at her standing there just being herself. How too good to be true it felt and how just looking at her filled my heart with so many unexplainable feelings. Tell me what ya think =]
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Staring at you,
You're standing there so beautifully angel,
I'm captivated by your beauty
Baby, you're drop dead gorgeous
But please, don't drop dead
I need you in my life
Me, minus you, equals a knife
Straight to my heart
A figure so perfect
Eyes that pierce my soul
A voice that could make a devil smile
A smile that could make a blind mans heart melt
I could stare at you forever
Can I die in your arms?
I want to stare at you forever

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I’m A Sucker For A Happy Ending
Category: Writing and Poetry

Again, I don't feel this way, I have before, but this was just me writing after I came up with the first three lines.
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Cut my heart
Right out of my chest
Take what belongs to you,
Leave me drowning in a bloodbath
All I ever wanted was your love
But to you I'm just a face,
A simple boy,
A nobody
I'm nothing to you
Can I be your somebody?
Tell me what you want me to be
I just want you to love me
Let this story end with
"and they lived happily everafter"

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Reality At Its Worst
Category: Writing and Poetry

No, this isn't about how I feel. I was just writing.
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Winter came early this year
My days are cold and lonely without you
Sleepless nights spent wondering,
Where did I go wrong,
How did I fail you?
My heart is broken
My soul is screaming out in pain
I've lost all motivation
Now I'm suffocating
Our love hase deceased
With heartache I'm diseased
Eyes fixed on the ceiling
I feel like I'm dying,
Waiting to flatline

Currently listening : In Vogue By Drop Dead Gorgeous Release date: 02 May, 2006

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You’re The Reason Mommy Drinks
Category: Writing and Poetry

I got the title for this poem from a conversation I had with Tish the other night. She was joking around about disliking one of ours kids and saying nice things to two of the kids when we dropped them off at school and then saying "you're the reason mommy drinks" lol. And I wanted to use it as a poem title...so I wrote a poem about past issues with my mom. The first line used to be "the perfect son" but I changed it to "the perfect child" so more people could possibly relate to it.
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Never could be the perfect child
Never felt like I was good enough for you
Never did feel close to you
I always wanted to...
You always painted yourself as the perfect one
When you're the one with the problems
You lie about me,
You put me down,
Just to make yourself look better
I'm sorry for all the mistakes I've made
I'm sorry for all the times I failed you
When I leave your house,
The place I never felt was home,
Will you even miss me?

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Father
Category: Writing and Poetry

Father,
Where did you go?
I've waited so long for you to show
Am I alive or dead?
You don't even know

Why did you have to fade away?
And I think it's sad to say
That I don't even think about you every day
You've never been there like you used to say
You always would be

You used to be my best friend
And over the years
I've watched that relationship bend(and break)
Where did you go?
I've waited so long for you to show
Am I alive or dead?
You don't even know

All the times you've chose to disappear,
I haven't ever shed a tear
I'm so used to you being gone
Where did you go?
I've waited so long for you to show
Am I alive or dead?
You don't even know

Why did you have to fade away?
And I think it's sad to say
That I don't even think about you every day
You've never been there like you used to say
You always would be

You were never there for me
You were never there for him
If we mean the whole damn world to you
then why have you burned your bridges to us?
You've never tried hard enough to make it back to our side
You've never seen the tears he's cried...

Why did you have to fade away?
And I think it's sad to say
That I don't even think about you every day
You've never been there like you used to say
You always would be

I won't live like you have
I will live before I die
I won't waste my life away
I will be there for my children
I won't be like you

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Dear Lover Part 2
Category: Writing and Poetry

Oh, my darling
Now that I've had you,
I can't live without you
Your kiss is a breath of fresh air
And your arms are my home
Hold me and never let go

I'm sad to say
That when I die I'm going to Hell,
Because every second with you is Heaven,
But I'm glad to say
That my happiness with you is worth it
If that's the price I have to pay
It's hard to say everything I love about you
When it's everything about you I love
Nothing in life can compare to you

Now that I've had you,
I can't live without you
Your kiss is a breath of fresh air
And your arms are my home
Hold me and never let go

I only get to live my life once,
And I want to spend it with you
I love you with every ounce
Of my heart and soul
And Baby, your love makes me whole
You complete me
It's hard to say everything I love about you
When it's everything about you I love
Nothing in life can compare to you

Dear Lover,
I'll always be here
So have no fears,
I'll never let you go
I love you, and I want you to know

I'll give you everything you want
I'll give you my every waking moment
I'll do my best to give you anything you ever need
Because you've given me the perfect life

Now that I've had you,
I can't live without you
Your kiss is a breath of fresh air
And your arms are my home
Hold me and never let go

It takes some people most of their lives
To find the love of their life
But it only took me sixteen years

Currently listening : Slipknot By Slipknot Release date: 29 June, 1999

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Pictures Of You
Current mood: loved
Category: Writing and Poetry

Staring at the empty space in my bed
With memories of you and me playing in my head,
Wanting you to fill the empty space in my arms,
Trying to close my eyes and fall asleep
But I can't look away from my pictures of you

Whenever I look at pictures of you,
I hate us being apart,
Baby, you're too far away,
Happiness and hurt have a tug of war with my heart
When it comes to missing you, it's all the same
And when tears well up in my eyes,
I look up to the night skies
To make me feel closer to you
Hoping you're looking too

I'm looking at pictures of you
Missing you
Holding my tears back, drowning my insides
Wishing you were here

Whenever I look at pictures of you,
I miss the warmth of your soft skin
And the taste of your warm, loving kiss
Everything about you I miss
And when it comes to holding my heart, you'll always win
When tears well up in my eyes,
I look up to the night skies
To make me feel closer to you
Hoping you're looking too

I'm looking at pictures of you
Missing you
Holding my tears back, drowning my insides
Wishing you were here

You're adorable, you're beautiful
You're every single good thing
I could ever say about anyone
I can't wait to see you again
I can't wait to hold you again

You may be hundreds of miles away
But you're always with me in my heart

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Dear Lover
Category: Writing and Poetry

Dear Lover,
I'll always be here
So have no fears,
I'll never let you go
I love you, and I want you to know

These words come from my heart
You've had it from the start
You're more than my lover,
You're my best friend
You complete me
and I'll love you until the end

I'll always be here
So have no fears,
I'll never let you go
I love you, and I want you to know

When I'm with you
I can show myself
Every word you say
Puts a smile on my face
We've made loving memories
That no time could erase

Falling in love with you was the best thing ever,
It's a constant fall
I've fallen deeper than I ever could've imagined
And it gets better every day
It's hard to be lonely
When you're so loving

I'll always be here
So have no fears,
I'll never let you go
I love you, and I want you to know

It's hard to say everything I love about you
When it's everything about you I love

Currently listening : From Them, Through Us, To You By Madina Lake Release date: 27 March, 2007

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Loving You Is Suicide
Category: Writing and Poetry

This isn't how I feel, I was just writing.
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Loving you is suicide
Everyday it kills me more inside
I've been drained by the tears I've cried
Grieving over our love that died
You told me your good-byes
But there was nothing good about them
Now an ocean pours from my eyes
Smash my heart against the floor
All of my body is aching and sore
It's hard to even breathe without you in my life
Every breath is like swallowing a knife
It kills me to think
That all the memories we made
Will just decay from your thoughts
Because you're all I ever think about
Prove it to yourself
Rip the hair from my head,
Peek through the holes left behind,
See my constant thoughts of you

I'll blow you a kiss
And carry it to you with my sighs
Give me one last deadly kiss
So I can be sure to die in bliss

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My Last Breath With You
Current mood: creative
Category: Writing and Poetry

This isn't how I feel now, but it's kinda how I felt before. I re-wrote this 3 times @_@
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I made you my religion
But now I have nothing to believe in,
Nothing to keep me going on
I'm lost without you
Your words were a loaded gun
Aimed straight at my heart
Is this killing you
like it's killing me?
I'm sitting here crying over
The corpse of our dead love
Thinking of the memories we made
Not wanting them to ever fade
My tears will never drift me away
I'll love you until my dying day
You're the only thing that made me feel alive
Now without you, I feel dead inside
I thought we'd make it out alive
Please, Baby, can this last forever?
I want nothing more than for us to be together
And for our hearts to never sever
I feel like I've failed you
I'm sorry I can't be there,
Be by your side through everything
Like I promised I would be
I'll never turn my back on this
All I ever wanted to do
Was do anything and everything for you
I want to spend my last breath with you

Currently listening : Egypt Central By Egypt Central Release date: 15 January, 2008

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Alexis
Current mood: happy
Category: Writing and Poetry

When I meet you  at the alter
That cold Christmas
Give me your heart
I'll hold it forever
Give me  your life
I'll protect it forever
Our hearts in our hands,
Those rings on our fingers
I asked you to take me
For the rest of your life,
You gave me your hand in marriage
I'll do for you what you did for me
I'll make you feel like the happiest person alive
Your kiss is the cure to my pain,
It tastes like love
I could stare at you all day
I want to get lost in your eyes
And never find my way out
I never want to imagine my life without you
Give me your heart
I'll hold it forever
Give me your life
I'll protect it forever
I won't give up on this
I'll always give you my all
We'll go down together
We'll die together
We'll last forever Baby

Currently listening : White Light, White Heat, White Trash By Social Distortion Release date: 17 September, 1996

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