Times, they aren’t really changing at all
Current mood: distressed

    I've had this stupid myspace account now for about 3 years without ever once really updating it.  I've never posted a blog, or bulletein,  and rarely ever get around to leaving comments on others pages.  Hell, even my profile pic is from when I still had long hair.  If you didn't see me regularly then I'm sure you wouldn't know I had it all cut off a few months back.  Then again, if you don't see me regularly then you probably wouldnt give a shit about my loss of locks. 
    I feel as though I'm in the biggest rut of my life.   My work record really sucks for lack of a better word, and that in turn has made it incredibly difficult to get hired anywhere.  Thats my fault I know.  I just need to find a place willing to take in a Hooligan such as myself.  I'm pretty sure working would cure a good deal of my depression.  Some antidepressants probably wouldn't hurt either, but having gone down that road before I'm a little skeptical. 
    Also I've become pretty sick with the ways i've come to entertain myself.  Its not that I don't enjoy getting drunk and high. I mean, how is a triple blunt and a 30 pack of high life not pretty cool?  I just think that if all this continues like it has been then things just aren't going to end well.  Nobody likes looking into a crystal ball and seeing an obese stoner with a drinking problem.  I need something to vent to.  Some activity that can take my mind away from everything around me and just let me forget the world for awhile.  I'm so sick of having to deal with mixed emotions, relationships, and all the money problems that come from not having a job.  So here's wishing myself some luck.  Maybe i'll update again in another couple years.

Currently listening : Steelbath Suicide By Soilwork Release date: 03 April, 2001

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