I can't imagine a more perfect canidate for this exact moment in time.
(personaly I think someone like the late Carl Sagan would be 'the' perfect canidate. but that is not a phase we are geared for in this season of our history. no for RIGHT NOW we do have the perfect canidate and it is Obama)
were at a fulcrum in history .. greater then any humanity has known in our short existence. electricity has had a greater impact on humanity then the discovery of fire. the different ages of our history will appear as but a single page in light of the difference between today and the tomorrow that is going to come .. in many of our life times. no one can guess how it will go because everything depends on the path that we as a collective choose. But already the changes from technology are proving to be as inpactful as the evolution of higher complexities of brain matter. Is it weird of me to link the topic of technology and of our brains? communication is what makes brains possible. be it cells or people, the impact on the future is real. the possibilities are both wonderful and terrifying. depending on who we choose to be as a nation and planet. fearful and judgemental, or compasionate and hopeful. Us and Them .. or everybody! the universes manifestation of intelligence. the gift of life and knowledge.
now i am HOPEFUL we are not going to face it without a voice of reason, intelligence and correct focus at the helm of what could be a pivotal nation on this planet. (because right now America has more ability to make this human ride easier for everybody to do more towads building a functional world then any other nation, if we choose to focus on ourselves however then we will be marginalized and that will not benifit anybody. Obama is focusing on the big picture in the way that the american people need. it does no good to fix the government if we don't fix the american spirit. they say the biggest issue of this election is the economy. I disagree. I think the biggest issue of this election is the american people. And who we elect is a collective statement of the people about who we are and where we are going. It is that symbolic motion that is more important then anything. His platform is Hope and Change, and we are saying YES THAT IS WHAT WE WANT! We have seen the lessons of the past, and now we choose the future.
and when we do that, my concern and fear (because of our fragmented planet) is replaced with hope
as a very aside note that I just happened to remember re-reading this. Rudy G. actualy made a good speach on some of the opportunities for prosperity this time also has. (heard a clip of it on the news thought it was cool)
update: (this was a blog i posted after watching the movie at the bottom and getting sparked into wakefulness on this topic. following this blog was a month of debate and so forth in the message forums. out of that debate i learned and refined a lot more on the topics of energy and transportation. unforgantly i never saw forth to post a updated blog on the topic. i still agree with this blog, though there is of course much more to the story. for example much of what we have been told about Ethanol is a lie. we simply make it in the least efficient way and with the least productive product. Electric is the answer for mainstream transportation, but there are some instances where other solutions are going to be needed like international air travel .. something Ethanol is ideally suited for at this stage of our technological development.)
your not going to get ANY alternative fuels really moving till the oil monopoly's death grip on america is broken. this must start with the cars that you drive.
rising oil prices! global warming! war in the middle east! - these 3 amount to what can be a knock out punch! (first for the oil companies, then for the automotive) but wasted if you never swing. repost this!!!! .. this is not the end of our environmental woes, but it is the NECESSARY FIRST STEP.
the hydrogen spin: hydrogen fuel cells use 3-4 times more energy (electric) then straight electric cars. (lots of electricity is used to make the hydrogen) .. hydrogen cars are EXPENSIVE. will require billions of dollars of government money and is already outdated technology for cars. (has other uses just stupid in cars) compared to gas, hydrogen costs 6-9 dollars a gallon and will not fall below 4-6 dollars a gallon in the next 10+ years.
electric cars: (300miles avg 70mph) 26.4 x .0748/kWh = $1.97 $1.97/8 gall.. = 25 cents per/gallon (though 40 cents a gallon is probably real world driving experience .. maybe 50 cents with todays electric prices -average $0.10120kwh .. which would drop if we got gas cars off the roads as power plants are more efficient)
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this is literaly technology that exists today that would give 40cents a gallon millage (in comparison) and with todays batteries 300 mile range per charge. that it has less moving parts is WHY the automobile companies are not interested (costs less and lasts longer w/ less maintence) as they would loose money. hydrogen fuel cells are being pushed because it would give the oil infostructure a product to sell, and distracts you from the real solutions. hydrogen fuel cells is STUPID technology unless your worried about the oil infostructure staying in buisness. (is it not ironic that FOSSIL fuel is the power the past has against the future?)
Hybrids is stupid for mainstream production because it is less reliable then electric cars mechanicaly. Electric is THE MOST efficient form of transfering energy to mechanical.
once the past looses it's power over us we can pursue alternative energy more easily. but in the mean time, energy that is generated in a fossil fuel plant is more efficient and cleaner then fossil fuel used in a combustion engine. plus electric cars are universaly adaptable, the energy can come from anywhere's. if we develop bio-energy cells later, they can be swaped in for the batteries. you won't need to replace your car every time new technology comes.
the industries don't want this because they will make less money. YOU want this because it will cost you less and be the most clean alternative to gas cars. the ONLY way that you will get electric cars is if the public knows about them and creates a demand.
you want to help the world and save millions of lives? well this is where it starts. can't be put any more simple then that.
most of you seem to have different idea's of where it starts. and all source from the same error of many forms. think of it in this way: the hippies failed because of a fundamental error in their understanding. it is the same failure that exists at the root of religion. (faith and conciousness creates the matrix NOT reality) nothing wrong with fantasy it is good for the mind/imagination. if you can keep your sanity straight. (ie. remember the difference)
though hippies did have the sustainability idea right. they just forgot about progress.
(as a side note electric has more power and response then gas. this is well past a no brainer. )
Who Killed the Electric Car? (2006)
In 1996, electric cars began to appear on roads all over California. They were quiet and fast, produced no exhaust and ran without gasoline. Ten years later, these futuristic cars were almost entirely gone. What happened? Why should we be haunted by the ghost of the electric car?
situation is this: a large percentage of humanity still structures their understanding of existence from what they were tought by their parents and their parents parents, even though those are the very people least qualified to teach them on the topic. So when will Religion end? will humanity survive religion and faith?
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i did grow up in the slave masters house. even after seeing slavery is wrong.. i spent some time trying to think of ways of changing but not abandoing the philosophy of the slaver. like.. ok... well maybe if we give the slaves partial freedom? maybe we'll judge it by shades of darkness? no, if a idea is a bad idea, then it must be dismissed. so it is with religion. How does it help humanity to judge others on any basis but logic? How does it help us to stand devided by beliefs? And at a time when our very survival depends on us learning to get along.
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to value the individual is intelligent. that is the start of valueing existence. and when the life of the individual depends on the collective then it is in selfish best interest to value everyone. greed for self is something we can at least work with.
Religion is irrational, and thus suicidal. The suicide bombers had PERFECT FAITH. enough said. give them a world destroying bomb and that is the end of the story. the problem is faith which is the absense of knowledge and understanding. if you have knowledge and understanding it is NOT faith because faith implys not knowing. also to believe in the afterlife and that daddy wants you to bring everyone to HIS house.. is not conductive to survival of the species in this house we call Existence.
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stupid humans + technology = dangerous times
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not that every moment of every day .. regardless of the year .. isn't a dangerous time. in that life is short and random
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mike wrote: we need to develope a system of justice that does not base the source of its laws in the divine....an ethical code without divine inspiration that yet still possesses popular appeal...one that claims that ultimately individuals are responsible for their own actions and that the social contract is responsible for the future of humanity all at once...ready to get started?
yes i very much agree. our legal system should be based on the rights of the individual. morality should be sourced to: logic, reason and rationality.
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I think that like 65% (my guesstimate) of humanity believing that their is a God and Afterlife and the only people who will be saved are those that convert to their faith is a bit of a psychological problem?
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probably some of you have not read the Bible so you don't really know the sorts of things i have so much issue with.. so here are a few passages that should raise your eyebrow a little:
Deuteronomy -- 13:6-10 If thy brother, the son of thy mother, or thy son, or thy daughter, or the wife of thy bosom, or thy friend, which is as thine own soul, entice thee secretly, saying, Let us go and serve other gods, which thou hast not known, thou, nor thy fathers; [7] Namely, of the gods of the people which are round about you, nigh unto thee, or far off from thee, from the one end of the earth even unto the other end of the earth; [8] Thou shalt not consent unto him, nor hearken unto him; neither shall thine eye pity him, neither shalt thou spare, neither shalt thou conceal him: [9] But thou shalt surely kill him; thine hand shall be first upon him to put him to death, and afterwards the hand of all the people. [10] And thou shalt stone him with stones, that he die; because he hath sought to thrust thee away from the LORD thy God, which brought thee out of the land of Egypt, from the house of bondage.
Deuteronomy -- 21:18-21 "If a man have a stubborn and rebellious son ... Then shall his father and his mother lay hold on him, and bring him out unto the elders of his city ... And all the men of his city shall stone him with stones, that he die..."
Exodus -- 22:18 Reason for murder of millions of innocent women: "Thou shalt not suffer a witch to live."
Romans -- 7:6-8:4 Mankind is powerless to exercise self-control against his passions; therefore, a man can be excused from God's judgement if he has faith in Christ.
II Samuel
-- 3:7 More concubine hanky-panky
-- 5:13 David had many wives, concubines
-- 11:1-27 Uriah is sent to the front line to lose his life so that the righteous David can get Uriah's beautiful wife, who is already pregnant by David.
-- 12:7-12 Obscene performance to be viewed by all Israel
-- Chapter 13 Amnon rapes his sister
-- 16:20-23 Absalom copulates with his father's concubines on a rooftop
-- 20:3 David imprisons his concubines for the frolic with Absalom
(yea.. great educational reading for our children)
I Samuel
-- 15:3 God orders Saul to kill suckling babes
not to mention a whole host of other things you wouldn't want your children to read. hell.. in the same chapter that has the 10 commandments is says the punishment for not following them is Death. That means every American who works on Sunday needs to be put to death immediatly. according to the Repulsive Bible. (actually that's sort of the title of a youtube vid i sourced that last part from)
and you want to 'keep the good parts' ? why? just get better books. if you can admit at least as much that the bible is metaphor, then let's get some better metaphors.
As part of humanities problem solving process some have proposed the idea of saying all religions are right. but it's very possible to have beliefs that make other beliefs wrong. so simply put all beliefs can not be true if some of them negate others. and the fact that some beliefs make claims at moral judgements is a problem that can not be reconsiled.
violence that results over disputes of religion. as such, it's pretty normal to want to take a "let's just say they are all right so that we can all get along" .. but how does this lend to intellectual integrity which is essential for sound moral judgement?
.. if only one of the religions was right.. then the other religions would eventualy have to say "my bad, what i was I thinking. i'm sorry i was wrong and you were right" .. and so the people of these philosophies honestly think that eventually that is what is going to happen. but if one is wrong, then why not all of them? if your going to expect your neighbor to surrender his ground isn't it only fair that you surrender yours as well ? well that's my feeling on it. but the real problem is many of these religions contain mistakes that create real wrongs in the real world.
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it's like love and hate.. they are both part of the same. you can not have moderates without fanaticals. if you want to teach the world to stop being fantatical you can not be the other side of the coin.
plus the belief in God by it's very structure is a violation of another's individual rights. law can not and should not dictate what one can think. however while i can think about killing you. telling you I am giong to kill you i think is considered harassment and illegal. so it needs to be with religion. as placing a God over anothers head is obviously not condussive to moral logic. should we have spiritual war to see who can conqure everyone else? i think not. human intelligence has been a push over to stupidity for long enough.
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belief in the absence of evidence is not a noble quality. elevating stupidity to status of a virtue is rediculous.
i'm a big believer in freedom. as such I don't think the solution to religion is a legal outlawing. ("laws to supress tend to strengthen what they would outlaw") though that doesn't change the fact that the structure of religion is a moral crime. the solution i think is holding it accountable for it's literal claims and overwhelming moral disaproval of that kind of .. spiritual warfare. an example of the issues with religion is that you just don't have the right to put a god over me. and I see and recognize that for the wrong that it is.
just as violence on television shouldn't be outlawed, however humanity NEEDS to grow up.
our national borders are barbarian borders, as nations were forged in the fires of battle. that philosophy continued into our belief structures by the form of religion. we should know that is wrong by now.
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Morality can not be based on beliefs. If you can't explain your belief then how can you expect it to be agree'd with? Morality MUST be based on reason. logic, and rationality. that axis, and not the divine needs to be the foundation of morality.
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(someone added to the above that i will include because it's a good point about 'being good' and why you need to not have religion to accomplish it) Religion is a way for people to bribe their way into eternal bliss using morality. If you are being moral with no promise of a happy ending, then that is truly genuine
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is there proof that Santa Claus does not exist? Is there proof that a pink elephant does not exist on the moon? how do you know it's not in a cave on the side of the moon away from our sight?
but why do we know that there is not a pink elephant on the dark side of the moon? probably because we have learned a few things about the universe in the past couple hundred of years. for example, our ancestors did not know that all mammals need oxygen and that their is not any oxygen on the moon. We also know that for life to exist it must evolve. So if there was a pink elephant on the moon that it had to come from somewhere .. as no macro ecosystem exists on the moon we can be sure .. we can also then be sure that there is no elephant on the moon.
the understanding and proof that God does not exists, requires you to learn a lot more about the structure of existence then you currently know. the complexity of the data is not as simple as your initial false assumptions. i could give you some advice on the area's to start your study but that is about it.
it's sort of like trying to understand the idea of higher dimensions. when your entire mind structure is 2d, the idea of 3d simply won't fit into it. but the way to learn about the next dimension is by study the data most relevant to it. if you study all the 2d data you have related to direction and keep asking your mind what would be the next step on the path from 1d to 2d to ... ?
for the question of God. how much time have you personaly spent studying the structure of reality?
I don't know you. But i'm sure it's a safe bet to assume your belief in God is because your mind is too simple to imagine or understand any other ways to explain the existence you see around you.
presumptuous you said, and presumptuous is right. How DARE you assume to put a God over MY head ! If a God exists in your reality, that is swell.. but allowing that possibility I say that your God is NOT God over me. That being said, your God is not God over all, and thus is not God.
Myspace.com is now owned by the same mega corp that owns something like 40-60% of all media.
People always rant about this but i don't get it. Isn't it still humans? Individuals?
now on a system like myspace.. i can understand a certain level of 'lack of response' .. like with groups.. there are well over a million groups.
but in a case like mine.. where the issue was with the LARGEST SCIENCE AND HISTORY group. The Edge of Knowledge. That i created and moderated for 3 years. well the morality, ethics and intelligence of the individuals that make up the corporation myspace.com, and the nation of people they belong to. well.. i just feel a crushing level of disapointment.
(the group was stolen. amazing enough in itself as a statement on the morality, integrity and intelligence of today. considering the topic of the group. sick sad shocking)
Following is just my bulletin that has expired so I pasted in here. The text was inspired by a email someone sent me that contained the question below. I think I can do better on the answer if I put more time to it, but until then I'm going to paste this up to remind myself to do that sometime. cheers!
Have you ever watched a fire at night when some green pine needles or something similar is thrown on the fire that causes it to send a avalanche of burning sparks into the sky? Those sparks remind me of our cosmos and it's suns. And in my thoughts I draw a parallel between the life span of the sparks and of our suns. Watched for a time maybe it begins to impact a experiential understanding of the vastness of time and space. And on the spark that is our sun life has managed to birth and evolve during the suns relatively fleeting life span. How many other sparks does this occur on we can not know. To be a responsible thinker we should assume short of contact with life from another of those sparks.. that we are the only one. For anything that life might accomplish we CAN NOT ASSUME will be done by another birthing of life. (this is the point of my one blog titled 'A little story') It is most likely that life is birthing on many of those sparks and too burning out like the sparks themselves. Will the life 'catch fire' so to speak and spread from spark to spark? That's uncertain (though one could write a book and books on that topic alone . as many have) but for the universe to truly become a 'living' universe to me would give it more value. The esthetic value of the Zen rock garden is all well and good, but sorta as you say.. w/o someone to appreciate it.. what is it? just rocks. But I have mixed feelings on if life is actually a good thing or not .. an infinity of the struggle (or endeavor?) for life (sure from this perspective I can almost enjoy being eaten alive by whatever predator, and too all the times we've had to starve to death .. physically.. mentally emotionally.. freeze, burn, sickness, broken, etc.), but I believe with the survival of intelligence and thought, life can be a good thing. and despite the "negatives" it has also been .. fun and substantial. So to see us spread to the stars would provide more security and continuity for the progress of thinking and thought. And too it is a continuation of the divine desire of life. People might think mother earth must hate us humans for what we do to her.. but in truth we are the great hope of all life on our planet.. the purpose of it all.. it's big push, it's great effort. If even with our bionets dieing breath it pushes us forth then it has not failed. (and can be reborn for we carry it within us) That the earth will die that is unquestioned. Life wishes to survive though.. and to that ends we are life's greatest hope on this planet. Humans like to criticize ourselves for our short comings.. but we are nothing more then a result of our evolution, the competing forces that sparked our birth and evolution of everything the whole way up to our minds and cultures. But to become aware is to improve.. to remain unconscious is to return to the soup and make way for another attempt of evolution. (though if it would get as far as we have in this run of the dice and in our planets life sustainable time left I couldn't guess ..and other then valuing my own skin, would really hate to take the chance.. sure there MIGHT be time for another round or 2.. depending on the nature of the reset and how far back the planet and life had to start from.. I've not really done the math/study and ultimately it's not really possible to say) But yes we could very easily go the way of the dinosaurs. Already we stress the oceans ability to balance CO2 in the atmosphere and that is just one issue. (and mostly one nation w/ the rest of the world coming online shortly) It's sad too how easily we throw away the wealth of the planet .. such abundant wealth that is the progress life has made so far in SO MANY forms as it's danced across this planet) Our best medicines still come from mother nature.. and that just the small fraction of life we've had time to see and study the same for other technologies and materials. And while we have mastered our planet as the top predator, with our dimension of thought and tool use. There are still species of animals on this planets who's minds have evolved further thinking capacity then us.. if perhaps in a different dimensions of thought. This was true when I last studied it.. I still need to study it again, but I believe to every measure of biological evolution of the brain we've developed .. dolphins and whales have computers with greater capacity then humans. The argument over who's is the better software is another question. Undoubtedly our needs for survival has driven us to develop a much different program, and likely more useful to the needs of life and existence. When we evolve to the needs of spirit (and dimensional thought) I think we might start seeing a deeper value in our ocean cousins as well as the whole net of life that supports us .. right down to our very own cells.
BUT what is the PURPOSE of LIFE ?? Does it have a purpose other then being? To answer this I think we need to ask the same of existence itself. I guess to some perspectives there may be great beauty in the whole thing.. but to me I feel a level of tragedy in the whole thing. though to explain it.. i'm not sure how. i think it would take a big effort. so then i jump to the my final conclusions.. and I guess those might be that ultimately to fix or cure (set right) the "tragedy" what we must do is create it.. that being existence. Maybe then I'll feel justified in calling it a "miracle". And hasn't that been the drive of life all along? To birth itself into existence.. is it really so strange if we create existence "last"? People speak of things such as the big bang.. as if it happened long long ago.. when in truth it is occurring at every moment of our lives. We only think and experience time as linear. If one only pauses to listen ..they can hear it (creation/"the big bang") evolving up into the present moment along w/ all the sparks of life. "Spirit", aliens, all of that.. can be birthed in a moment ..and "forgotten" just as quickly. I guess time can be just as biological as matter itself.
Following is a entry from my wilderness journal. note: now have more the 5 blogs so hit view all if you want to see all of them. I've decided not to start a livejournal account so over time I might randomly add more entries.
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Okay, things have again gone out of control. Something has been causing problems w/ my body. Literally to the point that I've wondered if suicide isn't my only option. I don't want to kill myself, but this is unacceptable. I've decided in this moment that I will go to any extreme necessary to avoid such a reckless action. With all the effort that's gone into the course I'm on, it would be wrong to throw my life away, needlessly. Time to exercise extremes. This situation is strange beyond description. Things have been "talking". First the birds began responding to my mind, almost as if they were 'thinking through'. Their bird songs, from one species, is generally understandable human speech, or I should say phrases. The number of songs or phrases it has gone through is very impressive. I don't think a bird could normally learn that many different songs, let alone phrases. I would consider that it is simply my mind reinterpreting the songs into "words", except I can mess the bird up through mental activity, and cause it to stop by paying extra attention. It like these other "things", don't like to be heard with full attention. It as if it's almost afraid of being revealed. Perhaps even to the other side of my consciousness. In addition I've noticed a few other species of bird types, they different flocks (species) seem to respond to different mental causes, in a complex manner. For instance while writing this, were it day time, a species that sounds like a cross between laughter and perhaps laser sound effects would be the dominant noise. (Almost as if that would neutralize this revelation) Very strange. Stranger still has been the last couple days when speech has become more common among all the species. With the birds I know this is to a degree that it is real external sound. A foggier area has been miscellaneous sounds, perhaps being pattern recognized by my brain, into english phrases. (Such as the buzzing of bee's & flies) Still stranger still have been voices from the forest, consistent voices often, with seeming occasional visitors, or extra clarity of sound. In fact often the pattern recognized phrases are preceded by the voices from the forest. Almost as if they are prompting the phrase.
A lot of theories and realizations about the nature of mind and reality have been involved within the last couple months. This has been a collaboration with others, and verifiable to witnesses. So despite the strangeness of what I've revealed, it is simply that. Strangeness. Computer's or similar conceptual technology/functionality have been an important tool in this endeavor. As well as higher consciousness, and individuals aware of more complex realities. Not to mention dimensions beyond the 4 normally perceived. Knowing that there are more dimensions to reality, not to mention higher levels of complexity, is one thing. But actually experiencing the strangeness is something entirely different. If I didn't have the (still) limited scientific understandings I do have, I would certainly be concerned with the state of my mental healthy. Especially having come from a society that so inadequately prepared me for such things. The truth is that no one should ever be forced to go through these sort of circumstances. Endurability has certainly been stretched beyond acceptable levels. Perhaps under different circumstances this would have been almost enjoyable. Under different circumstances.
My brain and mind seem to also have been undergoing some restructuring or changes. Perhaps rebuilding (and adapting) would adequatly convey the idea.
after notes: The birds started out by seemingly osculating through the spectrums of phrases. (If you've read The Dancing Wu Li Master .. it was sorta like that .. broken down to simlest it amounted to a push, except, ignore (etc. not sure the number) phrase or some such) Sort of in a repeating manner. (like grinding a gear into a already spinning system) This was when my mind was very fragmented and I had first arrived. Later during my stay in the wilderness this tended to stop, except for birds in the distance that seemed to act as sort of gate keepers. As my mind slowed down the bird phrases tended to stop and be more directly focused towards the slower paced thoughts that arrived. (usually with a elment of humor. this humor/laughter was so prevalent in the system that at times it was painful .. and the mental temperature was very high .. like if you've ever stayed up 2 days hardly sleeping -studying/learning very intensely) The visual effect of this was like when I showed up my mind was a bag of marbles, with many racing thoughts that the birds had to keep up with to bring the biosphere into sync. Later when most the marbles had been thrown out so my thoughts were more singular.. hmm.. well do you get the picture? It's sort of like the environment i set up camp in "ate" my mind in order to make it one with the local environment .. to share a sort of symbiotic relationship with. I wonder if this isn't occuring all the time, but we simply move around to fast in normal society for nature and our minds to 'catch up' with us.
The following text was typed durring the summer of 1996. At the time I had quit my job to move back to my dads so I could return to college. I was spending a lot of time on debate forums trying to engage others and so this was inspired. Soon it became obvious that while I loved listening to the profesors and learning the knowledge, I didn't have the concentration to do in school as my thoughts were roaming a little too freely. So I moved down to a friends in Reston, VA and started a job down there. Durring the time I was working with many celestial beings and the things that happened is a story unto itself. A few months later I left for the wilderness.
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I was an atheist of the first degree. Religion was for those who couldn't deal with being responsible for their own fate. Never in my life did I allow myself to witness anything that I couldn't logically fit into my understanding of the 'real' world. First out of ignorance, then fear. Mostly I feared that if I began my journey blindly, I might take the wrong path. Finally it began to get to me that so many people seemed to be wasting their lives praying for something that never seemed to happen. And so I hoped (and prayed) that I could find a way to educate people, Yet first I needed to educate myself. I looked into spiritualism, and some of the different ways of accessing my subconsciousness (admittedly half heartedly). Other than almost unnoticedly perceiving deeper messages in everything around me, it seemed to be in vain. Yet I was beginning to build a foundation of beliefs, and ignorantly tried to push them onto others almost as quickly as I formed them. Then it became evident that many people had formed religion into a fortified fortress for preventing change. Plus how could I ever justify preaching something to anyone, when it seemed to simply come down to belief? In fact it was beginning to seem as if belief really did create reality. And just because one religion was correct, why couldn't all the others be true, too? In fact shouldn't the 'truth' incorporate all of reality, all of existence? And if I was going to try to find this truth, I decided it needed to be in a way that I could explain to people in a way that they could except. Logically. (Without religious prejudice) After all the truth seemed to be echoed throughout all of existence, yet logic is what seemed to always prevent me from excepting it. So I journeyed into the world of science. Science, the ultimate fortification of reality. The Human races final journey towards the truth.. My blindness amazed me. What is being discovered on the frontiers of science absolutely amazed me. (Remember despite my hope's and forming belief's, I was still rooted in atheism) It was like learned the earth isn't flat all over again. In face I was stunned that the world seemed so oblivious. We were so concerned with building our empire and fortifications, as reality changed around us. Or was I the only blind one? Science is beginning to prove that in fact, all of existence is connected in ways we never before imagined. We live on the shores of infinity, in a (hopefully soon) finite and unbounded universe. Science will soon make things you never believed possible, a reality. But much more importantly, it has proven, that there is much much more to reality then what we perceive in this three dimensional world. (Yes science shows that there are more dimensions to existence. (perhaps))
The most important step for me to beginning to understand (and thus reach towards) these greater levels of existence, was to stop living on what was fed down to me, and reaching towards what is beyond my understanding. It was easy to except the world as being infinitely more intelligent, and to give up on even trying. Life is not a game, however it will often seem as if your playing chess with yourself. Beginning is often the most difficult. The world is doing all it can to teach you. Fear is the biggest evil. (And ignorance is usually the root of all fear) Be wary of limiting your vision, stretch your imagination to it's limits. Strive to comprehend infinity and the truth that can be found in religion as a whole. There are laws of existence, that are important to learn.
Religion, spiritualism, science. All path's lead in. It's important to remember that love is truly an eternity. All that you perceive is a part of you. God wishes for you to join him in heaven. Not for you to spend a lifetime worshiping him in misery! Fear is a tool of evil. It's time to stop worshiping, and to start believing and learning. never fear to question the very foundation of your own belief's, however don't seek to undermine others. Evolution leads from creation into eternity. This is the evolution of your consciousness.
There are no third worlds. You can help yourself, mankind, and all of existence, best by raising your own level of awareness. Be conscious of the ripples you cause.
The ultimate test is learning to embrace your enemy. Without forgiveness you will never learn to fly. When you judge your neighbor, your judging yourself. It's okay to be human, as long as were grounded, human flaws will impede our growth, forgive yourself for your flaws, look at them for what they are, then reach past them. Learn how to allow the universe to teach you, then you will find the spaceship to your dreams. If someone else could do this for you, it would have already been done.
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*This morning was special. The way the creatures awoke me was magical.
I seem to have "found my way" to a state of much greater serenity and calm. This peaceful, tranquil state is what I'd been searching for.
I've recognized the need, the inevitability of taking a different approach towards my learning and study. Try to read with my "mood". Or not force my way through material, but instead absorb little pieces at a time. Changing topics periodically. For this mode of being, that seems to be the best method.
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I was considering again the "area of many considerations" and wondering about the course one would navigate, not to mention many things that still escape the structure of words. I remember some of the considerations had "considerable import" sort of in the way the big bang did. I dunno, perhaps these considerations are a little more important.
Don't overreact when considering such things. The first times I approached these considerations, I have myself over to the feeling of the enormity of the issue. Now I need to practice cold, thinking. That is what will be most useful for working through that area. Take it easy, you have time. :) I must confess, the feeling of seemingly infinite despair, is something I remember almost fondly. I seem to have associated that feeling with great understanding. To be truthful a part of me feels that is where I "belong". My rational mind reminds me of the heaven I've also glimpsed or imagined, but still I seem to of developed an attachment or affection for sadness. At least I had. I consider again and feel it's my responsibility to make of this life something positive. I felt comfortable in despair, and must admit, even rationally that in many ways it was indeed better then many of these "in-between" states, but I also know their are many superior and more comfortable states of being. Such as the sage like state of inner peace I've started to experience. My imagination has reminded me how that should eventually evolve, and for me, that is 'like heaven'. I consider that the ideal earthly frame of mind and body. From there I'll be able to most comfortably explore other states of mind and body. Once I've further developed a central core of such inner peace, I'll then be able to comfortably explore the vast array of questions that are so central to our existence.
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I had a interesting dream last night. I was in a room at first I thought it was my grandmother's, but now I realize it could not have been because of the arrangement of things. Anyways there were two males there, one younger perhaps a little older then me, and another person I never saw clearly (it was a dream after all), so the younger male was talking "too" me while pretending to be on the phone, apparently this system or "game" eventually got to me and I yelled "What do you want?!?!" with all the emotion that an entire summer of this strangeness has built up inside of me. All the emotion and frustration a world that denies the truth, a world that gravitates toward sleep, denial, and disharmony has cause to grow inside of me. It was a plea for sanity, reason and openness. They seemed to just look at each other, I realized that for them --- something that's difficult to put into words. That we were at crossroads in history, human evolution, existence, and most important our own lives, that our next step would take us into a realm almost beyond imagining, no different then the immensity a 2 dimensional being would feel upon learning of a 3rd dimension. Those were perhaps adequate words to express the idea, or the beginning of the idea, but very inadequate for expressing the impact. As dreams tend to do, it got real fuzzy at that point, my next memory is rather primal, I see myself grabbing a knife, a very sharp knife, with animal like instincts I'm crouched down, smooth flowing motions, reflexes ready as they'd never been before, capable and willing to face any adversary.
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After that something big happened. Something on a scale us humans arn't use to considering. My entire counsiousness seemed to literaly turn and move on a dimensional scale. The experience was special. It was more akin to traveling "with" my thoughts, as opposed to simply sending my thoughts "out", or listening. Special dream. I guess the raw primalness of that one part would frighten many so it's not exactly the type of thing I'd want to tell anyone about, but I found it exilirating. A breath of fresh air after being stuck in a box. A cat that had regrown it's claws. Very healing.
Later I was remembering the movie Michael (Angel) I was remembering that when I watched it, I was sort of in a higher dimension, I'd gone to the theater, and at the very beginning I scratched myself [tough explain why that would be important] in response, the lady on the movie screen started going into convulsions as if she was having a heart attack, she recovered saying "false alarm", at that point the Angel Michael walked into the room, making a show of scratching himself (fit into the scene well) anyways for me that was a humorous example of the complexity of reality. but at the moment when my thoughts seem to be being shared with beings, not exactly the type of memory you'd want to emphasize or think about too much, in fact as that thought crossed my mind, one of the birds here started chirping/crowing "too much", "too much" (perhaps something's dimensional trained their minds to make sounds in these patterns resembling human speech.) so hearing this, I started remembering my dream again, the bird seemed to croak in a startled, shocked, flabbergasted sort of way, then started chirping "more", "more" in reference to the memory it had just been chirping "too much", "too much" about. (I was still half dreaming) I laughed. A funny example of perspective and relativity.
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Don't ever forget how much of a hell this was! Things will soon really be heaven like, but don't ever forget how much suffering ignorance causes.
Hopefully I now recognize how important it is that I develop better conceptions. Hopefully I've suffered enough to have a real hunger for knowledge. Not just knowledge but wisdom! I can't help but marvel at how easily and quickly things degrade, or fall here. While many things were indeed getting much much better, other parts were going the other way, only I didn't notice through all the smoke. Some less mature things were becoming common noise to the effect that I didn't really n otice, and when I did, I realized I was almost up to my eyeballs in it. Thankfully It changed much easier this time, and other then this slight reminder, it is all but cleared up now. Another problem I had was that I'd allowed that same noise to give me some flawed conceptions, and they were causing me no end of anguish. This wake up call also helped me to see the inconsistency of what they were saying with how things really are. A nice reminder not to except things simply because somebody said so. A nice remind of the importance of questioning everything! Perhaps the two most important words I've ever heard. Question everything.
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[hmm.. nevermind .. outta space .. maybe later I'll delete this and create a livejournal log]
This is a story about four people named Everybody, Somebody, Anybody, and Nobody. There was an important job to be done and Everybody was sure that Somebody would do it. Anybody could have done it, but Nobody did it. Somebody got angry about that because it was Everybody's job. Everybody thought Anybody could do it, but Nobody realized that Everybody wouldn't do it. It ended up that Everybody blamed Somebody when Nobody did what Anybody could have done.
When the night shows the signals grow on radios All the strange things they come and go, as early warnings Stranded starfish have no place to hide still waiting for the swollen Easter tide There's no point in direction we cannot even choose a side.
I took the old track the hollow shoulder, across the waters On the tall cliffs they were getting older, sons and daughters The jaded underworld was riding high Waves of steel hurled metal at the sky and as the nail sunk in the cloud, the rain was warm and soaked the crowd.
Lord, here comes the flood We'll say goodbye to flesh and blood If again the seas are silent in any still alive It'll be those who gave their island to survive Drink up, dreamers, you're running dry.
When the flood calls You have no home, you have no walls In the thunder crash You're a thousand minds, within a flash Don't be afraid to cry at what you see The actors gone, there's only you and me And if we break before the dawn, they'll use up what we used to be.
Lord, here comes the flood We'll say goodbye to flesh and blood If again the seas are silent in any still alive It'll be those who gave their island to survive Drink up, dreamers, you're running dry.
apathetic
rushed
