Thantos
Current mood: contemplative

cigarette hanging off the lip in the side of the mouth, sleeveless T-shirt. Sweaty.
Love, lust, loose morals,
a loose white blouse fallen off the shoulder --
Bad girl, bad boy, they break the rules,
they probably fuck, too. Rebellion, allure of the forbidden.
Only soldiers, convicts, or sorcerers would take up the habit as an adult.
Kids smoke to feel grown up.
Adults smoke to feel like kids.
A cigarette is the perfect type of pleasure. It is exquisite, and it leaves one unsatisfied. What more can one want?
- Oscar Wilde, The picture of Dorian Gray

Rather than studying charts that have the structure of nictotine and tell me that it is an angonist at the nicotinic acetylcholine receptor, I felt like reading my text book.

There is something beautiful about smoke. I love watching it twist and curl. If it werent for the smell and the effects on the lungs i would have probably been a smoker a while ago.

I find it interesting that out of all the drugs Pendall only puts tobacco (Nicotiana tabacum or Nicotiana rustica) in the category Thantos. It is the death drug.

"And to kill time while awaiting death,
I smoke elegant cigarettes, thumbing my nose at the gods."
-- Jules Laforgue "La cigarette"

I am going back to reading lecture notes.

Currently listening : 40 Oz. to Freedom By Sublime Release date: 23 July, 1996

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COACHELLA

Saturday, April 29th
Depeche Mode, Daft Punk, Franz Ferdinand, Sigur Ros, Damian "Jr. Gong" Marley, Common, Atmosphere, Carl Cox, My Morning Jacket, TV on the Radio, Ladytron, Clap Your Hands Say Yeah, Tosca, Cat Power, Animal Collective, HARD-Fi, Derrick Carter, Devendra Banhart, She Wants Revenge, The Walkmen, The Juan Maclean, Imogen Heap, Audio Bullys, Lady Sovereign, Deerhoof, The Duke Spirit, Eagles of Death Metal, Lyrics Born, Matt Costa, The New Amsterdams, The Zutons, Platinum Pied Pipers, White Rose Movement, Chris Liberator, Colette, Joey Beltram, Hybrid, Living Things, Wolfmother, The Like, Nine Black Alps, Celebration, The Section Quartet, Shy FX & T Power, Infusion.

Sunday, April 30th
Tool, Massive Attack,Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Bloc Party, Paul Oakenfold, Scissor Sisters, Matisyahu, James Blunt, Sleater-Kinney, Mogwai, Coheed and Cambria, Wolf Parade, Coldcut, Phoenix, Digable Planets, Gnarls Barkley, Amadou & Mariam, Little Louie Vega, Mylo (DJ Set), Seu Jorge, Ted Leo / Pharmacists , The Go! Team, Kaskade, Metric, Editors, Art Brut, Dungen, The Dears, Jamie Lidell, The Magic Numbers, Los Amigos Invisibles, Jazzanova, stellastarr*, Michael Mayer, Murs featuring 9th Wonder, Mates of State, Gilles Peterson, Infadels, Gabriel & Dresden, The Subways, Minus the Bear, OneRepublic, Be Your Own Pet, Youth Group, Giant Drag, Kristina Sky, The Octopus Project.

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i stole this off courtney
Current mood: mellow

Who are your Top 8 friends on Myspace?

1. brian
2. courtney
3. martha
4. james
5. mr. guthrie
6. liz
7. racho
8. justin

Now answer the following:

How did you meet number 1?: i met him through that dreadful thing known as ib, but i didnt really start talking to him until mrs shappe moved me in front of him last year in methods

Currently listening : Mass Romantic By New Pornographers Release date: 07 October, 2003

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how to find a jeanie
Current mood: busy

this summer jeanie has been very busy with work and such... but that doesnt mean that she doesnt want to spend time with all her friends... so i am posting my schedual because it makes me sad that everytime someone is all like hey lets do something but then i am all "bleh im a loserface and i work all the freaking time" so yea if you wanna hang out with me and you just so happen to be one of them cool people who is awake in the wee hours of the morning (10am) or evening midnight and you wanna take me away from my hot boring house i love you!

oh yea if you happen to be one of them people with that thing called a car and a liscense and insurance... ya know the ablity to drive... its freaking hot outside and i wouldnt mind a ride to work in exchange for a few bucks or mayhaps lunch ect.

anywhoot

my work schedual (subject to more hours being added on because of the cafe as of this moment i only know for sure that i am working weekends for the cafe other then that i could be working any number of nights)

HAC means hammack activity center

Monday 18 HAC 11:45-5

Tuesday 19 Day Camp Excursion to the Staples Center 7:15-6:30

Wednesday 20 HAC 11:45-5

Thursday 21 Day Camp 12-6

Friday 22 Meeting Cultral Center 9-11am

Saturday 23 Cafe 9:30-1:30 can extend until 3:30

Sunday 24 9-1:30 can extend

Monday 25 NO WORK AS OF THIS MOMENT!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday 26 HAC 11:45-5

Wednesday 27 HAC 11:45-5

Thursday 28 HAC 1-6:15

Friday 29 HAC 11:45-5

Saturday 30 9:30-1:30

Sunday 31 9-1:30

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defying gravity
Current mood: jubilant

oh man today was by far one of the best days of my life

i wake up after a fun filled night at racho's house with lots of random (as usual)

we get awoken by the sound of heather text messaging

then a while later we got to my house and dye my hair (i like the new color)

and we leave for hollyweird yay fun car ride listening to electronica

the we get there walk around hollywood blvd in a desperate search for a bathroom and at last we find one, however the mean greek lady tells us that it is for customers only so we are forced to eat good philly cheesesteak sandwiches and french fries

then we went to the pantages

and we waited

and waited

then got entered in the lotto

then they called it out and they called another person by the name of jean just to spite me (they also did the same to heather but then they actually called her)

then we waited

and waited

and plotted with the people standng behind us to harm the people going in and stealing their tickets or makeing use of trash cans and ash trays for the purpose of sneaking in or beating up the ushers and stealing their uniforms

then we saw charlie come up in a limo (showoff) but hey its crazy because he was there with my almost little sister and my hair dresser... that was uber random of them...

welps racho and i gpt tickets in the last row of the balcony

but it was cool because we could see everything and we sat next to these really cool people and yea that was fun

then the show kicked ass

i loved the lighting design and the costumes and of course the awsome voices of the elfeba and galinda (i dont think i spelled those right)

after the show we went down by the stage door and waited for the actors to come out and we got their autographs and then we drove home

man i had a wicked good time

Currently listening : Wicked (2003 Original Broadway Cast) By Stephen Schwartz Release date: 16 December, 2003

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quiz
Current mood: mellow

50 Questions
Erase my answers & put in your own. THEN REPOST As a Bulletin.

1. What is your middle name? marie

2. What color underwear are you wearing now? blue and red... they are superman underwear!oh yea i am just that cool!

3. What are you listening to right now? a electronica mix that my sista made for me

4. What are the last 2 digits in ur phone number? 46 (cell) 71 (home) lol i am a loser who had to go check my phone because i didnt know that off hand

5. What was the last thing you ate? a cold bacon cheese burger and french fries... i have been eating alot more cold food since i became a waitress

6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? how can you expect me to pick just one? hmm how about magenta :)

7. How is the weather right now? i dunno

8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? erich, lane's voicemail

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? i am not very observant

10. Favorite type of Food? burgers, indian food, Panera, alices, the cafe, good food

11. Do you drink? yessum

12. Do you smoke? whats the point? you smell nasty, kill your lungs and you dont even get high (at least thats the advice that my dad gave me)

13. Ever get so drunk you don't remember what you did? i dont need to be drunk to foget what i did i have the memory of a gold fish bloop bloop

14. Hair color? reddish brown but soon i shall have burgandy

summer!
Current mood: tired

welps its summer and i am a busy mofo... i got promoted to waitress so i have worked everynight this week at that resturant except for tuesday

yay tips!!

also working at the hammock center :) i get paid to play dodge ball, have water fights and color... what could be better?

welps i still wanna hang out with peoples just leave me a message here or on my cell phone and well make plans

Currently listening : Swagger By Flogging Molly Release date: 07 March, 2000

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you know you want to..
Current mood: lazy

Our relationship

1. Have we kissed?:
2. Do you want to?:
3. What would you like our relationship to be?:
4. Have we dated?:
5. Did you like it?:
6. Do you want to date?:
7. Are we close friends?:
8. Would you be here if I needed you?:
9. Are you attracted to me?:
10. Mentally, sexually, or both?:
11. Do you love me?:

Appearance

Do you like my-

12. Face?:
13. Eyes?:
14. Lips?:
15. Body?:
16. Arms?:
17. Legs?:
18. Clothes?:
19. Ass?:
20. Hands?:
21. Hair?:

Do think I'm-

22. Sexy?:
23. Beautiful?:
24. Hot?:
25. Cute?:

Personality

Do you think I'm-

26. Crazy?:
27. Nice?:
28. Fun to be around?:
29. Funny?:
30. Annoying?:

Would you...

31. Share chocolate with me?:
32. Spend a weekend with me?:
33. Alone?:
34. Hook up with me?:
35. Have sex with me?:
36. Care if I ran away?:
37. Care if I died?:
38. Miss me if I left?:
39. Hang out with me?:

What would you do if...

40. I kissed you?:
41. You found out I was missing?:
42. You found out I was in the hospital?:
43. You found out I was dead?:
44. I cried?:
45. I asked you for help?:
46. I told you I loved you?:
47. I told you I hated you?:
48. Someone told you I wanted you to kiss me?:
49. Someone told you I had a crush on you?:

In the last week have you...

50. Wanted to kiss me?:
51. Wanted to see me?:
52. Wanted to have sex with me?:
53. Wanted to tell me you loved me?:
54. Wanted to spend alone time with me?:
55. Wanted to get to know me better?:
56. Thought about me?:
57. Missed me?:
58. Wanted me?:
59. Seen me?:
60. Kissed me?:

Have I...

61. Kissed you?
62. Hugged you?
63. Told you I loved you?:
64. Made you happy?:
65. Made you sad?:
66. Made you angry?:
67. Made you feel better if you were upset?:

Are you...

68. Happy you know me?:
69. Going to post this is so I can answer it?:
70. Done with this survey?:

Currently listening : Welcome To The Monkey House By Dandy Warhols Release date: 19 August, 2003

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almost summer
Current mood: restless

almost done

2 more days to get it together as best i can and then summer

i can hardly wait

hey i want to have a kick ass summer so yea if anybody wants to hang out at anytime call me up i love spontaneous hang out

i think i have alot of free time well except for when i am working but yea totally call me up an like keep me posted

see ya

Currently listening : On And On By Jack Johnson Release date: 06 May, 2003

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procrastionation is your friend
Current mood: chipper

69 questions--*

1.PICK ONE OF YOUR SCARS OUT, NOW HOW DID YOU GET IT? squirrel bite

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM? random crap, a puzzle, purses, a mask, wrapping paper bows, a pinkumbrella, mono...