It's a perfect day for letting go For setting fire to bridges Boats And other dreary worlds you know Let's get happy! It's a perfect day for making out To wake up with a smile Without a doubt To burst grin giggle bliss skip jump sing and shout Let's get happy!
"But it's much too late" you say "For doing this now We should have done it then" Well it just goes to show How wrong you can be And how you really should know That it's never too late To get up and go...
It's a perfect day for kiss and swell For rip-zipping button-popping kiss and well... There's loads of other stuff can make you yell Let's get happy! It's a perfect day for doing the unstuck For dancing like you can't hear the beat And you don't give a further thought To things like feet Let's get happy!
"But it's much too late" you say "For doing this now We should have done it then" Well it just goes to show How wrong you can be And how you really should know That it's never too late To get up and go...
Kick out the gloom Kick out the blues Tear out the pages with all the bad news Pull down the mirrors and pull down the walls Tear up the stairs and tear up the floors Oh just burn down the house! Burn down the street! Turn everything red and the beat is complete With the sound of your world Going up in the fire It's a perfect day to throw back your head And kiss it all goodbye!
It's a perfect day for getting wild Forgetting all your worries Life And everything that makes you cry Let's get happy! It's a perfect day for dreams come true For thinking big And doing anything you want to do Let's get happy!
"But it's much too late" you say "For doing this now We should have done it then" Well it just goes to show How wrong you can be And how you really should know That it's never too late To get up and go...
Kick out the gloom Kick out the blues Tear out the pages with all the bad news Pull down the mirrors and pull down the walls Tear up the stairs and tear up the floors Oh just burn down the house! Burn down the street! Turn everything red and the dream is complete With the sound of your world Going up in the fire It's a perfect day to throw back your head And kiss it all goodbye!
Loyalty: I don’t misplace it.
Current mood: amorous
I never had a lot of friends growing up. I was always too awkward for the kids I went to school with. Then later it was a matter of having the social skills...which I did not have.
Then, I went through my learning phase.
About 2 1/2 years ago, I was friends with the worst people. Drunks, crack heads, speed freaks, liars, cheaters, pedophiles...you name it. People I had fun with, but knew damn sure I couldn't trust them. It felt good to belong somewhere. But to be honest, even I knew that wasn't the kind of companionship I desired and in the end, it was just easier not to have friends.
But now...now I have found a bit of an extended family with a few people. Of course, I'm still a little skeptical about certain people. I think that's perfectly understandable. But so far, these people have not given me any reason to think that I have to watch my back around them.
That's nice.
I like that.
Cathrine: You are so fantastic! The mother I never had. While I adore my mother with all my heart, but there are tools she has never possessed to be able to help me with hard times. You have. I love you so much for that.
Meghan: God, you rock so fucking much! I love, love, love you, lady! It's nice to see that I won't be completely alone in my craziness when I get to California.
Lily: You are nutty as fuck, girl. You need your damn head checked! LMAO But, really...that's one of your MOST endearing qualities. Fucking crazy wench! I lubbers you!
Anonymous Friend : This girl will remain anonymous due to circumstances in her life. However I have to address her as well. You are so great. God, what a woman. You're one of the strongest, most beautiful women I know. Keep your chin up and let the world know you don't take any shit. You'll come out of this mess and everything will be great in the end. Just wait and see.
And last but not least...
Reyna: My equal in so many ways. The greatest girlfriend a miserable bitch like me could ever ask for. I look forward to seeing you in the near future. I swear...I'll prove you wrong.
Currently
listening
:
Family Album
By
Faun Fables
Release date: 2004-02-24
Walk Like A Zombie by The Horrorpops
Current mood: animated
You walk like a zombie You talk like a zombie Its not in your head You're a living dead Whatever you're gonna do You're gonna make me cry
And you wanna hold hands In the cemetery And you wanna be lost For all eternity And everything is dark And kind of scary And you crave the full moon But i don't care
And you want a mountaintop With a little castle And you wanna name our kids Morticia and fester And all the flowers you bring Are always dead And you howl at the moon But i don't care
Six feet under You make me wonder You wanna be undead So you can be hunted But whatever you're gonna do I'm gonna follow you
And you wanna hold hands In the cemetery And you wanna be lost For all eternity And everything is dark And kind of scary And you crave the full moon But i don't care
And you want a mountaintop With a little castle And you wanna name our kids Morticia and fester And all the flowers you bring Are always dead And you howl at the moon But i don't care .
Currently
listening
:
Hell Yeah
By
HorrorPops
Release date: 2004-02-10
Most people go their entire lives never finding kindred spirits to share themselves with. I don't just mean relationships, I mean friendships, too.
I have to consider myself extremely lucky at this point in time in my life.
First, I found Gypsy. 5 years is a long time for anyone to wait, but somehow...I did. Maybe I didn't sit and pine while he was with Amy. Maybe I did have other relationships (that failed miserably, by the way) while waiting. And while these relationships ended on bad terms, I'm no different from any other woman who busts her ass trying to make things work. I constantly asked the age old question, "What did I do to deserve this?"
Then I realized....It's not me. I'm not perfect. I know I'm not. But no matter how flawed I was/am, it still doesn't justify what I've been put through. You know....bruises heal. At least the external ones. The internal injuries take a lot longer...some times they don't heal at all. Not everything scars over.
Ergo...Gypsy and I are equals in that regard. We're two sides of the same coin. Everything I've been through, he can identify with...and then some. I love him with all my heart.
Then...then came Reyna. This sweet, intelligent, silly, adorable mess of a girl. I don't use the word "mess" in a negative way. I really don't. It's meant to be a very, very, very positive thing.
She's always saying she's ugly. She's quiet. She's very smart. She's a plus size girl. She likes other girls.
Any of this sounding familiar to you guys? lol
She is me. She has to be. The similarities between us are...wow. We're so much more alike than she knows. I'll admit, I am easier to approach nowadays. I wasn't always so easy to talk to. Hell, some of you may still think I'm impossible to really know. And to some people I am. I keep my distance from harmful people. Reyna is an 18 year old Suzi. Plain and simple. Right down to the short hair. Lol
I am certain that in time, she will grow as an individual and become more her own person...like I have done...and to be honest, am still doing. Knowing yourself is a long ass process. Most of us will never truly know who we are, but I like to think I'm doing a decent job of it.
So...again. She is my equal. She'll probably rib the hell out of me for complimenting her they way I have, but that just further proves how she's my twin. Lol. I'd be lying if I said I haven't grown to adore her.
These two people are the reason I am so lucky. They are my kindred spirits.
So....there are 8 days until my birthday. I'm going back and forth between being excited and dreaded it. I suppose I should be more excited than what I am. I mean, birthday's are supposed to be exciting. But, at the same time, I'll be turning 22 and what do I have to show for it? I am the only member of my family who went to college and graduated. I guess that's great and all, but it seems like it's been pointless. All the work I've done to get where I am. And I don't just mean all the work I've done academically, but in my personal life, too. I've been told by all the doctors I have been to that I need to lose weight. Well...I know I should lose weight. While I really am in better health than most people in my family (hell, healthier than a lot of thin people I know), I know that as I age it could and mot likely will produce problems. But to be honest...saying that I am healthier than my family isn't saying much. My family sucks. Mom and dad, diabetics. My late grandmother, diabetic. My maternal grandfather, heart disease. I know I have a lot to work on to be a healthier person.
I'm just tired of everything I do backfiring and nothing working out the way it should. I guess that's why I'm not too thrilled about turning 22. I'm worried that this year won't be any better than the last few. But on a brighter not....I am getting my septum pierced.
Outta bed at the crack of noon Blare the music and have a swoon I can't stop thinkin of your face La la lee la lee loo lace
I'm six feet under the Bhodi Tree With my crap new-age philosophy Diamonds where there once were stars I'm sittin in Jayne Mansfeild's car
Yea yea-a I'm independence Yea yea-a I'm borderline Yea yea-a I'm California My minds all screwed and upside down But my heart's on overdrive (yea my heart's on overdrive)
I need to take a shower when I look at you Ya sting and hurt like a bad tattoo I wish you'd change my point of view
I cruise the canyon to get a breeze With Hidden Treasures up my sleeve I like the light and hate the heat But I'll lick the blood right off your street
Yea yea-a I'm cherry cola Yea yea-a I'm candy-eyed Yea yea-a I'm California My mind's all screwed and upside down But my heart's on over drive
They all come here to find a scene But end up girls on methadrine Naked on a TV screen The dreams that fall beneath my feet Make my footsteps feel so sweet But your kisses are my fait accompli
YEA YEA- A I'm independence Yea-a I'm borderline Yea-a I'm California My mind's all screwed and upsidedown But my heart's on overdrive Yea my heart's on overdrive
exhausted
bitchy
amorous
tired
I lubbers you!
animated
sick
frisky
crazy
blessed
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