New Life, If I dont fuck it up again...

Moved into my new place in North Stockton now.  Place needs work, room is small as fuck.  Wall color is ugly as hell, I'm in the "fire engine room".  Shoot me now.  Fire engine wall paper off, need to primer over mural of engine and firedog.  ARG.  Bathroom counter cracked and  broken.  horseshit.  Weeds, dead grass, lame ass foliage ands plants with fat thorns.  WEE.  School in a month or so.  No job yet.  Housesitting for my aunt weeks at a time has killed that.  No friends.  FUCK.  Just got internet, TV, and phone. Shitty.  Air quality sucks fat drippy monkey cock.  Can't excercise everyday like I wanted or spend and extended period of time outdoors. People are way better than ignorant utah mormons.  Plus side, yip yip yahoo.  My aunt is close with her brood, not bad.  No car, driving the Exploder.  LAME. 


Miss you guys in Utah.  But don't miss Utah.  You know what I mean.  

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Leaving leaving...new tomorrow
Current mood: amorous
Category: Friends

As most of you who read and of my few and far between blogs know, I am moving to Northern California.  The actual date of the move has come quicker than I could have imagined.  Saturday morning will be my time to roll out.  For those of you that I haven't said goodbye to personally, I apologize.  My time management has never been very good.

    I love you all.  There are those of you who have helped me become a better person, who have been there for me to talk to.  Snowboarders, rivetheads, artists, whoever you are, I love you all dearly.  The only hard part about this move is knowing I can't just jump in my car and see you within and hours time.   I know lately I haven't been around as much as you or I would have liked.  But I think that made the times we got to spend together that much more special. 

Fare thee well.  I will keep in touch.

Phil "Roadkill" Payne

Currently listening : Nocturnal By The Black Dahlia Murder Release date: 2007-09-18

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Moving
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Travel and Places

For those of you who don't know yet, I am moving to Northern California in as little as 2.5 months.  Possibly a town named Tracy or a town name Manteca, both near Livermore, CA. 

I will be going back to school for my art degree with a minor in brewing(lol).  Will be going back to work on either nights or weekends to have some cash in hand.  I would like to get together with each of you before I leave just in case communications split and we are lost from one another.  Hopefully that will not happen.

Currently listening : Headphonemuzik, Vol. 1 By DJ Carew Release date: 27 July, 2004

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ZAZEN
Current mood: peaceful

sit

breathe

center
yourself

where is the world?
nowhere
there is just you

inner eye opens
what do you see?

there is the way to the path

walk toward it in your mind

dream

speak

Nothing...nothingness...

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Hakuin and the Samurai
Current mood: thoughtful
Category: Life

"A soldier came to Hakuin and asked "Is there really a paradise and a hell?"

"Who are you?" inquired Hakuin.

"I am a samurai," the warrior replied.

"You, a samurai!" exclaimed Hakuin. "What kind of ruler would have you as his guard? Your face looks like that of a beggar!"

The soldier became so angry that he began to draw his sword, but Hakuin continued. "So you have a sword! Your weapon is probably as dull as your head!"

As the soldier drew his sword Hakuin remarked "Here open the gates of hell!"

At these words, the samurai, perceiving the discipline of the master, sheathed his sword and bowed.

"Here open the gates of paradise," said Hakuin.

Hakuin

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Mornings
Current mood: artistic

First light in the window
Crack your eyes
The tea waits for you
What is in the air that calls
Rise and live.

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