hISTORIC NIGHT!!!
Current mood: confused
Category: News and Politics

MAN, what a night.  I was moved to tears.  At once, I felt cynicism, anger, pride, joy, fear, sorrow....I hope things do change.  I'm willing to get up and make it better.  Are you?  Be the change you want to see. Man, I hope my heart isn't broken, this time.  This country has spurned my advances so many times before.  Has violated me, taking advantage of my trust.  Has told me the same lies sooo many times.  Do you know the ache involved in loving a junkie?  the myriad of emotions when, seeing them sober, for a moment, they tell you there gonna remain clean?  Can she, America, really give up her addiction, to war and lies, and oil, and poverty for masses ensuring untold riches for a few?  man, I wanna trust again.  I'm gonna trust again.  I hope this time she does me right!

Currently listening : Change It All By Goapele Release date: 2005-12-27

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Same Shit, Different Day(Time for some new shit!)
Current mood: inspired
Category: Life

Listen!!! I Got a lot on my mind right now.  And i'm gonna try and make this brief.  It's funny sometimes or sad, depending on your perspective, reading a journal or blog, diary, whatever and though it was a year ago or month ago it could have been today.    i hope ya'll  read this cause it's coming from my heart.  obvioously nota from my head as i 've just decided to leave the typos.  anyhow, i had a conversation with a friend earlier and i left me  on fire.  hopefully some of you will burn by the end of this entry.  what i boiled down to is this:  that you and i, we don't have the right to not show up.  to not use our talents, our gifets, our faults our resoiurces, financila and otherwise.  we don't have the right.  black folk, anscestors have endured the middle passage,  rape, murder and all manner of humiliation.  any folk, your own parents and grandparents have endured and sacrificed all manner of things , things that you can't conceieve of an may never no of.  so that you could be here.  sho up.  show up with your stuff and get to work.  self-pity is SELFISH.  it serves no one but lyou.  anger, is an obstacle, it immobilizes.  righteous anger is not anger at all, but CONVICTION, thet something is wrong, was wrong that must be righted.  when Emmit Till's mother spoke at her son's funeral, (he was beaten, and drownd for alledgedly whistiling at a white woman) she said that she has no time for hatred, that she must PURSUE JUSTICE with every minute of the rest of her life.  man, my mind is going a million pleaces and if we are fotrunate we will go with my mind to each of those place before it's all said and don.e  but RIGHT NOW let me leave you with these few thoughts:

Currently listening : The Odd Couple By Gnarls Barkley Release date: 2008-03-21

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who the hell reads this shit anyway?
Current mood: complacent
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

so like, who the hell reads this?  no one right?  i figured.  so i thought i'd do it anyway, just so Bush could have something else to read.  lol, funny thought like he can read.  you know what i mean, his henchmen, the cia, nsa, fbi....anyway.  i'm christian, baptist in fact.  i just would like to think that SOMEBODY is reading it, or else why am i writing?  vanity?  anyhow, maybe millions of years from now some super intelligent beings will read every correspondence ever documented on the world wide web, and they'll come across this and no someone else that existed.  anyhow, been doing pretty good dieting and exercising, except that i didn't exercise AT ALL today.  i ate a BIG N TASTEE from mickey dees too.  today kinda sucked.  i did weigh this morning though and i lost 2 1/2 lbs. more since last week.  not nearly enough to reach my goal by the 14 of february...just 3 weeks away.  i'll still keep and touch though and keep you informed, whoever you are.   probably just myself.  love and peace.

kenny

Currently watching : The 40-Year-Old Virgin (Unrated Full Screen Edition) Release date: 13 December, 2005

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not a failure till you stop trying
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

so....haven't been exercising....only mostly following the diet....25 days from now we will be leaving for trindad.  go harder i said in the last post!   go softer is what we did.  now with 24 days to attempt our goals of 15 and 30 lbs,  we gotta go harder than we thought we could.  we're gonna keep trying.  we'll letcha know how we do.  oh, and don't forget, PICTURES!!!!  before & after at the end.  stay tuned!

Currently reading : Push: A Novel By Sapphire Release date: 29 April, 1997

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it's Carnival time!!!!!!!!!!
Current mood: bouncy
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

It's Carnival time!!!!  well, not exactly but close.  about 30 days to be a little more precise.  my wife and i are going to sweet T&T(Trinidad for us yanks) for carnival and we are vowing to get in shape.  we've been exercising and dieting and have lost about 15 and 20 pounds.  but now we're closing in on our departure date, which is the 15th of February; Carnival being the 19th and 20th.  she wants to lose about 15 more and tone, and i about 30 and do the same.  to do it though we will definitely have to kick it up a notch...go harder.  Tonight we started with 50 full situps.  tommorow we're gonna go kickboxing and recommit to our diets.  gonna let you know just how it's going every day along the way.  now since we're taking this time to make some changes, and it's just before the beginning of Lent, i figured why stop at fitness.  i'm gonna make some other changes as well, and later i'll fill you in more on exactly what they will be.  we took some pics, at the end i'll post them all.  stick around and watch something amazing happen.  move with me.

pulsate - to move in a definite rhythm, temporarily or for a long duration...

Currently listening : Any Minute Now By Machel Montano & Xtatik Release date: 09 February, 1999

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question

what more can i say?

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It's my birthday!!!!!!!!

it's my birday!!!!yes i celebrated. don't worry, yours will come along soon.  it is kinda my birthday, it was yesterday and i  haven't gone to sleep yet.  and it's only two hours into this one.  anyway i was blessed to do all the things i loved.  my wife played pool, played chess, i danced, and spent time with loved ones.  today, i will celebrate by giving myself a new life, a new me, you'll see.  stay tuned.

Currently reading : The Covenant with Black America By Tavis Smiley Release date: 01 January, 2006

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unrealized potential
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Life

what more can i say...

sometimes i feel like a motherless child...no, somet times i feel like i might die this way.  so full of unrealized potential...some might say so full of shyt.

like a butterfly stuck in it's chrysalis, containing beauty like the world has never seen, but too weak to break free.  to flutter about carrying pieces of all it lands on to other pieces...making the world a beautiful place.

when will i break free from my  self-constructed prison?  be Harriet Tubman cause there's many needing leading to freedom.....

Currently listening : Change It All By Goapele Release date: 27 December, 2005

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