The RANT is back with avengance
Current mood: annoyed
Category: Blogging

To the stupid prick that called every fucking minute in the last 3-4 hours of my shift.....

FUUUUCCCK   YOU !!!!!

I just got home its 2am and all I wanna do is prank call your ass for the next 24 hours and see how you like it you sack of worthless shit.

Dont know why people waste their time honestly, I cant wait until you get your phone bill and pass out when you realise how much money you wasted prank calling me tonight you stupid wanker. Get your hand off the old fella and call someone who gives a crap about your stupid ass.

There is no reasoning with some people. I tried being proffessional, I tried be nice, I gave the guy what he wanted and still he called, and called.....yep and called.

At one stage it was 3 calls a minute and I was just about to go out of my brain at him but instead asked him what it was he wanted and why was he doing this? 

and he says in an uneducated, brain dead, horny loser, centrelink bludging tone

" I DUNNO"

AAAAaaarrrrgh !!! ( enter the silent scream ) which is all you can do when your surrounded by co-workers that if you do let a big squeeler rip with surely think your mad.

Some days I want to crawl into a hole and feel sorry for myself....but other days, like today for example I realise that there is worse out there than me....for example, that wanker.

What exactly does someone get out of calling an organisation ever freaking minute and saying " fuck you" "your a whore" "fucking slut" bla bla bla.

I seriously dont get paid enough for this shit.

RANT OVER.

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aint life grand.
Current mood: exhausted
Category: Blogging

Aint life grand.

Headed back to work last week and been working night shifts. What a stupid fucking idea that is. Getting home at around 4am only to get up to Jack at about 6am and start the day all over again and head back to work at 3pm....joy.

Don't really need to be working at the moment so it makes it worse, sitting there in my little booth of crap thinking to myself, why am I here?

Nothing has changed at work either, if anything it has gotten worse, sick of working with people that couldnt smile to save themselves and who ass kiss me at work like we are best buddies, but isnt it funny I had 10 wks off and didnt hear from one of my so called besties. No suprises there really but heading back to work they are all chummy again and pretend to give a crap. What a Joke.

Might be sounding a bit bitchy but when hey when in Rome.

Surviving on no sleep does silly things to you, I wrote the date it was somewhere closer to the start of August rather than the end...did I miss a month?

Jack has been great, sleeping well, feeding well, has a shocker of a cough which no doctor seems to want to do a thing about and he is getting his 2 month needles in about half an hour, not looking forward to that at all.

Well speaking of which I best get the little guy ready to go, leaving the house never took so long. 

I love how he is giggling and saying ELLO now. He has a massive personality.

I love when I walk past he gets excited to see me and kicks and waves his arms, smiles up at me and......CHUCKS EVERYWHERE....ahhhhh....aint life grand.

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Cable
Current mood: bored
Category: Blogging

After 4 weeks of waiting I finally have cable back on. Austar took forever to pull its finger out of its ass and I have had to watch normal telly. I know this makes me sound like an idiot, I get that I do. But there is nothing on !! And now with the olympics omg dont get me started. I like the opening and closing ceremony's and thats about it, although I didnt even watch the opening because Jack was asleep so we crashed out too. In a few short weeks I am sure I will be over it and winging about the repeats on cable and the fact that Jai watched far too much Simpsons, Family Guy, etc etc. The only difference I suppose between free to air telly and cable is well they are both pretty crap with all the add's and such its just one I am paying through the nose for. I remember when I was a kid only the rich people had cable and I used to love to go to my friends and watch nik kids. Back then though there was little to no adds. Now there is way too much. I was getting my daily once over from my mate Dr Phill and it got so bad that he only asked one question to his guest and it would go to an add again. They just advertise their own product. Its like hey, I have paid for it already, you dont need to convince me. Enough of my winging......

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Everything is changing.
Current mood: busy

So I am heading back to work later this month. Not looking forward to that, but if I dont I will lose my job and I dont have the patience for job hunting just now. Its been crazy busy here at my place. Moving house with a newborn is far from easy and we are still mulling through boxes and unpacking even though we have been here now for 2 weeks. Looking forward to Jimmy and Mel's wedding later on this month. Its always great to see two people get married, you cant help but love the whole process. Have had people asking us now that we are engaged when the wedding will be but let me get over one thing at a time hey

I am trying to stop myself from being consumed by mummyland and making sure I get out into the land of the living every so often if only just to keep a margin of sanity. Its far to easy to slip into mum mode and forget about the world entirely. I cant help though be curious to see what will happen now I am living in the bay. Have had so many friends carrying on about me moving back saying its about time and how they can come visit now instead of me always doing the leg work but time will tell hey because so far in 2 wks they are a now show for the most of it and I am well and truly over chasing after them. After all I one hell of a cute baby, good enough excuse as any to pop your head in and say hi I would of thought.

Being a mum, well no-one can explain it totally can they. Its a hard one to put your finger on really. I love him like nothing else. Who would of thought. He has grown so much already and I am so glad I am a snap happy mummy because you forget how much they change and how small they were. He is full of personality and grins and little noises already. You cant help but wish it would all slow down, but there is no stopping time unfortunately.

I better go tend to my little guy, attack some more boxes and pump some more of my lifesaver otherwise known as coffee into my system.

Hope this finds you all well.

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See ya on the other side

Okay so spent until midnight last night helping the landlord move his stuff out so we can get in, got home tried to log into msn and hotmail and cant remember my new password and have locked myself out...darnit. so will get a new email when I get set up at the new place. dont ya hate that. todays the big day everyone already stuffed though from working last night. what a load of bullshit we shouldnt of had to do it but anyway. cant wait to be out of the burra. woo hoo. see you all next week sometime

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update on the moving saga

Okay so I went to Hervey Bay today to get a fridge and telly unit and thought I would stop into our new place and measure the gap for the fridge to make sure it was going to fit and when I got there I nearly bloody died.

Walked in and the place still is chocka block full of the owners stuff. Beds, tv's clothes computers, couches the lot. lawns not mowed carpets not cleaned and house a damn mess. Dad was with me and the look on his face said it all.

So I am supposed to moving in tomorrow morning. How????

I got onto the owner who said he has been sooo busy. Not impressed. So going there tonight with jai to help the guy move his stuff out.

Also the 3 bay shed that is supposed to empty for us to put the cars and motorbike and boxes into is still full to the brim.

The new landlord organised cleaners and carpet cleaners to come tomorrow around midday. MIDDAY  Not good when we are supposed to be asap tomorrow morning. Talk about stressed.

So hope we are not paying rent as of tomorrow cuz that would just be wrong.

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Its about time !!!
Current mood: excited

So its finally happening, tomorrow I am moving back to Hervey Bay and I gotta tell ya time cant go fast enough. After waiting since last November for serious plumbing work to get done on this place, and months of phone calls and letters to our real estate demanding maintenance I get a phone call from the plumber yesterday, yep 2 days before I move, wanting to come that day and fix it all. Which by the way means I have to vacate for a day or two because of how toxic the glue is. I said no bloody way, I have a newborn in the house and I am not going anywhere they can go jump and can come next week when I am out. Why should I jump through their hoops when we have had massive leaks in the house for over 6 months. Cant beleive how gutless the estate agent is to not call and ask themselves and to get the plumber to make the call. As it is they have to give you 24 hrs written notice to come and do it so calling on the day simply isnt good enough and they know it. I cant wait to be rid of real estate's they are hopeless and now will be renting privately so I can only hope it is simpler and less stressfull because I have had endless troubles here. Pitty the person who rents this place after us, hopefully they have the decency to do the maintenance before the re-let it but I doubt it.

So it will be so lovely to be back in Hervey Bay, it means commuting for Jai each day to work but its a small price to pay to be back where we both consider to be home and to be closer to our families. With both our dads pretty ill at the moment and Jais dad headed down to Brisbane to get his spine fused and more cancer treatment as well we both really want to be closer to him especially.

Jack is going well, bit spewy so I will have to keep on eye on that. He can power spew along with the best of them let me tell you and I have copped it more than a few times so far. He is so lovely though and I am loving spending time with him and am really not wanting to head back to work later next month, even though its only a couple shifts here and there it will be near on impossible to leave him. He has starting to smile and goo and gaa already which is so great, he is bursting with personality and a million crazy faces.

Well I wont have the net on until later next week when telstra pulls their finger out so will catch u all then.

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Sleep Deprivation...isnt it a form of torture in some countries???
Current mood: tired

It really is amazing what your body can do. Sleep deprivation is a bitch but somehow you still chug along and manage to operate. Jack is up every 2 hours roughly so doesnt leave a lot of room for sleep so we are learning to pass out very very quickly. He has been wide eyed in the day times and refusing to sleep but at night time crashes out. Just gunna have to be a toughie with him because in the day he wants to be held all day and grizzles if you dont. He has been really good though with feeding and pulls the funniest faces and its true that you are never more facinated my poo than when you become a parent. Sick I know. Jack grunts away when he is trying for one its hillarious so in the middle of the night he has me in fits of giggles. Funny little fella. Well its 7:30am and he has just gone down again...time to lounge lizzard it before he gets back up again....

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Jack’s Journey
Current mood: content
Category: Life

Well it all started Sunday morning when I woke up feeling less than okay.  Cramping up and generally feeling unwell. We had been to Dan and Becks engagement party the night before and we left pretty early because I was feeling cold and tired.

So up we got at 3am and sat in the loungroom together watching some telly timing the pains and getting excited that this time this really might be it. By the stage we were already 2 days overdue and getting rather impatient for the babies arrival.

The pains increased and were really regular so we called mum who lives in Hervey Bay and told her we were on our way to her place. Safer than being at home and having to travel to the next town should the contractions happen to get more intense quickly.

We sat around at mums and had some breakfast and I walked and walked and walked the deck and house wearing a  hole in the floor so it seemed at times and then finally got Jai to take me into the hospital at around 9am to get checked out. And like Joseph and Mary there is no room at the inn and I am put in the  waiting room while they try and find me a bed. Just typical hospitals here.

Because my waters had not broken they hooked me up to a trace and checked me and the baby and we were both doing ok so they sent me home to wait until my waters had broken. So off home we went feeling rather dissapointed and anxious and very very sleepy.

Back out at mum and dads place, they have 5 acres so plenty of room for a preggas girl to waddle about, I did just that. Waddled about. I walked through the orchards and checked out the fruit trees, stood around the dams eyeing off the ducks wishing that I had brought down the gun since they have been chewing everything out, and even picked 2 bags of oranges to pass the time.

Walked around and around for what seemed like ages, well it was ages, watched part of  a movie but decided sitting wasnt helping so continued to do laps about the place. Finally I was so exhausted and feeling kinda dizzy so I went inside to lay down on dads recliner and thats when it happened. I yelled out to mum thinking I had pee'd myself but when she helped me up it just kept going so we grabbed the bags yet again, unplugged the camera's from the charges and everyone helped me into the car which was not easy as I felt like I was losing total control of and pee'ing everywhere, it really is the oddest sensation, oh the joys of pregnancy.

So we get to the hospital and Jai drops me at the front door looking my glamourous best with my slippers on, a brown stretchy dress and a wad of towels placed you know where I get into a wheelchair and mum pushes me into maternity....where's back !!!

They hook me back up again and baby is happy as usual, mummy ofcourse is rather nervous and excited all at the same time. Mum and Dad and Jai are all looking at me with mixed looks of worry and expectation. We are all very much on edge wondering...what next?

As the day progresses, and slowly I might add my contractions slowed and I managed to get some rest and then later that night they sent Jai home, we were both exhausted and definately dissapointed that our little one hadnt decided to show up just yet.

I woke up in the middle of the night with intense pain and wandered up the hallway of the hospital to get some ice and noticed all these other labouring woman in their rooms with their spouses and was really taken aback because Jai had been sent home. I sat in my little cubicle and continued to labour for 3 hours with midwifes checking on me here and there until eventually after gripping the end of my bed in agony I couldnt bare it any longer and begged the midwife to call Jai so I had some support. At 5am Jai tore into my room with a worried look on his face and I just collapsed into him glad to see a familiar face and have someone to hold my hand and say it was going to be ok.

Mid morning they took me into the Birthing suite and Mum and Dad arrived, dad was on his way to work but my mum stayed put. I dont think she aticipated having to be there the whole day but once she was there I wasnt letting either her or Jai out of my sight.

The hours progressed and contractions grew and grew and mid afternoon I took the morphene shot to the leg. I really dont think it did allot more than take the edge off. I was still in a hell of allot of pain. I thought during my labour that I would be the sort to try out the positions and move about allot but I just couldnt bare to move and spent most of the time sitting or laying about.

Our baby started to fall asleep in the afternoon due to the fact I hadnt eaten anything so they got me to down a stack of green cordial to increase my blood sugars so he would wake up and keep labour going. But unfortunately after about 3 jugs of icy green crap and just one suck on the gas I power spewed the lot across the room with what Jai describes as something out of The Excercist movie.

My dad came in at one stage but couldnt stay for long. All I heard was him wimpering and crying in the corner, I cant imagine what it would be like to see your child in so much pain. He stayed and told me he loved me and left. Mum was still there strong as ever.

Finally when the doctor said I was allowed to push at around 2:30pm and beleive me I was more than ready having wanted to push atleast an hour before hand and having to stop myself I gave it all I had and then some. Its true that no-one can describe the pain and overwhelming animalistic urge to get that baby out. Even when you have nothing left you somehow find another pocket of energy wether it be out of strength or simply utter desperation to have the whole thing over with I just kept going and pushed and pushed for 3 long hours. I remember at around 2 hours begging the Doctor to take the baby out crying that I had nothing left, and towards the end was passing out in between contractions. Eventually the doctors decided that our little one was stuck. I was devistated. After all that pushing the baby was only half way down and showing no signs of budging so they were going to go in after him. A C section was one of my worst fears but at this stage I had had enough and count care less. The doctors opted for a forcep delivery which scared the crap out of all of us since all the horror stories we have been told from them and the Doctors gave me a spinal tap incase I had to be rushed into theatre for a C section in the end.

All I remember is the room filling up with people. All of a sudden I had 2 or 3midwives, anathasist, 2 doctors a specialist from Melbourne and Jai and Mum and they kept asking if they could bring the trainee doctors in to observe. I continued to scream NOO !!! this wasnt a circus....fuck off.

I can handle the contractions to a point but the forcepts would have to be the worst pain I have ever felt. After 2 or 3 tries though and some blood curdling screams from yours truly out came our baby.

The doctor layed him on my chest and Jai and I and mum just sobbed and sobbed. We decided we wanted to be the ones to see what sex our baby was so when I realised this was it I lifted the tiny little legs and cried...

ITS A BOY..Jai you have a son.

We cried and cried as our little man was taken away and weighed and checked and Jai cut his cord and brought him back over to me.

Dad was back at the hospital in a heartbeat thrilled to bits to have his first grandchild and also that we had named him after my dad.

Jack Anthony Stubbs weighed in at a hefty 9lb 2oz no wonder he got stuck and was absolutely perfect regardless of his forcep battle wounds.

So after 39 hours we finally have a son.

The first couple of days in the hospital are a blur of visitors, doctors, screaming babies in the next cubicles and cramped quarters.

I was so proud to take Jack home on the Friday. We got a clean bill of health from the Doctors and rushed out of there as quick as we could. I have never seen Jai drive more tentavily home than he did that day. You really couldnt get a prouder dad if you tried.

Mum stayed with us on the first night which was a blessing because he was a little horror on night one but since has settled into a routine and has his mummy and daddy firmy wrapped around his little finger.

At one week old I got my first baby shower at around midnight, Jai and I were up feeding and changing him when he pee'd all over me, not once but twice. And he looked rather chuffed about it too I might add. Jai laughed himself stupid as we realised it was all over the floor, my slippers, jumper and through my shirt....niiiice. But I have the last laugh because as I just wrote that paragraph Jack just spewed all over Jai..heheh..thats my boy

As each day goes by I grow more and more inlove with our son. I am already amazed looking back at his newborn photos just how much he has grown in 9 days. Time really does pass you by so I am lapping this time up as much as I can.

Jai is off back to work next week so Jack is getting as much daddy time as he can muster.

Enjoy the photos I have posted hopefully this blog keeps everyone updated as I have had so many questions about the labour etc so figured this was the easiest way to get it out there rather than tell my story again and again.

Well I had better get off this computer and delve back into Mummy Land. Washing to do, clothes to fold, baby to spoil. You know how it goes....

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Fridays the Day !!
Current mood: anxious

Just 2 days to go and I am due for our baby. June the 20th never felt like it would come around. I am absolutely convinced we are going to go overdue and I just know I will be an emotional wreck if we do. Just trying my best to be patient and relax and enjoy 'Me' time while I can get it. Everyone says to get as much sleep as you can at this stage because you know you wont get it later, but thats easier said than done with a bulging belly, aching body, and what seems like a constantly full bladder. I get up at night thinking hours have passed by only to check the clock and maybe 45 mintues or an hour have passed. Very frustrating and definately makes the night long.

Needless to say Jai and I are sitting on the edge of our seats waiting and waiting and waiting. He is a very anxious expentant daddy and cannot wait to be dad. I think this baby has already changed him allot and I have to say I like what I see.

So now we just endure the waiting game, the hospital bag is in the hall way ready to go and all the paperwork and phone numbers filled out and jotted down, baby sitters for the animals organised, and car seat in the car.

Better go now and keep watching that clock...its getting lonely without me...

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