The day before today i......
Current mood: excited

put down my guard and let myself experience some new shit, one of which ive always wanted to attempt but was always too afraid ,that being.... DANCE CLASS!!!!!! Thats rite folks i took a dance class ,and not just any dance class a hip hop dance class, and i did it all by myself! mommy wow im a big kid now!!! Can i just add to that how fucking sore i am in the oddest places today, and noooooooooooooooo not my butthole . so now that you know a little of the facts im gunna let you know more of my story. for those of you who know me well know that lately, as in the past few years, ive developed a slight to moderate case of anxiety/social anxiety. that being shared ,going to this class was something that i wanted to do but knew i would freak out and have a fuckin panic attack as soon as i got there. i wanted to at least show myself that i could do something i had wanted to do even though i was scared and embarrassed and nervous to do it. i dont know if any of you have heard of ativan (just say no to pills..ativan wont kill..) but its an anti anxiety/anti nausea pill they give people for a range of things , i had to take it when i had cancer but i never used it so i had a huge bottle still. even though it has said it was expired (big mistake) i took the bottle with me so i could take one before the class just so i could enjoy my time there instead of being a fucking weirdo the whole time. im in my car pulling up to the place and i think well.... last time i took one of these i didnt work so im just gunna take 2 fuck it to make sure..... first half of the class was great i was alert doing all the stuff i was shown still a little tense but making it work low and behold halfway though the class BOOM they hit me like a ton of fuckin bricks im was pretty much fuckin useless cause i was so fucked up on these stupid anxiety pills i still did my best to attempt the moves and try my hardest to remember the steps even though my brain was floating away in the clouds it was hilarious and super fucking irritating at the same time. by the end of class i was stull woo fuckity woo woo on these shits but had to boogy woogie to ali beezies birthday bash. THOSE GOD DAMN PILLS DIDNT WARE OFF UNTIL 2 THAT MORNING! that was a long drawn out story of my dance class experience but i felt like writing so if you didnt enjoy reading it GO FUCK YOURSELF no one said you had to read the whole thing! On a side note ali's b day dinner was at famous daves bbq, i dont eat meat other then some fish so i had a hell of a time finding something on the menu to eat. being that i was having such a out of the normal go all out and try somethign new day im like hummm catfish sounds fucking disgusting and i swore i would never eat that shit but why the fuck not . BIG FUCKING MISTAKE catfish tastes like DIRT so basically i ordered breadcrumb covered dirt clots yummy yummy for my tummy hahahahahaha as gross as it was im glad i tried it and overall yesterday was such an awesome day for me. i was so proud of myself for experiencing new things! it makes me want to do soooo so so much mre now! next stop on crystals adventure train is florida , never been, but im going in 2 days more to come on the shit i get into there!!!!!!!!!!

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Hip Mother Fuckin Hop
Current mood: amused

Dont laugh at me but this saturday im going to take a hip hop dance class!!!! One of my friends boyfriend teaches dance classes at some ballroom and this week is hip hop. he teaches salsa too which i would love to learn so i might do that too whenever that is. but its a 2 hour class this saterday and its only like 25 bucks im excited and im sure im going to make a total ass out of myself but fuck it rite! 

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Crashed my car...
Current mood: bummed

I can officially say this month has SUCKED! I feel like the world is testing me or trying to tell me that what im doing isnt what i should be or something. i made some really big decisions reguarding my life this month, that i dont feel like discussing to the entire world wide web but lets just say it has been really tuff. if you are close enough friend of mine you already know so posting it over the internet isnt necessary. work has been sooooo slow since they opened the new salon the entire staff is starting to consider looking for second jobs just to pay the bills rite now. i was planning on buying a house but now i completely cant afford it and it sucks, also a couple days ago i spent the day in the drs office when i should have been at work cause my glands were all fuckin swollen and my throat hurt and then today i crashed my fuckin car. i hit a 15 passenger van full of asians that didnt speak english so hard my glasses flew off my face.. i drive a scion xb that sits super low to the ground and the van sat super high up so i crushed the entire front end of my car to the point where i couldnt open either of my front doors and couldnt drive it and it did almost nothing to the van. after sitting for 45 min having a bunch of asians yell at me in who the fuck knows what language my mom came and saved the day called a tow truck and there we sat for another hour till it got there, now im at home and i feel like shit.  im trying to keep an optimistic outlook on everything rite now but its fuckin hard when shit keeps hitting the fan. 

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Doing the unstuck!
Current mood: sick

it's a perfect day for letting go
for setting fire to bridges
boats
and other dreary worlds you know
let's get happy!
it's a perfect day for making out
to wake up with a smile without a doubt
to burst grin giggle bliss skip jump and sing and shout
let's get happy!

but it's much to late you say
for doing this now
we should have done it then
well it just goes to show
how wrong you can be
and how you really should know
that it's never too late
to get up and go

it's a perfect day for kiss and swell
for rip-zipping button-popping kiss and well...
there's loads of other stuff can make you yell
let's get happy!
it's a perfect day for doing the unstuck
for dancing like you can't hear the beat
and you don't give a further thought
to things like feet
let's get happy!

but it's much too late you say
for doing this now
we should have done it then
well it just goes to show
how wrong you can be
and how you really should know
that it's never to late
to get up and go

kick out the gloom
kick out the blues
tear out the pages with all the bad news
pull down the mirrors and pull down the walls
tear up the stairs and tear up the floors
oh just burn down the house!
burn down the street!
turn everything red and the beat is complete
with the sound of your world
going up in fire
it's a perfect day to throw back your head
and kiss it all goodbye

it's a perfect day for getting old
forgetting all your worries
life
and everything that makes you cry
let's get happy!
it's a perfect day for dreams come true
for thinking big
and doing anything you want to do
let's get happy!

but it's much to late you say
for doing this now
we should have done it then
well it just goes to show
how wrong you can be
and how you really should know
that it's never too late
to get up and go

kick out the gloom
kick out the blues
tear out the pages with all the bad news
pull down the mirrors and pull down the walls
tear up the stairs and tear up the floors
oh just burn down the house!
burn down the street!
turn everything red and the dream is complete
with the sound of your world
going up in fire
it's a perfect day to throw back your head
and kiss it all goodbye
"the cure"

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I’ve reached that point
Current mood: restless

where giving up and going on
are both the same dead end to me!

Currently listening : The Cure

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Make you melt like a popsicle on the 4th of July
Current mood: indifferent
Category: Friends

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More from the chop shop
Current mood: accomplished

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Sometimes
Current mood: drained

All you can do is go to sleep forget about the day and hope tomorrow is better

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rain rain dont go away
Current mood: mellow

Its late, way too late for me to be up! If you werent aware one of  my favorite things is rain ,especially the sound of it hitting my window, rite now thats all i can hear and i will go to bed happy!

goodnight everyone

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