just writing
Category: Writing and Poetry

Backspace

I lose the words 
I thought I wanted to save
for you
for someone
backspace 
I think, I thought,  I said,  I say 
Shit! I forgot
Backspace.  the words never were
never been
never again.   The same
things that never where
never will be 
Backspace
Damn! forgot the lies ,truths,
reality.  closeing in on me
shame on me for falling so far so fast
No one will ever know!  Backspace!
The future, the past lost till the last
Backspace
 

   The Blue
The first waters of the world
frozen in your eyes 
water that has never before
been lifted by the sun
so much bueaty in the little things
I almost feel the freezing 
in the thaw of your smile
your sun
when all desire turns to ash in ones mouth
you are crystal
blue water 

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I pray
Current mood: I am thinking ,of a smile

what is it to be in love

with a dream

not some mere peice of fantacy

but some bitter piece of reality

just beyond the scope of possibility

Are you a roaring lion,

or the mouse

perhaps you are a ray of sun

nurtureing thoughts

and possiblities ,and dreams

the soul made Rumi

Love more

Dream more

Drink

like your cup was never ment to be filled !

Some say hide your wine

in a dark place

build walls around it

I say drink !

Drink it in parks and palaces

from the lips of the one you love

if only for a fleeting moment

love like tomorrow was never ment to be

and today is closeing fast

Drink like the well is going dry

and you the last to fill your cup . love

Love always .

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somebody
Current mood: crushed
Category: Life

Somebody lie to me

tell me everythings OK

somebody lie to me

Tell me life's just that way

somebody lie to me

Tell me im not wasting my time

tell me im not losing my mind

tell me ill be just fine

Somebody lie to me

The days

there just rolling by

The nights !

not even dreams fill my sky

i try to smile but just sigh

won't somebody lie to me

Lie to me

tell me its ok

lie to me

tell me lifes just that way

lie to me

Tell me im not wasting my time

tell me i aint losing my mind

tell me ill be just fine 

somebody lie to me !

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Blink

Sometimes you  blink

and the world changes

around you

The things you thought

You thought you knew

,you never knew at all

Sometimes ; you blink

and everything

you thought was importent

Isn't importent anymore

Sometimes 

 You blink

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writing a lil
Current mood: grateful
Category: Writing and Poetry

HEy Im back twice in a month lol  dont fall out ..  its just a nice day and i thought i would write a little  .

   (somewhere my dreams)

Its in my notebook

Somewhere

Somewhere between the first

Time I said I love you

And the last

Somewhere between . Rambles,

about summer Sun, winter rains

A Desert; mountains, and memories

All in my notebook, Somewhere

Somewhere within the pages

Lie Okalahoma ;Alabama,

Texas, New Orleans

Somewhere between

lines, and margins.

Amongst the unnumbered pages

of my mind

Where symbols

sound like cymbals

where doodles lie

and colors fly

Somewhere

I can always find my dreams.

There in my notebook

Somewhere

Currently listening : Jimmy Buffet: Changes in Latitudes Changes in Attitudes By Jimmy Buffet

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Writing it out
Category: Writing and Poetry

I've been feeling a little melancholy so I thought I would write a little and get it out of my system . so here goes nothing

Eleven hours

I got two dogs on the front porch

that think that I am king

I've got a nephew rocking in my lap.

who says I can do anything!

I've got friends of mine that love me here

Lord I know that's true.

I still drove eleven straight hours to get here

I drove eleven straight hours to get here!

Eleven straight hours to get here .

For one more day with you

We sit and talked

took the dog for a walk

and I helped you pack your bags

there was so much I wanted to say to you

but it was way too late for that

there will be a thousand miles between us

before this day is threw

I guess I drove eleven straight hours to get here.

Eleven straight hours to get here

I drove eleven hours to get here

what does that say to you ?

Maybe I don't understand myself

it  

,was just something I had to do

I drove eleven straight hours to get here

just to say goodbye to you .

I pray everyone is well .Later Toomey

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just checking in
Current mood: creative
Category: Writing and Poetry

Hey everyone sorry to be gone so much but that is life .here is something ive been working on .I hope everyone is well .Chris

HEre are a couple I am working on I dont think they are finished but i feel like posting something .

         INTO

I go down into the city

disappear into the night

like shadow into shadow

I pass you by

tomorrow becomes,

an eternity away

in this endless, sleepless night

this sadness has become

madness in my eyes

   I walk down backwards alleys

and burnt out streets

past broke down people

with their dying dreams

so hollow now I see their emptiness

inside

  As the choir sings

I surrender all

one last turn

before darkness falls

The streetlights

have burnt out

my sky

   I hold close my faith

though it's shaking still

like an empty void

that this world cant fill

This city's dreamers

lie fast asleep

while those within

can only weep




    Without you.



Without you

there is no blue sky

nor daylight

all is grey

Without you

there isn't anything

a soul gone to the grave

without you there is nothing

and nothing i want to do

Lord , the better part of me

gets lost

without you.

Everything means nothing

Without you.

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IM not dead
Category: Writing and Poetry

Hey everyone contrary to popular belief Im breathing . (In case you missed me )

Im not wirteing much I dont know if its block or enviorment or what but hey thats the way it goes . I do have something  I wanted to share .Its kind of different .I hope you like it .   As always just Toomey

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  Sunflower

When I was a kid sometime about 1980 .

when the world was still new

My mother give me  two rows of her Garden

Plant as you will

Plant what you like

Staring at  the rows upon rows

Of seeds in the supermarket

I chose sunflowers

Not because I particularly liked sunflowers

Or even

knew what they were

But because they made me,  feel

Alive .they looked alive

I hoed and planted and in the late summer heat

I was rewarded .

With ten foot tall    sunshine

Miracles of the earth

I had made something from nothing  a few seeds

And some faith and work

Had made beauty

Its funny what faith and work can accomplish

I started with two rows of broken earth

And ended with sunshine

 Oh how I wish hard work and faith

always ended with

Sunshine

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Hi
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Writing and Poetry

Hey everyone I hope all is well with you and yours .I kinda been out of the loop lately.Its been a rough start to summer .But im here and still kicking !! Just not as high as before lol!!I'll leave you a couple  .chris

Dissapearing Ink

My words don't always come

The Ink seems to dissapear

leaving a chalky ,dry hollow spot

inside my pen

a place where the bueaty

the infinate blackness of Ink

once lived , breathed , and died

Maybe ill wait for my soul to refill

staring at my pen

Hollow still

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WHo am I

How did I escape my detection

How did I lose my direction

for so long

How can I ?

Heal these wounds within me

The memories cleave completely

threw my soul

How can I ?

carry on

Who Am I !

while further down this road I travel

my life seems to unravel

on its own

and even though I falter

I move on !

Currently listening : Ultimate Collection By Jerry Jeff Walker Release date: 28 August, 2001

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I was Tagged For MR PEABODYS Ten things I love about writeing and literature
Category: Writing and Poetry

MR PEAYBODY'S TEN REASONS I LOVE WRITING AND LITERATURE

        Because ,Because

Its  because I need to say things you will not want to hear

Its because I want to feel good ,bad ,Indifferent ,without

Its because socially I'm and island unto myself

Its because some days I am quiet in a loud sort of way

Its because  you asked

Its because I did when she did not

Its because I have pain ,

Its because I was healed

Its because I have and you have not

Its Because ,Because was just not enough

To say

 A friend Tagged me  with this  challenge to write Ten things I love about writing and literature . Simple right .  not so easy when you get down to brass tacks . You see I never really thought about why . I mean I had reason from time to time but why spend  collectively hours pouring over books and pages . writing words with just the right count

Just the right beat the sin is in the syllables why ? Well here is the best I can do for you Jen I hope it is somewhat insightful .

 It has to start when your young at least mine did. I Am not much on grammar So along about eleventh grade I had a teacher named Miss Lovel Who had an apparent dislike for my standard substandard  education .Basically it goes like this Your Grammar sucks Your spelling is atrocious You previous teachers should be fired …That's the short version A whole lot was left understood and unsaid  . So having no hope of passing on good looks and  Long lengthy papers .I wrote poems . I drew what I could from where  could.Miss Lovel was right ,but I'm a mechanic not Magellan .

1        Writing allows me to convey my feelings to others without worrying what they will say, or feel complete anonymity ,In what I write I can say anything it is the only thing beautiful and graceful I have ever had. It can be about me or you or anyone .

2         .Writing has given me an outlet when I desperately needed one .If you talk to yourself  as much as I have written  you ended up in one of those custom tailored Jackets that button up the back . And I really don't look good in white not to mention I bruise to easy for the whole bondage trip lol!!

3        Writing has given me a whole world unto myself .I can withdraw from reality into my own little world where everyone and everything makes sense .

4         Sometime you are the only friend you have  .A crowd is not company and soliitude  is not alone . Just without extra heartbeats .

5        Love Hate ,Sadness ,Fear , Aggression Aggravation ,Aspiration's,  brotherhood , Dreams , all of theses and many more things That I can share with Anyone who cares to read .I can fill a void in me and maybe someone else will read something I have written and feel a connection a bond not just with me but with the rest of the world .WE are not alone .

6        I listened to  "Down bound train" in the eighties and figured Bruce Springsteen was working his way out .And I wanted to be beside him on the train coming home .

7        Nice dreams are Hard to come by . Sometimes you haft to write them ,And  read them .

8        I write because Sometimes I feel like a lost  boy without my marbles and happy thought's  

9        I write for the people I love . for every truly special person I meet I have a poem .From my first love in high school to My family . And as I recall those words I remember them and they are close to me again .

10    I write for God  because it is a gift and I will not forsake it. I Believe I have helped some in my life with words alone .  and while I know, I am not Holy.  I know I am good and that is worthwhile in this day and time .

I can never be perfect ,but I can be  perfectly me .This is not much of a list but its reason's ,My reasons maybe your reasons fall along the same line I think in the end we all just want to be understood .We all want one person to say " I get you " " I Understand "

Im not a great poet Im just a guy at his  desk thinking on paper .If it sounds like poetry to you, maybe we think alike  ..

         TRUTH   , Chris Toomey

Sorry it took so long  " Not just another JEN"

Currently listening : Bruce Springsteen - Greatest Hits By Bruce Springsteen Release date: 28 February, 1995

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