So I finally emailed Nick's fiancee about that post she wrote about me... and Nick sent me this email in return....
"Are you stupid or just off your meds again?
Your bullshit blog can come down, and never contact me or my fianceé again. "
Whatever. I'm not even going to say anything about it because I'm not in the mood. I'm already pissed off at other people, and if I rant, I'll just get even more angry.
But for what it's worth. I can post whatever I want. Freedom of speech ass. Nothing is coming down.
1.) When you walk in your front door, which room do you enter? A Urn with my dads ashes in them. =/
2.)Do you have a dishwasher? Yes but it's used as counter top and storage space.
3.) Is your living room carpeted or does it have hardwood floors? Carpet.
4.) Do you keep your kitchen knives on the counter or in a drawer? Butter Knives in the drawer with the forks and the spoons and all the other knives (Steak knives, Uber sharp knives, I dunno what all kinds they are. We've got über knives galore in there. I'm also 99.87654321% sure we have atleast one Meat Cleaver in that drawer too. OH & I almost forgot to mention we have those meat tong things. Atleast 2 pair... and Lobster tongs, but the tongs I'm talking about are like a fork with just two prongs......
5.) House, apartment, duplex or trailer? House with my mom and my sister.
6.) How many bedrooms is it? Originally 2 but now 3
7.) Gas stove or electric? Gas
8.) Do you have a yard? Yes! We own apprx. One Acre.! Which is half the block we live on!!
9.) What size TV is in the living room? Hell if I know
10.) Are your plates in the same cupboard as your cups? No.
11.) Is there a coffee maker sitting on your kitchen counter? Nope.
13.) What room is your computer in? Where ever it so chooses to be.
14.) Are there pictures hanging in your living room? Yes
15.) Are there any themes found in your home? My dad collected alot of indian things... and alot of guns, and alot of swords and daggers and knives... and wolf stuff. Does that count?
16.) What kind of laundry detergent do you use?? I don't pay attention.
17.) Do you use dryer sheets?? Yes,.
18.) Do you have any curtains in your home?? Yes.
19.) What color is your fridge?? white
20.) Is your house clean?? Not really.
21.) What room is the most neglected?? The inside of the front porch.
22.) Are the dishes in your sink/dishwasher clean or dirty? They haven't been done yet today.
23.) How long have you lived in your home? Well we lived here for a year while dad was in SKorea, then we moved to MD for 3 years and came back so I guess about 6 at the lowest.
24.) Where did you live before? FT. Meade, Maryland.
25.) Do you have one of those fluffy toilet lid covers on your toilet? No
26.) Do you have a scale anywhere in your house? A crappy one in the bathroom.
27.) How many mirrors are in your house? Hell if I know. Why would I even care?
28.) Look up. What do you see? Cracks in the ceiling.
29.) Do you have a garage? Yes, but my dad was in the process of turning it into a mini apartment for me when he died.
30.) Are you planning on moving anytime soon? Out of this house, yes. Far away? Maybe not anymore.
Don’t say what you don’t know
Current mood: bitchy
Rissa. I'm not even gonnna waste my time on you or on responding to this:
You are so fucking pathetic Current mood: amused
OK, so I posted a little while back that Nick's ex-girlwhore's were stalking me right, well now some of them have subscribed to my blog.....craazzzyyyy...
OKOK
Lil background, Nick met this chick at a bar a few years ago right, so they are myspace buds, whatev, no big whoop. Well, he stopped talking to her, along with a lot of the other trash in his life, shortly after he met me. I'll be damned if this girl isnt still emailing and IMing him "why dont you talk to me anymore, what did I do?" I dont know about you ladies, but if a guy (friend or otherwise) blew me off and didnt talk to me for 8 months, I sure as shit would not be emailing him to find out why, I'd be writing that shit off! Then she subscribes to MY blog...who else thinks thats weird as shit!?
I dont know who I have to pay to get you guys to believe I know who visits my page. If your coming to my page over 10 times a day...I know about it and I consider that stalking, whether you are writing incoherent blogs about me or not. Would you please find something else to do with your time, like fix your teeth, pathetic.
These girls are supposed to be in long term relationships, engaged even. Why are they coming to my page 10-20 times a day? Go stalk Nick, here is his website! 22STL
(Since it didn't work).... Nick's Page All I have to say to you is either you're a liar or Nick is a liar, or maybe both of you are.
But half of the stuff you wrote about me isn't true, and if you wanted to trash talk me you should have done it "to my face" (email, IM or even comment) Instead of just leaving it there for all your stupid worshipers to see and think "Oh! She's such a psycho stalker! Poor Marissa!!!!" Well let me just ask you one question... When exactly was it that you and Nick got together... because we had something going until right before christmas. HE DIDN'T EVEN TELL ME ABOUT YOU! I FOUND OUT FROM HIS MYSPACE. And you wanna know the last thing he said to me???? Well... No. I'll take the high road here. But the point is. He is the one who instigated the whole thing from DAY ONE. And for what it's worth Robert, my fiancee, knew what was going on. We were having a rough spot, and he knew Nick helped keep me happy. But even Robert got involved in this whole mess on day one. If you know what I mean. I have 2 witnesses who live in this state! They were there that night with us! Nita saw what happened in the back of the van! And a couple of my closest friends saw some of the texts Nick sent me saying he loved me.Before you he was supposed to come up here last christmas, and after I found out about you, I asked if he'd still be coming, and he said most likely. So whether you think I'm a crazy bitch or not, maybe you should open your damn ears and give the other person a chance to tell their story.
Because all you two twisted jackoffs had to do to get me to leave you alone is to have Nick give me some kind of closure. I mean I UNDERSTAND THAT HE IS WITH YOU! But why does that mean we can't still talk? or atleast be civil?
That's it for now. But please watch your mouth. I don't like being slandered.
You are a strong friend that will fight for whatever it is that will protect you friends and family. You will doubt your very existence sometimes but will always prevail though hard times.
My mom might have cancer. We're not sure what it is. She has a lump on her cervical spine. And I'm scared as hell. After losing my dad and my uncle, if I lost her, I would die.
You know how we were suing the doctor who treated my dad the day he died? Well our lawyer dropped the ball. And the case was dropped because he didn't do his job. I did have the paper that there was an article about it in, and was gonna type it here, but I can't find it atm. But we got a letter from another lawyer today saying he would sue our prev. lawyer for us if we wanted.
And last but not least, Nick's fiance wrote a nice little blog about me, and how "trashy" I am. But I'm not going to stoop to her level, because I'm not like her.
Men are ASSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Current mood: pissed off
So guess who just decided to show up on AIM for the first time in over 8 months and ruin my day! That's right. NICK.
I know I shouldn't have said anything to him but I did anyway, and he actually replied. And we talked for like two seconds. I asked him why he stopped talking to me and he said "Because I don't like you". And then I asked "What the hell did I do to make you hate me all of a sudden?" and he said "I didn't say that", And I said "Make you not like me, then. Whatever." and then he said "Gtg ttyl". So I'm guessing I'll never here from him again x2.
Why did this have to happen. I was pretty much over him. And now I'm just pissed and angry and hurt. And I want to fly down to CA and kick his ass. Or something. I dunno. But YOU ARE AN ASS NICK! FUCK YOU JACKASS!
I finally got on disability. I make $1,308 a month.... $16,416 a year. HAH.
Oh and you HAVE to go watch this video. It's fucking amazing. http://youtube.com/watch?v=K2cYWfq--Nw
It's called Daft Hands. It's hard to explain but it's like his hands are dancing coreographed to Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger by Daft Punk, Thats all for now.
Later/
Currently
listening
:
Discovery
By
Daft Punk
Release date: 13 March, 2001
Not much to say except that I'm taking a break from german music :)
I'm quite obsessed with Our Lady Peace atm., LYRICS!!!
Clumsy by OUR LADY PEACE
Throw away the radio suitcase That keeps you awake Hide the telephone, the telephone, telephone, in case,
You realize that sometimes you're not okay You level off, you level off, you level off,
And its not all right now
You need to understand There's nothing strange about this You need to know your friends
You need to know that
I'll be waving my hand watching you drown Watching you scream Quiet or loud
And maybe you should sleep And maybe you just need, a friend As clumsy as you've been There's no one laughing You will be safe in here You will be safe in here
Throw away this very old shoelace That tripped you again Try to shrug it off, shrug it off, shrug it off It's only skin now You need to understand There's nothing fake about this You need to let me in I'm watching you
And I'll be waving my hand watching you drown Watching you scream No ones around
And maybe you should sleep And maybe you just need, a friend As clumsy as you've been There's no one laughing You will be safe in here ow You will be safe in
I'll be waving my hand watching you drown Watching you scream Quiet or loud
And maybe you should sleep And maybe you just need, a friend As clumsy as you've been There's no one laughing You will be safe in here ow ow You will be safe in ow ow
You will be safe in here, in here, ow ow ow ow , in here, ow ow , in here, ow ow ow ow ow, in here, ow ow ow, in here, ow ow ow ow, in here, ow ow
Currently
listening
:
Clumsy
By
Our Lady Peace
Release date: 15 April, 1997
First off thank you Evilyn and Shane for the comments.
Evilyn, mine turned out fine... I hope yours did too.
Shane: I know that song is awsome. It's by EISBRECHER. They have alot of good songs. You should listen to them. They have a myspace... and I'm pretty sure they're on my top 24. AND if you ever need to talk, call me. If you want my number just messaage me. <3
Valentines day turned out pretty good. I got flowers and a card from Robert which was very sweet. I almost cried.
AND ALL OF HIS CHARGES WERE DROPPED!!! One was added, but it was like reckless conduct outside a vehicle or something gay like that. AND HE GETS HIS LICENSE BACK IN 2 WEEKS!!!
But yes I'm still in a depression rut... but it's not as bad. I think it might be the vitamins I'm taking. Cause it seems like I'm fine until I take them and then like an hour later I'm depressed. So I'm gonna try not taking them and see what happens.
That's it for now.... But hell I'll post lyrics...
Antikörper (Antibody) by EISBRECHER
Kannst du mich riechen Kannst du mich spürn Ich bin gekommen um dich zu verführn Ich schleich mich langsam von hinten an damit ich dich mit Haut und Haaren fressen kann
Jeder teil von dir ist mir vertraut Ich fühl mich wohl so wohl in deiner Haut
Ich bin dein Antikörper Ich bin der Parasit Antikörper der deinen Körper liebt Ich bin dein Antikörper Ich bin dein Legionär Antikörper Setz mich für dich zur Wehr Ich bin dein Antikörper Ich bin der Parasit Antikörper der deinen Körper liebt Ich bin dein Antikörper der jeden Feind bezwingt Antikörper in deinem Blut ertrinkt
Kannst du mich riechen Kannst du mich hörn Ich bin geschaffen um dich zu betörn Es ist so schön mit dir so ganz allein und ich dring tiefer immer tiefer in dich ein
Jeder teil von dir ist mein zu Haus Ich bleib dir treu und zieh nie wieder aus
Ich bin dein Antikörper Ich bin der Parasit Antikörper der deinen Körper liebt Ich bin dein Antikörper Ich bin dein Legionär Antikörper Kein feiger Deserteur nein _____________________
Can you smell me Can you feel me I have come to seduce you I creep up slowly from behind so I can devour you completely
Every part of you is familiar to me I feel good so good in your skin
I am your antibody I am the parasite Antibody that loves your body I am your antibody I am your legionnaire Antibody Let me defend you I am your antibody I am the parasite Antibody that loves your body I am your antibody that conquers all enemies Antibody that drowns in your blood
Can you smell me Can you hear me I was made to captivate you It is so nice with you so totally alone and I penetrate deeper ever deeper into you
Every part of you is my home I will stay true to you and never move back out
I am your antibody I am the parasite Antibody that loves your body I am your antibody I am your legionnaire Antibody Not a cowardly deserter no
I'm depressed today. But I'm just "crashing" from the manic episode I had monday.
Today is gonna suck.
And this song makes me almost cry when I'm depressed.
Entlassen (Released) by EISBRECHER
Alles ist irgendwie anders Wir haben es schon immer geahnt Wir blickten in die Augen des Abgrunds Wie oft hat uns das Leben gewarnt
Eine lange Nacht beginnt Unsere letzte Nacht mein Kind
Gib mich auf Wie lang muss ich noch flehn Herz entzwei Es muss zu Ende gehen Gib mich frei Wir kämpfen hoffnungslos Lass mich gehen Gib mir den Gnadenstoss Entlass mich
Alles ist plötzlich so finster Wir haben es schon immer gewusst Wir irren durch die Zeit wie Dämonen Am Ende bleibt doch nur der Verlust _________________________________
Everything is somehow different We always suspected it We looked into the eyes of the abyss How often has life warned us
A long night begins Our last night my child
Give up on me How much longer do I have to beg Heart in pieces It has to end Free me We're fighting hopelessly Let me go Give me the coup de grâce Release me
Everything is suddenly so dark We always knew it We wander through time like demons In the end all that remains is loss
Currently
listening
:
Antikorper
By
Eisbrecher
Release date: 14 December, 2006
pissed off
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bitchy
amused 
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