Walls I Create

Been hurt, been loved
Given in, given up
Waited in vain, been pushed been shoved

Bending and holding
Breaking and folding
Created these walls that I've been molding

Block by block stack them high
Never let them see me cry
Faces for every changing emotion
Build them wider than any ocean

Dark and cold hearts grow old
Black and gray shades I've sold
Keep me building all these walls
Hurt and pain is all I saw

Left it behind, to make a new start
Covered up love, lies in my heart
Show a change to stop this building
All these walls I keep....
Keep....
Creating!

By: J. Sparks

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This is my way...the only way
Current mood: aggravated

Needing some change I fell again... stupid girl I hear in the form of a song! I deserve what I want and Im not settling anymore. I find myself jumping towards what ever is there as if its what I want only to realize its another issue in the same with different clothing. Is there any freedom for my headahce heartache pressure on my mind? Stop it before I let it get to heavy close this book and rewind, get it off my chest and set this heaviness free.... I just want to be happy and ,most of all ME!

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Tied .....By; J. Sparks

(Standing there above them all... wanting to jump into the pool of the sweat infested crowd, you scream with passion and words that pierce, you make them want to be you...near you, like you! And as you swallow the microphone with loudness ooozing out, some can feel the saliva as it jumps from your mouth! And as you scream there stand there fuckin thrash there on that stage, look out in the sweat infested crowd......look at all those eyes that dream to be you ...near you.....like you...love you, and watch as they do what you want and when you want......like puppets on a string! Ants that march in madness looking for the next meal....never give in to anyone for you will do as you will. Now Mr. Puppet Master untangle your strings! Let loose of all the antics that surround and bring you down...... tie up your next victim and play those puppets LOUD)!!!!!!



Jenni
Wrote for a friend......

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Angel on My Windowsill by; J. Sparks
Current mood: curious
Category: Life

Angel on my windowsill, thinking about time to kill
What do you see, waiting for all the blood to spill
Wanting a release from darkened hurt
Scared of evil minds that lurk
Watching, waiting, anticipation of the next thrill
Getting amused from twisted fate, have you had your fill?
Show your true self not lies...
Hiding behind pictures full of disguise
Needing more to satisfy, kinky mischeif activity
Sharing myself in this guilty pleasure selfishly
Now as I sit on this windowsill
Im definetly not thinking, but time is what I kill
I shall and will always get my much needed fill!


Jenni

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Lady Ink......by; J. Sparks
Current mood: blah
Category: Art and Photography

Sexy lady friend...tattoos to no end
Walking keepsake they're all she needs
Giving color to the skin that bleeds
Do you know her ... have you lusted for her touch?
Giving off confident vibes
Having impure thoughts seen inside her eyes
I know its something others long for....
Scared of how people will rate and score
Impulsiveness is a gift she achieves
Do you share my likings? The buzzing sound is MY release--------- sweet lady friend do you miss me?

Jenni

Currently listening : Take Warning: Songs of Operation Ivy By Various Artists Release date: 26 August, 1997

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The Gray by; J. Sparks
Category: Romance and Relationships

Keep me in the light and I will wait here paitently-stupidly
without giving you knowledge of my truest thoughts.

Push me out into the darkness and I might enjoy this cold
Give me reasons to forget the touch I think I need ~
stupidly, patiently heeding this pain.

Knowing the sun hurts my eyes
I stare right into it
Giving up the darkness I also enjoy just as much

Show me my way as I step in between where I am comfortable

~ THE GRAY ~



Jenni

Currently listening : The Recluse By Cursive Release date: 04 May, 2004

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TOUCHLESS EMBRACE by: J. Sparks
Current mood: creative
Category: Web, HTML, Tech

The words are spoken many thoughts invovled
Create the puzzles to make them harder to solve
Is this all that we have?
Give me something to work with today
Share with me your dreams, hoping they never go away

Friendship starts out this bond we share
Evolving into a sexual hypnotic glare
Movements are what we will never become
The miles between us keep this undone

You with your words of temptuous desire
Start a heating uncontrolable but pleasant fire
Deep inside is where it grows
Keep my attention, its called fate and who knows

One day we may get to break the barriers of this Touchless Embrace
To feel your warmth and kiss your sweet face



Jenni

Currently listening : Colour the Small One By Sia Release date: 10 January, 2006

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10 things...hmmmm
Current mood: dorky
Category: Life

SO....here's the deal, you have to post a blog stating 10, yes 10, weird and/or interesting facts about yourself. When you are done pick 10 people that you want to tag. At the end of the blog state why you have chosen those 10 people. After you have done so, you have to tag those 10 in a comment on their page for them to do the same.


1. I was a tomboy as a child, purtied up a little since.

2. I had a pet rabbit I use to ride around on my bike with it in my Michael Jackson purse LOL. IT LOVED IT!

3. I was the only girl with a boys BMX.

4. I too can dance on a table or bar after too much rum...clothing eh there's an interesting story there... maybe I'll share later

5. I am a germaphobe ( only about my own strange things ) but I hate to clean~ go figure

6. I am attracted to funny people..... it gives me super human strength

7. I have created a sandwhich no one likes but me... peanut butter and grape jelly on toasted bread, and a mixture of mayonaise and tuna fish..light layers of all~ Hence Jenni's Peanut Butter and Jellyfish Sandwhich, YUM

8. Vampires are my weak spot!

9. I too hold a special place in my heart for Science Fiction movies... Star Wars being the best!

10. I hate my boobs and am taking donations for the surgery that will probably never happen since I cant even stand the sight of a needle so SEND MONEY to me in a self addressed stamped envelope with correspondence so I can never write you since I barely get a chance to comment back lately with my 3 jobs that I am trying to kill myself with!!!


Ten people that I think will do this ...uh do I even have 10 friends LOL

ok
1. Kelly cause she is crazy like that

2. Tracy cause she is a myspace junkie now thanks to me. And we had some fun times....

3. Stacy cause she will hopefully have some old stories about us lol ~ shh not all of our secrets LOL

4. Heather G.....we also had some fun times...oh I remember The time we went out and I was introduced to Tony V. for the first time (when he was thin and yummy and a gentleman sorta ) THANKS FOR THAT NIGHT !!!

5. Heather my sissy...we have silly great stories ..we were crazy kids...CRAZY SHIT ALWAYS FOUND US!!

6. Diana...hopefully will since I know shes got some funny ones

7. Rachel, hahaha remember we use to come visit you when you use to babysit in the back of Port?

8. Stacie J. cause I wanna know some more about her my nitanny lion lover ....

9. my other girl Rachael...miss you hope all is well, I havent seen ya in so long so I would like to know what you been up to!!

10. Anji my new friend who's style rocks and I wish I would hang out with more...I wanna know some of your secrets!!!

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Let It Out....By J. Sparks
Current mood: touched
Category: soulfully Music

ALEX HEPBURN
Alex Hepburn is a band of young artists from London and France...
myspace.com/alexhepburn
myspace.com/hepburns

Vocals & Lyrics: Alex 24 from UK(London)
Piano by : David 24, from France
Bass: by: B 24 from France
Guitar by: Liox 27 from France(ITALY)....
Drumms by: Tof 28 from Nice France

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Let it Out

Needing a release closer to inner peace
Spewing the thoughts of how to cut this leash

Never ending dreamy destinations
Ever changing life's complications

In this moment wanting solitude
So this song I push play, sweet touching head food

Beautifully ending today with your voice
Transition takes place, Relaxing wasnt my choice

But thats what happens when you

Let It Out!!!

Jenni 1/29/07 Thanks Alex for the inspiration

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True to Yourself... By; J. Sparks
Current mood: chipper
Category: Art and Photography

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True to Yourself







Clean and safe thats how I feel

Enjoying myself cause I am real

Never giving false vibes or intentions

Be true to yourself is what I mention



Stood up for truest feelings and beliefs

And turning over still without relief

Continuing on, all the way until the end

I will oversee your hopes and dreams my friend...



R.I.P~ <3 Jenni

Currently listening : Uprising By Bob Marley & the Wailers Release date: 31 July, 2001

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