Haven’t had much time
Current mood: blah
Category: Blogging
I haven't had much time for chatting lately. Just a few notes:
1. Mom is back in the hospital, not really sure what is wrong and the doctors aren't helping me to understand where we are or where we go from here. Nursing home isn't an option. I can't just lock her up and forget about her. Millions of dollars worth of equipment and they can't tell me a thing.
2. Started a new job over an hour away; the people are okay with one exception. I made a cheese cake for the crew and didn't even try to poison them.
3. Psycho ex-friend with a drinking problem attempting to get back in my good graces. Lesson one, alcohol isn't the way to prepare for a reunion, she needs therapy and AA. Nut job bitch looking for a smack down from yours truly.
4. Kids sucking my wallet dry and possibly hanging with the wrong crowd. Being a parent isn't all it's cracked up to be.
5. No time to write or take pictures. Leaving the house at 7 AM and not getting home till 6:30PM, cooking dinner and cleaning up takes forever and then I'm too tired to even turn on the computer.
6. Haven't received any vote of confidence from friends or family for that matter. Lost in a lonely world filled with large barrages of bullshit.
7. Doesn't anyone love me anymore? Just wondering.
Ever since I was a child I have always been fascinated with the moon. I'm drawn to it spiritually. It is a part of our world and controls the tides and helps stabilize the oblique tilt of the earth, which helps prevent climatic extremes.
Tonight, February 20, 2008 look in the sky. Starting at 8:43 p.m EST, the moon will pass into the Earth's shadow and seem to darken but not disappear, an eclipse called, "Heart of the Lion" About an hour later, it will turn a coppery red during the darkest phase of the eclipse.
North America will be in the right place to observe this incredible sight.
The moon will enter the Earth's shadow and become totally emmersed by 10:01 p.m. EST, ending at 10:51 p.m. and will be completely free by 12:09 a.m.
During the shadow time the moon will form a striking triangle configuration with the bright star Regulus and the planet Saturn, which is the only one of its kind occurring within the next millennium.
Satrun will be the bright yellowish-white star shining above and to the moon's left and on the upper right side of the moon will appear the bluish Regulus, which is one of the brightest stars in the sky.
So, get out your telescope and your camera, for it will make to be a most beautiful sight to behold.
Along with many people in this world, I suffer from this unexplained illness called restless leg syndrome. Now I thought I was just going crazy when it all began I was not sure what the hell was going on. I would crawl under the covers getting ready for a comfortable night of rest and relaxation but no matter how tired my body was my legs would not cooperate with the rest of me. I had an uncontrollable twitch and couldn't keep still. I tried everything, well almost everything. Showers, pedicures, massage, exercise, you name it I tried it. When all else failed I resorted to taking an over the counter sleep aid, but I never felt right enough in the morning to continue with my daily activities.
I went on line and began to research different sites regarding my condition and believe me there are quite a lot of them. It was quite puzzling, and not all the sights in the world could really explain what was happening to me. They have a medication available for this condition but the side effects are not good at all here are just a few of them nausea, vomiting, dizziness, and drowsiness or sleepiness. Now I don't know about you but if you are having trouble, sleeping this doesn't seem to be a bright idea. That is not all here is my personal favorite hallucinations (unreal sounds, visions, or sensations) just the thing you need when you are trying to go to sleep. It sounds more like a drug one would take at a Grateful Dead concert. I began to ask around if anyone else that I knew suffered from these phenomena but to no avail. I seemed to be alone in this.
Now I'm not a doctor nor do I play one on TV, but I have the solution for all of you who may be suffering from restless leg syndrome. It came to me one evening, I was trying to sleep while my legs were tripping the night fantastic when I left the warmth of my bed and headed for the couch. There was nothing worth watching on the TV so as so many times before I began to let my fingers do the walking if you know what I mean. I pleasured myself and because I did not have the aid of video or magazine, it seemed to take a little longer then usual. Not like that is a bad thing but because it did take a bit longer the muscle in my forearm began to feel the burn so to speak and by the time the task was complete I was to tired from satisfaction I went to bed. Thus the end of my restless leg syndrome forever, never would I be kept awake again because my legs want to party. I take the party to my pants and problem solved.
I tell you all this because I'm trying to prove a point. Just because things happen to us that we cannot explain does not constitute drug companies and vitamin fat cats to keep getting richer because a percentage of the population has the same symptoms. Just remember you are in control of your life just because it is in written word or on TV doesn't make it true. Its what you do with the information that is given to you that is important. Free will is still alive in this century use it wisely it's the only thing we truly have control over in our lives.
If there is anything that I have learned through out the years that I have been driving it's getting out of a DWI when drunk off your ass. More times than I can remember I have been able to talk my way out of a DWI.
There is the creative way, put an old fuzzy bathrobe and big fuzzy slippers in the trunk of your car and when you are ready to drive home drunk, put them on over your clothes maybe even mess your hair. This will give the illusion that you are a kind family member that has been woken up out of a sound sleep to pick up your brother who is drunk and needs a ride home from the bar.
Tell the cop that when you got there to pick him up, he wasn't there, and now he isn't answering his cell phone, so you're on your way to another bar to look for him. Not only does it work, but this particular scam when the car is loaded with drunks works even better for the nights you run out of breath mints.
When the police officer asks you why the car wreaks of alcohol you can just blame the stench on your drunken friends. Be sure to yell at these said friends for being such immature jerks. Cops love to see someone amongst the drunks use authority; it makes them feel like they are somehow responsible. Be sure to laugh your ass off as the same police officer stops traffic to let you make an illegal U-turn in the middle of the street. God, I love a good plan, and this one takes the cake. CAKES RULE.
If there is anything that I have learned through out the years that I have been driving it's getting out of a DWI when drunk off your ass. More times than I can remember I have been able to talk my way out of a DWI.
There is the creative way, put an old fuzzy bathrobe and big fuzzy slippers in the trunk of your car and when you are ready to drive home drunk, put them on over your clothes maybe even mess your hair. This will give the illusion that you are a kind family member that has been woken up out of a sound sleep to pick up your brother who is drunk and needs a ride home from the bar.
Tell the cop that when you got there to pick him up, he wasn't there, and now he isn't answering his cell phone, so you're on your way to another bar to look for him. Not only does it work, but this particular scam when the car is loaded with drunks works even better for the nights you run out of breath mints.
When the police officer asks you why the car wreaks of alcohol you can just blame the stench on your drunken friends. Be sure to yell at these said friends for being such immature jerks. Cops love to see someone amongst the drunks use authority; it makes them feel like they are somehow responsible. Be sure to laugh your ass off as the same police officer stops traffic to let you make an illegal U-turn in the middle of the street. God, I love a good plan, and this one takes the cake. CAKES RULE.
I do not have much of a desire for sexual fantasies. For the most part, I have to say this. Sexual fantasies are for couch potatoes and I do not think much of them.
My only true fantasies are things like beautiful landscaping around my property, a new deck in the back with a sliding glass door to my bedroom. I dream of having a crows nest on the roof big enough for about four people and a telescope. I dream of getting my Mopar restoration completed and the feel of the force of a 383 engine pushing me back in my seat. These are all things worthy of masturbation.
Sick isn't it? I agree, but I only speak the truth. Which for the most part is usually shocking and half the time my words have had the ability to drop a few jaws. Having this quality personality usually gets me into trouble. You see, people usually get the wrong impression of me when they read my articles. I write from my heart, a friend told me that, and it is true, so when you are reading my work try to feel the meaning of the words not judge me the writer. I just tell it like it is.
I love this world and try to make every day special. I wake up with a smile and check out the weather. Rain or shine warm or cool the smile never dies. I fill my day with comfortable conversations and curious actions. Making the best of the worst situations and being helpful until the day is through.
People always ask me, "Are you always this happy, don't you ever frown?" The answer is always the same, "Yes!" You will rarely see me frown. I love life and enjoy observing every action in my environment. I have found that smiling is contagious if you smile at someone you usually receive one in return. Now I ask you, doesn't it make sense?
Currently
listening
:
Killers
By
Iron Maiden
Release date: 26 March, 2002
How To Get Rid Of Your Live In Boyfriend When You Know It Is Pointless To Go On.
Current mood: angsty
How To Get Rid Of Your Live In Boyfriend When You Know It Is Pointless To Go On
When you know there is no point to continue the relationship, It is over.
If you go to sleep at night and the only thing you can think about is how you are getting him out of your house. You just know it is over.
I have the solution for you. Begin throwing his things into the garbage. You know a nail clipper one morning. Some socks on laundry day.
Over or about two months will have passed and almost everything will be gone. Make it appoint to do this around the Football Season.
Then on Sunday just to be different break something he loves while he is watching Football. He will not care at the time. There are over fifteen weekends and Monday Nights of Football. You could break a lot of stuff in fifteen days.
Remember football season ends just after the Holiday Season. You might as well get what you can and return it. Then buy yourself something you actually like. Before you give him the boot.
Then when there is nothing left to toss into the garbage, just open up the door and kick his ass out.
Trust me. This is the way to do it. And I will tell you why.
There will not be anything left in the house to remind you of him. No ghosts from the past haunting you to call him back. He is gone for good. Congratulations.
Currently
listening
:
Diary of a Madman
By
Ozzy Osbourne
Release date: 02 April, 2002
The nature documentaries we watch to pass the time away define prey as an animal seized by another for food. For the average hunter, prey is just about anything that can be shot with a weapon.
Poor little animal, frolicking in the woods, taking in the day, grazing and looking for a mate, then Blam, a shot rings out and our furry friend, who was once minding his own business, is growing hot, soaking in his own blood, trying to figure out just what has happened to him, as he slowly fades out of existence, hoots and hollers can be heard celebrating the kill. Not a pretty sight.
What about the social interactive meaning; "To make someone a victim, as by cheating or to exert a harmful influence." This applies to every day society, people preying on one another as a personality trait.
There is the grocery store bully, pushing and ignoring you all at the same time, the mall security guard bully who wouldn't know how to secure a belt, if it weren't for a little invention called Velcro, and we all know the parking lot bully, usually the woman driving an enormous oil sucking SUV who would plow her own mother over just so she didn't have to walk an extra three feet before reaching the market entrance.
Bullies at school that steal from or embarrass other children for their own personal gain are predators; they prey on the children lost in the crowd. Drug dealers push nasty habits, enabling the unsuspecting science student, a path to destruction with many fatal concurring effects.
The entertainment ticket companies who charge you triple for lousy seats, or the credit card companies fine print, guaranteed to lower your credit rating just to make a buck.
Telemarketers and junk mail marketers, construction professionals, all scamming senior citizens of their life savings, and it don't stop there.
The fast food industries supply the public with second rate just passing standards meals that are cheaper to feed our families than baking at home, and are killing off society through obesity, not only ourselves but our children as well.
Cellular phone companies, sucking us into extended contracts and overages that can add up to hundreds of dollars, all to keep in communication with people, while we gas up our cars and shop for merchandise made in foreign lands.
Sexual predators, murders, and domestic violence, brutalizing innocence into unrecognizable masses of existence, law enforcement, politicians, and social workers pushing the problem through the cracks of the system can never solve the problem.
Where does it all stop, can it stop, these are examples on the lowest of levels. The realization of people hunting people is a more frightening thought than a leisurely stroll in the woods.
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