Trainspotting
Current mood: contemplative

Trainspotting is an incredible movie. To some it may just be a story, but to alot of people, it shows the struggle that addicts deal with. For instance, in the beginning of the movie, the main character Renton has to real motivation except to get another hit of heroine. I've seen alot of people who are just out to get another dose of whatever drug is their DOC. Renton then tries to come off of it but has no real motivation to do so, he tries using suppositories to ease the crash that heroine creates. It doesn't work. This is a perfect example of an addicts struggle against the drug. Later on in the movie Tommy and his girlfriend break up, and he got hooked on heroine, later dying from HIV/AIDS. Renton at this point had started to lead a normal life. His friends however did not change. They did not try to make an honest living, except Spud, but not much is told about what happened to him. In the end of the movie, Renton takes the money from Sickboy and Begbie, and leaves Spud his share, he then leaves. As he was leaving, he started talking about how he felt he needed the money more and was going to start an honest living. At this point, I started thinking that the movie is pointing that it isn't the drug itself that is addictive, its the lifestyle that comes with it that's addicting. I've done my fair share of drugs, but am I addicted to the drugs? No. I love the lifestyle though, it's carefree, but I don't do it much at all anymore since I make an honest living. It was my lifestyle that changed my drug habits. I didn't even try and quit drugs. Main idea: It's the carefree lifestyle that you live that is addicting, not necessarily the drug. 

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The World of Broken Hearts

This is the world full of broken hearts,

Time and time we fall apart,

The world is black, my heart is blue

All because I wanted you.

Life was good, then life was bad,

You were the only thing I ever had.

My whole life was crushed to ash,

I think of you and now I crash.

You turned my heart into dust,

And ripped apart any trust.

Cold, long nights, a drink or two,

And I don't want to think of you.

When I think of that day,

I don't know what to say.

We kissed, we loved, we fell apart,

All because of your pitch black heart.

Love turned to hate, I turned to stone,

You left me here, all alone.

The world is full of broken hearts,

And we are all torn apart.

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Killing Loneliness

I used to love and care for you,
But you never gave a shit it's true.
I hate the way we fell apart,
With burning eyes and bleeding hearts.
In my blood, a note to send,
and blame you for my bitter end.

Killing loneliness is hard,
With bleeding fists and broken hearts.
When I'm gone, you're left to see,
That you're the one who has killed me.
All that I've got left to say,
Is how could you leave me this way?

The end is here and in the dark,
by the benches in the park.
This is fate's one last kiss,
With burning lungs and bleeding wrists.
Killing loneliness was hard,
But easier with my heart so scarred.

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Will you call?

When I leave and go away,
Will you call just to say,
Please come home and please just stay.
If you leave then we both cry,
If you're gone, then so am I.

So hold me close and hold me near,
And be with me whiel you're still here
Don't leave me and go away,
When you come, I need you to stay.

Please love me like I love you,
And let me know this love is true.

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New poem

Who will catch me whenever I fall?

Steal my heart and give it your all.

I walk in the night where romances collide,

Where is the one who will walk by my side?

I reach in the dark and hope for your hand,

And all that I find is your name in the sand.

Hold me close and give me your heart,

Promise me that we never may part.

Let put to shame, all who will stare,

And sway together, as if we're on air.

Come to me, and tell me you care,

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Updates and Black Friday

Wow, early morning. Me and my dad went to Walmart, it was packed. We managed to get out with the stuff. We went to circuit city then, big mistake. There were so many people you couldn't get out. It was so crazy. Also, awhile back i got my wisdom teeth out as you can see in my pic. lol. it sucked so bad.

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Just another poem i wrote, no title

The loving kiss and tender touch,
I never thought I'd miss so much.
It's been three weeks and still I know,
that we have got awhile to go.
Soon I'm gone and here you stay,
I never thought I'd feel this way.

Your love and care, so far from me,
but I must wait til you are free.
To come and live and touch and care.
This must be my cross to bear.
So don't forget, nor will I,
Cross my heart and hope to die.
Until then my heart will heave,
but when you stay, you'll never leave.

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Thursdays and late nights.
Current mood: accomplished

While I sit here on this Thursday night,
I think of you and my heart is in flight.
When I think of the things that we do,
There is nothing I'd take over you. 
In the car, in the seats where we sat,
You love me to death, and I thank God for that.

Why you love me, I don't know why,
but when you kiss me, I swear I can fly.
Under the covers where you hold me dear,
take me away from all that I fear.
When I see you, you steal my breath,
You will always know, I love you to death.

I'd never leave you, I love so much.
Please never leave me, you are my crutch.
Keeping me stable and strong in this world,
I love you so much, you are my girl.
When I think of the things we've been through,
in the end I would die without you.

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Moments
Current mood: loved

In the car, your hand I hold.

To keep us from getting cold.

Your head on me, my head on you

God knows that I love you.

Though in silence we stay,

We both know, we don't say.

We don't need to say anything,

Because we already know everything.

When we lay, still in my bed.

So many thoughts pass through our heads.

As we lay, no secret we don't know

As we hold, our emotions flow.

Under the covers we hug and kiss

You are my world, my eternal bliss.

Those moments we have, the moments we treasure.

When you are there, they last forever.

When we have to finally part,

Everyday you have more of my heart.

In these things that memories be,

You make up the best for me.

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Sign on my heart
Current mood: calm

When we spoke, I felt very shy,
You were so great, you must have a guy,
When you didn't I smiled in glee,
And then I thought, maybe it'll be me,
Soon we started talking, and we formed a trust,
Now this me may become an us,
If you care for me, be up front and true,
For now we are one, soon we may be two,
From us, no secret be kept,
So no tears by us may be wept,
If you care for me and I care for you,
Sign on my heart every: I love you

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